All right, things are gonna get heartwreching rocky moment, grab tissues I couldn't help but cry while writing this imaging the emotions and pain. anyway on with the story, plz don't be shy to leave a comment, I'm not gonna feel any kind of way if I loose a follow or fav or both, if you don't like my work, it's cool no pressure at all just don't have second thoughts so much.
A few days went by and Selene had shut herself in her home taking care of her horses, advoiding Lucifer at every chance she got, doing so had cause Lucifer to start acting out. The one day she went to Lux she saw him happily making out with another woman, naturally Selene promised to never get jelious of his life style, but now somehing had changed inside of her. It broke her heart completly still holding herself together she hung out with Maze since she enjoyed her company instead of Lucifer.
(Flash back Dr linda/ Lucifer moment earlier that day)
"What seems to be the problem Lucifer? You seem troubled?" Linda said looking at Lucifer studying him as he sighed,"It's Selene, I...I don't know why she has been acting weird, she hasn't texted me in a few days, well, I mean not since the accident at her bar leaving her business closed for a while." Linda had to pick her words carefully not letting Lucifer know just what she has been up to and what is wrong since she knew Amenadiel was helping her out since she reached out.
"As your tharapist I can't fully disclose anything she tells me, but as your friend I can say that Selene is fine, emotionally struggling over alot of things like you said," Lucifer gave her a confused look listening, "She had to close her business, that is a emotional struggle to make such a choice, but she's just struggling with alot of other things right now, I wouldn't worry too much." she said.
Lucifer Looked unsure of things,"Tell me Lucifer are things going alright between you two, I mean this is the longest commited relationship you have been in, I am proud you have lasted this long in such a big step." Linda sounded curious as she studied Lucifer,"Well, I sopose things are going quite well, sure we both have been busy, I just don't understand why she's hiding." he looked down at his drink and Linda masked her sympathy, "Do you believe this might have something to do with the prophecy? have you told her about it?"
Lucifer nodded,"Yes, she knows about it, I don't beleive that is the reason for her distance from me...unless something has changed in her because of this." he said coming to realization had him now alert, "Have you ever told Selene how you feel about her? She has told you exactly how she felt before, but have you? I don't beleive we have ever discussed your feelings towards Selene since your now together, as a friend and thrapist I would like to know how you feel." She looked at him seriously as Lucifer took a drink thinking on her question.
"I do care about her, she's...different from other women I have had in bed with me, she has seen my devil face, it's just...hard to tell her exactly how I feel," He said has his fingers drummed on the glass Linda can tell when Lucifer was struggling trying to find the best way to say what is on his mind and feeling. " Without her near I'm fine, perhaps I can admit, I have been abit...lonely without her around to be with." Linda didn't look surprise she actually dose know everything wrong with Selene, her and Amenadiel have visited her ranch house when she requested them and sworn them into keeping things a secret.
This request was going to be hard to keep a secret around Lucifer, as oblivious as he is when it comes to understanding the hidden meaning behind most words,"Have you ever concidered her feelings in all this prophecy situation? As a friend I have to speak up, Selene is worried about the prophecy more so what is going to happen to the both of you," Lucifer looked as if he had a realization over the fact he did it again, he disregarded others feelings especially when he was remebering when he hurt Maze by not telling her about the plan to go to heaven.
"Oh...Oooh, dear me I've seemed to have done it again...," he quickly sent her a message for her to come see him tonight at Lux,"I simply must fix this right away the last thing I ever want to do is hurt her, still not sure on the whole evil- shall-be-released part yet." Linda nodded listening to Lucifer fixing her glasses,"Yes, that part is what worries the most, but what about the rest of it?" She asked watching him closely having her undivided attention. She was least trying to find something out for Selene to talk to later.
"We can talk about more another ti-me" She let out a pained moan holding her belly she took deep breaths and fixed herself up," Alright, I hope that you both make some big porgress on your relationship, this is a important healthy step for cou-ples, what ever goes on between you two I must warn you it can go either way soon as you find out each others feelings, make sure no one disturbs your moment alone with her, you both need some privacy." Lucifer nodded he was going to make sure the date night was going to be very important night for the both of them up in his penthouse, excluding the sex he needed answers and he hoped to get them.
