Jared's Point Of View
I was awaken by the sounds of her screams. I jolted awake and saw her sitting up screaming for it to stop. Tears ran down her checks and blood ran down her hands. She was clenching her fists so hard her nails dug into her skin and I hardly thought she noticed. All she could do was scream. I jumped into action as fast as I could but all I received was slaps and her pushing me away with all her strength.
"Kim! It is me, Jared! Baby its me!" I begged for her to snap out of it. She slowly stopped and just froze staring ahead into nothingness.
"You, the sheets, the wind, my tears, your cologne." She repeated before her eyes found mine. I kneeled in front of her while she sat on the edge of the bed. I slowly got up and got her some bandages for her hands. I kneeled at the bed again and held my hand out for her to take. She slowly took it and I breathed out a sigh of relief.
"Kim…" I started to whisper.
"I'll be okay. Don't worry." She said with no emotion. My heart fell and I felt sick.
"Kim. Its okay to not be okay right now." I said cleaning the blood off of her hands.
"No, I have to be okay or else…" She started to trail off staring into nothingness again. I looked up and took a breath in order to keep the tears from falling.
"Or else?" I asked continuing to hold the water in my eyes.
"Or else they win. And if they win, I don't know who I am." She choked out. All reserve I had in that moment broke. I wasn't the one they attacked but yet I was on my knees sobbing with everything I had. They hurt my imprint, they hurt my soulmate, and they hurt my best friend. And I hated them with every fiber in my body. I wanted to rip them apart piece by piece and yet I couldn't because she asked me not to.
"Jared?" I heard her voice call me back to her. My eyes met hers.
"I want to kill them." I growled. Her face broke down too as she cried. I kept wiping her tears off her face as mine fell freely to the ground.
"I do too." She sobbed. I was shocked that she admitted this. It fueled my hatred even further than before.
"Let me Kim." I begged. Her eyes found mine and held my soul. She squeezed my hands so hard that had I not been a wolf, it would have hurt.
"No. They have taken enough from me. From us. From this pack no. They will not take us ever again. They will not win." She said with power in her voice.
"Kim, I don't give a fuck what could be lost. I am already lost! Two weeks ago Collin and Sam stopped me from putting a gun to my fucking head! These men have hurt you! I wasn't there to stop it and I hate myself for it! Let me be here now! Let me do this!" I yelled tearing away from her and standing in front of the window.
"You what!" She yelled standing up right in front of me. She was feet shorter than me and yet in that moment I felt smaller than her. Tears ran down both of our faces as we stood there for minutes breathing heavily staring at each other.
"I got drunk and felt pointless! Like it was all my fault! That I couldn't protect you! I am supposed to protect you! And now you spend your nights screaming in your sleep! You haven't smiled in months! You can't be touched and I don't know how to fix any of this! I don't know how to help you! I feel like I've failed you!" I fell to my knees in front of her small frame. She slowly approached me kneeling in front of me.
"You are the only thing holding me here." She whispered wiping the tears from my face. I held her hand against my face.
"I am so sorry Kim. I am so sorry for considering that." I broke down. She kept caressing my face as I broke down.
"Oblivion sounds good but I couldn't face it knowing that we will overcome this." She whimpered.
"We will overcome this?" I asked. She smiled as me softly. Such a small smile that I was pretty sure I had imagined it.
"Slowly. Very slowly, I will come back to you." She whispered.
"I love you." It was instinct for me to say. But never in my life had anything been so clear. I loved her and I would do whatever it took to bring her back to me. To hear her laugh instead of scream. To once again hold her in my arms and hear her heart flutter.
Her lips slowly found mine and in that moment oblivion melted away.