Rei and Nathan sat along quietly on the small rail cart that was slowly taking them to the surface, forehead to forehead they took small shaky gasps and they held each other knowing once they were up there, they couldn't afford to be seen together. Lightly gripping each other's elbows in a half hug, he whispered in her ear, "I'll do this with you… as long as it takes. Just can you absolutely promise that… you won't fall in love with him?"
Rei lifted her head from his, she tilted her head and connected with his lips the two made loud passionate smooching noises as they felt their hearts race as feeling the other's hands run down their backs. She pulled away lightly gasping for air, lifting one hand to his face she caressed his cheek.
"Just like we promised, we only have each other's hearts." She reached out and picked up his hand placing it square in the middle of her chest, "You're the only one who makes it feel this… funny. Who makes it feel less lonely." With her thumb she stroked his palm until her eyes went wide, she turned his hand over and saw what he had done to himself. That tiny burn circle in the center of his hand. A mix of yellow, red and puffy skin stared back at them.
"What happened?" she asked her voice shook a little, she never had much inflection in her voice but the way her voice cracked at the sight of him injured made his heart hurt knowing what he intentionally did to himself. "I… guess I must've burned myself making a tea or something."
Holding his hand between their laps she made small circles around it with her thumbs, "Does it hurt?"
"Not really, just kinda stings."
Looking up at him, she swallowed a small lump, "When we get to school, I'll take you to the infirmary. I… I will heal you."
Shinji sat upright in his bed, covered in sweat and sick. The morning sun shone through the blinds showing Shinji's mess, gasping he gripped his head quaking, no matter how tightly he shut his eyes he still saw those red eyes, Rei's eyes.
He shook his head trying to dismiss it all as nothing more than stress, even though Rei seemed that she was starting warm up to him again and he felt closer to her… it still felt like she wasn't full there beside him. All he could think about were those long looks, short glances and slight flutters of breath Rei gave Nathan.
How they played footsie in class and disappeared all in the same day.
How much time it seemed that they spent alone together… it didn't help that they lived together or that his dad seemed to be planning some secret project that involved the two of them.
He steadily his breathing, trying to calm himself down by saying he was being overly paranoid, Rei was the first girlfriend he had ever had, he was probably being over possessive of her. But then again if she was his girlfriend that meant she belonged only to him right?
No doubt all this time and energy he spent worrying about how close the two of them seemed was bleeding into the back of his mind and affecting his dreams, he was letting Nathan get into his head and steal his last spot of happiness away from him.
He shook his head, 'No Nathan wouldn't do that… he'd leave a get together but he wouldn't hurt a friend like that, besides he doesn't even seem to like girls, there's nothing going on between them… I'm just being stupid as usual.'
'It was nothing more than some stupid dream, god I hate puberty'
Shinji collected himself finally convinced that he was just worrying too much and was just too pent up, that day he had made out with Rei, he felt good and relaxed but still energized. Feeling all those pent-up urges and needs used on her made him feel good, but then again that was just him being selfish he thought.
Getting up he got to cleaning his sheets and disinfecting his mattress, he went to the bathroom to wash his face and had almost ran into Misato who was storming out, pulling on her jacket. "Sorry Shinji, but I can't stay here with you guys. Something's come up at NERV and I probably won't be home tonight, there's cash on my desk for dinner."
"Wait what's going on? When will you be- "
"I'm sorry Shinji really, I am but I don't even know what's going on. But I'll let you know if we need you four!" she called out as she ran out the door, Shinji sighing figuring out that it was something else wrong with synch data or the EVAs pushed the thought away, even as he splashed hot water on his face, plucked those tiny stray hairs off his chin and applied acne-wash he couldn't help but think about why his mother had turned into Rei.
No doubt it was just some stupid teen hormone filled nightmare, after all if Nathan was his really one of his friends the last people on earth he would want to see him doing that to would be his mother and Rei, yeah that was it. After all any guy would hate any friend who slept with his mother or girlfriend.
Sighing he decided that's all what the dream was, being done with his morning routine he went to get dressed, but just as he pulled on his pants he groaned in frustration, only now did he realize that he didn't make lunches for him and Asuka last night. He racked his mind trying to figure out if there was something, he could quickly whip up but realizing what he could make off the fly wouldn't meet the red head's standards decided he'd just buy her something from school.
