Three months. It's been three months since Emma's birthday party. Three months since Rachel found out about Ross's feelings. Three months of Ross waiting for her to call and tell him how she feels. She hasn't called. Well, she has called. But mostly just to give updates on Emma and let him talk to her.

Emma is starting to talk. She has been a little slower than some of the other babies Ross knows but now she's really catching up. She's not quite saying full sentences but she's getting better. Ross tries to think about how much progress she's making during their calls instead of wondering if Rachel will say something about her feelings. She never does.

Ross is so frustrated. He doesn't know if it's with himself or Rachel or Phoebe or anyone. He just wants this whole thing to be over. He doesn't want to be in love with Rachel. He loves Rachel but he doesn't want to deal with all this wondering.

He was actually doing pretty well before he found out Rachel knew. He was on the right track to getting over her. He still had feelings for her, of course. But he was feeling better about everything. He knew that he had to get rid of his feelings and move on because she would never feel the same way. Now he doesn't know what he needs to do. He doesn't know if he should wait for her to say something or if he should just assume that she doesn't feel the same way and move on.

But he can't move on. Not until he knows. That's what he hates the most about this. The not knowing. He doesn't know how she feels or what she's thinking and that kills him because he just wants to be with her. He wants her to know that he wants to be with her and he wants her to want to be with him. And maybe if she just told him she didn't want that then he could get over it and move on. Maybe he could meet someone else. He could fall in love with someone who loves him back and wants to be with him instead of just wondering what Rachel wants and how she feels.

Ross wants to call her and just ask her. He knows he shouldn't. There's a good chance that wouldn't go well. Like Phoebe said, she needs time to think about it on her own. But it's been three months! How much longer does he have to wait?

He wants to go to Paris and just tell her how he feels and have her say she feels the same way. He wants her to come back with Emma and he wants them to be a family. And if that can't happen he wants to know so he can just get over it. This whole thing is driving him crazy.

Later that day, Rachel calls again with the Emma update. Things are going well. Emma's talking more. Rachel found a play group for moms and kids Emma's age. She's making friends.

Ross is happy Emma's doing well of course. But he really doesn't want to hear about Emma for once. He wants Rachel to tell him that she knows about him and Phoebe chasing her to the airport. But she doesn't.

She seems like she's about to end the conversation and Ross can't take it anymore. He can't take another one of these awkward goodbyes. Every time he hangs up the phone after calling Rachel, all the hope he had that he had that she might say something about what Phoebe said goes away and he has this horrible sinking disappointment. It gets worse with every phone call.

"Okay." Rachel says. "So I'll call you in a few days."

"Okay."

"Alright. Bye." she says.

"Bye." Ross says. He closes his eyes. "Wait."

"Yeah?"

Ross doesn't say anything for a moment. He's pretty sure that he'll end up saying he forgot what he was going to say and hanging up. But he doesn't.

"I know Phoebe told you about what happened at the airport. She told me not to say anything to you and to wait for you to say something but you haven't said anything and it's driving me insane." He stops and waits for an answer but when he doesn't get one he continues. "I'm in love with you Rachel and I just want to know how you feel about that because I'm just so tired of wondering what you're thinking. So please just tell me. How do you feel?"