The Courage To Love Him
Chapter 4
A/N: I just love writing for you guys. Remember even though this is bases off of the movie Something New, I will be adding some of my own storyline into it and leaving some of the movie storylines out. So here's another chapter for you all. I hope you like.
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Harrison ignores her and follows his family. Harrison is embarrassed to say the lease so to get the heat off of him he catches up to him mom and says. "Mommy Olivia's dating a white guy." Liv turns and looks at her brother with a face of shock and some fear. Fear of what her mother will think of her. Her mother expected her to meet a successful black man marry and have children anything outside of that was unacceptable. "I had one blind date…and nothing came of it except I hired him as my landscaper." Maya smiles "Oh…she's landscaping." hitting Harrison on the shoulder as if she just heard a joke.
Harrison eyes express excitement "So it was him huh, see I knew it when I saw you staring at him." "Actually he's very nice and we having a really great time." Liv spits out before she could catch herself as she talks at Harrison with the death stare. Then Maya asks once she realizes what Liv said "You're having a great time landscaping?" Liv doesn't answer instead she storms ahead finding her seat as they sit to watch an African American stage play musical. Maya decides to let it go because she knows Liv will completely shut down and not talk to her for weeks and she wanted to be welcome to appear for Liv's homecoming. But it didn't stop her from side eyeing Liv every chance she got.
After the play they went to dinner at a high end restaurant but Liv remained quiet though out the dinner only using one word answers when asked a question. She teased over her food not having much of an appetite. Knowing she would be hungry later she stops and pick up Chinese hoping Fitz would still be there. Finally making it home she's happy to see Fitz truck still parked out front. So she goes inside putting down her purse placing the food on the counter and walks to the backyard. Fitz and Boom are outside. Fitz is spreading gravel and cement around the concrete slats that he's placing that creates a large flat stoned walkway. She opens the glass doors and steps out "Burning the midnight oil?"
He turns towards her voice still holding a large concrete slat as he smooths out the gravel underneath. "Hey there, I'm just trying to keep up with you." "Wow this is nice it's really coming along." Liv says walking a bit further out looking over the yard and how large and green it looks with grass and the stone path Fitz is laying the last stone down for. Boom stands and trots over towards Liv stopping in front of her when Fitz voices a command "Boom get over here." Liv hesitates but then says "It's okay." She then rubs his head a couple of times then stops, rubbing her hands together as to remove any dog hair. "Hmm." Liv said out loud but intended for it to be in her head surprised that she actually touch a dog without flinching. She suddenly turns walking back inside. "I'm starving." She say as she turns. "Want some takeout?" She yells from inside causing a surprise reaction from Fitz. "Ahhh sure." He stands and wipes his hand on his pants before removing his shoes. Liv watches as he instructs Boom to stay as he closes the doors.
"You can wash up in the bathroom down the hall on the left." She tells him as she sets out the food in her living area. Fitz returns and sits on the floor across from Liv on purpose so he can always look at her directly. "I have wine would you like some?" "Sure." Fitz responds
Liv grabs the wine and two glasses handing one to Fitz as she sit the wine down Fitz grabs it and opens it for them poring them both a half of a glass. They both grab the plates and place their food and begin to eat. "I really like how the yard is coming out I can't wait to see the finish."
"I'm glad because I think you're going to love it when it's done."
Liv smiles and decides to ask a somewhat personal question "You said you have one best friend, is he a good guy like you?"
Fitz not thinking much of the question answers "Yeah we've been friends since high school."
"Is he married or have children?"
"Nope single like me, no children he's pretty laid back a little shy at times, but not afraid to speak his mind or go after what he wants. I guess that's why he's a lawyer."
"And your dad, you said you guys are really close?" Liv moves on now that she has heard what she wanted to hear about Stephen.
"Yeah that's my best friend I can talk to him about anything without judgement. He's my biggest support system."
After about 30 minutes or so of talking about the yard design and friends and family as well as finishing their takeout Liv watched Fitz as he looked around her home and throws a question at her. "What's with all the beige? You are gonna paint…right and bring some color in?"
Liv looks around at her home as well "What's wrong with beige?"
"Well it's…safe. Impersonal feels a little like a hotel. It doesn't reflect you."
"My mother thinks bright colors are for children and whores." Liv states after a slight pause
"What do you think?" Fitz ask as he sits his empty glass on the table
"I don't know."