He let out another sigh trying to prepare himself for the verbal beatdown that Asuka no doubt was going to give him once she learned about the lunch situation. But little did he know Asuka was watching him.
Asuka stood outside his door watching through a hairline crack, she saw him pulling on his pants and saw his thin boyish body. She didn't know why she was ogling Shinji, he was nowhere near as sexy as this mystery K boy, but still there was something attractive about his boyish features. Maybe it had to do with them living in such close quarters.
Or no matter what she asked or how she treated him, it seemed like he was always there. She saw him pull on a short sleeve shirt and tuck it into his pants and her heart skipped a beat. This time… she thought to herself hopefully. She licked her lips nervously, taking in a shaky breath she composed herself trying to bring out the nonchalant cool and confident Asuka.
Once he was done putting his shirt in she lightly knocked on the door, she had been up for a while already and was already dressed in her school outfit as a backup. His head whipped side to side, pulling on his white button up he rushed to the door, with a confused look on his face. Asuka may have tried to look like her old self, but there was still something off about her.
"Uh- Asuka… you saw, didn't you?"
Her face grew red almost instantly afraid that he knew she was perving on him for once "That I didn't make the bento?" he asked warily ready for the words to start coming out.
"No… I actually didn't know about that. I wanted to talk to you about something else."
Shinji raised an eyebrow, "Talk about what?"
"I heard Ms. Misato leaving earlier, and I pretty much know we won't cover anything important in school today so, I was wondering…"
"Wondering about what Asuka?"
'C'mon girl, just say it, say it! Say you want to stay with him, say what you want from him, say it!' She screamed in her head, she didn't know what she would offer him but if he just told her that he'd stay with her, as far as she was concerned, she'd do anything for him.
"Do you want to skip school with me today? We could just stay here the two of us, and we could do… whatever." She tried to play off the end of her request as if she didn't care but inside, she felt cold and jiggly, "You know… nobody really lives around here so we can do whatever we want."
"Whatever… you want." She added quietly.
Shinji stood there in his doorway, he felt his chest tighten and his eyes wandered away from her's to the floor, he scratched the back of his neck nervously. He didn't want to tell her but ever since her drunken night he felt weird around her, it was just uncomfortable. Especially how okay she would be for him to cheat on Rei with her.
He tried to clear his throat, but it instantly went dry as he tried to swallow, but he just found that he had an itch deep at the back of his mouth like he had hair at the back of it.
"Look Asuka the thing is…"
He fumbled over his words but just then his watch started to beep. Glancing down at it he saw the digital face blinking, "Hey we'd better go, or we'll be late." he quickly brushed her off and went to finish getting ready, Asuka let her head sink, she quickly turned on her heel and grabbed her bag.
She walked out the door and let it slam shut behind her, huffing as she walked to the elevators, she called herself an idiot, if Shinji didn't even want her, she wondered what this "K" guy saw in her.
"Let me apply the antiseptic. It already looks infected."
Nathan sat quietly on the bed in the infirmary while Rei grabbed bottles and a medical kit. He stared back down at the small patch of puffy skin that already was turning different colors, the fact that it felt like he was holding coals in his hand while it throbbed with pain let him know that he was in bad shape.
Rei sat down beside him and took his hand gingerly dabbed the burn with a cotton ball, when she was done she gave it a light blow. Silently she applied creams to it and then put a small pad onto and wrapped his hand in gauze. Even though it stung and ached like he had a nail embedded in his hand he kept quiet.
"Does it still hurt?"
"Just a bit."
She silently looked at him in the eyes then she brought his hand to her mouth and kissed the lump of gauze in the center of his hand. He felt his cheeks burn and his heart swell, "What was that about?"
He saw her cheeks turn a light pink, "Well… when you kiss me, I feel good. I thought that maybe if I kissed your wound, you'd feel better. Did it work?"
She looked at him and his look of confusion quickly turned into something else, his eyes shimmered they grew softer, but they also looked sad. "What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?"
