Title: The Masks We Wear

Disclaimers: I do not own Tokyo Ghoul, any music or anime mentioned

Warnings for extreme amounts of smut! you've been warned

Notes: Sorry for the disappearance. I've been rewatching Tokyo Ghoul RE. Well, that and I had a nasty headache for a couple days and couldn't focus on writing. Oh! and Shiargi in the last chapter is Ginshi. Hope I didn't confuse anyone.

Summary: Hikari joins Haise and the team on a night on the town to attract Nutcracker. Hikari runs into someone she thought was dead. What has become of them and what the hell is going on? Did she really see them, or is her mind playing tricks on her?

"Regular Talk"

'Thoughts'

phone calls and texts

Song Choice: Lose You To Love Me by Selena Gomez

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Hikari's POV

"Hold up, what?" I say wanting to hear this again. "I want you and Saiko to help the rest of us pass as women so we can attract Nutcracker" Haise says calmly. I sigh. 'Of all the crazy shit, why this?' I think. "Tooru will be no problem. He can easily pass as a woman. Ginshi, you can forget it. He's far too crude, even when he's not trying to be. Urie is still recovering from frame surgery. Honestly, I don't know why you humored him." I say. "He would have tried going behind my back, like he does with everything. This way, I know what's going on with him." Haise says and I nod. "And You could easily pull it off, as sensitive you can be. So, you, Tooru, and Saiko. I'm not liking your chances, Haise." I say playing with my hair, annoying habit I picked up having to deal with every new ghoul group at work. "Then, come with us" Haise says. I blink at Haise. "Seriously? I haven't been in the field for two years, Haise." I say.

"Exactly, no one will really recognize you. You've changed a lot since Hineki was born." Haise says. I sigh and look in the mirror. 'Have I really changed that much?' I think as I take a good look at myself. My once silver hair has taken on a lavender tint to it, dark enough to not look like it used to, but still light. My eyes, even though still gold amber, are darker than they used to be. My lips are more red than they used to be, probably a product of age since I'm coming up on my twenteith birthday soon. My breasts are a bit bigger due to Breastfeeding Hineki, much to my displeasure. My hips are also a little bigger, also thanks to Hineki. "Do I really look that different?" I say. "I'd say so" a voice says and I groan. "When did you get here, Eto?" I ask and look at her. 'I completely forgot she was picking up Hineki so he could spend a week with Touka and Yomo' I think as I see a big grin spread across her face.

"About the time you started oogling yourself in the mirror. Seriously, You could still make any man drool, Hikari" Eto says. I roll my eyes. "I'm a married woman, Eto. A very happily married one." I say. "Awwww You're no fun, Hikari. You're as stuffy as Hide" Eto says making me glare at her. "I didn't flirt with him, honest! I just suggested like I did with you. He basically said what you did" Eto says sitting in a chair and proceeds to spin in it. "Any news on Amon, Yoshimura, and Takizawa?" I ask making her stop suddenly. "Word is that Takizawa has been turned into a one eye ghoul and went insane. There's also rumors that there's a large cloaked firgure appearing around town protecting ghouls and humans alike. Based on discriptions of him, It's possible that he's Amon and he's now a one eye as well." Eto says.

"But in order for a human to become a one eye ghoul, a ghoul's Kakuhou has to be implanted into said human, right?" Haise asks and I nod. "That's how it normally happens to those not born one eyes." I say. "Then, we can assume that this Yoshimura is still alive too. Ghouls can regenerated with time and rest. Aogiri or whoever has him must be using him to make more one eyed ghouls" Haise says and we jump hearing Eto break the table. "Eto?" I say worried. "Damn Sasayai Shi...I...I'll kill him..." Eto says. I go over and hug Eto. "Eto, you need to calm down...I know it's hard, but losing control is not going to help matters right now." I say and rub her back. Eto growls a moment before she breaks down crying. "...You're right...but it's so hard...fighting the other me...the me I used to be..." Eto says. "Why don't we go get Hineki ready to go? He's really excited to see his Aunty Eto" I say and she giggles. "I'll be back soon, Haise" I say and he nods.

I go with Eto to the house. "So, are you going with Haise tonight?" Eto says and I can tell that she's bounced back. 'Dammit, Eto. Do you have multiple personalities?' I think. "I don't know, Eto. I haven't been in the field for some time." I say. "That's no excuse not to go and have fun." Eto says walking backwards ahead of me. 'How does she do that without running into anything?' I think. "It's business, not pleasure, Eto" I say. She giggles. "Can't they be the same thing?" Eto says making me remember one of the very rare times Hide and I met face to face at CCG since he went undercover.

Flashback Start

I was going to a meeting, with who, I didn't know. I sigh and hoped it wasn't another Internal Affairs meeting. God, I hated those. Having to scutinize every ghoul worker for the signs that they may have become blood ghouls. It was nerve wrecking, to be honest. I take a deep breath and go into the main meeting room where all the special investigators held meetings. It's dark and I can barely see. "Ok, who's the asshole? I can't see a damn thing in here" I say but no response. I sigh. 'Figures' I think and trip on a stair. Strong hands catch me. "Still a bit of a clutz, Kari" A voice says and I start to tear up. "Hide..." I say softly as if a prayer.

