Authors Note: Wow. Writing this chapter was a rollercoster. Welcome to that adventure. For those of you who wanted Seth to get the girl give me some feedback. This is all about the blossoming of a potential relationship. Enough feedback and it might continue. So let me know what you think in the reviews.
As Always Happy Reading.
I woke in Seth's arms. He must have opened the window last night. The air flowed into the room bringing with it the scent of rain. I cuddled into him. His warmth is the only thing tethering me to the conscious world.
"Waking up?" Seth yawned.
"No" I responded. Not wanting to break this moment of peace.
"Not yet?" Seth responded. He pulled me closer to his body. His hands brushing my bare skin. I shivered into him. "Do you want to talk about what happened last night?"
I froze. The memory of feeling trapped needing to run. I could feel my cheeks growing red with embarrassment. That was childish of me.
"Sorry" I spoke through my tight throat.
"I found you distraught. Soaking wet. Crouched in the base of a tree." Seth spoke with intense emotion.
I tried to move away from him. He held me tight.
"Why?" The pain in his voice was palpable.
"I need to run. I needed to move past an emotion. I know it is childish of me but on the island when I needed to change how I was feeling I would run. I guess I did that last night out of habit. Im sorry." I told him.
"What was your plan?" He asked agitation in his tone increasing.
"Just to run off the emotion" I told him.
"Oh and that is why I found you" his voice cracked "like that."
I rolled in his arms to face him. The agony in his face made my heart stop for a moment. I could not think of what to do. I just knew I needed that expression to disappear.
Pulling my lips to his I kissed him. Needing him. The warmth of this body. I rolled us so I was on top of him. Kissing him deeper.
He pulled me to him. Needing me as much as I needed him. We lost ourselves in each other's mouths. Feeling his soft skin against mine.
"Ness. No." Seth mumbled into my mouth as I tried to pull his shirt off. I paused our kissing. Leaning away from his mouth I settled my hips on top of his. I could feel how hard he was. Why did he say no if he is as turned on as I am. "We can't ignore the feelings you had last night. I don't want us to be in an emotional rebound situation. I want you. All of you. Fuck I will kick myself later for saying this to you. But, I do not want us to start this in the wrong place. I want to take you on dates. Show up to the house and have your Dad give me lectures." Seth adjusted us as he spoke. Until we both sat on the bed only our fingers touching. Both sitting on our knees.
"Oh" was all I could say.
"Oh?" Seth questioned.
"I just. Never thought about how nice that sounds." I admitted to him. When I thought of relationships I thought of sneaking around with Emmett. Not having a publicly known relationship with dates and my parents knowing.
"I want you to have the best in life" Seth brushed my hand as he spoke.
I smiled at him.
"So does that mean I can kiss you?" I asked him.
He answered by bringing his lips down to mine.
"Kids breakfast" Grandpa called from the base of the stairs.
We broke our kissing instantly. I felt my cheeks grow red. We just kissed. It was not like Grandpa walked in on us doing other stuff. I reminded my brain.
"I like it when you blush" Seth commented.
I kissed him again. This was easy. This felt right.
Getting up from the bed I noticed I was not in the same pj's as the night before. I looked at Seth.
"You got the other ones soaked in the rain. Do not worry I did not see anything. I gave you a dry set and you changed in the bathroom. Did you know you can sleepwalk?" Seth said this like it was a normal thing.
"You did not see anything?" I asked him.
"No! I promise" He told me with his hands above his head.
"Would you like to?" I asked.
"In time" He smiled at me. Walking over to the place that I stood he kissed me hard. "I will be downstairs waiting for you. Please do not make me wait long"
I watched him leave the room. Quickly I changed into sweatpants and a t-shirt. No need to be fancy today.
Running down the stairs I sat next to Seth at the kitchen table. Sue had made breakfast. Grandpa piled eggs and bacon onto my plate.
"Thank you," I said.
We ate in relative silence. Sue shot examining glances between Seth and I when she thought we were not paying attention.
"Your Mom called. Their flight was canceled. They are trying to get on the next flight but apparently that won't happen for a few hours at the earliest." Grandpa told me. I could see him eyeing his fishing gear in the hallway.
"That's okay. I was planning on having a home day anyway. If you want to go fishing you can." I told him.
"Your Mom asked that someone stay with you." Grandpa told me. That's why Grandpa was still here on a prime fishing day.
"I can stay here today and watch her," Seth told Grandpa. Sue gave her son a questioning look.
"I think Seth can handle it. If you still want to go fishing together" Sue trailed off.
It did not ever take much convincing to get Grandpa out of the house. Especially not now that Sue also wanted to go fishing. Less than 20 minutes passed and Seth and I were home alone again.
"What do you want to do today?" Seth asked.
I pulled him to the couch. "Movie?" I asked.
"Sure." The smile on his face was radiant.