"No, no, no Rei… it's just I thought for a second… I felt like I remembered something or someone. But yeah, I'm feeling way better thanks." He sighed looking at her the way she smiled slightly bringing her chin to her chest letting her hair drape over her forehead. With his good hand, he slid a finger under her chin and lifted her face up, gazing deeply into her eyes he risked one last kiss.
Her eyes went wide surprised at his risk-taking, she let him push her head back and when he pulled away she couldn't help but press forward kissing him again, reconnecting with him. One kiss turned into two, then three and three turned into six. They tried their best to keep quiet, letting out sharp little gasps in between their lungs begging for air.
Neither one of them would vocalize it but they wanted nothing more than for the other to take the reins, to shut and lock the door and pin the other to the bed. But they fought against those urges and found the will to stop, with their foreheads pressed against one another they sat side by side holding hands. They sat quietly waiting for the school bells to start ringing, it was so silent in this part of the school they were convinced that they were alone.
And if that was the case, then they'd want to spend as much time together as possible before they would have to separate again. Just then they heard a shuffling coming up to the door, looking up they saw Toji enter and just before he did, they let their hands fall from each other's.
"Oh, Nathan, Rei what're you guys doing here?"
Giving off that slight dismissive smirk Nathan held up his hand, "Uh, mishap with the teapot, she was just here patching me up. What're you doing here?'
Gripping his stomach Toji walked over to the cabinets and pulled out a tiny box, "Needed an antacid, that shit you gave me as a gift has been doing murder on my stomach and there's some other personal stuff that we need to get straight. Mainly I think that stuff was made for WOMEN!"
Trying his best not to laugh at his screw-up or whatever cosmic irony was at play Nathan tried to keep his cool, "Look man I didn't know I'm sorry if I got you the wrong stuff, I thought it'd be like a gag gift or something."
"Well male lactation ain't nothing to joke about."
"Male lactation?" Rei piped up, Toji's face drained of color and his eyes went wide, "Forget both of you heard nothing you got me. And me and you gotta have some words after class today got it Nathan?"
"Yeah sure dude whatever.", just as it seemed Toji was going to leave in a huff he stopped in the doorway, turning around he asked. "Hey, you guys know what the deal is with all the NERV vehicles and stuff out there in the streets? On my walk here I saw a ton."
Nathan furrowed his brow when him and Rei made their way to school, they didn't see any and he hadn't received any calls or anything not even a text. So why were all those trucks and stuff doing out there now? Shrugging he looked at Toji "Sorry man no clue."
Unsatisfied Toji left with that Nathan turned his attention back to Rei, looking back at her she gave him one last smile. "I'd better get to class, it's probably a better idea if we head there separately. Thanks again." He pushed himself up flexing his wrapped hand but before he could walk away from the bed, he felt a tug on his back.
Looking over his shoulder he saw Rei pinching his shirt, "Why are you thanking me?"
"Just… thanks… for being you." He replied. The first bell rung, "I'd better get going now, just wait here a minute or two before making your way there."
But she asked him one more thing before she allowed him to leave, "Wait…"
Feeling his stomach quake, he asked, "Yeah?"
"Before we separate… can you squeeze me one last time?"
Facing her with her head level with his stomach he nodded and hugged her, her head felt fluffy and warm against his chest, Rei slowly blinked her eyes and smiled, relishing the sound of his heart beating before he separated. Looking over his shoulder and whipping around, he gave her one last kiss on her forehead.
When he reached the door, he turned around one last time, smiling and giving her a backwards peace sign flicked his wrist to the left, "See ya later Rei." With that he left and Rei couldn't help but think that even though his eyes still looked a little sad at the thought of them having to distance themselves, he still looked a little happy.
Rei sat there silently with her hands in her lap, then she moved her hand up to her lips to feel a wide and contented smile taking over her face, in her mind she thought, 'See you again, Nathan'.
Gendo Ikari wiped his brow, the heat was excruciating. Squinting he saw the sword and spear resting above the shattered cube, all the pieces were deeply embedded in the sands of the Sahara. His phone buzzed, "Fuyutsuki. Yes, she'll be in charge of things until I return. Make your way here as soon as possible. No… we haven't done anything yet we're still taking in readings from our position."