Hide chuckles. "Who were you expecting? Internal Affairs?" He says steadying me. I chuckle. "Good guess" I say. Hide smiles, but I can tell something is different. There's a strain to his smile as if pained. His eyes are tired and worn. "Hide? What's wrong?" I ask. He sighs. "I need you and Hineki to move. Somewhere safer. Sasayai Shi knows your location. I've been talking with Arima and we both came up with a good idea." Hide says. I try to hide my rising panic, I haven't had an attack in some time. "W...What is it?" I ask as I tremble a little. Hide holds me close. "They're finally going to do the quinx squad project. They're going to give them their own place to live in. Arima said he could convice them to let you and Hineki live with them. You'll be safe with them." Hide says and I nod. Starting to calm down, I look at Hide. "What are you holding back? I know that's not the only thing bothering you, Hide" I say.

"I've...I...They approached me to take part in the quinx project. Something about making my cover more believable" Hide says. "What did you tell them?" I ask, not shocked the higher ups would suggest this. "I weighed the pros and cons. No matter what happens to me, you and Hineki will not need to worry about money. You will fall under the same life terms the quinx squad will receive. I will be better able to defend myself. If I can defend myself better, the bigger chance I will return safely." Hide says and lets me think. "Hikari?" Hide asks. "Ok..." I say. "Really?" Hide asks and I nod. "On one condition" I say. "Anything" Hide says. "You use my Kakuhou for the implant. I'll regenerate with rest, and feel better knowing that I will be, in a way, keeping you safe" I say. "Of course, love" Hide says and kisses me.

I didn't mean for my libido to kick in, but dammit, I missed Hide so much. I deepen the kiss and slip one of my hands under Hide's shirt, and the other in his pants, causing Hide to gasp in surprise. My hand gently traced several new scars on Hide's chest. My worry, overshadowed by my libido, ended up disguarded, finding them sexy. "Hik-ari?" Hide manages to squeak out between gasps. I look up at him, my eyes darkening with arousal. "What if we're seen?" Hide asks blushing. "Let them watch. I have waited so long and remained loyal to only you. I'm not going to just stop...not when I have you looking so delicous for just my pleasure" I purr. I can feel Hide's dick twitch at my statement and I smile.

In a matter of moments, Hide has removed his pants and i have him on the center table. I kiss and lick his scars as I go lower. Hide trembles and I can feel him harden beneath me. I smile against his abdomen and lick the head of his dick earning a moan above me as hide weaves his fingers into my long hair. I continue to lick his dick as my hand plays gently with his balls. "Su-such a tease" Hide manages to say, panting. "Hmmm pot calling the kettle black, Love" I say with a small chuckle before I wrap my mouth around the head of his dick, making him thrust in surprise. I listen to him moan above me as I trace the sensitive slit in the head with my tongue before taking him in deeper. Hide's dick twitches and he bucks, making me giggle, sending shivers of arousal down his spine.

I can feel myself getting wet at his moans, his body's reactions to my minstraitions. 'That's fucking right, Hide. I'm still your boss' I think as I get ready for him to lose himself to me. I feel him stiffen and I swallow as he comes into my mouth, managing not to spill a drop. Hide pulls me up into a kiss and then switches our positions, with my back on the table. I look up at him with bronze colored eyes due to my arousal. Hide hikes up my skirt to my waist and removes my underwear, dropping them to the floor after giving them a good sniff. 'Holy shit...that's so fucking hot.' I think as Hide kisses me deeply before going lower. 'Wait...he's not...is he' My train of thought derails as Hide thrusts his tongue deep inside me. I try to stiffle my moan by bitting the back of my hand. It does take Hide long to find my G-spot and reduce me to a puddle of quivering goo. Hide's right hand's thumb finds my clint and rubs it roughly and it sends me over the edge, coming into Hide's mouth as he clamps his mouth around my opening.

I don't think I could stand if I wanted to, but I knew we weren't done yet. Hide looks at me with a predatory look as he climbs onto the table and swiftly thrusts into me as he claims my moans with his mouth on mine. I tremble but nod. Hide's hands find my nipples and start to play a little roughly with them, his hands a bit more callous from his work, but I am too lost to care. I wrap my legs around Hide, trying to get deeper and moan as he hits my G-spot over and over. I feel Hide's dick twitch and hide stiffen above me as he goes over the edge, causing me to follow. It's right about this time, we hear a soft moan from somewhere in the room and Hide quickly removes himself and pulls his pants back on as I put my underwear back on.