"See I think color…brings in energy that excite the senses, it can make you feel sad, it can make you feel happy…make you feel bold."
"Well bold is definitely not me…" Liv shyly replies
"Are you sure? I don't think you take the time to know who you are." It gives off a double meaning so he gives Liv the easy one. "You're always working."
Liv nods "Yeah well some of us have to work extra hard just to stay in the game or to even gain half of what they have." She sips her wine then places her glass on the table. "You wouldn't understand."
"Try me." He quickly responds
"How are you so full of advice tonight Mr. know everything?" Liv asks as she shifts in her seat. "So it's time I give you some."
"Fire away." Fitz confidently adds
"Well for one you're a lousy business man, you didn't ask for an upfront payment, and you've already put in to many hours to make this job cost effective."
"Did it ever occur to you that I was giving you special treatment?" Liv slightly drops her head folding her hands across her lap "I may not be the financial wizard like yourself, but I've been running a business…successfully…for over six years…of course if ahh…you feel the urge to review my books then please do me the favor I'd allow that." They both laugh.
"Trust me you couldn't afford me." Liv comments through her laughter
A moment passes where they are both really quiet and Fitz ignores the jab and decides to take his chance. "So ahh…I take it you don't do white guys?"
Liv looks down at him from the sofa. "I just happen to prefer black men…It's not a… prejudice it's a preference.
"It your preference to be prejudice." Fitz states in a non judgmental tone
"What about you?" Liv quickly questions choosing to ignore Fitz statement.
"Women, I like women, some are poison some are sweet."
"Ever date a black girl?"
"All kinds of girls."
"Mmm so you're a player?"
"No…I'm just…just a landscaper. I take hard earth and…make things bloom." Fitz corrects feeling prejudged "Speaking of which it's late. Do you need a hand with this" He slowly stands pointing at the empty food boxes on the table.
"No thank you."
"Thanks…for dinner."
"Your welcome."
"And I guess I'll see you…tomorrow." He turns and puts on his shoes and leaves as Liv wave goodbye.
Liv decides to retire to her bed after cleaning up the left overs picking up the book Fitz purchased for her finally reading it until sleep takes her dreaming of the only man that has ever made her want to go against everything and everyone.
The following morning Liv goes to work and strategizes how to win over her client Hollis Doyle. By the end of her work day she decides to call Abby but she receives a call from Lisa. "Hey girlee."
"Liv Oh my god…Mark is taking me on a trip to the Caymans."
"Wow! That's amazing…right?"
"Yes girl we are hitting it off really good. He's so attentive and sweet. I think I found the one."
"Lisa you're a judge he's a cook…"
"Correction he's a chef."
"Okay who's paying for this trip?"
"He is Liv and check this…he owns two high end restaurants. Look I know we have this thing about black men having good jobs and all and he does, but it's not about that it's about how he looks at me, how he treats me and he wants to take me to the Caymans we leave tonight."
"So does this mean you won't make it to my house warming?"
"No we'll be back Saturday morning."
"Okay well bring Mr. Mark King with you so we all can meet him."
"I will and for now this is just between us. I can't do everyone else's two cents right now. I'm enjoying getting to know him."
"I understand Lisa you just have fun and sorry if I sounded all judgmental."
"It's fine girl I'll call you when I get back." The call ends and Liv calls Abby.
"Hey Abbs."
"What's up Liv."
"You're not going to believe what I'm about to tell you but Fitz and Stephen are bestes."
"Huh, wait what? How do you know?"
"Fitz was bragging on his best Friend Stephen Finch the lawyer. He spoke very highly of him."
"Damn girl this is a small world. So are you and Fitz hitting it off pretty good?"
"I'm still feeling him out and turned on at the same time."
"Just have fun Liv and see where it goes. You are an adult have some adult fun, let your hair down."
"Yeah I think I will. Be sure to bring Stephen to the house warming so we can officially meet him."
"Okay I will, bye girlee."
"Bye Abbs."
As Liv hangs up with Abby she arrives home and sees Fitz truck in the driveway and smiles. She goes inside and watches him work from a distance when once again her imagination takes over. His lean tone body is glistering with sweat as his muscle tenses with each movement. Her eyes travel down his toned stomach. She licks her lips at the site of his hairline just below his belly button and the v-shape of his lower region. Wetness pools between her legs as she releases a moan and runs her hand over her hardened nipples when suddenly Fitz is walking towards her. She doesn't realize he's actually walking towards her in real time until she sees him open the glass doors and step inside. "Hi."
