Chapter 5 – Moonlight

November 30th, 2019

CPOV

I kiss her slowly, her lips part further and our tongues dance, she lets me explore her, take what I need. I can tell she's inexperienced but for some reason it thrills me. The things I could teach you Miss Steele. What fun we could have. She's completely mine in this moment. She tastes of mint and oranges, she smells like rose petals while her hair soft as silk. Where has she been all this time because I feel like I've not been alive till now. She moves her hands to my face and then suddenly her arm is around my neck with the other hand in my hair and she clings to me for life.

I break the kiss to come up for air and she takes a few seconds to open her eyes, I'm holding on to her, her knees weak and her blue eyes are full of fire. "Kiss me again." she breathes. I take her hands from behind my neck and raise them above her head and hold her wrists with one hand and hold her face with the either as I stare into her eyes, she gasps as I attack her mouth. Her response is a joy to feel. Her moaning gets a little louder as I trail kisses from her jaw to her neck tasting her. You have no idea about the things I have planned for you tonight, Miss Steele.

"Christian! I need to open the door..." she pants, and I release her and spin around immediately pulling her hips into me as her back hits my chest and she let's out another gasp as she feels my erection grind into her. I lean into her and bite her earlobe and she mewls, desperately looking for her pocket through the folds of fabric of her sari. She finally gets the key card out to unlock the door and lead us in.

Once we're inside, she leads me to the bedroom. I take my jacket off of her and throw it on the chair in the far corner. "Could you unzip my blouse?" she asks sweetly and I help her out of it. Underneath she's wearing a beautiful white lace bra, she shimmies out of her wrapped sari and it falls to the floor as a heap of fabric and steps out of the tripping hazard. She stands before me, hair falling around her breasts, blood red lips and flushed cheeks. She goes to remove the bangles from both of her hands and the choker, she's so gentle in everything she does. As she turns around to place them on the side table my eyes fall to her lower back that show a huge scar. Surgery?

I see another scar at the back of her left thigh. My beautiful Ana, scarred just like me. I get momentarily distracted and my eyes fall to the floor. She's still in heels as she walks back up to me. Her hands reach up to face and I look to her, she eyes are soft and she has the sweetest smile and she pulls me to her. I embrace her, a bone crushing hug as I invade her mouth. I want to protect her forever, I am struggling with all these feelings and she feels like balm. She breaks the kiss, her hands still holding my face.

"Christian."

"Ana."

"Please be gentle with me." Her voice cracks slightly.

I look at her for a moment. Gentle? I don't do gentle. I... I...

I had a completely different idea of how this night was going to go but I feel rush of emotion as I look back on the day she's had. I don't want to overwhelm her, I've never done this. I have no idea what I'm doing. I have to make this up as I go. Sex has always just been a means to an end for me. Just cold hard fuck to release the pent up aggression and then I move on to the next one. But here I am, being... gentle.

I look into her eyes; nod and lean in to kiss her. Slow, taking my time.

She walks us walk to the bed and I lay her down, she kicks her heels off and I hover over her still dressed, she places her hands around my face and looks into my eyes as her she wraps her leg around me and we find a rhythm. She goes to unbutton my shirt and I stop her, fear paralyzes me. She sees the look and my eyes and drops her hands.

"Is everything okay?" She asks with a small voice.

"Yeah it's fine, I just don't like to be touched." She looks confused. I continue "My chest, please don't touch my chest. My arms, neck and lower back is fine but not my chest and upper back." I realize I sound panicked.

"Okay, I won't touch you, I promise." I believe her and she raises her hands again, tentatively asking if it's okay to proceed. I close my eyes and nod. I'm unable to breathe until she reaches the last button. She doesn't push my shirt off; she leaves it on, as if to keep me comfortable and protected. I let out a breath and she pulls me to her for a hug. I rest my face in the crook of her neck, kissing her, and she whispers in my ear "I'm sorry." I feel another rush of emotion within me and I need to distract myself.