"Hello?" Hide says, the both of us blushing a deep red. We soon find Akira Mado blushing, caught fingering herself. She gets up quickly looking slightly embarassed, but not as embarassed as we were. "Ummm...Arima said to come get you two to discuss the move and the surgery...I...ummm...shit that was hot...I...I couldn't help but watch...I..." Akira says feeling uncomfortable. "You don't say anything, we won't" I say blushing. Akira blushes more. "Deal, but you may want to clean up the mess" She points out and we nod.

End Flashback

Eto giggles seeing my face go red from the memory. 'Dammit, Eto. Now I'm hot and bothered. Thanks, sis' I think. "Did you remember something juicy? Something naughty? Or was it both?" Eto says with her face in a shit-eating grin. "Shut up" I say making Eto giggle more. "OH MY GOD! you did!" Eto says. I groan knowing she's not going to stop until I tell her something. "You know that long table where the special investigators hold meetings at?" I ask and she nods still grinning like a cat caught in the cream. "Well...If they knew what me and Hide did on that table, they'd demand that I pay for a new one" I say causing Eto to fall over laughing. "That...That's hilarious! Don't they eat lunch on that table during meetings?" She manages to ask in between laughs and I nod, making her laugh harder. I roll my eyes. "It's not that funny, Eto" I say shaking my head. "Is...*deep breath* Too!" Eto says starting to calm down from her laughing fit.

"Hey, what's so funny out here? We can hear Eto laughing from inside." Ginshi asks. I blush more. "Nothing! Eto just likes to tease me relentlessly." I say. Ginshi shrugs. "Ok then, Saiko and I got Hineki ready since Eto was incampasitated by laughing." He says. "Thanks, Ginshi." I say and go inside. I find Hineki sitting on the couch ready to go with his backpack and holding his favorite plushie of Ika-chan. I go over and fix his scarf. "You ready to go with Aunty Eto?" I ask and he nods. "E-e-eto!" He says happily. 'Great...another thing for Eto to squeal over' I think and sure enough, a high pitched squeal is heard from Eto. "OH MY GOD! You're so precious!" Eto says picking Hineki up and hugging him. Hineki giggles. "Eto! Eto! Eto!" He says excitedly waving his Ika-chan toy around.

Eto finally leaves with Hineki and I go get a shower. 'dammit...If I'm going with Haise, I have to get rid of this ache!' I think stripping. Just as I thought, my underwear is soaked and I groan. I put them in the hamper with the rest of my clothes before stepping into the hot shower. I sigh and imagine Hide is messaging my back instead of the hot water. Using my hands, I trace my body as I know Hide would, moaning softly. Leaving one hand on my right breast, I slip my right hand between my legs, as I lean against the shower wall. Pinching my already perked right nipple, I slip two fingers instide myself and stroke my G-spot hard, hoping to get this over with quickly. I moan and rub my thumb over my right nipple roughly as I thrust my fingers in and out quickly. I finally come into my hand and sigh in relief. "Hikari? Are you alright in there? We heard screaming" Haise says and rushes into the bathroom.

I scream and start throwing things at Haise, leading up to and including the toliet plundger. Haise blushes deep red and slams the door shut with a quick "Sorry!" I grumble and turn off the shower. Grabbing a towel, I quickly dry my hair and wrap it around myself before going into my room. I go over to my door and lock it...just in case. After fixing my hair and make-up, and getting dressed, I head downstairs. Haise is sitting on the couch stiffly, looking down, with his clenched fists on his knees. I sigh, making him jump. "Haise" I say and he gulps. "I'm not mad...Just...just knock first next time" I say and he nods. "So, we going or not?" I say and he looks at me relieved. "Y-yeah" He says and I help them get ready.

When we finally get to the club, it's almost 9pm, and the place is packed. "Now, remember, ladies, flirt, laugh, let guys get you drinks, and most importantly, don't ever, and I mean ever, accept a phone number" I say and they nod as we break apart and go into the crowd. It doesn't take me long to find our target, Nutcracker. However, what I didn't expect was for Tooru to get piss drunk and chat her up. I hit my forehead and come over. "So sorry about my sister, gorgeous. She isn't good with liquior." I say and Nutcracker's eyes narrow in a smile. "She's fine. Must be exhausting having to chase her around the bars." She says. "You have no idea. One time, I found her flirting with a barstool. Sure, it was a nice barstool, but it wouldn't have worked out." I say with a wink, feeling my skin crawl.

"I'm Emma" Nutcracker says holding out her hand. "Alexia" I say and shake her hand. "And this is my sister, Mia." I say. "You don't look like sisters, if you don't mind me saying" Emma says. "She's adopted. That's what I tell everyone, but she's not. She got our mother's looks while I got my father's" I explain and emma nods. "Look, I'm not usually this forward, but, I'm going to this party in a week, and I don't have any dates. Would you and your sister like to join me?" Emma asks hope shining in her eyes. "Sure. I'm sure Mia won't mind me answering for her. Just another excuse for her to drink angain" I say and Emma smiles again handing me a card. "That's the time and where to meet me. I'll see you soon, beautiful" Emma says and leaves.

To be continued...

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Notes: So, yeah...my brain was stuck in the porn section. Sorry