Liv finally realizing he's truly inside of her home standing in front of her and tries to compose her desire and attraction to this man. "Hi."
"I let the guys go early for the holiday. I'm going to head off too."
"Okay."
"There's just one thing…you're coming with me."
Liv looks at him with confusion "Why? Do we have something else to buy for the yard?"
"No we're going hiking. Just a day trip nothing major."
"Are you asking me out on a date?"
"I'm asking you to go hiking."
"Then the answer is double no…I don't even like hiking."
Fitz smiles and pulls a quarter from his front pants pocket and tosses it up in the air. "Heads or tales?"
Liv chooses tails "I win." Fitz smirks "Come on you need to get out and see nature and relax. I promise to be good."
Liv smiles with a slight blush "Okay let me put on something a bit more comfortable." She goes and changes and they head out.
Fitz pulls up to a trail and they exit the truck. The site is amazing that is until they begin to climb a cliff and Liv is struggling as Fitz laughs walking a few steps ahead of her. "Who in their right mind would go out in the heat like this…I mean what is the point?"
Fitz continues walking up the cliff "Don't look down lookup look at the mountains." He says while spreading his arms.
"I'm looking for rattle snakes."
"Don't worry about rattle snakes…mountain lions eats most of them."
Liv pauses and looks around "Very funny."
Fitz stops and helps her the rest of the way up. They walk along the mountain top and share the view. Liv begins to relax and enjoy herself. Fitz takes her through a cave when she suddenly stops. "I'm not going in there."
"It's fine Livvie remember I got you…come on take my hand." They join hands and Liv allows Fitz to lead her as she grabs him around the waist holding onto him as if her life depended on it and Fitz couldn't be happier. His plan was working. Finally coming out on the other side Liv is taken with the view. Seeing the world from a top of a mountain is breath taking. "This is beautiful Fitz. How do you know about this place?"
"I come out here sometimes to clear my head." He answers looking down into her brown eyes when he notices Liv is still holding his hand. They stop and pick flowers as Fitz explains what kind of flowers are growing when they come upon a path of trees. "Wow look at these gorgeous trees they're so tall."
"Yeah the temperature is just right up her for them to grow as big as they want."
"This is nice. Thank you for bringing me."
"Anytime Livvie plus you're smiling I like seeing you smile."
"I like when you make me smile." She says looking up at him in his stunning blue eyes. This turns into a moment, a moment when their emotions shift. Liv senses this and so does Fitz. Liv is the first to break eye contact pulling Fitz along the path as they continue to walk just enjoying each other company neither noticing the change in the sky covered by all the trees as clouds move in when suddenly the sound of thunder bursts through the air and a down pore of rain is upon them. They both look up in shock and run for cover. "SHIT MY HAIR!" Liv yells out "AHH, I'M GOING TO KILL YOU FITZ!" "I SWEAR I DIDN'T SEE IT COMING!"
Fitz leads Liv to thicker trees to try and cover them from the down pore. Finally setting under a large bank of tree they stop and Liv is soaked and shivering. Fitz sees this and pulls her close to him as thy both crouch down next to each other and try to wait out the passing storm. It was just a moving storm that didn't last long at all but it created another moment between the two as Liv looks at Fitz and he looks at her. No words are exchanged. Fitz rubs his hand up and down Liv's wet arm to try and warm her up slowly pulling her closer to him when he notices she's looking from his lips to his eyes.
So he makes his move and leans in and softly kisses her when she responds so he kisses her again when she takes the lead. Wanting and needing more she slides her tongue across his lip opening her mouth more to receive and taste what his tongue had to offer. The kiss deepens when Liv suddenly pulls back bringing her fingers to her lips. "We should go." She utters as she stands
Without another word Fitz lead her back to the truck but Fitz mind is moving at a 100 miles an hour. Did I move too fast? Is she upset with me? No she doesn't look upset. She looks conflicted. How did I fall in love with such a beautiful woman? Should I say something? Should I apologize? No she kissed me back. She's attracted to me I can see it. Oh shit there goes my dick again. I need to calm down. This woman doesn't know what she's doing to me. Her lips…my god her lips, Fitz stop it right now. He chastises his thoughts.
