Angst!


Hari didn't remember. It became obvious quickly that Hari had no recollection of what had happened when they were trapped beneath Reiss estate together. When Hari was drugged up while having to heal semi-naturally Annie assumed that she would casually take about their kiss not realizing all that it meant.
She had gotten Ymir and Historia married if that was any indication that Hari was completely unable to control herself Annie didn't know what was.
She had also tried to talk about how she had gotten her many, many injures. Annie had stopped her every time knowing that she would regret saying what she did when her mind became her own, but even when trying her hardest some things slipped out.
A giant snake bit a hole into her arm marking, a knife from a madwoman carved into her side, another madwoman made a carving in her hand; a dark man had shot her in the head. All things that Annie had not been able to stop Hari from saying.
But she had held out hope, figuring that perhaps somehow Hari had managed to keep that in, so when Hari had gotten her mind and body to cooperate with her once more Annie asked what Hari remembered about what happened after the battle to save Eren.
Her response struck Annie to the core.
"I don't even remember the battle ending, I felt a massive blast of heat come from the entrance you guys had gone into and then passed out. I woke up on a carriage heading back to the city and then was pumped full of drugs to help me heal." Hari said completely oblivious to how crushing those words felt to Annie.
"What did I do when I was on those drugs by the way?" Hari asked a questioning look crossing her face.
"Well… Ymir and Historia are getting married in a few days." Annie said trying to make her voice not falter.
"Oh…" Hari said shocked.
"Wait what did I do to cause that?" Hari asked after a moment.
"You slipped a ring into Ymir's pocket apparently. Ymir also said that once you get better she is going to kill you." Annie said blankly.
"Sounds fun." Hari said smiling, her smile pulled on her scar and caused her eye to leak blood and puss and Hari flinched.
"Just, give me a bit." Hari said bringing a towel to her eye to slow the flow of fluids.
Annie took that as a dismissal and promptly left.
She walked away from the room Hari was in at a fast pace before she collapsed onto the wall emotions burning through her like molten metal. Annie curled up into herself, hoping beyond hope that no one, especially Hari discovered her.
Because Hari really truly did not remember Annie's confession; she burned with anger but then froze and worked on letting it wash away. She had promised Hari that she would not get angry at her anymore when they were under Reiss estate, and she would not go back on her promise.
Perhaps she could confess to Hari again, it had only been a week not much could have changed since Annie's initial confession.
Annie slowly calmed down as that thought went through her over and over again before she got up and began heading back to Hari's room. By the time she arrived, it seemed that Hari's eye had healed, even the blood and other fluids had evaporated; how long was Annie out there?
"Hey Annie." Hari said smiling as Annie entered again.
"I need to tell you something." Annie said her eyes pleading.
"Sure." Hari said smiling as she patted the side of her bed for Annie to sit down on.
Annie took the offer and sat down on the bed next to Hari who looked at her curiously, but also patiently.
"Hari, I… love you." Annie said.
"I have loved you for so long before we even learned that both of us were Titan Shifters. I, want to become something more than friends; we don't have to have a physical relationship but I just want to be with you." Annie said excitedly.
Hari remained silent for a moment before she gently placed her hand over Annie's own. Annie looked up into her eye and saw that it was slightly wet but also full of pity.
"I can't." Hari said quietly.
"I, I don't understand?" Annie said looking deep into Hari's brilliantly green eye that reminded her so much of those glowing lights.
"I can't be in a relationship with you Annie." Hari said quietly looking downward.
"What? What do you mean?" Annie pleaded her own eyes beginning to get wet with tears.
"I can't." Hari said.
"Is it because you are older than you look, I don't care then. I don't care if you are older than Ymir I love you!" Annie said getting up from the bed to look down at Hari.
Tears ran down from Annie's face as she looked down at Hari who's own eye still was only slightly wet.
"It was their choice to be together, this is my choice as well as yours; you've heard my answer." Hari said her voice now void of any emotion.
"You gave Ymir the ring!" Annie yelled, tears pouring down her face.
It was not supposed to go like this, Hari and her were supposed to kiss again like they had done the first time.
"They chose what to do with it." Hari said her voice still blank.
Annie turned and ran missing Hari yell out a very heart bleeding sorry that contained every last emotion that she had kept bundled up when she was talking.
