Chapter 17
Kensi was at Hetty's house for two months, before Hetty finally agreed to let her leave.
The first Kensi had done when Hetty said she could leave was pack up all her stuff. She said her goodbyes to Hetty, and then got in her newly purchased car, and started her drive back to San Diego. Before she'd completely left LA, she decided to stop by the beach.
Kensi sat there for awhile, just staring at the ocean, she'd kind of spaced out, and didn't come back until the she heard a small child yell mama. She looked around and saw none other than the Deeks clan. It was Deeks, holding whom Kensi thought was Taylor, and then another small girl standing in between Deeks and his fiancée. His fiancée was holding a small baby.
It was presumably Taylor that had yelled mama.
"No, Taylor. That's not mama." Deeks said to Taylor.
"Yes it is. That's mama Kensi." Taylor said, remembering who Kensi was.
"She's not your mom, Taylor. I'm your mama." Gabby said.
"No, she's my mama." Taylor said again, this time pointing at Kensi.
When Taylor pointed at Kensi, she took that as her cue to leave, she stood up and scurried as fast as she could to her.
"Mama!" Taylor yelled again, this time louder.
"Taylor, stop. She doesn't want to be your mama."
When Kensi heard that she stopped in her tracks.
She turned around and started walking towards Deeks.
"Don't ever tell your child that I don't want to be her mom. I still love her, with all my heart." Kensi said, standing in front of Deeks.
"Then why did you leave? I gave you an opportunity to be her mom and you left."
"You started a new life in a year. What was I supposed to do?"
At this point, Deeks had set Taylor on the ground, and Gabby and the kids had walked further down the beach to give Kensi and Deeks some privacy.
"Kensi, at that time, no one was gonna take her away from you. You had every opportunity to be her mom. Gabby and I were just starting out, and I was still hoping you'd change your mind."
"What am I supposed to think when you tell me you've moved in with someone, who also has a kid? I obviously thought you'd moved on."
"Well, it's kind of too late. I have 3 children with her, and were engaged. This time, I have moved on. You should too."
"I tried, but I spent 2 months alone, and it gave me a lot of time to think. Us getting divorced was a mistake. I still love you."
"I do too, Kens, but I'm not in love with you anymore."
"Yeah, right, I'm sorry." Kensi said, trying to hide her disappointment. With nothing more to say, Kensi started walking away.
"I'm sorry, Kensi." Deeks called out, as she walked away.
He truly did feel bad, but what was he supposed to do? He moved on with Gabby and he had a family with her. Kensi was becoming a thing of the past. They got married, and got divorced, and that's about it. Even though Taylor was biologically Kensi's, she'd given up that right.
Kensi had finally made it back to her car, and when she got in, she broke down. She'd lost everything. Her mom probably hated her, he ex husband had moved on, her boyfriend was was dead. Her team wasn't really her team anymore, and they probably hated her anyway. She was all alone.
