p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"Hello! CyrusLibera here! My last update on any of my stories was on February 16/spansupspan style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt; vertical-align: super;"th/span/supspan style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;", 2019. But it was merely an author's note that was posted in my 3 Light and Dark Collide stories. My "Cyrus' Dream Book" was last updated in 2016 as an official chapter! So since my last official chapter, it has been around 4 years since a release. And I am so very sorry for that… But this post an author's note with a lot of hope! So please read! It wasn't easy putting all of this down, so it would be much appreciated if you'd be kind enough to take the time to read it. (The bold paragraph is the main point, but it is /spanstrongspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"all very important)/span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"These last 4 years have been a lot for me. When I hit grade 10 in 2016-2017, a lot happened around half way through that school year. And I had a fall-out with all of my friends. I was struggling a lot mentally, and ultimately I stopped doing everything I loved. I could get myself to draw, when I used to draw 1 picture daily. I lost interest and inspiration in my writing. I gave up on reading even though I was in the middle of a book series. I couldn't get myself to go to family gatherings or events because it drained me so much. It was hard enough to get out of bed, but I had school and, in grade 12, a part time job 3 days a week as well./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"Thanks to my sister, even though she had moved out, I got better! She noticed how bad I was becoming even though she hardly knew what was going on in my personal life at home. But she saw it was bad, and got the ball rolling for me. And it was all I needed. I came into contact with some people and they helped me out! I got some over-the-counter medication that I now take 3 times a day. (Sounds like a lot, but actually isn't. The product is also 100% natural.)/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"With the help I was receiving and the medication, I was able to pull through the rest of high school. Once I graduated (June 2019) I decided to take a year off to really take care of myself and to truly find what I really wanted to do with my life as a long term job. Soon I'll be applying to a few different colleges. And since graduation, I have had lots of time to really find myself. I finally feel like I'm myself again!/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"strongspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"And that is why I am coming back to you with renewed goals! I want to start everything over clean and fresh. So my Dream Book and Light and Dark Collide will still remain up and available to read. (For those wo haven't read them, or those who would like to read them over again) But for the time being, I will be working on small, new stories as well as more chapters for my dream book. This way I can get some practice in to refresh my skills, and still give you content as I prepare for my much larger stories./span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"I really am sorry for disappearing right in the middle of my L.A.D.C story and then proceeding to make false promises. Please understand that those promises I made were my desperate ways of trying to stay true to something until it was complete. Because, at the time, I felt like I was losing everything about myself and everyone around me. So I wanted to make something stay with me. But in the end, I didn't pull through with what I wanted./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"Now those things can be made new! And I will start over. Because there is never anything wrong with stopping, taking a break (however long it may be) and returning later to make it all brand new. And for those who may need this - Never be afraid to ask for help. Because there will come a time where you will have to make the decision of taking your life back with your own two hands, or never recover. And I encourage you to take your life back with no hesitation. Ask about medication, search up how you feel, try to find what it could be and then take the steps of making it better. If you feel like you don't know how to start, and no one will give you an answer, go to someone you know cares about you, and just tell them your feelings. I talked with my sister even though I felt like I didn't know her anymore. She had changed a lot since her last year of high school and moving out. But I talked to her anyway, and she still picked up on my condition. She set into motion what would lead me back to myself. Clinically I was diagnosed with "Mild Depression" and I was pushed aside by my family doctor. But through a hassle, I got put in to see a psychiatrist. (My student councilor recommended me to my family doctor, so my doctor finally did something and got me in to the psychiatrist) But the psychiatrist sent me away just like my family doctor had. My councilor seemed to be the only one that cared. But then, through a friend joking about giving marijuana chews (idk what they are really called) my mother thought of a place that sells over-the-counter medication for tons of things. (Sangster's is the store. All products are 100% natural) So we stopped by there the net time we went to town. And it was suggested that I use "Relora Stress Relief." I am to take 3 each day - Morning, afternoon, night. And since then, they have given me that small boost to really start progressing. I finally had the energy in myself to get up and make myself better. The medication didn't fix me though. It /spanemspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"helped/span/emspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;" but it didn't fix me. My councilor had already helped me progress before the medication. And after, I had more energy to keep going and continue to get better. The medication just made things a bit easier. And sometimes that's all we need. Don't be afraid of medication if it is meant to help you. And don't be afraid to tell someone! It feels like no one cares, but there will always be one. Keep hope, and even feel free to message me! I've been through my share, and I've had friends who have been through their share; one having been through just about everything. I am open to anything, and will be there just to vent to if you need it. :)/span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"I love you guys! And I care about you all! This time I'm going to do this right, so please keep an eye out! I hope to start posting soon in my Dream Book within a week, and possibly come out with a completely new story in the next 2 weeks!