-Chapter 18-
-Judy pov-
I'm trying to talk the kids away when I hear vomiting. I quickly run into the house and go check on the girls. Rachel is covered, Brittany is covered, Beth got sick too, and the other two are covered looking shocked. Oh god please help me!
"Alright I'm just gonna have to say you need to go!" I hear Shelby slam the door and lock it before getting to us "Oh my poor girls"
"Well they aren't better" I sigh as I get them out of the room "Now who's ready for a bath?"
-Time skip-
After baths Rachel fell asleep and so did Brittany. Beth isn't running a fever so we are hoping it was just food. I'm in the kitchen staring at a small pill container while Shelby is with the other two. So I thought.
"You don't have to take those" I look over at Shelby "They will only make you have to pump and bring pain"
"But it'd bring me closer to Lucy too" I look back at the bottle "I want to for her..I want to for them! Is this weird?! is all of this weird?! I feel like I'm doing something wrong something people won't like but..I like it...I'm finally a mom to her! I'm building back the walls I destroyed!...so why do I feel like I'm still not doing something right?"
"Because you haven't talked with her yet" I look at Shelby and see she's beside me now "She's still up I can watch Santana and Beth while you two talk"
I pull Shelby into a hug "Thank you" she hugs me back before we let go "I'm going to talk now"
I walk with a Shelby into the living and tap Lucy's shoulder. When she turns around I point to the office and she gets up. We walk to the office in silence and when we get there I close the door. I sit down in the chair behind the desk and she sits on my lap.
"Lucy I wanted to know how you feel about all of this...stuff that's changed and happened?" I see confusion on her face and I continue "I enjoy this because I wanna finally be able to do what I should've for years...I finally am acting like your mom! The mom you've always deserved you're finally getting..but if you're not comfortable with this then we can stop anytime"
"I am enjoying having my actual mom and I wanna keep this going" I smile and pull her close "What brought this all on?"
"I was looking at the pills Shelby started taking" Lucy is pulled away quick with wide eyes "I won't take them if it's uncomfortable!"
"No it wouldn't be uncomfortable!" She smiles "It'd be like what could've been...a restart if you will! But only if you'd want to and remember that the others are here too"
"I'll think about it more ok?" She nods and I kiss her forehead "How about we get you back out to Santana and Beth!"
I pick Lucy up as we leave the office and walk into the living room. When we get there Beth is feeding and Santana is laying on the ground looking at the ceiling. Shelby is looking at her weird but has a huge smile on her face.
"So how's everything going in here?" I look at Shelby as I put Lucy on the ground who crawls to Santana "Is she ok?"
"Yeah" Shelby looks at Santana again "I think so"
I sit next to Shelby and we just watch the duo. Lucy asks her what she is doing before laying beside her and doing the same thing. Soon both girls are silent looking at the ceiling. I've lived in this house for years what is so-oh yeah the designs. There is a diamond and cloud like pattern on the ceiling. So if you just stare it's almost like watching the clouds.
"You joining them now too?" I look over to Shelby who's trying not to laugh "Is it really that interesting?"
"Haha" I'm about to go on when I see a shadow move past the window "Keep an eye on the kids"
I get up and see more shadows run past. I run to the closet grabbing a baseball bat. I walk to the back door and open it closing it behind me. I start walking to the side with caution when I see Kurt, Mercedes, a Asian girl, and a boy in a wheelchair.
"You got 5 seconds to explain what the hell you all are doing?!" They jump and turn scared "Times ticking!"
"Ms. Fabray!" Kurt steps away from the partially covered window "We were uh-Uh we wer~"
"Looking through the windows to see the girls?" Kurt closes his mouth and at least has the decency to look guilty as does the other two minus Mercedes who's just glaring "The hell are you glaring at young lady?! You were sneaking around my property! Be lucky I noticed who you were before I bashed you with this damn bat!"
"Why can't we go in and see them?" Mercedes still has a glare fixed on her freaking face "I'm not leaving till I talk to them"
"You'll leave on your own free will now" I pull out my phone "Or by being arrested your choice! And if I see you here again before the girls tell you all I said it's ok I will not hesitate calling"
"Whatever" Mercedes walks away and so do the others but she quickly turns "No I'm not gonna leave I think your bluffing and I'm going through that back door to see them"
"No you're not Mercedes" they move out of the way enough to reveal Noah "You are leaving like I thought you all did when I left! I told you to not make this bad for me cause I'm trying to see my daughter in there damnit so don't ruin this for me! Get in your fucking cars!"
"Fine" They all walk past Noah "This ain't over"
Noah sighs before walking up to me "I'm sorry I thought they left when I did" I hear nothing but sincerity in his voice "I understand if this puts us on uneasy footing but...I just wanna see Beth and to spend time with my girl"
"Well I'm gonna try and do you a favor" Noah's eyes light up with hope "I'm going on a date with Shelby soon and I'm sure the girls would love alone time so I'll talk with her about having you babysit ok?"
"That'd be" I see tears forming in his eyes "Thank you"
"Don't thank me yet I gotta seek Shelby on it ok?" He nods smiling "Ok now go home boy I'm sure your mother is worried sick"
He nods and walks to his truck. I watch them all drive off and make sure they don't come back. I head inside and see Santana asleep on the floor, Beth asleep in a pack and play, and Lucy is being held by Shelby feeding. I can't help the little surge of mother jealousy I get. That's my baby and I should be the one doing that.
"Everything ok?" I nod and push away the anger that formed "She's almost asleep I'll work on dinner after she is"
"Yeah ok" I go to the office and close the door behind me "Come on you care about her don't get upset over that!"
I see the bottle of pills and pick them up. I look over all the instructions and warnings. Is this really worth it? I think about the 5 girls and that's enough to make up my mind. I open it and take the dosage. Shelby has been playing main mom too much. It's time I step up too.
I'm gonna be a kickass mom.
