Eighth part: lies
Song - Billie Eilish – Lovely
I spent the night at the hospital. I hated this kind of place but I was so groggy after the explosion that I supposed it was what was the best for me. I was glad the guys came to see me. Even if I was half asleep, it was good to hear their voices !
Even if I promised my self not feeling that way for a single day in my life, I was very happy Street came and stayed with me for a large part of the evening. The nurse who asked him to go went to see me during the night and told me I had the most adorable boyfriend she ever saw. I didn't contradict her… I could have but I didn't.
This morning, I was feeling fine. A good night sleep with some painkillers helped me to get better. I was up since 6 A.M. I couldn't sleep anymore. I had the feeling something was going on. I couldn't say why but I did feel something for sure. Nurses didn't say a word, they just assured me I had to wait before being discharged because the doctor had to give his consent.
At 11 A.M., he was here. He was not wearing his uniform. He was wearing jeans and his leather jacket. He was talking with the nurses. I could tell they liked him a lot by the way they were smiling at him. He was very charming. I couldn't tell the contrary. By the way, I was happy it was him who came to pick me. Of course, I loved my other teammates but with Street, we had this special connection. That was probably why Hondo asked him to come and pick yesterday. That was why they had talked so long in the corridor.
He came close to my room. Why could I say to him? Everything was so awkward between us since that day when we… Anyway, I had to find something, even something simple… When he showed up at the threshold, I was speechless. Fortunately for me, he was more perceptive.
"Hey"
I smiled at him. It was all I could do and then I answered back : "Hey". And I kept smiling as a silly teenage girl. I hated myself for that but I couldn't help myself. He took my bag and we left the room. I was so relieved not to stay a minute more in this place. I didn't like the hospitals. I never had. I had my reasons.
I remained behind Street. I didn't know how to act with. I had been so mean with him and when I had no one to turn to after Ty and Kyra broke up with me, he was the only one I could think of and the only one who helped me no matter what. How could I make me forgive? How to thank him? I had no answer to these questions.
The nurse stopped Street as he was walking towards the exit. She talked to him for a quick while but I didn't hear a thing. When I arrive next to him, I asked him what she had just told him. He answered she was giving him some advice. I knew he wasn't telling me the truth …
I didn't know what to do so I told him I was tired and then, he totally freaked out! It was so funny to see him going crazy! It was as if I was broken!
. "Stay cool, Street. I'm tired but I'm not broken. I can still walk"
I couldn't help but burst into laughing. It felt so good at the moment. I didn't feel that since a long time. I was so light, life was easy! Especially when Street imitated me and burst into laughing too. For a moment, we couldn't even look at each other without laughing. I really liked this moment even if people around us looked at us weirdly. It was so good to be just friends again.
He drove me to my apartment. It was nice to be back home, to find my likfe back. What if my team had not found me yesterday? What if I had stayed under all the bits and pieces? What if I had… died? I couldn't stop thinking. Street asked me where he could drop my bag. And then he looked at me and I looked at him. Millions of questions ran through my mind. …
We remained silent for quite a while until I asked him if he wanted something to drink. It was a good way to break the silence. And then, we started to talk… Especially me. I was so surprised to talk with him as we used to do. I confessed to him I felt so good in my new apartment and that I was ready to heal as quick as possible to be back at work very soon and cuff these fucking Szcenik cousins.
"No way they got out after what they had done to us !"
Each day, I made progress. My broken ribs were still painful but I could walk quickly. I had no more headaches. Only my broken arm still hurt. I was hoping it would heal fast but I knew deep down it would take much more time than I thought. I worked on myself to be less impatient, to listen more carefully to my body. But it was harsh.
Street stayed with me for two weeks. Hondo gave him some days off for him to help me. I was happy he was there. He was going back to work in a few days and I already felt anxious at the idea of being alone in my apartment. Street slept here every night. I didn't ask him anything. He just did as if he knew I was not great despite all I could do and say. However, I tried to be discreet. I only cried in my bed when he was asleep. I couldn't accept my body was healing slowly. I didn't like to stay at home and wait. When I was like that, I was asking me too many questions about my personal life…
The nights Street want out to be with Molly, I felt so lonely. I thought I got used to having here with me. I knew it was bad … Street was happy with Molly and I was an obstacle for his relationship with Molly… And she was not nice enough not to say something when he stayed with me for the night! I had to recover to let them live as a couple!
Tonight was one of these night. Street was out with Molly. I was alone and my left arm hurt badly. "Come on, Chris! You need to free your mind. You are a grown woman! Being alone doesn't mean you have to be sad". This explosion made me realize I had to live the moment because all could stop at any time. Deep down, I always knew I had a crush on Street… It had stared from day one when he was flirting with this tourist while we were investigating. It had annoyed me. I had thought it was because he was so proud of him. In fact, now I knew it was because I hoped it was me instead of this girl…
I went to bed. I was so tired! The pain in my left arm didn't stop for the whole day even if I had been very careful. I kept my arm away from any exercice. I didn't carry any bag or heavy weight. I stayed calm as the doctors ahd asked me to. So why this arm was still so painful?
I heard Street came home later in the night. He didn't stay with Molly tonight. As long as I remembered he had not stayed with her for the whole night since he was sleeping here. Why did he do that? Did he scare I would not be able to get the daily things by myself? Was I prevent them from spending time together? Was I a bad friend?
He went to check on me in my room. I faked to be asleep. I didn't want to talk tonight. I was asking me too many questions. He came close to me and covered me with the blanket I let to my feet. What I was not expected was that he kissed my forehead before leaving the room. I didn't know what to think about what he just did. All I knew right now was I was gonna make sweet dreams…
