Description: My version of how Joey and Pacey reconnect.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story and Peter.
Authors Note: If you read, I'll write.
Love Letters:
Chapter #2
(Joey's Letter)
Merry Christmas to you as well, Pacey Witter. It's probably for the best that we missed one another on Thanks Giving. My boyfriend Peter was with me and yes that would have been an awkward encounter. Especially considering how I never mentioned my relationship with you to him. At the time, I didn't think it was necessary. Wasn't as though I'd planned to introduce the two of you anytime soon. Turns out that I probably should have mentioned you to him. Know that letter that you mentioned writing me a few years back? For the record, no I did not rip it up or burn it. I'd simply placed it in my yearbook unopened to read at a later date. Sort of forgot it was even in there to be honest.
Looking back, I probably should have torn it to pieces. That letter contributed to my recent break up with Peter. We were lying in bed going through my yearbook when he came across it. In case you forgot what you wrote to me in it? Here is a refresher course for you Witter: Joey, first of all let me apologize and explain myself. That night at Prom had nothing to do with you. I'd been feeling insecure about where I stood with you in our relationship. All those hurtful words that I slung at you, I never should have said them. Seeing you happy and dancing with Dawson...every single uncertainty that I bottled up came boiling to the surface.
Joey, please believe me that I never meant to hurt you let alone make you cry. Please believe me when I tell you the last thing I ever wanted to do was break your heart. I'm not expecting this letter to make any sort of a difference. Truth is I only wanted to explain my train of thought that night. Nothing I can say will change the heart ache I know that I caused you. If you never spoke to me again, I would completely understand. Despite all that I said that night? I still love you and never stopped. Letting my wounded pride and ego get in the way of our happiness together is by far the stupidest thing I ever could have done.
At the end of the day, all I want is for you to be happy Potter. Even...even if it's not with me. While I know now the pain of my hurtful words that night are still fresh on your heart, it's my hope one day you will be able to forgive me. While I know there is zero chance of the two of us ever getting back together, maybe someday you will find it in your heart to want to be friends again? I'll always love you, Joey. Please don't let my worst mistake ever ruin our life long friendship.
Sincerely sorry, Love,
Pacey J. Witter
That unread letter from you cost me a relationship. Guess it's not completely your fault. Had I only read the letter when I'd gotten it two years ago, I'd have never left it in my yearbook of all places. Unfortunately, at the time ,I hadn't anticipated having to explain its contents to anyone. Peter and I had been lying in bed about two weeks ago flipping through my old yearbook. Sure enough your letter slipped out. Before I ever had a chance to snatch it from Peter's hands, he'd opened and read the contents of your letter. That is when I had become bombarded with questions about you. He wanted to know who you were, why I had never mentioned you to him once and whether or not I was still in love with you. Not being able to answer the last question is what ended our relationship.
What was I supposed to do? Feelings like what I once held for you never fully go away. This is exactly what I told him. Apparently that was not the response Peter had been looking for at all. Needless to say we got into this huge argument and before I ever knew what hit me, Peter ended things. I've been a teary eyed wreck ever since. Much as I would love to blame yet another failed relationship on you, I'm not going to. I'm tired of fighting and the awkward tension that fills the room when one of us shows up to a holiday event.
Much as I hate to agree with you, I think it is time to gradually rebuild our friendship Pacey. Despite how things ended between the two of us, we should have cleared the air long ago. I'm willing to move past our horrible and messy break up if you are. Last thing I would ever want to do is let our life long friendship disintegrate into nothing. Maybe the two of us could go out for drinks while we're in Capeside for Christmas? Catch up just the two of us? Might be nice. I'll see you in a few weeks, Witter.
Yours,
Joey L. Potter