He stayed silent as he listened to the other end adjusting his glasses hearing about the manpower Fuyutsuki had been shifting from Japan to Africa for this excavation. To him it seemed that the only way that these weapons would be removed was through the will and power of an Evangelion, but which ones would he call?
If there was just the off chance that he pulled them all over to him he would be leaving Tokyo 3 open for attack and the terminal dogma completely at the mercy of whatever angel graced Japan with its presence. He thought to himself before remembering that Fuyutsuki had stopped talking to him, "No it would be foolish to allow any of the children here before we know for certain. I'll confer with the council, maybe the another reading of the scrolls has told them when the next angel shall arrive."
Clicking the phone he deposited it back into his chest pocket, his cool and stoic face over looked the rolling hills of golden sand. He walked back to the command tent he had set up, peering over the shoulder of a technician he saw the readings the objects were giving off, the same as the ones that SEELE had detected from space.
But there was something else, there was a missing piece of data in their frequencies, as if one dancing bouncing line were missing, but what could it mean, he turned his head back to the objects and saw that they were giving off a light violet color, almost like the aurora borealis only these stretches of color were brighter and visible during daylight.
Their lights drifted off all in one direction, he didn't need a map or anything to know where they were heading. It was almost as if they were calling out to their owners. None of this was in the scrolls, he thought angrily. He hated whenever things never fell into line, he hated outside factors intruding on his plans, once an unknown variable entered the equation nothing was longer certain.
"Yui… if you were here what would you do?" he asked quietly, feeling tiny flicks of sand brush against his face from the gentle dry breeze.
Asuka sat in the back of the class she figured she might as well try to catch a glimpse of this guy before they met up.
She stared out the window her knee bouncing up and down as she tapped her pencil on the desk, looking around she only saw just half of the kids in their desks, no doubt whatever NERV was doing scared enough kids into staying home or they just saw all the traffic and thought "Nope."
Either way her eyes danced on the few boys that were in class, but no matter who they danced off to they kept sticking to Kensuke, god if I'm meeting Kensuke later today I will fling myself off the roof of this building, she thought to herself. But then part of her thought what if it was Kensuke, she never saw him without a shirt on, for all she knew he could be this Hershey's boy.
EW! Gross no! Get your mind out of the gutter girl, not even you're that desperate!
She saw Shinji eye Rei excitedly, he was almost wiggling in his seat like a dog, she rolled her eyes and shook her head a scowl quickly took over her face. Just then the bell for recess rang, she almost jumped out of her seat but whether it was out of fear, nerves or excitement she didn't know. Walking to her locker she overheard Shinji asking Rei to go grab a snack with him during the break.
True to her submissive nature she agreed if it would be something that would make him happy as she said, Asuka just shook her head, reaching inside the small metal rectangle she found yet another note from this mystery guy, snatching it up along with a bag of kale chips she made her way to the stairs. She held the note out in front of her eyeing it, a small smile creeping up on her face, she didn't even notice him until she bumped right into Nathan, knocking him over she almost landed right on top of him.
"Hey watch it you jackass!" she yelled.
"You watch it you're the one who bumped into me!" the two of them glared at one another from the ground, looking under his hand he saw the small box of cookies and cream pockys that were now no doubt crushed into dust. He turned his eyes back to Asuka, shaking his head he muttered something before pushing himself up and walking away.
Just then she felt the color drain from her face, there was no way that it could be him, right? They couldn't stand one another but then again she didn't know his last name, and he did have some odd mix of features like her and her German- Japanese mixed heritage, but to her it looked like he was just a mix of Hispanic, maybe some German just a dash but a smidge of Japanese, but the Hispanic percentage defiantly outweighed the rest.
Brushing herself off, Asuka walked to a secluded stairwell where she posted up and sat down, tearing open the small bag she began chewing on the dry bland pieces of kale. Her foot tapping made a small echoing noise in the empty halls, outside she could hear the excited yells of everyone else. Walking over to a window it looked like she had a perfect view of every one that was in class that day, Toji and Kensuke (she let out a sigh of relief) were playing a pickup game of soccer with some other classmates.
