Chapter two You're Mine
After his amazing date with Lara Jean he had hoped that he could speed his saturday with her.
Saturdays were mostly spent with Lara Jean or lacrosse practice but today Lara Jean was at some Korean New Year and lacrosse practice was cancelled.
So that meant Peter was left catching up on homework which had missed out on during the week.
Peter still got tutored by Lara Jean as she was keen for them to keep that part of the arrangement up but with practice getting tense due to the start of actual lacrosse games , Peter did find time to actually study.
As he opens his MacBook, he immediately was met by a message from Greg.
Peter couldn't help but smile as he saw the email from his best friend.
Pete!!!!!!
Dawg I am sorry it's taken me a month to get back to you but I only got computer privileges now. How lame.
How are you man?
How's Trevor? I heard him and Pam-pam broke up. What did he do.
How's Largie! Man I miss her cookies man, shit is not the same here as it is back home. Talking about cookies and Largie ;)
And damn it is colder here than back home.
I miss you man.
I wish I didn't screw things up.
-G
Peter can't help but smile as he knows Greg is not one to easily express himself but he appreciates the fact that he at least admitting to missing him.
Peter still remembers the moment when Greg told Trevor and him that he was being sent to school in london.
They were at Greg's house in the pool house playing video games when he made the announcement. It had been a week or so after he had told Lara Jean that he loves her.
"What?" Trevor had said in utter disbelief.
Peter just frowned.
He was in shock.
The last time he felt like this was when Lara Jean had told him that she wanted nothing to do with him.
"G man," Pete tried, "What happened?"
Greg had sat down in front of the TV and sighed looking at his friend, "My mom and dad had gone with to Asthons's out of state basketball games." Greg shrugged, "Audrey and I threw a party for her college friends."
"Oh shit." Trevor sighed holding his head with his hands.
"They were meant to be gone the whole weekend." Greg said, "We were hosting a whole bunch of people in the house."
"They came back early didn't they?"
"Yeah." Greg nodded as he sighs, "Georgina was in the house."
"Shit Greg." Peter had said at the same time Trevor mummers, "Jesus."
Peter knew that Gregs parents were very protective over the twins. Mr and Mrs Stienfeild loved all their children but it was a known fact that the twins were the least likely to become screw ups.
Audrey had already screwed being the eldest by coming out as gay in a very Christian family.
Worst of all Gregs grades had been slipping so badly that he was close to being kicked off the team, not even the Lara Jean tutor charm could work on him.
"They walked in and saw my sister rolling a blunt."
"Damn and they are already not happy with her." Peter said.
"Not Audrey bro," Greg sighed, "Audrey was caught making out with some chick. My dad caught Georgie rolling the joint."
Peter was quiet whereas Trevors gaping mouth spoke more volumes.
"My dad has some rich contact in Kensington." Greg had said trying to sound chipper, "The school doesn't look too bad. They even have a lacrosse team."
Greg has always been an optimist. This Peter knew.
It was one of the reasons why their friendship had flowed from the day they met each other. It was also one of the biggest reasons why many people easily liked him. He was just a happy guy.
But even through the tight smiles of talking about moving to Kensington, Peter could see that his best friend was crying on the inside.
But he knew they would never discuss his feelings.
And Peter wanted some badly to break all of that and break down in front of his best friend and declare to him that he would miss him the most.
Trevor then said, "Hold on. You said you hosted the party for your sisters friends." He raised an eyebrow, "I get the weed part but surely if your sister was the host, why are you getting shipped away."
Greg sighs again. Peter could see that this was something that was weighing heavy on him.
"I told my parents it was my party," Greg said simply, "My parents have been up Audreys ass since she came out. If they knew this was her party and her friends and that she bought the weed, she would have been pulled out of school and completely cut off."
And that was another thing, as much as Greg was Peter's Best friend his sister was his. Greg would do anything for Audrey.
"She tried to talk to my parents and tell them but I stopped her of course," Greg said, "In the end it's better this way. I still get an education and Audrey can stay in school."
"You just loose your bros." Trevor says simply and sadly.