(Flash back ended)
Lucifer watched Selene and Maze from a far laughing and getting along, he felt his pride increase to know they are getting along with a growing saddness once he realized what he had been doing infront of her. Making out with another woman infront of her, he felt like a ass he should have broken the habbit by now for Selene, to only have her and no one else like a loyal boyfriend should, he did make a decleration to her family, he felt guilty for not upholding his end of his word.
He sipped on his drink watching them ignoring the other women he had with him in his booth, he recalls what he was feeling remebering all the times Selene has flirted and grinded herself on people when she performs. He was jelious untill she was all over him before he got to flirt with her, it was as if she knew he was, or that she dose give fresh faces attention too, and she did all night to every song she sang and made her rounds at her job. Selene took notice out of the corner of her eye that Lucifer was watching her from a distance enjoying herself with Maze.
She did respond to Lucifer via text that she was going to be at Lux anyway to hang out with Maze, when he asked her for a date night, although she did agree to it all he was doing now was waiting for her in his club to be ready. Selene was laughing really hard with Maze, it made him curious to know what the ladies were talking about that was so funny. He was having urges to get up and find out, but then with Maze involved he learned to stay out of it as much as her jokes were really naughty. He hoped she didn't forget the fact that he wants to have his time with her, not that he was really complaing happy to see them finally getting along.
Selene caught sight of Lucifer out of the corner of her eye and smiled at Maze,"Thank's for a amazing time Maze we gotta have a girls night like this more offten." Selene smiled fixing herself up in her tight foux leather one shoulder bodycon purple metallic mini dress, with laced leggings and in actuall heels instead of boots was a big surpise on him. He was caught off guard by this he knew she always dressed in westren boots. He grew suspicious of this change not sure why she has changed herself, it made him wonder if it was a mood thing or something, he's lived with Maze enough to understand what a female is in he mood to wear especialy to a night club hoping to get lucky.
Selene got up when Lucifer caught her gaze as he followed suite to getting up to head for the elevator, Maze was no idiot to what was happening with the two lovers. Lucifer was first to the Elevator hoping to go up to his penthouse before she did to make sure everything was perfect, but Selene showed up beside him not long after he awaited for the elevator. "Hello, Luce." Selene greeted him with a warm smile, he was sure to sence she was hideing something and he had to know what it was. "I'm glad you can make it, darling, I've made extra sure no one will disturbe us tonight, I want tonight to be a special night." He kissed her hand as the doors to the elevator opened up for them to enter.
When the arrived at the penthouse Lucifer walked out first making sure all the food was perfect, Selene made herself comfortable on his couch,"Listen um Lucifer, I-I'm really truely sorry I've been neglecting you," She said stepping into the elevator with him, "I didn't mean to do it it's just...I- I've been going though alot." She said as Lucifer poured them a drink and prepared some food he had cooked that were her favorites. Lucifer smiled at her when he brought everything she could ever need next to her as if he was out to spoil her completely to make her happy.
"Don't you worry about a thing love, I completely understand you 100%." Lucifer said as he pulled out his remote to play some love song based country music he had worked on for their date, Selene smiled at him warm and loving as ever for all the effort he put's into his penthouse dates. Selene had to keep smiling and act like everything is alright, her gut told her she was about to be interrogated by Lucifer, and she knew he was like a human lie detector, or he knows when somone his holding back and hiding something.
As much as his charms didn't work on her she knew the next method had to be obvious, this date he was going all out to have with her, he sat down infront of her,"I'm glad that you have joined me tonight, Selene, I've missed you and yes we both have been busy and we let work get between us." he said with a plate of food for her. Selene felt the guilt bubble inside of her getting to the boiling point slowly but surely, "I'm glad as well, Luce, and your right work has put a strain on some us time, but now we can finally have it I'm happy to do so." she said ting to keep calm over herself.
Lucifer Looked at her his brown eyes locked in on her, studing her body language, knowing she was holding back. "Darling, whatever is on your mind, just know nothing will change how I feel about you, not even the whole prophecy ordeal." He said wanting to have her open up to him, she didn't know what to say so she remained silent and enjoyed her food."I know and I want to I'm just not exactly sure how to go about it." she said absentminded as if she was dazed or not payin attention, well for the most part she did answer him, he wants to crack her vulnerability wide open and express herself.