Liv refuses to look at him directly. What was I thinking kissing him like that, but damn he is so sexy. I can't start a relationship with him my mother would disown me. My friends will talk about me but he's so damn fine and sexy. Oh my god his dick is hard and big. Dammit why do I want to touch it, suck it and fuck it all at the same time? Liv get a hold of yourself what are you doing. Shit don't look at him. Don't look down at his dick…fuck he's hard and he wants me. If he only knew I want him too. Look away Liv look away.
Fitz pulls up in Liv driveway and Liv can't get out of Fitz truck fast enough and without looking at him she states "Don't think this is going any further because…it's not. Goodnight." She quickly exits the truck and practically runs inside closing and locking her door behind her. Fitz is not convinced so he jumps out of the truck and goes and knocks on the door. Liv stops as she tosses her keys on the wall table near the front door when she hears the knock. She slowly opens the door and she sees Fitz standing there. Without a word Fitz steps inside walking right up to her and places both hands on the sides of her faces and kisses her, hard. Her hands wraps around his neck as her fingers ruffle through his thick curls at the nape of his neck. He quickly lifts her slamming her against the wall that houses the same table she tossed her keys on. He kicks the door closed then grinds his erection against her core causing her to moan which he reciprocates with a moan of his own.
Releasing her lips he then suckles on her neck and chest and clothe breast when Liv goes for his belt. She needed to touch it, to feel it in her hand. "Oh shit." She screeches out as she palms him in her hand. Fitz suddenly rips her blouse exposing her lace cover twins and begins planting kisses from on to the other. "Mmm." He moans out as he lifts her and carries her to her bedroom located down the same hallway as her bathroom. Liv has his shirt unbutton by the time they get to the bed and his dick still exposed as she continues to grip and stroke him while enjoying his tongue against her breast.
The fire inside of them is hot and electric. The temperature has risen to the degree of no return as Fitz tosses Liv on the bed and removes his shirt as Liv removes hers. He then pulls her to him flicking the clips to her bra with precision removing and tossing it across the room as Liv continues to stroke him. Still no words have been spoken. The desire is in their eyes and they both want and need this moment. Fitz leans down over her as their lip connect once again but soft and gentle this time as to savor the taste of one another. He finally removes Liv grip on him as he removes his pants followed by Liv's skimpy but lacy underwear. He stands while stroking himself and admires her beauty and he allows his pants and boxer to fall to the floor. Liv breath hitches at the site of his nakedness.
Once again leaning down taking her lip with a gentle peck that turns aggressive as Liv opens her legs allowing him to settle in between them her finger finding his hair as she runs her finger throughout as he sucks, plucks and kisses her everywhere. She's losing her ability to think. Fitz is all over her causing goose bumps everywhere she has skin. She feels Fitz lift her from the bed placing her in the center as he makes his way to her garden. She's on fire as he takes her lower lips into his mouth and sucks all of her essence tasting her for the first time releasing pleasure filled moans of his enjoyment causing Liv to clamp her leg around his head as she pulls at this thick mane. "Ohhhh yeeesss!" She lustfully exerts
Fitz senses are in overload. She tastes as good as she smells and he can't get enough. He's like a hungry animal, and Liv can't tame him and doesn't want too. Her skins feel prickly and sensitive from the minions Fitz is preforming on her. Without notice her first orgasm hit her hard "Ohhhhh mmm…" Then she goes silent causing Fitz to look up at her as her body becomes stiff and her breathing is caught in her lungs. A smirking Fitz slides up her body and watches her as he places his tip at her opening without penetrating her. He fascinated and astonished at this beautiful woman. No woman has ever responded to him in such a vocal yet silent matter. "Livvie are you okay?" She nods her head up and down still unable to speak.
"Tell me what you need baby. Tell me what you want and I will do it."
"I need…I need…" Liv takes a deep breath as she finally finds her voice "I need you inside me Fitz. I need to feel you inside of me fast and hard."
Fitz strokes his hips upward pushing himself inside of Liv causing them both to cry out. "Oh Livvie!" "Yesssss!" Liv pushes out with batted breath. Fitz doesn't stop he rams in and out of Liv with purpose as she screams out his name and he calls out hers. The bed shift as they make love across it causing it to move on the hardwood floors from its original position. Fitz takes Liv's legs placing them on his shoulder as she grips his upper arms and he pounds into her hitting g-spots she never knew she had. "Oh…Oh…Oh..mmm…yessss…right there….yessss!" Are the only words Liv can utter as Fitz shows her how its done. He intentionally is marking her for life, for him, making her his and only his ruining her for any other man. Liv has never felt love making no…fucking so good in all her life. This man was made for her his dick was made just for her and she was not giving it up.