"I just lose my bros." Greg shrugged and went back to playing the game.
Peter shakes his head after a ping goes off on his phone and he is snapped back to reality.
It's a Instagram post from Lara Jean.
Peter opens it and its a picture of Lara Jean and Kitty in what looks like a Korean item of clothing. Peter remembered Lara Jean talking about getting her hanbok out for the Korean holiday.
The caption read "happy Korean New Year everyone"
And Peter smiles as he saw kitty's comment pop up immediately after Lara Jean had posted it .
"I hope Peter thinks you look sexy in this because next year he's wearing the baji" she posted with a bunch of laughing faces.
Peter was not sure what a Baji was but he made a mental note to remember to ask Lara Jean.
Lara Jean and Peter has always tried to maintain the fact that they are from different cultures. And though Peter's family hardly celebrated their Italian side, Lara Jean would still ask questions about his family and their traditions.
In turn Lara Jean would do the same.
Especially with the food associated to her culture.
One night Dr Covey had been working late and Kitty was at a sleepover, Lara Jean was teaching him how to make Hotteok.
"A what?" Peter recalls how he had frowned at her as she laughed and places the ingredients onto the counter .
"It's like a pancake," Lara Jean explains as she poured the flour in a measuring cup, "but it has almost like a nutty syrup on the inside."
"So better than a pancake." Peter grins at her.
"I guess," Lara Jean smiles and then she hands him a wooden rolling pin, "Wanna crush some nuts."
Peter takes the pin from her and watched as she wraps about a handful of walnuts in a dish cloth. She then places it on the counter.
"Ok now roll." She smiles at him as he easily begins to rolls the nuts out happy to do something that makes his girlfriend happy.
"What makes this dish so special anyway?" Peter had asked.
"It's very popular where my family is originally from." Lara Jean as she began working with the dry ingredients, "Not that I would know."
Peter stops rolling and looks at her, "Seoul right?"
"What?" Lara Jean says as she measures the sugar.
"That's where your family is from." Peter said, "Seoul."
Lara Jean stops and smiles at him, "Yes very good."
"I googled it," Peter continues rolling, "I hope I can see it one day."
Lara Jean smiles even wider, "Me too."
Peter smiles at Kitty's comment and the post and decides to comment:
"not sure what that is but I am so ready for anything. And yes I do think my girlfriend looks sexy."
Peter then back spaces as he thinks about how it could be perceived and since the hot tub stint, Lara Jean had been trying to be a little nervous about shit that would go online.
So Peter just settles for heart faces along with a string of smile emojis.
Peter then looks back at his screen at Greg's letter and since he is finding difficult to respond to a comment to his girlfriends post he decides to email his friend back.
G!!!
Computer privileges? Really? What is this Hogwarts? (Peter made a mental note to make sure he would tell Lara Jean of his Hogwarts joke as she is a big fan of the wizard kid that Peter could never get)
Yeah shit has really not been the same since you left. Trevor and Pam did break up but the jury is still out on that one. Word on the street is that your boy got drunk and did something or rather someone who ain't Pam.
I haven't seen Pam around much. She quit Coveys extra class so she hasn't seen her either.
Trev doesn't want to talk about it either.
In fact I kind of feel like he's moved on. But I am not sure with who.
Covey is good. She is always baking but you know that already. And I got your stupid cookie joke. You know Covey isn't like that man.
And before you make jokes about just be careful what that mouth of yours says about her. (Peter backspaces this sentence before retyping)
I know you gonna talk a whole bunch of shit about this. Spare me homie.
I'll tell you though G, I am so serious about her. (Peter back spaces on this. He knows this Peter surely, Peter thinks.
I don't know what it is but everything is different with her.
Like I said shit is not the same without you.
It's not easy not having someone to talk and laugh through my shit…(Peter back spaces that sentence)
You better come visit soon.
Chat later.
PK.
Peter looks at his email and then sends it immediately.
He then goes back to trying to do maths.
Later that evening as he is packing the dishwasher his mother comes up to him.
"You ok honey?" Dana asks, "You seemed a little distracted at dinner?"
