Chapter 20: A rude awakening

Summary:

Lena tried to got to LCorp, to see John ends up searching for information on the internet, becuse she is fed up of half the story

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Lena pulled up outside what should have been LCorp to see Clarence waiting for her, she looked at the man just casually standing on the side of the road.

"I don't know how you keep getting to places before me or how you know where I am going but you are seriously starting to worry me Clarence"

"Lena I know you, I have watched you my whole life and I know exactly what you are going to do, i have been waiting here because as you can see there is nothing here for you. The small Luthor corp facility here was abandoned many years ago, if you're looking for something you will not find it here"

Lena looked at Clarence. He had just gone from a crazy annoyance to a creepy stalker, was he working with his mother, the goons that she sent she obviously hit her with something and she had not noticed. If she was going to think her way out of this she needed information.

"Statements like that do not make me want to trust you Clarence, that is more worrying than this world that i have found myself in. tell me where i can find J'onn, he will be able to read my mind he will know who I am and help me put things right"

Clarence looked at her a little concerned, there were no rules as such he wasn't supposed to tell her about Kara, but he guessed telling her about J'onn was alright.

"He is on the corner of fourth and Maple, Lena"

Lena headed off to the location to find that it was a cemetery, she got off the bike to look at the the street sign she was definitely on the corner of fourth and maple. She walked into the Graveyard and started looking around, maybe this was another rebelion strong hold and was cloaked. Lena tripped over and landed on the floor in front of a gravestone. Looking up Clarence stood behind it looking down at her.

"J'onn Jonz was killed during Myriad, he was badly injured fighting the white martian in the fight club and barely survived, he was not fully recovered when your mother set the rocket with Myriad into the atmosphere, he was unable to support Supergirl in her efforts and the rocket exploded Killing all the aliens in national city, your mother didn't get away, she was tried and convicted of her crimes but was released when the Daxamites invaded."

"No the DEO and supergirl closed down the fight club and I made the virus inert so that it wouldn't harm anyone."

"Lena you were never born, you didn't go to school with Veronica Sinclare, you never got invited to Roulettes fight club ad didn't give the address to Kara, when they found J'onn, well Meghan was just about to deliver the final blow, he was still recovering when medusa went off he made it to the docks but due to his injuries he was too slow to help"

Lena shook her head she was not listening to any more crazy ramblings of this man, she needed answers and that meant onlie access, she decided that the book store with internet cafe was the best place to go. She could get access to a computer and look at what is going on. She headed back to the bike and headed to her favorite book store, slipping inside a small bell went off on the door and the attendant looked up, Clarence standing just inside the door looking at Lena.

"Well done brother congratulations"

"What on earth are you talking about now, and didnt I just leave you at the cemetery? You sure you can't fly? you wouldn't be the first person i met who could you know"

Clarence chuckled at Lena and shook his head the attendant looking at them confused.

"No Lena I am not an Alien, I don't Fly,I have no wings, I am an angel second class, however every time a bell rings an angel gets their wings, that bell means one of my brothers or sisters saved a soul and has earned their wings, something that I hope that you will help me with"

The attendant choked on her tea and looked away, Lena shook her head and headed to a computer. The once popular book store was not well attended or stocked anymore, but there was a computer.

"Lena if I am to earn my wings I need to help you, I believe in you and I know that you can see that your life is meaningful, and not to be thrown away."

"Yes okay Clarence, next stop needs to be somewhere to get you help but first I need information"

Lena couldn't find anything to start with the internet was full of information about the new Krypton and the rules there was nothing that truly explained what was happening. Lena broke through to the Dark web, she knew that as long as there were still people there would still be somewhere that she could get answers. Images and stories flashed across the screen. The death of aliens in National city, the invasion, supergirl siding with the Daxamites to take over alongside superman. The Luthor family released and given freedom for martial Law and rights to use experimental techniques to defeat the Daxamites. The Luthor army, Modified humans, then reign. Lena could feel the tears streaming down her face, Sam, Ruby, they were not ok, Reign rid herself of her human heart, joined with the other world killers and managed to terraform Earth. Pictures of super battles, scorched lands, huma attacks, over ⅔ of the world's countries reduced to waste land. Then the Daxamites fell to the defeat of Supergirl, forging a surrender where they lived in quarantine in the national city. There were more stories about the Luthor Army, and pictures of James recruiting, James Olsen thats where he was taking people to be experimented on by Lex and Lillian.