"What's holding you back?" He had to ask knowing something was holding her back by the sound of her voice, he still has alot to learn about the human emotion but he could tell there is something wrong and he aims to find out."Nothing is. Well, besides just knowing how to to explaine what I'm so stressed about." she said as he was somewhat dissapointed, she was a tough nut to crack. At this point he wish his charms would work so he could compell her to tell him everything. He studied her the whole time while she ate her share of dinner,"Well, there is something I would love to say but I rather hear what you have to say." he smiled at her warmly.
Lucifer could see the pain in her eyes, struggling to just give him a answer, she knew he was reading her, studing and figuring her out,"Why not just tell me what is on your mind Luce, I enjoy hearing about yourself and what is on your mind." she said looking out into the city lights from the balcony, Lucifer kept his eyes on her and he huffed as he began to speak,"Listen, Selene, I want to appologize for how It was unfair of me to not have been keeping my word to break my habbit of sleeping with others, for that I am sorry." Selene looked at him with pain and sadness.
She had to tell him even if she was to hesiatate doing so,"Don't worry about it Luce, I'm fine about it we both are just so busy really, well not so much for me now that the bar is closed untill I get new furniture. Everyone is gonna be struggling untill we can open up again, on the bright side everyone gets a vacation from working." she said softly she sipped her drink as it was now or never to come out and say it.
"Lucifer, you know the last thing I ever want is to hurt you, and beleive me it's hurting me as well, because I'm about to hurt you with this news." She bit her lip as her voice cracked as she was trying to hold back her feelngs,"I can't help you anymore..." she said closing her eyes she put her head down, Lucifer was confused but remained silent to let her speak."b'cause I-" Selene got emotional biting back a sob he saw tears threaten to overflow in her eyes, he awaited to hear her answer he wanted to hold her hand, Selene took a deep breath,"I'm the one we been looking for." Her eyes glowed when she looked at him.
Lucifer felt stunned as he knew she wasn't lying, he watched her eyes close and when they opened, they had a silver glow to them, Asariel's eye's. He couldn't beleive it the fact Selene was part of the prophecy as well, this news caused his world come to a crashing halt. He was utterly speechless as emotions flooded his sences, the one human who he enjoys being with was a carrier of celestial power, he didn't know how to feel at this point. Anger,built up with pain in his chest from a broken heart he could only blame his father for this manipulation, it killed him inside to know she had been so strong till now to protect him from pain, yet she herself caused herself pain by coming out and telling him.
Guilt flooded his sences as he had to hug her tightly, he had the need to comfort her,"I'm sorry I wanted to say something sooner, I just didn't know how to break it to you. I'm still trying to wrap my head around it myself, to think I've been a normal human all this time. " she said refering to her powers she sniffled,"I can't handle this..as if my life hasn't gone upside down..now I don't know what to feel." she had hint on anger in her tone as he eyes went back to normal she tried to calm down, He was shocked and silent.
Selene sighed heavily rubbing her eyes,"I'm not good enough for this I know I'm not. I don't doubt myself it's just...I don't deserve this." Lucifer's face softened,"No...no you don't deserve this, I don't like that Dad just used you this way, but I also should have also taken your feelings into concideration with this-" Selene's eyes returned to normal and she stopped him,"I should just go, after all we are going to have to stay away from each other as planned when we find out who was the vessel, just to prevent the prophecy from ever being complete." she said pushing herself out of his hug with ease.
"None of us are at fault here, Lucifer, I wish this was all in my head as a hallucination... well, at first I thought it was, then it turned out to be not in my head, I'll figure out some way to deal with this, I'll get the hang of things in time. It's gonna be rough road for me, but I will be alright in due time." There was the strong willed woman he admired frowning as she had pushed him away from his hold," If there is one thing I know, is that your a strong willed, cunning, brave, beautiful young woman, that has overcome so many situations, and I have no doubt you can over come this." he said taking her hand before she got away, he didn't wan't her to leave.
