Chapter 11
Bishop and I lay on the bed together, my head on his chest, his arms around me with his hand rubbing up and down my back. "I love you." he whispers but I don't respond. He tilts my chin up and kisses my lips but I don't kiss him back. I sit up and he sits up with me. "Lanie, talk to me." he says. "I think you should stay at the clubhouse for a while." I say without looking at him. "Lanie…" he starts. "Just please go." I tell him before walking away. I walk to the living room and get my keys and purse, slipping on my shoes, I walk out to my car with Bishop behind me. "Lanie, don't do this." he says and I stop just before getting into the car. "I can't do this Bishop. Just get your things and be gone before I get back." I say before getting into the car and leaving.
I drive around for a while before pulling up to Vickie's. She and I have gotten close in the months that Bishop and I have been together. I walk in the door and as soon as Vickie sees me, she rushes to me. "Bebita, what's wrong? The baby?" she asks. "The baby is fine." I tell her and the tears start to fall. She pulls me into the kitchen and sits me down. One of the girls hands her a glass of water for me and leaves the room. Vickie sits next to me and asks "What's got you so upset?" I wipe away the tears and say "I am leaving Bishop." I tell her. "Why?" she asks, shocked. "You know about his past with Antonia? The mayor?" I ask and she nods. "She called him. She left her wife and is wanting her and Bishop to be together." I tell her. "Honey, you know that man loves you right?" she asks and I shake my head. "Vickie, I knew going into this that it wasn't going to last. I'm not stupid." I say as I look down at my hands.
We sit and talk for a little while when we hear a bike pull up. I stand up and tell her "I'll call you tomorrow." before heading to the door. I walk out as Bishop is walking up but I don't look at him. He gently grabs my arm as I pass him and I stop. "Please don't." I whisper, fighting off more tears. "I knew you would come here." he tells me and I pull my arm from his hand and head for my car again. He grabs me again and turns me towards him. Cupping my face, he makes me look up at him so I close my eyes. "Please just leave me alone." I almost beg. I feel his lips on mine again and again I don't respond. Putting his forehead to mine he whispers "Please mi amor. I need you." he whispers and I shake my head. Pulling away, I say "You should be with Antonia." I tell him. "Fuck that." he says and I finally look at him. "Fuck that and fuck her. You're my wife and you're carrying my kid. I ain't interested in her. I don't want her. I want you. I love you. I need you." he tells me as he pulls me back into his arms and I start to sob. Picking me up, he sits me on the hood of my car and cups my face. "Listen to me Princesa. You are the only woman I will ever want. I love you so fucking much and there is nothing short of death that's going to make me leave your side." he tells me. "Are you sure Bishop? I won't keep you from the baby but if you want to be with her…" I start and he stops me with his lips on mine and this time I respond. When we separate, he says "Head home. I'm right behind you." I nod but still will keep my walls up. I can't take that chance.
We get home and as soon as we walk in, I head to the shower and lock the bathroom door behind me. Standing under the spray of the shower, I start to sob again and my hands go to my stomach. I get out of the shower and start to dry off. I dry between my legs and see blood on the towel. I wrap the towel around me and unlock the door. "Bishop." I say and he hears the fear in my voice and sees me wide eyed. "Baby, what's wrong?" He asks as he cups my face. "I'm bleeding." I say and he jumps into action. "Let's get you dressed and we'll head to the hospital." he tells me and I nod.
We get to the hospital and they tell me that they are going to run some tests. Bishop is sitting on the side of the bed, holding my hand. "I'm sorry Bishop." I tell him. He tilts my chin up and says "You have nothing to be sorry for sweetheart. Everything will be fine." he says and I just nod. After a few minutes, I say "I didn't mean it." He looks at me and I say "Telling you to leave. I don't want you to leave. Please don't leave me." I almost beg as the tears start to fall again. He puts his forehead to mine and says "I don't plan on going anywhere mi amor. You and our preciosa are all I will ever need." he tells me. "What about…" I start. "She don't mean shit. You do." he tells me and I nod. "I love you Obispo." I whisper. "I love you too Lanie." he says before the doctor comes in. "We ran some tests and seems the baby is going to be fine. I can tell by looking at you that you've been under some stress. I want you on bed rest for the next two weeks just to be safe and then see your regular OB for a follow up. May I suggest something?" she asks and we nod. "I know how stressful things can get sometimes. I suggest you two take a few days and lock yourself away together. Turn off all your phones and just relax somewhere." she says. "Good idea Doc." Bishop says before she moves to release me.
Walking into the house, he helps me to the bed and takes out his phone. I hear him tell the person on the other end that he will be off the grid for a few days and lets them know what's going on. He hangs up and turns to me and says "Taza says for you to get some rest and relax and that he will handle shit until I come back." he tells me and I nod. "Lay with me?" I ask and he nods. Undressing, he gets into bed with me and lays with me, facing me. "I love you." I whisper. "I love you too sweetheart." he says as he caresses my face. "What are we going to do?" I ask. "We aren't going to do anything. I'll handle it." he tells me and I shake my head. He cups my face and says "I am taking a few days to spend with you and then I'll set a meet with her." he tells me. "I want to be there." I tell him and he nods and says "Si mi amor." before kissing me softly. I deepen the kiss as he pulls me closer. Breaking from the kiss, I snuggle into him and that's how we both fall asleep.
