It's the day of the full moon, Lydia hasn't been the same since she was jumped. To be completely honest, Lydia was terrified, the transformation already fucked up her bones, what if during the transformations her rib and punctures her lungs. She's mortified. Really she's shocked she hasn't been killed yet. Lydia isn't scared of death, what scares her is people explaining how she died, she wants to go one of two ways, a hero's death or a death where she dies of old age and has accomplished her life goals. This is why she is scared of dying through her transformations, she was scared her fathers would have to tell everyone she was a werewolf and died because her body couldn't take the pain of transforming once a month. She was afraid of not only being outed as a half-breed but also being seen as weak, she was not weak, she refused to be. Her getting jumped had an effect on her reputation, she was no longer feared, she was pitied, along with hated but she figured it was better than being the girl who set three slytherins on fire or having them freeze to death, she knew her side of the story wouldn't get told with Parkinson's complaining about a bruised eye, Lydia just let herself get beat up she also wasn't at full strength but nobody needed to know that.

"Mind if I come in?" Lydia was ripped from her thoughts by Fred, of all people. "How did you get up here?" "I'll answer your question if you answer mine." "Please sit." Lydia gestured to the other side of her bed.

"I have my ways is the answer to your question."

"Gee so helpful."

"Alright what's got tarantula girl down?"

"Do you think I'm weak?" The question was out of the blue and Lydia didn't realize what she was saying until she had already said it.

"Absolutely not, what brought this question about?"

"It's just been on my mind since the whole Parkinson and Greengrass thing."

"Lydia, you are of the strongest, smartest, and most talented person I have ever met, and I don't even mean just physical strength, this shit that you're going through right now? The whole father in Azkaban thing, I could never even imagine dealing with that, especially as well as you have, and if you aren't feeling well, well you're hiding insanely well. I don't think you should have to hide it though, it's okay if you aren't feeling well, it's understandable, it's reasonable."

"I," Lydia sighed deeply, "I'm scared."

"Of your father?"

"No, never, I'm scared of myself? I guess. It's just what if one day I get really angry and I burn those girls to death when I just want to cause them pain. Am I a bad person?"

"No! Lydia, you are a great person and you want them to feel the way you did, it's a natural emotion."

"I can't have natural emotions because when I do, people get hurt."

"Okay stop having your emo breakdown and listen to me. Your entire life you have been teaching yourself to control your powers, have you not?"

"I've been teaching myself how to suppress them."

"Well it's the same thing,"

"Not really,"

"Just listen to me. You know how to control your powers, Remus and Sirius would never let you hurt someone if you did get angry."

"Sirius isn't here to stop me."

"But Remus is."

"I guess,"

"Lydia you can control it, I know you can."

"I'm scared they'll come after me again, what if they catch me, when I'm not weak, when I've bottled so many things up so much that everything just explodes and I can't control it."

"You worry so much."

"Always be prepared." Lydia let out a sighing laugh.

"Is that a muggle thing?"

"Yes, yes it is a muggle thing."

"Okay, well anything else you're scared about?"

"How do you want to die?"

"What kind of question is that?" Fred laughs, this is just Lydia's humor, she wouldn't hurt Fred, no he's not even going to attempt to think like that, Lydia's a good person. She's not her father, her father isn't the man on the front of the Daily Prophet.

"It's just, I'm fine with not living until 200 or whatever but I don't want to die by werewolf or something, I would want to die a hero's death or live until it's my time to kick the bucket." Lydia explains.

"Yeah if I don't live out to the full extent of my life I guess a hero's death doesn't sound too bad, hey if I die before you and we are young, promise me you'll live a life that I'd be proud of?"

"Promise, would you do the same for me?"

"Absolutely, hug?"

"I guess,"

Lydia accepted the warm embrace from one of her best friends, maybe Lydia could lead a normal life without the fears that weigh her down.

"I have to get going, I was worried about you, haven't seen you in the dining courts in a while, wanted to make sure you're okay,"

"Yeah, the house elves are good to me here." With that Fred laughed and left, yeah everything was gonna be okay.

- Y'all remember Prisoner of Azkaban, I'm skipping the scene of the kids finding out about Remus but they also find out about Lydia everything happens the same except Lydia is added in.-

Sirius had gone to court of his escaping and his alleged actions. He was acquitted and given a nice portion of money that he put into Lydia's trust fund because of course Lydia had a trust fund. They were the third richest wizarding family but they sure as hell didn't act like it.

They could go back to being a normal family but Lydia felt as though her fathers were hiding something from her. She was going to find out what it was even if it was the last thing she did, okay well now she's being a little dramatic but you get the point.