I slide down, kissing her from her neck and bringing my attention to her breasts. They are a sight for sore eyes. Her nipples struggling to escape the lace, I pull the lace cups down from her breasts and take them in my mouth, sucking and biting her. She calls out my name like a song, I continue and use my hands to explore her body and her skin is perfect, soft and supple, I can't wait to devour it. My fingers make my way and I find her panties soaking wet. I bring my face down to inhale her scent and she jumps up, eyes locked with mine, without breaking eye contact I take off her panties and trail kisses along her leg up to her thigh and then start again with the other leg. She's so ready. I can tell she's so close and she's almost begging for release as I run my tongue so achingly slow along her clit.

"You have no idea how pleased I am to see you so wet and ready for me Ana."

"Christian, please..." she begs, slightly arching her back as soon as I insert my middle finger into her. She's a goddess and I endeavor to worship every inch of her. I drink her up and she tastes fucking amazing. I wasn't always keen on going down on my subs and rarely ever did but Ana... Ana is something else. I could stay here for life and it still wouldn't be enough. My face is happily buried between her legs and I reach up with one hand to play and knead her breasts, she's so responsive and vocal, it's like a chorus. Her hands are in my hair as she finds a rhythm moving her hips as I suck her, bite her and use my fingers to pleasure her, she's so close I can feel her legs tense up and she's about to orgasm any second.

"Let go baby, just let go."

"Christian." She screams and comes gloriously, singing my name.

As she comes down from her high, I slide up between her legs, kissing her as I go towards and hold her face and she opens her eyes slowly, she looks so beautiful with a shy smile. I can't believe she's all mine right now, I kiss her and she holds on to me for life, locking both legs over me, trying create friction against me.

I break the kiss "baby, are you on the pill?" I ask realizing the clear oversight on my part since I don't have condoms. I'm so out of control here, I'm failing. Only Ana can do this to me.

She giggles and responds in the affirmative. I smile and continue to get lost in her mouth, kissing her, tasting her as we continue to explore each other all while the bulge in my pants gets fucking uncomfortable.

It's as if she reads my mind and reaches down to undo my fly and reaches through my boxes to run her hand along my shaft.

"Fuck, Ana baby that feels so fucking good." I moan into her mouth. She moans back in appreciation. Fuck she's a siren. She works to push off my pants and boxers with her feet over my legs. I feel my dick twitch further as it comes into contact with her clit. I push my hips into her and she gasps.

"Christian please... please..." she begs.

"What baby, tell me what you want." as I lick her lips and bite them.

"I want you...I want you Christian." She's out of breath.

"I want you too baby, you're mine." I moan into her mouth as I take over and we're all tongues.

"Yes... all yours... please." She answers back.

I look into her eyes, and she looks up to me with an equally intense gaze and I position myself and enter her slowly, fuck she's tight and it feels glorious. "Holy fuck baby, you're so tight... fuckkk." Inch by inch as I enter her she slowly closes her eyes, her lips part, gasping and she's out of breath and her body slightly arches off of the bed. It's almost as if she's floating and she takes in the sensations.

"Open your eyes baby I want to see you." I urge her.

We stare into each other's eyes, I get lost in the glimmering blue sapphires that look back up at me. I pick up the pace and push into her, over and over again moving one hand down to play with her clit. She moans closing her eyes... "christian... ahhhh" she says over and over again with each thrust and soon she finds her sweet release screaming a garbled version name as I cover her mouth with my own absorbing her cries. Just a few hard thrusts after, I too find my release, "Ana... Ana..." as I pour myself into her completely.

I roll off of her and we lie side-by-side, breathing ragged, staring up to the ceiling through the skylight as the moonlight pours through. I feel so incredibly sated unlike ever before.

As our breathing returns to normal a small giggle erupts from her.

"Now that Mr. Grey... was definitely an HR violation. How ignoble of you."

I laugh out loud and she follows too, we end up in a laughing fit. As we calm down, I look to her again.

"Ignoble?"

"Yes the opposite of noble?"

"How do you even know that word, did you read the dictionary for fun when you were a kid?"

"As a matter of fact I did." She giggles.

"Nerd." I say playfully.

"At least I know more words than you" she retorts.

I turn over on to her and attack her face and mouth with wet sloppy kisses and she giggles trying to fight me off.

"That smart mouth of yours Miss Steele... is such a troublemaker." I smirk.

"Exactly, you better watch yourself Mr. Grey." She snaps back and giggles.

I suddenly feel like I have a piece of her that's finally just mine and only mine from this weekend.

