Ninth part : talks
Song : Vancouver Sleep Clinic – Someone to Stay
One month ! Already one month with my plaster ! Two weeks left and I would be freed from it ! I was so hurried to be free again. And also to go back to work. Even if I had focused on my health for the past four weeks, I was more than ready to come back to SWAT headquarters and catch those Szcenik cousins who had almost killed me.
Street had told me the case was deadlocked. The mayor and the attorney were pushing Hicks and Hondo hard. As a consequence, the atmosphere in the team was tense. The cousins had vanished since the explosion and no one had ever seen them since not even their wives who were under surveillance.
I could feel at what extent Street was nervous when he came back home each evening. He always needed a few minutes to let go all the stress and anxiety and became the man I was best friend with. I always trie to prepare something to eat to make him think to other things… Except the nights he was with Molly. Those nights I'd rather order a pizza and watch an action movie! When we were together, we watched movies and played cards.
My ribs were aching less and less, my head was perfect but my left arm was still a pain in the ass! Doctors said it was normal. It would be still hurtful for a couple of months. That was why when I would be back at SWAT I would be assigned to the control room and could not go on the field. It was hard but I knew it was for my best and the best of my team. I had to be 100% able when I would be back on the field.
No way to talk about my left arm to the others and especially not to Street. When I had joked about this at the hospital, I thought he was becoming crazy! And he was too stressed because of work. And also because of Molly. I couldn't say why by the way. But something was unclear about these two. I had never seen her since he was staying at my apartment. It was weird… But he didn't say a word about it and it was definitively not my business…
"Damned arm!" I wa thinking of him for the whole night. Tonight, the pain was darting. I didn't know how to place it. And I so focused on it that I didn't even understand a thing to the movie. I tried to stay impassive. I didn't want Street to see I was aching. But I could see he was staring at me and I was embarrassed. I had to be more discreet.
He asked me a lot of questions. Too many questions. I didn't like questions. They were bothering me. I knew it was because he was worried about me. But I didn't want him to worry about. I just want him to be there with me because since the explosion, I had been feeling very anxious when I was alone, especially at night… Of course, I would never say that to him too!
I was probably not very convincing when I told him I was fine because he finally dropped the thing which ran through his mind for too many times : . "Chris, I know your arm hurts like a hell. You don't need to hide from me. Not after all we've been through. Not to me. If there's someone you can trust, it's me…"
I couldn't look at him in the eyes. I really wanted to but I couldn't. What if he saw the way I was feeling about him. I could feel he was looking at him. After a while, I couldn't do but look at him. Our eyes locked for what seemed to be hours… I was crying, my arm was hurting like a hell. I knew he understood my pain. He was the only one who could. And I was happy grateful to him for that. We understood each other with no word. I just nodded and smiled at him.
As we spent more and more time together, we were more and more knowing. Deac went to see me from time to time but he was so busy with his kids as Hondo with his dad. Tan and Luca were the ones who came the most often when they were on their days off. Street kept his time for himself and went to see Molly. I loved spending time with these guys because we always had a lot of fun. Luca always brought me food from his food truck and OMG it was so delicious.
We spoke about the case (which was getting nowhere these days), the success of the food truck, Tan's girlfriend, Bonnie. We teased Luca about Kelly's mother. Even if he didn't a word about her, Tan and I knew he had a hell of a crush on her. He was like a high school boy who tried to hide his crush to his mom but every time we told her name, he was blushing!
Weeks passed and I was one week from removing my plaster. It was such a relief! Soon, I could be back to work. I couldn't go back on field for months but just the fact to be back to SWAT headquarters and help my team from the control room was enough to make me happy. Soon, this explosion and all that came with would be a bad memory and I could go back to my life.
The only thing I was very sad about was Street was coming back to his home… And I had to be used to leaving alone again. I was kinda used to living with him for now 6 six weeks. I didn't know why I did that but all I knew was that I wanted to know he was everything to me at this moment.
"Thank you for having my six, Street"
I was standing at the threshold of my bedroom door. I was gonna go to bed, he was making his in the sofa. He smiled at me telling me I could count on him anytime except when we played cards. I laughed. I loved playing cards with him! He was even better at being bad player than I was!
I walked closer to him and before I knew I was hugging him. I still didn't understand what had happened. But I felt so good. I was there, he was too and I couldn't stop thanking for everything he had done for me since the explosion. I could feel the tears dropping from my eyes. I kept my head down for Street not to see even though I knew deep down he knew.
That was when he stroked my cheek with his finger. It was soft. I looked at him in the eyes and we stayed here for minutes. It was like we were in a bubble. I knew it was wrong but I felt so well. Unfortunately, I had to break the moment. It was not fair, not to me, not him, not to Molly. I had my chance and I didn't seize it. "Blame on you" my mind was screaming at me.
I let him alone in the living room and went back to my bedroom. Before I closed the door, I wished him a good night.
Mine was gonna be good for sure. I felt asleep in only few minutes. Too many emotions had reached me today.