Lucifer had her look at him,"We will have to be apart untill we figure things out it's going to be hard for the both of us," He said as he had some saddness in his voice, she listened to him and nodded," You shouldn't have to carry the burden alone." He couldn't wait to yell at his father for this, he was upset with him more then anything at this point that now Selene's life was pritty much ruined that things are never going to be the same to them anymore. He didn't want to let her go, but for the sake of the prophecy he had to, Selene slipped away from him to have one more drink, sighed then left.
Once Lucifer was alone he went on a anger rampage growling darkly he looked up to the sky, his eyes glowed Red,"You...you BASTARD! WHY?! How could you put her though that, That was uncalled for, Dad." He growled at the sky shaking with anger,"How could you put such pain on her using her to hurt me, News flash for you, Dad, it worked! Blessing human with celestial powers, tearing her life apart little by little? If this is punishment for the both of us," he shook his head looking up,"She didn't deserve to be, I hope there can be a way to fix things and make her completely human, I never want to see her so upset with herself again..." his voice croaked as he got very emotional, holding back the stinging angry tears.
Lucifer huffed heavily as he needed to calm down, went to his bar to grab a bottle and ashtray and his glass, and got himself set up to just stay in for the rest of the night. He hated it all, the fact that Selene was pawn in this mess as well, she had no idea about it and this began to worry Lucifer, deciding to stop the prophecy, or let Selene fullfill what she was ment to do. This was starting to tear him apart to the point he didn't stop drinking. He wondered if this is what so called" broken heart" feels like when it also felt like a break up at the same time. He had to get her back some how he wasn't ready to let her go just yet.
He felt low himself after realizing, he had been using her for his own selfish need, she didn't deserve that either, but strung her along, and yet she had treated him with kindness, and just as she was here, she had been trying to protect him all this time even if in the end it didn't help to do so anymore. His thoughts on everything was infuriating him, it angered him so bad that this was kept from him once he realized she had aready gone to Amenadiel for help this whole time, out of fear on how he would react to her delema.
Part of him wanted to chase right on after her, but he couldn't do so, to see her look at him with pain and sadness and regret, pushing the issue forward will put her in hell bound emotional state. that was one thought that narrowed his eyes, the idea of her dragging herself down she would end up in hell, that was one thing he couldn't allow her to do. He pulled out his phone and looked up a florist to have some flowers delivered to Selene. Just cause they couldn't be together didn't mean he couldn't send gifts to keep her smiling, even if it would hurt her at the same time. He paused before he went though with the order, he was being rash about this. Lucifer sighed and just decided to give Selene her space, she was emotionally a mess and he wasn't much better at this point.
He drank and drank like the way he did after he killed Uriel, but now he had no one to break him out of this buzz he was working on tonight, but he was taking things really rough, he spent the rest of the time hiding in his penthouse not wanting to be bothered doing everything completely possible to get comepletly tore up on drugs and alcohal. When all was done he looked as if he was ready to come undone he looked like he did when he didn't sleep durring the whole Angel of San Bernadino case.
Meanwhile, Selene had returned home sniffling and trying to pull herself together in her bedroom she curled up in bed after drinking some whiskey, she felt lost and broken. She knew things were going to be hard for them now, the whole threat of the prophecy, and her powers, her life was becoming way to much now, part of her wanted to just pack up and move back home, but she had far too much to loose here. She can't figure out what to do now, bu no she had realized she now understands the pain, and exaustion of dealing with a break up and a broken heart.
She felt that she could use this expereince to find and sing some songs about a broken heart to sing, but at this point she didn't even want to sing anymore, she had no idea what she wanted anymore. She felt like she was stuck in limbo and she had to figure out if she wanted happiness like heaven, or pain and sadness of feeling like Hell it's self has gotten ahold of her and didn't seem to want to let go of her. If she had the feeling she was bound for Hell when she passes, she would accept it, even if it ment being tortured for all eternity and Lucifer being the warden if he ever ends up going back to hell. She turned her phone off and put it on charge before she finished crying herself to sleep.
(Selene POV thoughts)
God, I have never experienced pain like this since I woke up to the news Mom died in the crash, What am I going to do now?
(Selene POV thoughts end)
