A/N: I am so grateful to everyone that took the time to review the first chapter! I seriously wasn't expecting as many as I got, and for people to be excited by the story! I am very happy, thank you again. I now have the pressure of keeping the story good now haha. Hope you enjoy this next chapter. Again please just go with the flow, and as always review telling me your thoughts!
Chapter 2: Confrontation
Truth be told, Harvey has enjoyed his long weekend very much. He has never taken time off of work to spend with a woman. This was a first. Also a first of making this woman his wife. He has barely thought of the redhead sitting in the office next to his, how she kissed him causing him to spiral into self-hatred and confusion.
That was until Monday morning came around, and it was time for him to go back to work. He had been in a bubble these past six days with Paula, and he felt different. But now, he worried about walking through those firm doors and nothing having changed there. If Harvey was honest with himself, which was rare, he was terrified of seeing Donna.
Harvey had given up on sleep just after 5am when he slipped out of bed and went into the kitchen to make a coffee, his mind was trying to figure out how he was to approach his day. With his 'family' as he so often called them, how would he explain the reasons for his marriage. He thought back to his days with Paula. She had asked him if he had told his 'colleagues'. Harvey knew who she meant by 'colleagues', she was not daft, she knew all about his relationship with Donna. Except for that kiss. He had told her of course he had told them, and that they all sent their congratulations. She hadn't pressed it any further. Harvey was glad, he genuinely wanted to make this work with Paula, and he didn't want to see her hurt.
Still. Donna was now on his mind. She may have been the only person from work to not send a text to congratulate him. He can't pretend that he doesn't understand. Mike had tried calling a few times but Harvey let it ring to voicemail each time. He told himself it is because he wants to talk in person. So he sent a light-hearted text telling him to quit harassing him when he's on his mini honeymoon.
Harvey was thinking about going on a run just as Paula appeared in the door, looking very sleepy.
"Hey, I'm sorry if I woke you. I just wanted to get an early start before my first day back", Harvey says.
"How do you feel about going back?", She asks.
"Good. You know I love what I do".
"Are you nervous about seeing everyone? You know after springing this upon them", she smiles, lifting her left hand up which sports her wedding ring.
"Nervous? No, not that, just looking forwards to telling them all abou-"
"How about seeing Donna?", she asks before he can finish.
Harvey tries not to react with his face, but he is afraid that she can see right through him.
"Why would I be worried about seeing Donna?", he asks. But he knows that's exactly what he is worried about.
"Well you're close friends, do you think she will be disappointed that she didn't know you were doing this?"
"Maybe. I'm sure she will be happy for us though", Harvey feels nervous under Paula's gaze
"Has she not got into contact?", she asks pointedly.
"Oh. Of course she has", it's a lie.
"I just mean in person, she will be happy as well", another lie.
Paula eyes him carefully, then allows a small smile to spread on her face. Harvey thinks she is going to drop the subject now, thankfully. He walks forwards until he's facing her and catches her lips in a quick kiss.
"Now, I'm going to go on a quick run, and you can go back to bed for a while", Harvey smiles.
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Donna has had better mornings. Hell, she has had better weeks. Going from the kiss, rediscovering her feelings, Harvey leaving and getting married, to now him returning and her having to act like everything is okay.
After Louis broke the news to her last week, Donna was numb. She can't even remember how she got Louis to leave her alone, but she felt like she might've thrown up.
Eventually after a couple sleepless nights and awful days at the office, Rachel convinced her, well you could say forced, to go out for some drinks. Donna stayed composed during drinks one to three, talking about everything and anything that wasn't Harvey Specter. But after drink number four when Rachel looked her in the eye and truly asked how she was, she started to cry.
She hated it. She hated how broken she was. She hated the looks of pity Rachel was giving her as she tried to comfort her. She hated that she couldn't even use the excuse of being drunk, for why the tears wouldn't stop falling because this is what had happened every single night since she found out. Most of all, she hated that she didn't even feel like herself anymore.
Now, she has to face him, has to see a ring sitting on his left hand. How on Earth is she to cope.
When Harvey arrives at the firm, he walks straight into his office. Only to see Louis, Mike and Rachel already in there. There is a bottle of champagne laid out on a standing table with a banner saying 'Congratulations' hanging on the edge.
"Congratulations!", they shout in unison.
Harvey smiles and lets out a chuckle, "thank you guys".
"Well since you never told us, so we couldn't throw you a real celebration, or even share it with you. This will have to do", Mike says, and Harvey chooses to ignore his questioning gaze.
"What can I say, spur of the moment thing", Harvey shrugs.
"How romantic", Rachel adds, the hint of sarcasm doesn't go unnoticed by anyone in the room, as a brief silence falls upon them all.
Harvey stares at Rachel, seeking answers. He wishes he could ask about her. Breaking his gaze with Rachel, whilst the men open up the champagne, Mike says "one won't hurt this early in the day".
Harvey is grateful for Mike and Louis doing this, it makes coming back easier. He has only been gone for six days, but it feels like forever. A lot has changed in his life, including this, because she's not there. Well, she is there, but not with him, not anymore. He is still coming to terms with the anger he feels at Donna, for what she did.
