CHAPTER 16
As Brittany got home, she expected to see Santana either watching TV oblivious to all that had been said on the group chat, or lying on the floor having a mental breakdown making her surprised to find her waiting at the door, with only a few tears in her eyes.
"I can't believe you said that!" Santana said to Brittany.
"I know and I'm really, really sorry. I didn't mean too and usually when the Glee club discussed all that sort of stuff I'd stay out of it but Finn was saying such terrible things and I couldn't not say anything and then it all came out and I immediately regretted it and came to find you and apologise." Brittany explained.
"Have you read what everyone's saying?" Santana said.
"Not all of it," Brittany admitted though she knew some of it was bad.
"You know how much harder this is going to make everything Britt? And you promised that you wouldn't say anything." Santana said.
"I know San, and I mean it when I say I'm really sorry, but I have feelings too! When you're hurt, it hurts me too, and it's really hard when you shut me out and lock yourself away, punishing yourself by not eating and everything and then getting sick and leaving me knowing that I tried my best to help you and that it wasn't enough, that I wasn't enough. And it felt really good being able to talk about my emotions until I realised all the adverse effects it would cause."
Understanding what Brittany was saying and knowing Santana would feel terrible if Brittany was struggling and she couldn't help, Santana didn't press further.
"I'm sorry too Britt; I shouldn't have gone off like that. You're the best friend ever and so much more that I deserve and I'm the one that should be apologising for making you feel bad because you're incredible." Santana said. Brittany nodded at this before Santana continued. "It's just, everything's still really hard and my parents say they're all fine with everything; but they say things when they think I'm not listening and it really hurts. I haven't even told my Abuela yet because she only listens to the radio so hasn't heard but she's really religious so I can't imagine she'll act well. All our friends in Glee club are the only people that really accept me and I'm just really worried that's going to change now."
Brittany, sensing that Santana was beginning to spiral, hugged her tightly and whispered too her, "Since we were under the football stands during lunch, we didn't eat. Have you had anything since you got home?"
Santana muttered "no" quietly while shaking her head slightly.
"Do you want me to make you something?" Brittany asked.
Santana almost said no, but thought back to what Brittany had said earlier so changed her mind. "Maybe we could go to the Breadstix drive through?" Santana suggested.
"That sounds great!" Brittany responded joyfully though still quietly as she was still hugging Santana and didn't want to hurt her ears. She was extremely happy that Santana decided to eat and even more so that she volunteered to go out to get the food rather than just having a few stale crackers to satisfy Brittany that she was consuming something.
As they creeped further up the drive-through line, Brittany asked, "Do you want to get shrimp? I'll pay."
Feeling less sure of her decision to eat since getting in the car, Santana politely responded, "No thanks; I think I just want breadsticks."
Not able to ignore the strong correlation between stale crackers and breadsticks, Brittany stoically masked her disappointment and said, "No problem!" before ordering.
Even though Brittany masked her displeasure at Santana declining shrimp well, ever perceptive Santana still noticed and consequently decided to eat all of her breadsticks without Brittany even needing to nag her to have 'just a couple more'.
Pleasantly surprised by Santana, Brittany was able to forget about the shrimp and think that Santana really just wanted to eat breadsticks.
"Do you want me to go get us some more?" she asked Santana.
"I'm good thanks Britt," Santana responded. Santana had eaten more food in the form of breadsticks in the last hour, than she had in the last week and was beginning to feel sick and couldn't imagine digesting another morsel of food.
Santana gingerly sat down on the couch, wrapping a blanket around her tightly to try to distract from the pain in her stomach. Brittany then joined her on the couch, sliding under the blanket to be close to Santana which provided the distraction she needed.
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