Shinji and Rei sat alone together watching them sharing a small bag of cookies but the only one she didn't have eyes on was… Nathan! Was that why he was still in the building, her fingers instinctively shot to her hair, by now it was long enough to where with no effort she could pull it halfway around her face and cover one eye on each side.
She still remembered that poem he had written that Toji had read to everyone, the teasing from the girls was remorseless but then again they did sound just a tad jealous that they didn't have their own poetry writing stalker. Your red... she remembered that one line, was he talking about her red hair? Oh, no it couldn't be him could it? What was he expecting from her anyways?!
No! She yelled at herself, scrunching her face she remembered all those innocent looks and sneaking glances that Nathan had given the first child, how he looked so small and nervous whenever he did so. And the way her ugly eyes looked when she looked to him or Shinji she couldn't help it she growled, why on earth would the two of them pay attention to her only!
What did that pale, disgusting albino have to offer that she couldn't offer as well or even out do her in. Just then a thought rang in her mind that twisted her guts making her drop the bag of chips and run to the bathroom, she didn't know it, but she still was carrying the balled-up paper note in her hand. She didn't stop running until she had barged into a stall and emptied out her entire stomach into the toilet bowl.
How long were the three of them here without her? Her mind had flashes of the three of them all together, wrapped around one another, maybe that's why they only seemed to have eyes for her! That little blue haired slut was probably doing them both and with her nature she was probably happy to be shared by them at once, the more the imagined the three of them all together the sicker and angrier Asuka got until she couldn't vomit anymore.
Turning her attention to the sinks she rushed over and punched her reflection, but the plastic cover stopped her from connecting fully with the glass, "Damn it! Damn them!" she yelled clutching her bruised fist. Slamming it next to the sink she looked to her reflection, what on earth did the first have that she didn't? Any of the losers here would be lucky to be seen with her, they'd give anything on earth even to have a picture of her to spank it to or show off and say "Oh she's my girlfriend but goes to a different school."
Besides out of everyone here Shinji's at the bottom rung of the ladder so he should be groveling at her feet thanking her for offering herself to him. She was the best-looking girl in school, she was the most mature girl in school, she could take on any of the guys in a fight, she could do it all, SHE WAS ASUKA LANGLEY SOHRYU!
She was out of every guy's league at this dump of a school so why was getting rejected time after time by shinji DOING THIS TO HER?! But why REI OUT OF ALL THE GRILS HERE WHY WERE THOSE TWO MOUTH BREATHERS FOCUSED ON REI?!
Her hands popped up her chest, that stupid homunculi Rei was practically flat chested compared to her, and Asuka knew she had the best ass. Even in those gawdy ugly school swimsuits she felt the eyes of every guy on her, and she'd never admit it but she'd intentionally make her curves pop out more, in fact she had gone so far as to get one size smaller so she would appear even fuller.
She could get a tan, her skin was better than that plain porcelain was stuck in and speak of smooth, sometimes Asuka couldn't help but touch it herself, softer and fuller hair she had it all! So why were they into a plank of wood!?
Why is she losing to that doll, a fucking doll, Why, why, why, why, why WhY, wHy, wHY, WhY, wHy, Why, WHY,WhY, wHY, WhY, WHY WhY, wHy, wHY, WhY, wHy, Why, WHY,WhY, wHY, WhY, WHY WhY, wHy, wHY, WhY, wHy, Why, WHY,WhY, wHY, WhY, WHY,!?
She screamed inside her head, gritting her teeth she shut her eyes, banishing that weak trail of thought before it led her down into places she didn't want to go to or return to after all Asuka Langley Sohryu wasn't weak. She returned to a calmer state of mind but she was still huffing as if exhausted like she had just run a marathon.
Her head hurt so much, she felt run down, drained and… depressed. She sighed looking back up at herself thinking where did everything go wrong, to her it was probably just before she even arrived in Japan but once her foot got off the boat nothing seemed to go her way at all.
Chasing after Kaji had led her nowhere other than him calling her a child, and she had to have Shinji help her kill her first angel, and ever since then whenever she could should've been front and center it seemed like she was never able to live up to the myth she had built herself up to be in her own mind.