After everyone finishes their drinks, they leave Harvey to catch up on work. But Mike is quick to pop back in.
"Hey, do you want to grab a drink just the two of us later?", Mike asks.
"That would be nice Mike, but not tonight. Maybe tomorrow is better. Think I should get home at a semi-reasonable time on my first day back at work", Harvey breathes out a laugh.
"Yeah, get back to the wife", Mike smiles and Harvey knows him well enough to know that he is testing the waters.
Harvey's stomach does a unsettled churn as the reference to Paula as his 'wife'. In truth Mike had wanted to see Harvey's reaction, and he got what he needed by seeing the unreadable expression flash across his face. Harvey just smiles and nods. Mike leaves him be, for now.
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It's hours into the day later when Donna finds herself doing some copies in the file room. Up until now she had successfully avoided seeing Harvey, even though she knew it was inevitable that they would run into each other at some point. She was his COO. She knows they had a small congratulations meeting this morning, but Donna had politely declined. For obvious reasons.
When she hears someone approaching her, she doesn't even have to look up to know its him. Her stomach is in knots, but she focuses on keeping her composure and continuing her task.
"Hey", Harvey says, he is standing a few feet away from her.
"Harvey", she replies, not looking up at him.
"Nice of you to join us this morning", he says bitterly.
That's when she snaps her head up to look at him. Her eyes scan his face, and eventually she eyes his left hand, seeing the gold band on his fourth finger.
"I'm not doing this now Harvey", she says.
"No text neither?", he pushes.
She begins to collect all of her papers up, puts them into a pile, and firmly states "not now, Harvey", before walking out. He doesn't follow. He never does.
Donna tries to get her breathing in control as she walks down the hallways of the firm, desperate to get into the safety of her own office. Seeing Harvey's face, and that goddamn ring, was a slap in the face. Plus the fact that the two of them can't have an adult conversation about everything that has happened between them. She feels so infuriated.
All she needs to do now, is to sit for a while and gather her thoughts. She needs to calm down. However, after another hour has passed, Donna has done nothing more than get herself worked up. She can't ignore it any longer, so she pushes herself up from her desk, and walks with purpose over to Harvey's office.
Harvey hears her before he sees her. Everyone is starting to go home now, as it nears 8pm. And he knows them heels. Before he knows it, Donna is walking into his office.
"I thought you didn't want to speak about this?", Harvey quips with annoyance.
"Oh no. I said I didn't want to do this then. But then is not now, and we are having this conversation right now", Donna all but shouts and she can feel her hands shaking.
"What do you want me to say Donna?", Harvey shrugs, standing up so he can face her.
"Why can't you just address things directly Harvey? We are meant to be adults, who can have a conversation!", frustration is evident in Donna's tone.
"Fine. You kissed me, and it was the most selfish thing you've ever done", Harvey spits.
Taken aback by his harsh tone, Donna gapes at him, "Selfish? You mean I actually put myself above you for once?".
"Why did you do it Donna?"
"I told you, I had to know", she states folding her arms over her chest.
"Know what?", Harvey almost laughs as he flails his arms out. He adds, "Our lines have been perfectly clear for a long time, we're friends!".
"Harvey, our lines are as blurry as lines can get", Donna deadpans, she can feel the prickling of tears in her eyes.
Harvey remains silent for a moment. He feels himself getting more irritated at her words, just because they flirt, it does not give her the right to kiss him.
"Well, you know what. You made me into the one thing I never wanted to be", Harvey speaks, he can feel the pain and guilt resurfacing as they stare into each other's eyes.
Donna sighs and pinches the bridge of her nose, she can feel the tears forming in her eyes. "Harvey, listen I kissed you, yes. But you didn't do anything". Donna feels a sense of guilt at this.
Whilst Harvey hears her words, the guilt is embedded in him. He knows the potential that he could've done, if she wasn't the one to break the kiss. That is what is haunting him. Rather than voice this to the woman in front of him, he continues with the blame game.
"Well it doesn't feel like that. I had to lie to Paula about all this".
"No you didn't Harvey. If it didn't affect you, you need to tell her. Now you're married", Donna's emphasis on 'married', fuels Harvey on.
"Yes married Donna. I had to do goddamn something!", he shouts.
"You didn't have to marry her Harvey!", Donna's voice breaks, and a single tear falls from her eye. This is the first moment that they both fall silent and just stare at one another. Hearing her say this strikes deep within Harvey, she has always been his compass. Now he questions that.
"Donna-"
"No!", Donna cuts him off before he can say anymore. "If we're the friends that you say we are. I can tell you this. As a friend. I am only going to say it once".
Donna purses her lips together. "I think you've made a terrible mistake marrying Paula". She decides that this is the point where she should leave. So she turns on her heel and makes her way to the door.
"Yeah? Well, as far as I'm concerned Donna. Your judgement sucks", Harvey spits.
Donna comes to a halt at his words. She considers turning around, but she's can't do it. Not tonight. Too much has already been said. So she wipes the fallen tears from her eyes, and walks out of Harvey's office, without a look back.
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