I would like to thank those that chose to read past the prologue , i would also like to apologize for my lack of penmanship skillls, i am a good story teller , ive watched enough tv shows to be an expert just not vèry good at putting it on paper. i actually wrote the first 3 chapters a week ago so any similar dialect between my story and 7x15 is purely coincidental. i guess great minds think alike. hope you guys enjoy.

Kim dragged herself out of the bed, someone had been knocking on her door for the last 5 minutes. She ached all over, her heart was breaking and she had suffered a monumental loss. She didn't want to breathe right now but the noise was hurting her head to much.

'I'm coming, I'm coming' she said as she shuffled to the door. She looked through the spy hole and groaned. She knew he'd be over she just hoped he didn't remember, it was Adam, of course he remembered.

She opened the door and walked back towards her bed, jumping back in and pulling the covers over her head.

"Got you some coffee darling' Adam called from behind her as he entered her room.

'Adam you don't have to check up on me, I'm a grown woman, I can take care of myself'

Adam sat down on the bed next to her.

'Kim, I know you don't need me, I want to be here, you and I we were both in this together so whatever you need right now I'm your guy'

'Your right we were in this together, now it's no more, I had a miscarriage Adam so no more baby which means you don't need to step on egg shells around me.'

Adam rubbed his face and placed the coffees on the side. ' it was my baby too Kim, as much as I know you rather it wasn't, i hate that prick for what he did to you and what he did to our baby'

Kim sat up and tear started streaming her face. ' Adam, it was my fault, I went in without backup, I killed our baby'

she covered her face and Adam turned to her, took her hand and cupped her face with the other hand

"no Kim it wasn't, you were doing your job, a job that you love and are brilliant at. We were unlucky and to be honest as sad as I am we lost the baby I am grateful that he didn't kill you, that would have killed me. I love you Kim and I think you know that. I always have, we always find our way back to each other. I'll wait for you Kim, but I'm not going anywhere, you know we are both not the people we were 5 years ago. I want an us.' He leaned forward and kissed her head

'now I'm gonna go wait in the other room why you get ready for work and then I'm driving you and you ain't gonna argue about it' he stroked her face as he got up but she grabbed his hand. 'I love you too Adam, I just need time' he turned to smile and said it know darling, I know and I'll be here when your ready' he left the room and for the first time in a while Kim finally felt a bit clearer.

When they pulled up at work Adam saw jay and Kev talking to someone with severide. '

"I wonder what's going on, why's kelly here?' Kim Questioned.

'Not sure, wonder who's that with him' Adam said

They exited the car and the group looked towards them. Adam noticed who was with severide. He groaned causing Kim to look at him and then look over at the group.

'oh great' she whispered

' ruzek, Kim' Sean Roman nodded

' roman' Adam replied with a stiff undertone.

'Sean, what are you doing here?' Kim asked him adjusting her bag uncomfortably.

'I'm here looking for my sister, she's gone off the rails and was connected to a fire severide dealt with.'

'Oh is she okay?'

' I hope so'

Jay and kev excused themselves and kelly left promising to let Sean know when he had more news.

'Kim can we talk real quick' he was staring at her intensely much to Adams annoyance.

'Sure' Kim answered curiously. Adam continued to stand close to Kim.

'Privately' Roman asked staring at Adam.

Adam gave him a fake smile and then kissed Kim's forehead

'I'll see you inside, Give me your bag I'll take it for ya' she handed it over to him and smiled and then watched as he walked towards the district. She turned back to Roman

'what do you want Sean?'

'Just wanted to see if you wanted to come by mollys tonight, you know catch up?'

'I don't think that's a good idea'

'Cmon Kim, we were partners for 2 years, I just wanna catch up' he lifted his arm to touch her shoulder and she flinched stepping backwards.

'Sorry Sean but now is not a good time, thanks for stopping by, see ya' she turned and walked towards the station.

'Is this because of Adam' Sean shouted behind her?

She saw red, her and Adam may not be on the same path right now but no one especially Sean was gonna bad mouth him. She turned on her heel and marched back towards him.