I start to get up from the bed. "Are you leaving?" She asks and I sense the panic in her voice.

I lie back down on her and cup her face with my hands caressing her cheek as I gaze into her eyes. She has the most hypnotizing blue eyes. They're addictive.

"No baby, I was going to go and prep a bath for us to get cleaned up before bed. I know you have another busy day tomorrow and I wanted to take care of you." I always want to take care of you. Holy fuck, Grey. What is happening? She gives me a shy smile and lifts her face up to kiss me. When I think it's going to just be a quick kiss, she goes in to deepen it and it's feels like getting high, I get sucked in and my cock is instantly hard again as I and move on top of her. She immediately opens up her legs and moves her hands down to my ass urging me on and moaning into my mouth. "Again, Mr. Grey." She says in between kisses.

She's going to unman me. She's completely in control and I feel so out of place yet safe here with her. I enter her and start to move. She moves her hands back up to my face and kisses me, taking everything I have to offer.

"Christian, harder... again... ,harder" she moans and she bites my bottom lip. Fuck she's so hot. I take her hands and place them above her head and she's completely cocooned by me. Before I move again I look into her eyes.

"Tell me you want me baby." I lick her lips.

"Christian, I want you... I want you to fuck me... please..." she demands.

"Ask and you shall receive Ms. Steele." With that I slam into her and she screams in pleasure. God she's so tight, feeling her this way could never get old.

"Oh god yes, again." I pound into her with a punishing rhythm as we both reach our release.

We come together and it's a holy experience that I never want to end.

APOV

Oh god. I've never knew I could feel this way. Christian is still on top of me, his face in my breasts as he nuzzles them and it tickles. I squirm and he looks up and pins me with his intense stormy stare.

"Something amusing you Miss Steele?" he asks as he bites my right breast not breaking eye contact.

"No Mr. Grey." I answer desperately trying not to laugh and moan at the same time.

"Good. I'm going to go draw us a bath. There is a bathtub with this suite right?"

"Yes there is, my body wash is on the counter I think." He gets off the bed and heads to the bathroom, taking his shirt off and I'm rewarded with quite the show.

"Hot damn, that's quite an ass Mr. Grey." I catcall. He laughs out loud and starts a bath.

I feel relaxed and sore but it's a delicious kind of sore. The pain from that wasn't so bad or maybe I just have a higher threshold now given what I've been through. Stop it Steele, don't go there. Move on, you're in a better place now. With someone who was gentle with you, focus on the now... I can only imagine I look like the joker from batman with my faded red lipstick but I can't focus on that. I need to pick up all the stuff and clean up a bit before my OCD kills me. I take off my bra and fish my phone out from my sari petticoat to check for messages. I see a shit ton of texts from Kiran, Kate and Mia and the resort event coordinator. I can't deal with any of them right now. I see some texts from Vishaal and I delete them without reading. Fuck off, asshole. I set my phone to charge and make sure my alarm is set for 7:30am which is so cruel given that I'll probably not be able to sleep till 4am. It's 3:11 am, I wonder how long this bath will take, I wonder if we'll get distracted again I think as I touch my lips. His kisses are so intoxicating. I've never been kissed before... and I don't think I ever want to be kissed by anyone else but him ever.

I'm brought out of my reverie as I feel arm circle my waist and he leaves a trail of kisses from my shoulder up to my ear. My body starts to hum again. I almost drop my phone and I feel wet again. How does he do that? I'm in so much trouble.

"Why do you have to wake up early tomorrow?" he asks continuing his sensual assault.

"I have to make sure the breakfast area is up to standard and go over some last minute stuff for the wedding in the afternoon." I feel him get hard behind me and my heads starts to spin. Again?

"You do too much baby. Come let me give you a bath." I feel so treasured right now. He leads me to the bathtub and it looks like heaven, the light are dim and the moonlight pours through the skylight over the tub. I quickly tie my hair up and look in the mirror to see my lipstick still intact and it's a miracle.

