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Spellbound voice


Lucy lay in her bed.

After a (quite honestly) romantic night out, both Natsu and herself had grown exhausted and she had invited him to spend the night. Happy was already there by the time they had returned to the house and Natsu was more than happy to curl himself around his kitten and to keep him company in his sleep on the sofa while Lucy trudged to bed.

No matter how hard she tried, though, sleep never came.

She could only keep gazing aimlessly at the ceiling above her and she had a billion thoughts filling her brain at once, it made her screw her eyes shut.

Her head felt like it was about to burst!

She knew that she had to do something, something was calling her name, could it be her voice?

She felt like she was stuck in her own head.

She had this overpowering sensation to go and get her voice herself, even though she had swore she wouldn't. She had this terrible feeling that she was running out of time. She knew that she had to go but...everyone would get so worried...and angry at her again...could she forgive herself for putting her friends —the people she had considered family— through something like that? Again?

She had an internal war about it and everything!

"I have to do it..."

"But I promised Erza I wouldn't...she'd rip my head off if I were to do this."

"I'd make everyone so sad, and mad at me..."

"Gramps would be disappointed in me..."

"Worst of all Natsu would be..."

The stellar wizard of Fairy tail cried on the inside.

She missed communicating with her friends, her Celestial spirits, more then she could put into words.

She missed talking to the twins, Gem and Mini. She missed Cancer helping her style her hair. She missed practicing archery with Sagittarius. She (sort of) missed Virgo's constant insistence on being punished, even if it was incredibly irritating especially since she'd never do it. She missed watching little Plue dance around with his adorability. She missed sparring with Taurus (not him flirting with her). She missed spending time and sparring with Loke (although, again, she didn't miss the flirting). She almost missed Aquarius' verbal rampaging. She missed conversing with Capricorn as well as the chamomile tea he would make for her when she was upset. She missed Aries and talking with her.

She also missed Horologium, Pyxis, Crux and Lyra...

All of her spirits she missed.

She missed them so much...

Lucy felt her eyes harden.

She couldn't let anyone take the burden for her anymore...

The Celestial wizard of Fairy tail slunk out of bed, throwing the blankets off herself.

Once on her feet she started to gather what she needed.

She walked over to her wardrobe, making sure to quietly open one of the doors to make as little noise as possible, grabbed one of the jackets that hung from the one of the multitude of clothes hangers that also had various clothing items hanging from them. She threw on the brown leather jacket she chosen and then grabbed a satchel from deeper within the wardrobe and hung it over her shoulder.

With that done, she snuck into the sitting room and found a rather adorable sight.

Natsu and Happy were passed out asleep on the sofa.

Happy was curled on top of a small pillow but the blanket that had previously been wrapped around him had obviously become untucked and had fallen to the ground. The small blue feline shuddered and shivered from the cold and he let out a tiny plaintive groan as he seemed to sense the cold even in his slumbering state.

His small whiskers twitched.

Lucy stopped and stared pitifully at the sight of her sleeping comrades.

She bent down and picked up the small blanket off the floor, gently placed it over and then tucked it around both the snoozing blue feline and the pink-haired dragon slayer.

Natsu gave a soft moan as he snorted sleepily, Lucy stared sadly down at him as he slept like the dead. He appeared to be sleeping peacefully, his breathing was normal and he had a surprisingly calm and peaceful look on his face.

Lucy knelt down in front of the two sleeping lumps on the sofa and stared at them with a pitiful look on her face.

Her heart ached.

"Oh, Natsu...I'm so sorry. I know you try your hardest and, while you can be a bit of a hot head, as well as a stomach on legs, you care so much for your friends...and for me...I'm sorry I never told you how I felt. I'm sorry you had to get hurt because of me. I'm sorry of me being so selfish and troublesome ever since I lost my voice."

She leaned forwards, using a gentle hand to gently sweep aside some of Natsu's messy pink bangs away from his forehead, and pressed her lips against the skin of his head. She had always wanted to do this...but she was very upset that he wouldn't be awake to receive it.

Was this plan severely foolish?

Yes.

Was she aware of this?

Absolutely.

But she couldn't let herself be a burden anymore, no matter what.

Her eyes setting on the desk where she written her letters, Lucy strode over to it and set herself down on the small wooden stool and got the necessities to scribe her current plans and apologies. She put a piece of paper down on the desk, grabbed a pencil in her hand, and started to scribble a message down on the piece of parchment. Her eyes were still watering as tears dripped down her face and landed on the paper whilst he written all her thoughts down.

The mage's heart was thudding and shuddering in her chest as she felt her rib cage shake.

'Natsu & Happy.

I need to start this by saying that I am so sorry. I'm so sorry that I've been nothing but trouble ever since I lost my voice, but I have to do this. I have to get my voice back and, I know I promised that I'd stick by you and how I needed you but the truth is that I'm scared.

I've been scared ever since this whole mess began. I have had a sneaking suspicion that my voice, even being so far away, has been fading away. I've been reading and I have learned that a sound fades away the longer the sound has been separated from said source.

I need to find my voice and get it back.

The thing is, though, is that, with me being as powerless as I am now, I might not even be coming back.

The fact is, guys, is that this could very well kill me.

I need you guys to know that you have been the best thing to happen to me —I wouldn't have even been in Fairy tail if it weren't for you! You have supported me through good times and bad and I couldn't be more thankful that I met you; even though sometimes your stupid antics and tendency to rush into things without things annoy me to no end, Natsu, Happy, I don't tell you this enough but I love you.

I love you so much.

Please don't come looking for me.

P.S: Tell Erza, Gramps, the rest of the guild and my landlady that I'm sorry.

Love Lucy.'

Lucy's eyes filled with tears as she had to bite her lower lip to fight back the sobs that were trying desperately to wrack her body.

This was so difficult.

Why...?

She folded the letter up, stood up, left the piece of parchment on the made-up quilt of her bed, and started to make her way out of the apartment with her bag slung over her shoulder as she made her departure with her face full of sadness and guilt for what she was about to do. Regardless, she didn't show any signs of turning back as she strode silently down the stairs.

It didn't take her long before she made her way out the door front door.

She made sure to be quiet as she couldn't risk waking Natsu and Happy.

Then her plan would be foiled.

The only thing holding her back now was her emotional attachments as she glanced down at her hand, at the pink Fairy tail emblem stamped on the back of said hand, tears welling up in her eyes and her lip starting to quiver like crazy as she stared longingly at it for a few extra moments.

After taking a sec to recollect herself, Lucy headed out the door and greeted the world outside.

It was really dark and shockingly quiet, the streets were now coated with a thick layer of leftover frost and ice and this made them a bit of a hazard to walk on. Frost stubbornly clung to the atmosphere and an early-morning cool blew.

Lucy took in the cool air.

She pursed her lips.

She took a few moments to gather herself until she hardened her face.

It was time to go.

Slinging her satchel over her shoulder once more, she started off down the road and meandered over to try and locate the "Poacher of sound" and her voice along with it. But she also had doubts that she could do this alone...

She shook her head.

She couldn't turn back now, it was too late for that.


Chloemcg: Here is another new chapter for you guys, I hope you enjoyed it.

It seems like Lucy is about to do something reckless again but is trying to get her voice back.

Can she do it or will Natsu get to her in time?

Don't forget to fave and review.

-Chloemcg