/span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"These last 4 years have been a lot for me. When I hit grade 10 in 2016-2017, a lot happened around half way through that school year. And I had a fall-out with all of my friends. I was struggling a lot mentally, and ultimately I stopped doing everything I loved. I could get myself to draw, when I used to draw 1 picture daily. I lost interest and inspiration in my writing. I gave up on reading even though I was in the middle of a book series. I couldn't get myself to go to family gatherings or events because it drained me so much. It was hard enough to get out of bed, but I had school and, in grade 12, a part time job 3 days a week as well./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"Thanks to my sister, even though she had moved out, I got better! She noticed how bad I was becoming even though she hardly knew what was going on in my personal life at home. But she saw it was bad, and got the ball rolling for me. And it was all I needed. I came into contact with some people and they helped me out! I got some over-the-counter medication that I now take 3 times a day. (Sounds like a lot, but actually isn't. The product is also 100% natural.)/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"With the help I was receiving and the medication, I was able to pull through the rest of high school. Once I graduated (June 2019) I decided to take a year off to really take care of myself and to truly find what I really wanted to do with my life as a long term job. Soon I'll be applying to a few different colleges. And since graduation, I have had lots of time to really find myself. I finally feel like I'm myself again!/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"strongspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"And that is why I am coming back to you with renewed goals! I want to start everything over clean and fresh. So my Dream Book and Light and Dark Collide will still remain up and available to read. (For those wo haven't read them, or those who would like to read them over again) But for the time being, I will be working on small, new stories as well as more chapters for my dream book. This way I can get some practice in to refresh my skills, and still give you content as I prepare for my much larger stories./span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"I really am sorry for disappearing right in the middle of my L.A.D.C story and then proceeding to make false promises. Please understand that those promises I made were my desperate ways of trying to stay true to something until it was complete. Because, at the time, I felt like I was losing everything about myself and everyone around me. So I wanted to make something stay with me. But in the end, I didn't pull through with what I wanted./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="mso-spacerun: 'yes'; font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 14.0000pt;"Now those things can be made new! And I will start over. Because there is never anything wrong with stopping, taking a break (however long it may be) and returning later to make it all brand new. And for those who may need this - Never be afraid to ask for help. Because there will come a time where you will have to make the decision of taking your life back with your own two hands, or never recover. And I encourage you to take your life back with no hesitation. Ask about medication, search up how you feel, try to find what it could be and then take the steps of making it better. If you feel like you don't know how to start, and no one will give you an answer, go to someone you know cares about you, and just tell them your feelings. I talked with my sister even though I felt like I didn't know her anymore. She had changed a lot since her last year of high school and moving out. But I talked to her anyway, and she still picked up on my condition. She set into motion what would lead me back to myself. Clinically I was diagnosed with "Mild Depression" and I was pushed aside by my family doctor. But through a hassle, I got put in to see a psychiatrist. (My student councilor recommended me to my family doctor, so my doctor finally did something and got me in to the psychiatrist) But the psychiatrist sent me away just like my family doctor had. My councilor seemed to be the only one that cared. But then, through a friend joking about giving marijuana chews (idk what they are really called) my mother thought of a place that sells over-the-counter medication for tons of things. (Sangster's is the store. All products are 100% natural) So we stopped by there the net time we went to town. And it was suggested that I use "Relora Stress Relief." I am to take 3 each day - Morning, afternoon, night. And since then, they have given me that small boost to really start progressing. I finally had the energy in myself to get up and make myself better. The medication didn't fix me though. It /spanemspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"helped/span/emspan style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;" but it didn't fix me. My councilor had already helped me progress before the medication. And after, I had more energy to keep going and continue to get better. The medication just made things a bit easier. And sometimes that's all we need. Don't be afraid of medication if it is meant to help you. And don't be afraid to tell someone! It feels like no one cares, but there will always be one. Keep hope, and even feel free to message me! I've been through my share, and I've had friends who have been through their share; one having been through just about everything. I am open to anything, and will be there just to vent to if you need it. :)/span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 21.0000pt; mso-char-indent-count: 0.0000;"span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 14pt;"I love you guys! And I care about you all! This time I'm going to do this right, so please keep an eye out! I hope to start posting soon in my Dream Book within a week, and possibly come out with a completely new story in the next 2 weeks!/span/p
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