Chapter 18: Freinds


I sat on the balcony, soaking up the sun. I breathed in the salty air. I guess this room wasn't so bad after all. It had a beautiful view and got a lot of sunlight; could be worse. I kicked my feet up looking off into the direction of the beach.

I wonder when he'd be back.

I sat up, hearing the door unlock. I watched him walk through the door. He seemed sort of surprised when he had seen me. I noticed a bottle in his hand, and he'd noticed that I saw it. He hid it behind his back. Like a child who had gotten caught doing something, they weren't supposed to. His skin that was usually pale had a bit of color to it. We were just there, looking at one another. I huffed and stood on my feet. Walking over to him, I took the bottle from him and set it down on the dresser.

I looked up at him. "Can we talk?"

"S-sure."

He was probably surprised that I wanted to speak to him. Probably because I've been ignoring him this whole time.

I sighed. "Let me start by saying I'm sorry. I've been acting very childishly these past few days. I guess I still have some growing up to do too. I was acting all weird and you didn't even know why. I should have just explained to you what was going on. Instead of behaving the way that I was. I shouldn't have been men to you or ignored you. I guess that whole thing had just caught me off guard."

"The kiss you mean."

I avoided his gaze. "Yeah," I said.

"I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have done that to you. I just confused things. I made a -"

"Mistake." I'd said.

I bit the inside of my cheek. There was that stupid word again. I played with my thumbs as I reminded myself that this was the time to apologize for acting like a brat. Not to argue some more. I just wanted my friend back, and I felt like this awkward apology wasn't doing much.

"Kagome I-"

I shook my head cutting him off. "It's fine don't worry about it. No more talking about the past. Or about the stupid kiss, or what had happened. We can let bygones be bygones and just go back to normal. We can be us again. Deal?" She asked holding out her hand to me.

He grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me closer to him. I felt my breath hitch in my throat as he looked me dead in the eyes.

"I don't think I can do that Higurashi."

"What? Why not? We just did the whole apology thing."

"I lied. That kiss was far from a mistake Kagome."

"Now I'm confused."

He took my chin in his hand.

"Let me make it clear for you then."

His eyes were closed and he was inching closer to me.

What the hell?

I put my hand up stopping his lips. I shot up to my feet, my hands flying to my hips

"What do you think you're doing?!"

"Trying to explain things," he said nonchalantly.

"By kissing me again!? Isn't that what got us into this mess the first time? It's not okay to play with people Sesshomaru. We are not toys and you can't just play with us whenever you feel like. If you feel like making another mistake, go find another woman to make it with. God, I thought you were better than that, but I guess I was wrong."

He put his hands up. "Kagome you have this all wrong."

"All wrong? How could I possibly have this all wrong? It seems like you think I'm going to sit here and-"

"I have feelings for you."

I just stood there looking at him as if he was crazy. I wasn't sure if I had heard him right. I slowly sat down on the bed.

"I'm sorry. Come again." I said.

He gave ma a small smile. "I have feelings for you Kagome."

"What?" I asked in disbelief.

"For someone so smart you can be a daft woman. Should I spell it out for you?"

"Oh shut up," I said, throwing a pillow at him, which he caught.

"So that kiss..."

"Wasn't a mistake." he finished.

"So then why would you say it was?"

He shrugged. "You freaked out when I kissed you and I thought that I had ruined our friendship. So I was just trying to salvage whatever was left of it, but it seems like I messed that up too. A while when you'd said the word mistake. Your scent had changed. It smelled sad... so I just jumped to conclusions and assumed that you had liked the kiss; me saying it was a mistake had hurt you somehow. So, was I right?"

"Is this why you moved out? Because of your feelings... for me?" I asked completely dodging the question.

He leaned forward. "You didn't answer the question Higurashi"

I shrugged. "Well, you didn't answer mine."

He smiled. "I asked first." he shot back.

I folded my arms. "Oh please grow up."

He scoffed. "You've lost all the right to tell me that. Ms. I'd rather ignore you than talk about my problems."

"That's a mouthful," I told him.

"I'm still right. About this and about what I said a second ago; aren't I?"

I looked out the window. "I don't know. Maybe I did sort of, kind of like it."

I looked back over at him because he wasn't saying anything. He was just sitting there with a stupid grin on his face.

"What's so funny."

He stood, walking over to me. I looked up at him as he towered over me. It was if he was looking through me. I could feel my heart thudding in my chest. This silence was unnerving. He cupped my cheeks with both hands. Leaning over he touched his nose to mine, staring at my lips. The anticipation was killing me.

"You seem unsure about this. So, do not worry. I will not kiss you. Not until you ask me to." he whispered.

He was in complete control and I was at his mercy, and that scared me; I've never felt this feeling before. He let his hands slip away from me, straightening himself up. He put some distance between us, and I could breathe again. He extended his hand out to me.

"So, until that time comes. Friends?

I took his hand and shook it.

I smiled. "Friends."