Annie ran and ran out of the compound and out of the city deep into the woods of Wall Rose. Before she stopped to catch her breath and sit down.
"Why?" Annie asked quietly, begging for an answer.
"Why?"
/Sorcerer/
They slowly walked around the ruins of the city called Shingashina trying to picture in their mind what the city had looked like before it had been destroyed. The architecture at one point must have been beautiful, but the culture itself; not very sophisticated.
They did not know what Reiner, Bertolt, had been made to destroy this city; they knew that they would not like the answer. It was one of the many divides that existed in their partnership; something that they knew would only hinder them in the coming battle.
But it was not there fight, all they needed to do was get Hari back, then they could return to the Wizarding World.
Hari could get some proper medical care; they had heard from Reiner about Hari's many, many scars that would not heal. It was probably not something that could be fixed with a simple healing spell either; as for the destroyed eye… well, Hari always did look up to Moody.
"She'll have the eye and the paranoia." The Sorcerer snorted at their own joke.
A Titan peaked out from behind a building, they stiffened their stance before they relaxed, recognizing the glowing red of the pupil of its eye as Zeke's mind control. It stood there for a moment motionless just looking down at them before it turned and pointed to the top of the Wall where a tiny outline of a person was standing.
They apparated to the top of the Wall where the Titan had pointed at, coming face to face with Zeke who only jumped slightly at their sudden appearance; Reiner and Bertolt who were both sitting down jumped up in shock because of their sudden appearance.
"You called me?" The Sorcerer asked looking at Zeke with disinterest, though Zeke could not actually see that or tell since their voice had gone monotone once again.
"Yes. I believe that the upcoming fight is soon at hand and I want everyone to be ready for it when it comes." Zeke said stiffly as he looked at them.
They noticed how both Reiner and Bertolt stiffened at the mention of having to fight the people they pretended to be allied with. The battle would be hard for them, considering that they seem to have actually formed a friendship with them.
"I still won't help you; I am only here for Hari." The Sorcerer said blandly.
"Fine." Zeke said not seemingly pleased with their immediate answer.
"Is that all you wished to say?" The Sorcerer asked.
"I want everyone to prepare, you as well. I have had Reiner and Bertolt go over the plan over and over again as well as have Reiner practice fighting in his Titan form; you have done nothing." Zeke said glaring down at them.
"I am well aware of my abilities, and you have seen what I can do as well." The Sorcerer said.
"Are you ready to be in active combat, with real weapons?" Zeke said slipping a knife from his belt and holding it gently in his hand looking at it as he spoke to them.
"I have been in a war before, I know how to fight." The Sorcerer said watching the knife carefully.
Zeke suddenly lunged at them, in an instant they Apparated several feet away, throwing Zeke off balance. Not waiting for him to attack again the Sorcerer sent a Jelly-Legs curse at Zeke hitting him directly and then disarmed him with an Expelliarmus.
"If you are done with that I would like to get my own problems taken care of." The Sorcerer said not bothering to cancel the Curse.
"Firstly Hari would not trust me without seeing who I am, she has been lied to too many times to simply take my word. But I don't want you to mistake me for an enemy, which really only leaves me with one option. I need to show you who I am." The Sorcerer said their voice grave.
They reached for their face grabbing onto a phantom coldness before ripping it away, a dark mist seemingly trapped in their hand before it dissipated. The magic they had used to fully hide their face was now gone the only thing remaining being the hood.
Taking a deep breath, they took it off.
/Hari/
Hari had been wandering around for several hours looking for Annie and had had no luck finding her; she was getting worried.
"Dammit, it said that in the bluntest way possible, like seriously that was the worst way I could have said what I said." Hari growled to herself, annoyed with herself.
"Hari, you are supposed to be resting still." Mikasa said suddenly appearing behind Hari making her jump.
Hari gripped the wall so surprised by Mikasa that she had lost her breath. If Hari didn't know better she would assume that Mikasa was a wizard and able to Apparate, because she had a nasty habit of appearing right next to people.
"What did you say?" Mikasa asked coldly.
"It doesn't matter to you, because it wasn't meant for you." Hari said pushing herself off the wall to get on more equal ground with Mikasa.
