This one really hurt to write. Requested on Tumblr.
"Baby, your mom's here."
She continues to keep her eyes fixed on the wall, unable to make herself move.
He kneels down in front of her, holding onto her hands that lie in her lap. His eyes lock with hers, saying everything she needs to hear without him saying it. I'm here. We're gonna get through this together. You're my world and I love you so so much. "I'm gonna get you some more tea. I'll be right back."
All she can do is nod and feel a little sense of wholeness as he stands back up and presses a kiss to her head.
The older brunette sits and waits, watching her defeated little girl bury herself deeper and deeper into a dark hole. One she almost went into herself. "You know, I lost a baby once."
She finally turns and looks at her mother for the first time since she arrived, her eyes red and her skin splotchy from crying ever since the doctor broke the news to them a few hours ago.
Julia's heart breaks a little more when she sees her girl's devastated expression. "It was before you were born. I had found out I was pregnant just days after your father was sent off on another mission. Everything was fine until I started getting these really bad pains in my stomach. I went to the emergency room and it was already too late. There was nothing I could do." Tears spring to her eyes as she relives that part of her life again. "The worst part was going through it without your father."
Tears begin to fall down her cheeks and Julia hurries over, wrapping her baby girl in her arms. "I'm so sorry this happened to you, sweetheart."
Deeks gives the mother/daughter duo a few minutes to share their grief. It breaks his heart so much that his wife is going through this. It breaks it even more to know that she's beating herself up over it, most likely blaming herself. God, he loves her so much. He wishes he could take all of it away from her.
He walks back into the living room as the women pull away from each other and Julia takes her seat back in the chair. Handing a cup of tea to his mother-in-law, he takes his seat next to his love on the couch.
Kensi relaxes into his side as he wraps his arm around her shoulder. The one thing getting her through this is without a doubt her husband, the love of her life and her entire world. He's always there for her, loving her, making her feel like the most special woman in the entire world. "I love you."
He places a kiss on the top of her head before he leans his head against hers. "To the end of time and back."
They'll get through this, together.
