She was taught to ask if you want to see where it leads you. So she did then her sweetheart said fucking no. She began to cry because his face looked like he wanted to puke. His eyes got a dark look in them as he tried to calm down.

Was she that unwanted sexually? Was he really seeing someone behind her back? Does he want to break up? Oh she thought this an horrible things, imagination of her lead to Sammy going down on some nutcase who doesn't give use birth control and having babies with her. Then to be like I'm sorry but I still love you?! She choking on her tears as he tried to hold her.

She pushed him away and replayed every No he said every time. Her insecurities hit like waves against the cliff of their favorite spot. She wants to be understanding but she felt stupid and hurt.

Fuck that shit!! So she got hold of her emotions and screamed at what she thought of all this. " I deserve better! We haven't been sincere together lately and it's fucking everything up, ok? I thought if felt heat between our bodies and you had dominance over me that way; everything would just be like it used to be." Hot tears rolled down her face as she looked away from him. She was blushing out of the embarrassment and frustration she felt that has been bottled up for so long.

Sam croaked back his tears and with raspy voice answered her. " I didn't mean it that way, I didn't know you have been hurting Leah. I'm sorry. " She couldn't face him because I'm sorry wasn't enough when it won't change anything. " I need space, I shouldn't have yelled at you. But I meant every word I said, Sam." She was scared after she spoke. Leah turned around to find him silently wiping his tears away. God, what has she done?

She should have been calm but everything was too different now. He was taller than her just about beginning of the school he about 7 inches shorter than her. More slim form and not a rough tone of voice. She was panicking because your boyfriend is sick with the flu for some time. Then he a whole change in everything. She asked what's happened, he said nothing much but a growth spurt. She did let it slide yet he couldn't look her in her eyes.

She let it go because why would he lied? It could be a good reason why he was taller. But who knows? There had been rumors about him starting trouble to the point the elders started to talk to him. He shut out from what was happening or something would come up at home.

A cycle of frustration and confusion she was running in it so endlessly. He would never harm anyone, she knows him. Or she thought. Nor he willing cheat on her with some of her more free willed classmates? He wouldn't. Then why was she feeling it was ending between them. Was she helpless girl like from some her favorite love novels? Or was she going to take charge? So when he asked on a date, she said yes. She decided maybe it was time she confessed everything she felt. It both their responsibility to be truthful and respectful in a relationship. She hasn't been truthful with herself nor with Sam.