The attendant fearful of the man blathering about wings had called guards and there were soldiers entering the store. The little bell going off over and over, The attendant was chuckling nervously and pointed over to the computer.

"Well I wasn't expecting that response, looks like I have helped give out countless wings tonight, he is over there I don't think he is dangerous, but he isn't well and the woman she is accessing information she shouldn't"

Hearing the bells and the comments from the attendant, Lena shut down the computer, Clarence was not there and she decided that she had to get out she headed through the stacks. She hadn't learned Kara's fate she didn't have time. Her head was swimming she needed to get through the shop and back to the bike, to find Kara. Looking up she saw Clarence, beckoning to her to follow. Lena followed out of the book store through a rear exit and through the alleys to a place of safety.

"Where is she? Where is Kara?"

"I am not able to tell you that Lena, I am not allowed it is not part of the process. You need to make this journey for you not for her."

Lena looked at the man and took hold of him pushing him into the wall, she was not going to take this any more, half truths and cryptic information. Their earth was 38 but this wasn't it, this wasn't the earth that she knew, her life was dark and full of pain but this place everyone was suffering she didn't understand. She pushed him into the wall again and again as she cried.

"She wouldn't have let this happen, where is she Clarence?, Where is Kara? tell me, tell me where she is now!"

"Lena you don't understand, you saved her, over and over, the loss of her mentor, the loss of her love, the loss of her sister, losing to Rhea, the silver Kryptonite used to control her it chipped away at her, you were not there to stop your mother, so J'onn was not there for her, or Alex, she was sent to Cadmus, you were not there to defeat the daxamites, Rhea won, Monel never left, never found Argo, which no longer exists here, without her mother and the help of the Legion, they didn't have the ability to defeat Reign. You were not there to help with Sam, to stop her killing Ruby, she embraced her fate and took over. There was no Kryptonite, no splitting no place for Ruby to hide, No alex to protect her and a Broken controlled hero that had lost hope. don't you understand Lena"

Lena screamed at Clarence, there was nothing In her that could believe that she had such a impact, there was always something that the super would find just in time, there was always a way for her to save everyone, it was not Lena she was not a hero she was the villain, she was the one that no one trusted that was pushed out and kept away from everything because she couldn't be trusted.

"No that's enough tell me where Kara is, tell me now"

"Lena she is about to be paraded through the city, they will be taking her to the city centre any moment, a reminder that the greatest Hero was defeated and that the world no longer belongs to the Humans or the Daxamites. Don't you see Lena, that without you, your faith, your love, your help she wasn't the Hero you remember she isn't the woman your in love with any more, yes I know that too. That's why it hurts so much, the betrayal because you are in love with her, but she isn't here, you were never born, you touched so many Lena without even knowing it, you really have had a wonderful Life."

Dropping Clarence Lena took off to head to the city to find Kara.

Chapter Management

Chapter 21: Eyes wide open

Summary:

Lena finally see's Kara and is distraught she runs from the scene and begs to be alive again to correct this, so the world isnt like this.

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Lena raced through the alleys the flashes of the streets filling with crowds clearly the parade was well attended, she rounded the corner to the City centre she could see the Door open and a cage wheeled out. There was someone inside, dirty, the EL crest torn from her chest, suit ripped and tattered, it was Kara. as they opened the cage she shrunk back to the back of the cage. Prodded by the guards she finally got out, hands shackled with chains glowing green, she was in pain that much was evident but she was also scared. The chains pulled as she was dragged forward, falling to her knees. Lena watched in Horror as the people, humans and Daxamites began to taunt the heroine as she tried to stand. Throwing things at her and laughing she raised her arms to protect her face.

Lena couldn't watch, why was no one helping her, why was there no one helping to free her, she was no good to anyone like this. She ran towards the fallen hero and sank to her knees in front of her. Lifting her head by the chin and brushing back the dirty blonde locks. Kara's eyes were filled with Fear, defeated and sad, scanning the woman and the crowd she was trying to pull back from the strange Raven woman, her eyes were strange, not the same, multitude of greens and yellows blending into one. It was like her eyes were made of Kryptonite itself, was this the moment that she would finally be relieved of this life this burden.