He sat on the couch as I grabbed the remote from the arm of Grandpa's chair. I couldn't stop the temptation. I sat on Seth's lap facing him and kissed his lips hard. I caught him off guard. His mouth opened wider in surprise. I took advantage of it, sucking his bottom lip into my mouth.
He flipped me on the couch. Pinning me down kissing my mouth fervorously. His lips trailed down my neck. Stopping at the neckline of my shirt. Why didn't I wear a v-neck today. I wanted his mouth all over my body. It left a trail of fire in its path.
"Ness" Seth moaned.
"Yes?" I giggled.
"Why are you so evil. How am I going to ask your father if I can date you with this in my head?" The desire in Seths voice made me want him more.
"We do not need to tell Dad," I told him. Grinding my hips up into his.
"No. We do." Seth spoke as he got off me. "I don't want this to be a small thing. I want to do this right."
"Have you?" I asked.
"Yes. I have." He told me.
I processed this. It was good right? I mean I have done it too. So it is not like one of us has an advantage.
"It was with my last girlfriend. She started to notice that I wasn't growing up. Then we went away for university and we grew apart." Seth told me.
"Oh. That must be hard dating humans when you do not age." I told him honestly.
"It is. There is an entire world that they are not allowed to know about." Seth sounded saddened by this. He looked at me. "But you are allowed to know and experience all of this." He smiled at me.
"Yes I am. Born into this craziness" I let out a light laugh.
"You are allowed for many reasons. Other than your birth." Seth smilled. "So it's my turn to ask you. Have you done it too?" The kindness on his face wanted me to tell the truth.
"Yes. I have." I told him. My heart was finally able to take a breath now that the truth was out. "I am clean, I use protection. I just wanted to try it. I thought the individual I had relations with wanted me for more than my body. But, now I am not entirely sure." I could hear the confusion in my own voice.
Seth kissed me "thank you for telling me."
I kissed him back fiercely, sitting next to him on the couch. We watched the movie locked in eachothers arms.
Grandpa and Sue came home late in the evening. Seth and I had ordered a pizza and finished the third movie in the series.
"I think it is time for you both to go to sleep." Sue told us.
I yawned getting up from the couch. I hadn't wanted to be separated from Seth all day. We would move only to cuddle closer. My muscles popped from lack of use.
"Your parents should be here by morning" Grandpa kissed the top of my head.
"Thank you. Goodnight I called to them" Walking upstairs. Seth followed moments later.
"I think I will sleep on the couch tonight" He told me.
"What? Why?" I questioned.
"I want to start our relationship off right. I know we hadn't agreed to be official but, if you want to." Seth mumbled.
I kissed him "I had a great day today."
"I did too," He smiled. "One of my best days yet."
"Sleep with me tonight. Grandpa and Sue wont mind" I told him.
"My mom and your grandfather might mind if they knew we had been kissing all afternoon" Seth commented.
I couldn't argue that. "Fine. Can you stay with me until I fall asleep?" I asked.
"That would make me the happiest man in the world" He whispered and kissed me.
He climbed into bed pulling the covers back so I could cuddle into him. Breathing him in relaxed me. I knew as long as he was beside me I would have beautiful dreams.
I need to tell him. I need to tell. Flashes of what happened. Emmett and I. My heart pumped faster.
The thought of him staying with Rose.
Rose is not staying faithful to him.
The beach. Feeling his hard penis. Rubbing up against him in the water. His mouth on my breasts. Sucking my nipples.
Moms swimsuit.
The feeling of him. Him inside me. Stretching me out.
The thought of waking up next to him.
The note: I make him thirsty.
The look on his face when he stayed with Rose. He decided to stay with Rose. Uncle Emmett decided to stay with Aunty Rose.
Tell Dad or just let it go?
Do I want to stop having sex with Emmett?
*SMASH*
I woke with a start. Scanning the room I saw Mom standing in the doorway frozen in shock.
"What happened?" I asked. Looking around for the cause of the noise.
"Your father. I will be right back" She spoke fast turning and running out of the room.
I found the cause of the abrupt wake. A flower pot had been thrown against the wall. Parts of the pot had implanted itself into the drywall. White Daisies stained the floor. The impact of the pot hitting the wall caused the petals to scatter all over the floor. Little pieces of perfect flowers ruined. The life of the flower altered forever.
"Are you okay?" Seth asked.
I hadn't realised he was in the doorway. My eyes refused to leave the broken flowers. I can't fix them. They will never be the same again.
Arms wrapped around me. He pulled me to his chest. Rocking me slowly.
The touch soothed me. Only slightly. I felt like one of those daisies. Confused and altered.
"What happened?" Seth asked.
"I do not know. I was sleeping and then I woke and the daisies were smashed." I told Seth. The emotion causing my voice to break.
Seth held me to his chest "whatever it is I will protect you" Seth promised.
"You can not protect me from my own actions" I commented emotionlessly.
"What did you do?" Seth begged for the answer.
"I…" I started.
"RENESMEE!" Mom's voice shook the house.