The worst and most recent thing though were how her synch scores seemed that now it was falling down like a meteor, this was all she had! As far as she knew the only thing, she could count on besides herself was Unit 02 and already it looked like that fantasy was crumbling apart.
What would she do if she lost the ability to pilot? This was her sole reason for being alive, to pilot the Evangelion and defend humanity, if she couldn't improve her scores there was no doubt that she'd get taken off the roster and then another nameless jerkoff would take her spot… and then Shinji, Hikari, the others, even Rei and Nathan would want nothing to do with her. She'd be a nobody. Nobody would need her, then what would she do?
She looked to the note in her hand and remember the days when it seemed everyone was giving her one, well every guy and even the occasional girl but Asuka didn't swing that way. How all of them loved her sapphire eyes, one boy even offered to pay her millions of yen just for a lock of her hair. But then it happened… they saw the real Asuka… when she tried to befriend Rei.
That was when the notes slowly started to stop trickle in… they saw who I really was, and now nobody wants anything to do with me, except this guy. Asuka let out a small smile opening the note. Somebody still wanted her. She was feeling better giddy even, holding it to her chest she saw the few words that K had written.
Today, during recess or lunch, I'm all yours cutie- K
She closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths, almost as if she were meditating. In her head she repeated her mantra, over and over again going over it and etching it in her mind like scripture.
"This is it, You are the greatest, You are Asuka Langley Sohryu, nothing and nobody stands in your way!"
Her body no longer shook with fear or anxiety, a half smile that stretched to her ear over-took her face, "I'm back." She said to herself, walking to the door she gripped the handle firmly tapping her fingertips on it, "The moment you open this door girl, the new Asuka's born. Forget Kaji and forget Shinji, you never needed them, you'll make them sorry for rejecting you. Whoever is behind that door you'll show him what sweet rewards await those who never abandon, reject or refuse Asuka Langley Sohryu."
Yanking open the door, Asuka strutted down the halls, head up, shoulders back and back straight. She walked up to the floor with the abandoned classrooms, as she neared the storage room her pace slowed down but still, she promised herself that no matter what happened behind this door.
This old weak Asuka who cried over Shinji and Kaji pushing her away would be dead.
Only the old confidant take no prisoners, need nobody Asuka would emerge again.
A new beginning, a new Asuka she thought to herself staring at the Door
She still had time to walk away, she could just walk away she thought to herself but as her hand moved of its own accord grabbing the handle, she saw Kaji and Shinji rejecting her, she saw Kaji wrapping his arms around Ms. Misato and saw Shinji with Rei and Nathan all three guys ignoring her. Then again it seemed like Nathan either hated her or just had nothing but full apathy for her.
But then she heard Dr. Akagi's voice belittling and teasing her for her falling synch scores, and those secret dreams she had, the ones where she wore a long white, shoulder-less wedding dress while Kaji or Shinji lifted her up and spun her around surrounded by a group of people congratulating them shattered.
"Good riddance." She muttered.
She slid the door open, stepping there she shut the door smiling. There was a loud click as she turned the lock in the silent, still and inky black room. There was nothing she could see besides the outlines of desks and tables stacked up on one another. It almost felt like that clicking lock could be heard throughout the hallways, she slowly made her way past the mystery black objects, only the smallest slivers of light ate their way into the room through the ratty old plastic blinds.
Just as it seemed that she was in the middle of the room, the teeth grinding screeching rattle of the blinds being lifted shook her, turning to the source of the noise she was blinded as light flooded the room, just before she shut her eyes she saw the millions of dust bunnies dancing in the air and a figure sitting on a desk beside the window.
"Ah! What the hell close the blinds, I don't want anyone to see me here!" she shrieked, she only heard a slight chuckle and the loud clack of the blinds falling close. "Heh, Sorry about that I just thought you could use something to ease up." Mystery guy twisted the blinds open just a smidge, enough to let light in so she could see who he was. It wasn't Kensuke or Nathan thank god, but she didn't know what his name was.
She had seen him around class or playing rugby with the other guys but usually it seemed like this mystery guy was always in in-school suspension.
"I'm relaxed enough, don't do stuff like that."
"Oh, I'm sorry girl don't worry it'll be the last time."