He sits in first and gives me his hand helping me step in in as I sit between his legs and lean my back on to him. This not only looks but feels like heaven too. I begin to relax immediately as he runs his hands massaging my body and I feel sleepy as I lay my head on his shoulder. A couple of minutes later he cups my face with one hand and turns my face to him, my eyes are barely open but he's smiling at me, I'm sure my answering smile makes me look like I'm high on drugs but he leans down to kiss me. And all consuming kiss as if he's communicating all that he is unable to say with words. He breaks the kiss and looks back at me, his expression floors me and I'm overcome with emotion. I can't cry, not right now, I don't want to say something that I can't take back so I reach up to give him a small kiss with a smile and say thank you as I turn my face back to face the front of the tub and play with the water.

"Why are you thanking me Ana?" he asks, his voice strained. He's affected too.

"For taking care of me. You were so sweet to me at GEH and then today as well when I was outside by the fire and then when we came back to the room."

"You honestly bring it out of me." He confesses. "I actually thought you were terrified of me or something." He continues.

"I was."

"What changed?"

"When you held my hand by the fire. I really needed that. I can't explain it right now but I felt safe for the first time in a really long time." My voice cracks.

He cups my face again and makes me face him, my eyes full of tears. Fuck. Get it together Steele. I can't tell him. Please don't make me tell you. Please.

I'm a walking tradegy.

"Tell me what's happening Ana, there's something bothering you, I can feel it." He looks so worried. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. You won't even have to see me again when we're back in Seattle, I promise.

"I can't talk about it right now because if I do I'll never be able to stop crying and this wedding is really important. I need to keep my emotions in check because there's a lot that's about to happen. Maybe when it's all over and I've had a goodnight's sleep we can talk about it." I offer. There, that should suffice, till the wedding is over and I never had to run into him again.

"Okay baby... do you want to go to bed?"

"Yes please, can we?" He nods with a smile.

We get ourselves dried off and settle into the resort robes. Christian slips into his boxers and gets the bed ready while I search for an oversized t-shirt in my luggage along with a pair of panties and get my dress options out for brunch tomorrow and hang them. I climb into bed and I can barely keep my eyes open. I lie down and he spoons me, kissing my neck. So this is how it feels... this is how it's suppose to be? My mind almost spirals back to that painful morning when his voice brings me back to earth and the safety of his arms.

"You should be draped in silk Anastasia." I giggle and he turns my face to him and gives me a slow and deep kiss. I almost lose myself. He breaks the kiss and gives me that intense look again. Those dark and stormy eyes, willing me to tell him everything. Please, stop. I quickly turn away.

"We're racking up the HR violations Mr. Grey." I laugh and try to distract.

He chuckles and gives me a small kiss on my cheek and I savor the contact. "Give that smart mouth a rest Ms. Steele."

I smile and slowly drift away in the safety of his arms thinking of a favorite song,

'Cause we're collectin' moments
Tattoos on my mind
I ain't even think of leaving sometimes
I ain't even think of letting go
Not even sometimes

CPOV

It's bright and warm. I feel the cool breeze on my face and I hear laughter and see chestnut curls cover my eyes. I feel the sand on my feet and hear the sound of waves. I feel her soft hands in mine and kiss them. Dance with me? She smiles. Kiss me again, she sings 'You'll remember me when the west wind moves upon the fields of barley'. Don't leave me I say. I'm here, I'll always be here for you, she kisses me and rests her head on my chest. It doesn't burn. It doesn't burn anymore. I'm safe.

My eyes open immediately. I take stock of my surroundings. It's still relatively dark. I look in front of me and Ana is facing me, curled up rest on my arm. Her face is so beautiful and peaceful as she sleeps. She begins to stir a bit and I hear her humming. I can't help but smile, she sings in her sleep. Suddenly her brow furrows and she looks like she is having a bad dream.

"No. Please... no." she pleads. I kiss her lips and tell her I'm here, stroking her cheek. She relaxes a bit but her brow is still furrowed. She's still lost in sleep. I stare at her as my mind races to find it's own peace.

I didn't have a nightmare. That was... a dream. I've never had a dream that didn't end in a nightmare. That didn't end in everything turning into a dark, rotten mess.

What are you doing to me Ana?

I somehow fall asleep looking at her again.


Authors note: Their first time together deserved it's own chapter with no external drama. That all can wait for the next chapters.

Music:

Kid Wonder - Allie X

Sometimes - Ariana Grande

Fields of Gold - Eva Cassidy.

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