Trapped:

Got trapped in the damn vent system and- goddamn it… I thought I was past this. The nightmares are bad enough but- I was stuck there and then I was back… under the rubble, I couldn't breath, felt the bricks digging into my back and arms, could smell the burning and… blood, oil…the molten metal and burning flesh. I'll never forget the smell of burning flesh.

Sometimes I smell it around Hephestus and I'm back there again, I feel the pain, I can't breath… like having brick dust in my lungs and…

They had to drag me out of the vent, apparently I started screaming but I don't remember that… I just remember barely being able to breath and my throat felt scratchy like the dust was back…

Shellshock is the technical term… a lot of boys got it after the war.

They've left the war, but the war won't leave them.

It's not just me that's got it, that's the only comfort with the Sinclair deluxe, the walls are so thin you hear them in the night.

The nights I don't sleep, can't sleep.. you hear them screaming and their wives trying to comfort them, but they aren't with their wives in that moment, no they're back in the war zone.

As cruel as it is, I like to listen… because it reminds me that it's not just me. That I'm not the only one who's still haunted.