Liv is already on sensory overload when Fitz switches up on her and slow strokes her deeply penetrating her inner walls as he calls out her name and tells her how good she feels around him. He wants to ask her if it okay to cum inside of her but is afraid of ruining the moment. So instead he goes with her being a smart woman and knowing what is happening here and cums hard as he grunts releasing his essence inside of her secretly hoping he created a child in hopes to keeping her in his life forever. What Liv didn't know was that Fitz fell in love with her the moment he saw her big brown eyes. He couldn't explain it so he didn't try too. Either way he didn't mind if she became pregnant with his child or not. He would find a way to stay in her life and make her his wife. Not having sex in over a year showed in his stamina because after ejaculating he remained erect and Liv was none the wiser. All she could think of was what the hell was he doing to her. She's never experience sex on this level. No man has ever made her feel uncontrolled, lost, wanting more of him, falling in love with him when she barely knows him, or willing to fine the courage to love him.
"Livvie baby I can't get enough of you. You're so wet…so tight I'm addicted please don't leave me after tonight. Please baby, allow me to love you."
"Fitz…please, stop, talking and fuck me harder." With that Fitz fucks her into Bolivia making her forget who she was, her name, her standards, her limits, her list and anything else that she feel is wrong with interracial dating out the window but only in that moment because hours later it showed how strong she was in her complex that people she loved put on her. In this moment she is being everything he ever dreamed of, but that would soon end two hours after their love making /fucking section and Fitz giving what he thoughts was his all making them cum together.
They both find their moment to breathe again but Fitz is fascinated with Liv's lip and the shape of them. He runs his finger along the outer lining of the lip drawing from her nose. "You have some very sexy lips." He shares but Liv is lost and does not respond. So Fitz keeps going, knowing Liv just need encouragement and he was there to give it. "Why did your parents name you Olivia?"
"I'm not sure… My moms says she just liked it, and my dad says because my mom liked it."
"Well I think it fits you, your independence, your beauty, your unselfish demeanor, your fairness."
Liv still not looking at Fitz but acceptant of what just took place and his words shares. "My mother has always been my mother she likes to shop. She likes accolades, she likes titles and recognition."
"But you're not her…So why live in her light?"
Liv raises her eyes and looks at him "She's my mother Fitz. We've always done things to please her."
"But why?"
"I don't know…she's my mother and my daddy loves her. It's always been this way, It's all I know."
"Mmm so what about us?"
"What do you mean?"
"Liv don't do that. Don't dumb down. You know what I mean are you ready for this. I like you, and I'm ready, are you ready?"
Liv turns her head to look at him "You're ruining the moment."
Fitz plays with her hair and decides to not push her and changes the subject "Can I ask you another question?"
"Can you take this off?" Liv opens her eyes looking at her hair in his hand "What do you mean?"
"Well it's not a wig right? It's not your real hair either is it?"
Liv quickly sits up "I can't believe you asked me that."
"I'm sorry…just curious."
"It's a weave if you must know. I thought you dated black girls?"
"They had real hair."
"I have real hair too."
"Underneath?"
"Yes underneath."
"So what…they just sew it in?"
"Something like that." Liv embarrass from the question throws the covers off and stands "You know what…I think you should leave. This isn't going to work I don't know what I was thinking it was a really, really stupid mistake now please go."
A confused Fitz sits up in the bed "Wait…what because I asked about your hair?"
Throwing her arms in the air in frustration Liv begins to walk in circles "Because of everything." She crosses her arms defiantly "And furthermore, I will no longer be needing your services as a landscaper."
Now frustrated Fitz looks at her "You're…you're a piece of work Olivia Pope. I literally just had my dick inside of you. Hell my sperm is inside of you I just hope you're as concerned about birth control as you are about your hair." A pissed off Fitz spurts out
"Get out!" She presses as Fitz stands and picks up his dis-guarded clothes "Sorry my curiosity about your hair offended you it was not my intention…I just wondered what you looked like naked." Fitz throws out hoping to help Liv see that asking about her hair was not that big of a deal. He goes to the bathroom cleans up and dresses before leaving.
Unable to sleep Liv sends out a 911 to Kim, Angela and Abby of an emergency meeting to be held at Kim's house tomorrow and since it was the holiday they all had a four day weekend the timing was perfect.
A/N: Well that escalated quick. Let me know what you guys think.