Asuka looked at this Mr. Rugby guy, he had light bleached hair that kinda stood out everywhere in tangles, he had a sharp nose and smooth facial features, her heart skipped a beat at how good looking he was and if rumor were true he was the oldest student in the class, being held back two years or so.
He was definitely taller than any of the other guys and more muscular, he smiled at her as he walked over, taking one hand he brushed a stray strand of hair from her face. It was only then did she find her voice, "So what's your name?"
"Kazuo… Kazuo Yamada. And you are… Asuka… Langley… Sohryu the hottest girl in school." He said slow and sultry tapping her nose playfully, Asuka felt her heart skip a beat as she saw his shirt stretching over his slightly bulky frame. He was hot she had to admit, and if she had to be with someone from this stupid school it might as well be the hottest guy at school
Her eyes danced around and saw that he had a pad and chair pulled out to the center of the room, she wondered what made him want her so badly, it wasn't just the fact that she was hot but there had to be something else right? Maybe it being the end of the world just made people care less and want to live up more, it would definitely explain the far wall of the room where she could vaguely make out several lines of two names separated by an X.
She let out a shaky sigh, this guy didn't have the suave coolness of Kaji or even the pleasant soft features of Shinji. But he radiated something else that made her attracted to him, and he gave her a feeling that he would never refuse, reject or be intimidated by her.
Before she knew it he had backed her up into sitting down at a desk, she felt his hand touch her cheek, her eyes were wide. Smiling down at her he rested both hands on either side of her waist pressing forward and kissed her, her eyes went wide as she felt him start to stroke her hair. Asuka's shaking hands rested on his shoulders and she began to feel his bulging muscles. Feeling the heat, he radiated, pulling away he looked at her slyly.
Her hands trailing down his muscles she swore she could feel his heartbeat through them, it was slow and heavy.
"You know for a second there, I wasn't so sure the most desired girl in school would show up here. I thought you'd be more of a girl who would just want to be chased. Yet here you are."
"I'm here because I want to be. Besides it's not like I think you're hot or anything!"
"Your voice says otherwise." He whispered in her ear and yes her voice was wavering at his presence.
"Well show me then… show me that I think you're hot. Show me what a real man's like." Whether it was his musk or that smoky cologne he was wearing burned her nostrils making them flare but she couldn't stop taking in his scent, for a second her mind became bombarded by pictures she saw herself and Shinji kissing, and him rejecting her, not looking at her.
"She me that I am the most wanted girl in this dump of a school!" she saw herself in her plug suit, wind blowing through her hair back when it was longer, fists on her hips radiating confidence. "Show me that I'm wanted."
Even though those words left her mouth in her own mind they all sounded like the words of a little girl, and all she saw was herself as a child crying to be looked at and after. Clutching her tiny dolly surrounded by tall adults with hazy faces that all just ignored her.
She whispered to him intensely, "Show me."
He gave her an odd look before raising an eyebrow and tilting his head, time slowed down for Asuka. Her heart thumped in her ears, Kazuo let his hands drift to her hips, and he pulled her in closer, she let out a small yelp. But his body heat and muscles comforted her, "Anything you want gorgeous."
He kissed her, and the small gasp she tried to let out was muffled by his lips pressing into hers and his tongue slipping in and wrestling its way onto of hers, that small gasp turned its way into a moan as she pulled him in closer to her.
As far as she could remember, affection and Asuka were never used in the same sentence, the most affectionate she had ever been up until her drunken night with Shinji were the hugs to Kaji. For so long she had tried to press that side of herself, keeping those feelings and urges locked away until she found that one person, she could trust to bestow them upon.
All this closeness and physical contact were new for her, but now this moment compared to those ones long ago was a totally different beast. Everything he was giving off to her overloaded her senses. It was only when she felt two hands work under her skirt and grip her butt did she fully melt into his touch, and decided to do whatever he wanted, openly her eyes just a bit saw his were barely open… he was looking at her.
xxxxx note the next chap is gonna be NSFW just a heads up, and after that there will be one last NSFW chap that's gonna have an alternate version that more clean for people who don't want to read that kinda stuff, this part's almost coming to a close thanks for hanging in there xxxxx