"I'm fine." Peter says and continues to pack the dishwasher, "Just a little tired."
"You've been doing homework all day." Dana acknowledges, "Maybe you should hang out with Owen tomorrow. Or call up Trevor to come over or something."
"I don't know I might be seeing Lara Jean tomorrow." Peter does not miss the flicker in his mother eye when he says this. She quickly shifts to a very forced smile, "You know mom if you just said what you really saying you could spare yourself the pain that you make that fake smile."
"What fake smile?"
Peter rolls his eyes and looks at his mom with that 'come on' look.
"Fine," Dana huffs, "I'm your mother and I think we should probably actually sit and talk a little."
"Well I'm busy now so can we multitask?" He grins at his mom who just scolds him.
"No!" She says and grabs his arm to the breakfast table, "Sit!"
"Ok ok I'm sitting." Peter chuckles. His mom looks at her fingers before looking at him but still seems a loss for words, "Mom what's wrong?"
"Well where to begin?" Peters mom was generally very confident. In fact at times Peter used to find himself comparing Gen and his mother as the same in terms of personality. The world can see you confident but Peter could see the real picture.
"How about the beginning?" Peter says to ease her.
"Well it kind of bothered me the way you reacted the other day to the whole sex inquiry that was that turned out to be not an inquiry and-"
"Mom stop!" Peters faces flushed red as much as hers did, "I am not having a sex talk with you."
"Why?"
"Well because you're my mother." Peter said mortified.
"That shouldn't mean you can't talk to me." Dana defended, "If not me who are you going to speak to."
"Mom I'm seventeen years old I think I've got it covered." Peter said trying to not feel flushed at this conversation at all.
"Peter we live in a society where as your parent I'm obligated to remind you of your responsibility when it comes to having sex." Dana said and just as Peter was about to interrupt her she says, "I am just as mortified by this conversation as much as you are."
"I doubt that." Peter grumbles.
"Believe you me I'd rather be sitting through catalogs right now than talking about this," Dana sighs, "But alas we are here."
When Peter does not respond she continues, "Before he left I asked your father to have the talk with you boys. Did he?"
Peter could not believe that his mother was forcing this conversation about sex but now was adding his cheating father to the mix.
"Mom seriously?"
"I'm not trying to talk about Grant," Dana came quickly to her own defense, "I'm just trying to gage if that conversation ever happened?"
Peter's father left about three years ago when he was about fourteen. He had naturally had questions about sex and girls and his own body but none of them could asked because his parents were constantly fighting.
Then when his father had announced the source of all the fighting both his parents became robots trying to move from point A to point B.
Grant tried to actually speak to Peter, not only about sex, but just talk. But Peter found his betrayal to raw and to real. So he disregarded him.
So most of his information then came from the internet and his friends, his really igornarant friends.
Trevor was not so bad but Greg was a little off until he broke his virginity on his sixteenth birthday. In fact, between the three of them Peter had actually been the last to have sex.
"You already know the answer to that." Peter says but quickly utters, "But I didn't need him!"
"But I need you!" His mother blinks, "You are almost an adult so having this conversation is important because what your father failed to do for you-you must not to do for your brother."
Owen! Of course. With Grant Kavinsky almost completely out of the picture the deed to have this highly cringeworthy conversation with his eleven year old brother would fall in him.
Peter wondered if this was the same in Lara Jeans house. Would she have to have this conversation with Kitty, who is the same age as Owen, soon.
Also how would that go if Lara Jean is still a virgin.
Peter brushes that thought off because he already knew how delicate she is about the subject of her virginity. Shockingly it is one of the things Peter loves about her. Her innocence so to speak.
With Gen it was always up in the air. It still is.
But he also then thought eventually that not only would his brother start asking questions, so would she. What happens if she wanted to talk to him about it and about his past sexual encounters (which secretly was just sitting on a list of two) and ask about where would they stand if they had sex.
Peter wanted to make sure, for his brother and his girlfriend, that he could make them feel comfortable when they spoke to them.
"Ok." Peter concedes, "What do you want to tell me."