'This has absolutely nothing to do with Adam, I don't want to go out for a drink with you, you left, I stayed, my life has moved on Sean, I don't need you dragging up the past'

Roman raised his hands in defence ' woah, you've changed'

'Havent we all?' She quipped Just as the rest of the team came out barging our of the door.

'Kim cmon, we've caught a case' hailey shouted. 'Roman you jump in with me, I think this is related to your sister' voight shouted from his car.

It was almost lunchtime by the time they got back to the district, voight had insisted Kim rode with Atwater today and and ruzek went with rojas. Kim was thankful for the change, she liked rojas but Kevin knew her better than most and gave her the space she needed. Her and Kev walked into intelligence to see Roman still there. Kim groaned thinking this was the last thing she needed. He started to make his way towards her, she quickly turned the other way and saw Adam who was waving a paper bag in her face after buying her lunch, she took it and smiled at him.

'Bro wheres mine' Kevin asked. 'Still in the shop' ruzek replied. They both started lightly punching each other before voight got thier attention to do a run down of the facts.

A little while later voight had sent Kim out with Roman to do some surveillance and they were sitting on a house. They'd sat in silence for about half an hour

'Kim What is going on with you, the whole team is walking on egg shells around you, ruzek especially'

She kept looking forward, 'I don't want to talk about it, I'm only here to help you find your sister, I know what it is like to not know'

"I appreciate that Kim, I really do, but somethings going on with you and I wanna know what'

'I told you I'm not discussing it'

'We used to talk about this stuff'

'Exactly used to, not anymore'. They both fell silent.

Atwater and ruzek were on surveillance just on the other side of Kim and Roman. Adam was trying to see what what going In the car but couldn't see properly.

'Yo,dawg what's going on with you and Kim, you guys been yo-yo ing so long I can't keep

Up anymore'

'Ah man, I told her how I feel, the ball is in her court now. She said she wants time so that's what I'm giving her, I'll be damned if Sean Roman gets his claws into her again though'

'Dude you guys went through something traumatic, how are you doing, we know burgess will bounce back, she's one strong ass woman but it was your baby too'

'I know man, thanks. Of course I'm Bummed about it, he or she was a perfect creation of me and Kim, but I'm just soo grateful that the perp didn't kill her, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I gotta be there for Kim. And besides if I get my way there could be more little ruzeks running around'

'Okay bro, anything you guys need, you let me know' they pumped fists and then carried on with their surveillance.

Finally the case was finished it was past 9, but Kim decided she didn't wanna go to mollys, Adam dropped her home with promise of stopping by on their day off tomorrow. She said he didn't have to but he insisted. Adam arrived at the penny and went straight to sit next to Atwater. Across the bar Roman was sitting with rojas and jay. hailey brought them some beers over and then joined Adam and Kevin.

'Guys I'm getting some weird vibes off ruzek'

'Dude can you blame him, you made his fiancé ditch him and then stole her for yourself'

'Hey that's not how it went down, I helped her see the light and then she wanted me' he took a swig of the beer and then looked over at ruzek.

'What's the deal, is Kim single then at the moment'

'Yeah as far as I know, but I'd leave her be man' jay said swigging his beer.

'Guys am I missing something, what happened to Kim, I come here, she's completely changed, everyone is walking on eggshells around her, what's happened to her?'

Roman slammed his beer on the table causing ruzek to look over briefly.

Jay put his beer down

'look I'm gonna tell you this but only because your her ex partner and then you might leave it alone, Kim had a miscarriage..' jay paused surprised at the shocked look on Romans face 'she got caught up on a case with a girl who was missing, you know Kim, the suspect beat her up badly and she didn't have any backup. Worse bit was she wasn't suppose be there, she had transferred to the call centre for light duty but got involved in the case.' Jay picked up his beer again.

'I dont... what... what happened to the suspect? He's dead right? Who was the father?' Sean couldn't believe it.

'Suspect is dead, Kim managed to shoot him' Sean downed his beer grabbed his jacket and left.

Kim was just sitting on the couch watching some tv, horror in fact, she couldn't bring her self to watch any Rom coms or comedy's. Adam had text her to make sure she was okay, she assured him she was. She had just sat back down with her wine when someone knocked on the door. Adam again she thought. She opened the door 'Adam I told you I'm...' stopping mid sentence when she realised who it was.

'Hi'