Mikasa did not respond she just continued to glare at Hari with her cold dark eyes; Hari glared back with her one green eye. Neither one of them was going to budge.
"What are you two doing?" Eren asked as he walked up to them.
"We're leaving; come on Eren." Mikasa said going over to Eren and trying to lead him away from Hari.
"Hay Eren, have you seen Annie anywhere, I need to talk to her." Hari called out to the rapidly retreating for of Eren; who was being pulled by Mikasa.
Eren hearing what Hari had asked pulled himself out of Mikasa's grip and turned to speak to Hari.
"I haven't seen her at all today, wait no, I did see her heading to your room this morning." Eren said with Mikasa standing by him impatiently.
"That was the last I saw of her too… I said something that I meant to but it came out wrong and she ran out." Hari said hopelessness tugging at her heart as she said it.
"I'll tell you if I see her anywhere, I will also tell Annie that you need to talk to her if I come across her." Eren said kindly.
"Thank you." Hari said smiling at the boy, only to see that Mikasa was pulling him away again since the conversation appeared to be done.
Hari watched their retreating forms with worry; Mikasa seemed to have gotten really clingy since Eren's rescue. Which in its self wasn't a problem but the fact that she kept him away from people and prevented him from socializing with everyone else was a problem.
Sighing Hari turned away from them and headed back to her room to rest.

Hari woke up to the sound of her door opening; gently opening her eyes she saw the morning sun bursting in from her window; she must have slept through the night. Turning from the window to who had stepped into her room Hari froze when she saw Annie standing in the center of her room looking down at her shoes like they were the most interesting thing.
Without a moment of hesitation, Hari jumped from her bed and ran over to Annie; wrapping the shorter girl in her arms. They stayed like that for a moment Hari hugging Annie, and then Annie gently responded with her own hug.
"Annie, I'm sorry for what I said." Hari said squeezing Annie tighter.
"You told the truth." Annie said quietly her arms releasing their hold; it broke Hari's heart with how dejected she sounded, her normal spitfire attitude gone.
"You are my greatest friend in the world, and I care for you deeply." Hari said hugging Annie hoping to get her to hug back.
"You still want to be friends?" Annie asked her voice holding an almost childlike wistfulness to it.
"Why would I ever not want to be friends with you, we have been through so much together, we are best friends." Hari said putting her hands on Annie's shoulders to look into her eyes better.
"I'm sorry that I put my feeling onto you like that." Annie said.
"Don't apologize, I may not feel the same, but it is important to tell each other things like that." Hari said.
Hypocrite!
Liar!
Her mind yelled making Hari cringe internally.
"Thank you Hari." Annie said smiling lightly.
Hari hugged Annie once again and Annie finally fully reciprocated, squeezing back equally as tight as Hari did. They stayed like that for a moment before releasing each other.
They stayed there looking at each other for a moment neither one of them knowing what to say. An awkward tension began to set between them, with both of them still unable to break it.
"Bye." Annie said taking several steps back till her hand was on the doorknob.
"See you later." Hari said smiling; Annie nodded and then opened the door and left.
Hari watched the door for several seconds before she walked over to her bed again and sat down, sighing deeply.
"I wish that I could love you Annie, but I've kept so much hidden… I can't." Hari said quietly as she sat on her bed, tears prickling at her eyes.
"It's for the best dammit, why does it hurt so much, why do I regret it so much?" Hari said slamming her fist onto her pillow.
She sighed again and shut herself off from her emotions as best as she could before standing up again.
The door suddenly opened to her room; Levi's head poked in. Hari stared at him for a moment and he stared back with his cold black eyes, they remained motionless till Levi opened the door further and stepped inside.
"My only business is in your professional life, so I cannot make you say or do anything outside of it, but I would recommend honestly, trying to keep things hidden only makes it worse for you in the end." Levi said coldly.
"You were listening to me." Hari said stiffly.
"I overheard you, I came to tell you that we are having a feast tonight, and tomorrow afternoon we will ride to Shinganshina." Levi said calmly.
"We will retake the Wall?" Hari asked.
"Yes, this is the final battle of humanity, we will win or we will die."


You thought that Hari and Annie had finally gotten together, ha nope; not yet.