Dana does not hide the fact that she is taken aback but continues, "You and Gen we're together for a long time," Dana says, "I am not going to pretend to be one of those parents who pretend that their child isn't sexually active." Peter heart is beating so fast and he is sure that he is face is beat red but he allows his mother to continue, "Judging from the look on your face I'm not wrong."
Dana sips more of her wine before continuing. Peter wished he could also get a drink.
"Peter I just want you to understand that as great as it is to have sex you-"
"You must be careful," Peter interrupts her and rolls his eyes, "Is this what you wanted to talk about. Mom don't worry, I know what a condom is."
"I'm well aware of what you may have learnt in health class," Dana says simply, "But that's not the kind of careful I was referring to." Peter frowns at her, "When I say be be careful and the responsibility that comes with sexual activity I mean understanding that consent is very important."
Peter looks at his mo intensely.
"Now I know I raised a gentleman and a good man," Dana says smiling, "But remember consent comes from talking before anything happens and understanding how she feels but more importantly how you feel too." Dana places her hand over Peter's, "Lara Jean is a very sweet girl but I'm hoping that you will take it seriously when I say talk before you rush into anything."
Peter felt like she was saying multiple things but decided rather to focus on the consent part.
Gen and him had hardly had a conversation before telling him she wanted him to have sex with her at Chris's mom's basement.
After that, Peter spent days asking her if she felt ok or if she was good because he felt guilty about the fact that he had a)wanted it to be special and b) wanted them to be comfortable with choice by conversation.
Knowing how guys are perceived when it came to sex made it worse because for weeks Greg and Trevor and the rest of the lacross team high fives him so that made him feel like more like a dick.
But Gen was fine and not long after their first time they were back to having sex regularly.
Lara Jean would be different.
He knows that.
Peter looks at his mom and says, "You did mom. I will never make a girl feel pressured. I promise."
Dana smiles and then squeezes his hand, "And no girl should make you feel pressured either."
"Lara Jean isn't like that." Peter says quickly.
"I know," Dana says, "But there will be other girls in the future?"
"What?" Peter pulls his hand away from her.
"I don't mean that you and Lara Jean are an awful couple," Dana says quickly, "She seems lovely. But honestly Peter your future is important and I want you to understand that I have been there where I feel like I have to stay with someone way past the expiration date."
What is with people bringing up end dates to relationships recently. First Lara Jean and now his mom.
"Expiration date!" Peter frowns and then scoffs, "Ok I don't want to fight with you but I'm going to tell you this. Lara Jean and I...I love her. I haven't felt like this in my life and I know she feels the same way"
Dana looks at her son for a moment before saying, "Ok." She then stands up and walks behind Peter to hug him, "I just want to make sure you are truly doing what's best for you and not settling."
"I'm not I promise." Peter says and then stands up and looks down at his mom, "Lara Jean is really good for me."
Dana smiles and takes her wine, "I'm going to do some paper work on?"
Peter watches as his mom leaves the kitchen. Peter continues to finish cleaning the kitchen when his phone buzzes.
He checks and sees messages from Trevor and other people. Coach sends a message to the lacrosse group text telling everyone that there is practice.
So much for hanging out with his girlfriend.
Peter opens the text from Trevor.
Practice on a SUBDay?
Peter frowns at Trevors spelling error. Trevor was hardly ever one to make spelling mistakes.
What?
Oh shit I mean Sunday?
Yeah I don't know what Coach is up to!
Coach immediately sends a private text to Peter saying:
Kavinsky! We are playing Claremont next week! Biggest threat and if we want to make it into the championship game we need to whip these cry babies into shape!!
The lacrosse team had officially entered into game season a week after Lara Jean and him had kissed and made up.
They had won three games and lost the one last week. This has kinda put a damper on the team and a damper on coach.
Most of the guys were consoled by the fact that their girlfriends were there wearing their numbers.
Lara Jean was not really into that vibe.
She's never said it out loud but Peter kind of picked that up when on his first game when she did not want to come and after that she continued like that for the rest of his games.
Peter wished it was her vibe though but he would never tell her that.