"Kara what are you doing, you need to get up, you need to fight, I still believe in you no matter how you hurt me i will always believe in you, you are the paragon of hope to everyone, you need to get up. I love you Kara. I never told you but I do Please get up you have to fight back."

"Who are you?, what is this? please get away from me, I am no one I am nothing, no one believes in me I am just a reminder that good can not win, that hope is dead, why are you taunting me? what have I done to you?, I don't know you!"

Lena's eyes were wide looking at her, her fear of confusion, and the complete lack of recognition of who Lena was. It would hurt her, to have been relegated to the side lines, to love Kara from afar no longer a part of her life would have been painful, to give into her Luthor side and go after her because she caused her pain, would have destroyed the woman that she had always tried to be, but this the way she was looking at her now, like she didn't know her at all. Not seeing the care in her eyes ever again, she knew Kara couldn't love her back, but to not care at all, to not fight for her as she always had, to not fight for earth to be this.

"Come on Kara, try, try to remember it's me, its Lena you are my best friend, I love you, we are best friends. Try Kara, if you can not remember me at least remember you, Kara Zorel Danvers the woman I love, Supergirl, the hero we need, Kara please"

Lena grabbed hold of Kara to hold her, to kiss her cheek, to help her remember something, anything to give her hope. Kara started to scream and tried to push Lena away, the audience laughed the guards were approaching, Lena looked around the were approaching brandishing weapons, she needed to get back she needed to get back to the real earth no matter what happened to her she had to stop this happening. She pushed through the guards and the crowds heading to the alley, she ran and ran until she couldn't any longer. The guards were still following her and she dipped into an abandoned building. Hiding below the window waiting for them to pass.

Looking around she realised that this was the building that she and Clarence were after Leaving the Bar. Lena sank to her knees and started to cry, holding her head in her hands. Images of her friends running through her mind, Jonn was dead, Alex was a cyborg, Nia was nowhere to be seen, Brainy and his future was uncertain, Ruby dead, Sam lost, her twisted family still using people only now it was for the greater good, James recruiting for them taking people to be turned into weapons, Kelly from James expression was gone and Kara, her beloved Kara was broken, powerless, humiliated it was too much for Lena to bare.

"Clarence where are you, Please Clarence, oh what have I done, God help me, please, Clarence I want to be alive I want to have lived I didn't want this, I don't care what happens to me, just put me back, let them be happy, stop this. Clarence I am sorry Please help me Please"

Lena continued to cry into her own arms and waited. She didn't expect that anyone would listen that she would be heard, she may have had an impact but she knew that no one cared for her the events that led to this had shown her that. There was a noise outside and Lena held her breath as the door creaked open, Lena standing put up her fists ready to fight as Alex stepped in through the door.

"Alex stay back, unless you want another punch in the face, I am not going back with you I am not going to become a pawn in whatever you have planned"

Alex looked at Lena, she was bleeding, she was talking nonsense. Alex rubbed the back of her neck as she looked at Lena. she wondered what had happened since she left earlier, it hadn't been that long, and what the hell was she talking about Lena didn't punch her.

"Lena what are you talking about, your bleeding, are you alright? Everyone has been worrying about you, we have all been out looking for you, we are going to meet back at Kara's to regroup, hoping that someone will have brought you back with them for Christmas dinner."

Lena raised her hand to her head and touched the spot where she had hit it against the wall earlier, rummaging through her bag she found the gift, smiling Lena put it back into her bag rushing forward she pulled Alex into a hug Kissing her cheek and laughing.

"I love you Alex, you crazy stubborn, kick ass DEO director, Merry Christmas"

Lena ran through the city, crying out I love you National City, I love you CATCO, I Love you LCorp, spotting her mother getting into a Car she smiled.

"Merry Christmas Mother"

Watching her daughter running past towards her Little Aliens Flat.

"Thats it Lena run back to Kara, there is a surprise waiting for you there, YOU WILL SEE THINGS MY WAY SOON ENOUGH"

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