Words Aren't Enough
Chapter 20
Hours Later
With the house to themselves the couple retreated into the living room. Lucas holding her hand securely in his lead Brooke over to the couch. The two sat beside each other.
"Are you sure things are alright between you and Astrid. Dinner was tense to say the least.?" Lucas questioned.
"It's time and getting to know each other over some girl bonding won't fix. Are you okay with her spending the night at Jake and Peyton's so soon after everything that happened.?" Brooke asked.
"Yeah i am. Jake and Peyton are basically family to us at this point. And if she needs me all she has to do is call or text but i doubt it. She is a beloved baby sitter for Jenny. I think she get's more out of then she says. Plus she's a little tired of my hovering. Which is what i call being a protective father. I don't blame her for wanting some space." Lucas said.
Brooke's face softened. "You are all a kid could want or need in a dad. Would you be open to having more children one day.?" She questioned.
"Sure i've always wanted a big family. Another kid or two would be the best. I couldn't think of a better way to live out life. What about you.? Do you want to be a mom.?" Lucas asked.
It was then Brooke's walls began to fall.
"I should of told you this before. We got serious. Said i love you. But it all happened so fast along with other life events. Yes i want to be a mom. There was a time when i thought. It would happen for me."
"I had sold my house in New York and moved back to Tree Hill. I had more money then i knew what to do with and time since my business was doing so well. I was 20 or 21 at the time. My new goal in life was to become a mother. I wasn't dating anyone hadn't dated for months."
"I decided to start the process of artificial insemination. I did the shots. Picked out a donor through what they had available. The end result was me getting pregnant." Brooke paused. Taking a breath. Attempting to push down the emotion that was threatening to bubble over.
"Let me tell you. I was never happier in my life. Only my closest friends knew about it. Nathan, Peyton, Haley. I had known them all my life. I knew when i was ready to tell the world i would have their support."
"The months went by and it all seemed to be going normally. I was 7 months along. Excitedly awaiting the birth o this baby especially since i didn't find out the gender i wanted to wait until i delivered to be surprised. I was at my store when i started bleeding and having these cramps i thought were Braxton Hicks the body' way of preparing me for labor and dellivery. I was wrong." Brooke said. Her voice breaking with emotion.
"I went into early labor. I gave birth labor on that day. My baby was stillborn. The umbical cord disconnected at some point. My child was dead. When it was all over. The doctors asked me if i wanted to hold the baby, know the gender, or name the baby. I said no to it all."
"Eventually i left the hospital. And told my friends what had happend. They tried to support and be there for me. I pushed them away as i always do when i can't handle life."
"They helped me plan the service. On the tombstone it simply read."
Baby Davis
"I had the nursery at some point redone but even then it took me a long time to be normal again. I later learned the pregnancy destroyed my uterus and with the blood loss. There was damage done that affected my ability to ever get pregnant."
"It's probably for the best i am Victoria's daughter after all." Brooke admitted.
Lucas wrapped his arms around her.
She tried to fight against his affection. She soon surrendered herself and let him love and comfort her.
When she kissed him.
He kissed her back. He stopped their kissing and locked eyes with her. Needing to know if this was what she truly wanted.
Brooke shook her head in agreement.
The two joined hands and left the living room. They walked up the stairs together and through the hallway.
Once they got into Lucas's bedroom. In the darkness and security of their love for each other.
They slowly began to undress each other. Once they were down to very few items the kissing began again.
This was seperate from their first time. It was the merging of two hearts, souls, and spririts into one.
They were gentle and loving with each other. Careful kisses and slow caresses of skin.
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