Gen used to be like that…
Peter sends a thumbs up to coach and then texts a message to the group text.
We are playing Claremont! We are practicing.
Then coach sends another message saying
Also I hope to see you all at this volunteer nonsense! Yes lacrosse looks good on a college application but you have to go the extra mile!! YOU ARE ALL SIGNING UP!
Peter thought at this stage he would never be hanging out with Lara Jean until Trevor texts him again.
Oakwood? Apparently they let you just pitch up and you don't have to do much? We could get all the guys in?
Peter then thought about it, this would be perfect! Maybe he could get Lara Jean to join Oakwood. She did mention that she wanted to volunteer this year for college applications.
Peter texts Trevor back:
I'm in ;)
Later that night Peter sinks into bed and looks at his phone.
It's 10 pm, Lara Jean should be home by now.
Peter calls Lara Jeans number and she picks up at the third ring.
"Oh Hey." She answers but sounds distracted and flustered.
"Hey," Peter frowns, "Is this a bad time?"
"No no no," Lara Jean says, "I was just…um, I just missed you."
Peter can't help but smile, "I missed you too Covey," Peter leans into bed, "How was Korean New Years?"
"Amazing!" She said, "I should bring you next time! You would love it. There's lots of great food. And I got money and oh yeah there's my cousin Haven who was pretty certain that you were cheating on me." She laughs.
"Wait what?"
Lara Jean goes onto explaining the conversation about with her cousin with complete content. Peter loves hearing her so animated, it meant that she was at least comfortable with him.
Don't get him wrong, she was comfortable with him when they were fake dating but in the beginning Peter feared that she puked act differently around because they were real.
And that did happen the first week but then I guess she kind of got over it. Don't get him wrong sometimes she did act shy but then she easily gets over it quickly.
"That video is still the bane of my exsitence." Lara Jean huffed, "Even in my family."
"That make out session was hot." Peter says trying to move away from it becoming negative.
Just because Lara Jean and Peter has decided to make their relationship real did not mean that she had gotten over the fact that someone had posted the video.
It also had not made it better because she kept accusing his ex girlfriend and Peter was trying to avoid this as there were things about that night that he had not thought about and did not want to think about.
"Hot make out sessions aside," Lara Jean says, "The video was still screen grabbed by people."
"Yeah but we still got us in all of this." Peter trues again.
Lara Jean is quiet for a moment and says, "And Haven said you were hot."
"Well what does my girlfriend think about that?" Peter asks in a flirtatious way.
"She thinks you're ok." Lara Jean giggles.
"That's ok," Peter chuckles, "He still loves her and he knows her sister probably backed her."
Lara Jean continues to giggle and then says, "Am I seeing you tomorrow?"
"Nope coach set up a practice tomorrow." peter says and realizes how he went from gearing up to the fact that they can beat Claremont to realizing that he would not be seeing Lara Jean tomorrow.
"Oh that's too bad." She sighs but then chirps up, "But on the bright side, you can make out for last weeks game. I know how much it bumped you out that you lost."
Even though Lara Jean had not come to the game, Peter had immediately after the game gone to the Coveys and chilled their for almost three hours. Kitty had cheered him up. And Lara Jean had even baked him some cookies.
After Kitty "disappeared" he was able to speak to her for hours about how losing had bumped him out.
"How do you find the positive in everything?" Peter smiles.
"I should ask you that." Lara Jean says and Peter could hear her smiling, "You make this life thing look comfortably and completely easy."
Peter scoffs which causes Lara Jean to giggle and say, "I'm serious. I wish I was as carefree as you. I overthink everything, well you know this."
"You don't realise it Covey," Peter says suddenly, "But I need someone in my life that overthinks because that means that there will always be someone there to keep me serious about this life thing." Peter knows she's smiling, "What's that thing you said in math-you said two positives would make a negative."
"Are you saying I'm a negative?"
"Hell no!" Peter laughs as she giggles, "You're definitely my positive."
"You're my positive too."
Authors note:
I keep forgetting to add disclaimer: I don't own anything.
Next chapter coming depending on reviews ;)
Can't wait to hear what you think of this chapter.