Toby and I walked hand and hand with Han and Finn as we walked through the strange castle. In the middle of the square was a large statue of a mixture of a mouse and squirrel, but it was majestic and looked serine and kind.

"That's Maz," said Toby, when he noticed me staring at it. "She has owned this place for a millennium. The statue was a gift from his husband. He died in action defending this place from the Empire."

From his grandfather, I thought. I looked at the statue. She looked noble, happy, and fierce. All around me were aliens from different planets, bartering and trading, drinking, and having a good time. The castle had a cheery and welcoming environment, and it was unlike anything I had ever seen before. Something inside of me was aching to explore.

"Maz!" cried Han.

I turned from the castle to see a tailless squirrel four feet nothing wearing pilot gear coming towards us, arms outstretched. Despite her small statue, Maz had a big personality, I could tell.

"Hello Han, Toby," she said, giving Han a hug and Toby a kiss on the cheek. "Where is Leia?"

"She is with the resistance," said Han. "That is what we came here to talk about."

"Who is this?" she said pointing to Finn and me.

"They are Finn and Rey. They have joined the Resistance and are helping me on a mission from Leia."

"Good. Now, where is my boyfriend?" she asked with a grin.

"Chewie is working on the Falcon. It was a bumpy ride," explained Han.

"I like that Wookie," she said with a grin. "Come, Come," and lead the way into the castle, as we followed her.

The castle was about fifteen degrees cooler, when we entered it, and I shivered despite myself. Toby put his arm around my waist, and drew me into him.

"Conserving body heat," he said with a sly grin.

I smiled back and his grin widened. Behind us, I heard Finn snort in derision. I looked back to see him scowling at us. Why? Is it because he has never seen people flirt before? Maybe we should not be flirting while we are on a mission.

"Should we be doing this?" I whispered to Toby, "We are here on business."

"My parents flirted all through the destruction of the Empire. How do you think me and my brother got here? You got to mix business and pleasure, or you will have no life at all."

"You want a life with me?"

Before he could answer Maz interrupted us. She had led us to what looked like a headquarters room, with a round table and several low chairs. "So what can I do for you?"

"The First Order is tracking us. We need to get to the Resistance, in an unmarked ship," said Han.

"I see. I think the best thing is to give you one of my corrialian VCX-100 light freighters. It's smaller than the Falcon, but it is clean and it will get the job done. Also, I have an Outrider, very similar to the Falcon, but also smaller. One of them is your best bet."

"We will take the VCX," said Han.

"We can get it ready, and you can leave in the morning."

We all got up from the table and I realized that Finn was missing. I did not want to raise the alarm, so I grabbed Toby's hand and said, "I'm going to go explore. I will be back later."

"Want me to go with you?"

"No, you help your dad."

"Okay, see ya soon," he said and gave me a squeeze. I squeezed his hand back. I suddenly wanted him to kiss me on the cheek, but that was ridiculous, so I went to go find Finn.

I weaved through the chaos that was the cantena, and as I was looking around I noticed how nice this place was. There were hardwood floors, nice lighting, the people were not getting obnoxiously drunk, or fighting. Maz ran a clean cantena.

Finally, I found Finn talking to some people at the edge of the bar. As I inched closer, I could make out what he was saying.

"How much?"

"Depends on the destination," said the man he was talking to.

"What are they talking about?" I wondered.

"I have got to get out of here and away from the fighting between the Resistance and the First Order," said Finn.

"WHAT!" I thought. "Finn is a resistance fighter! Why is he running away?"

"The best place for that is the Outer Rim," said the man.

"Then pick a planet and get me a passage there," said Finn.

"You will love Tatooine, sir," said the man handing Finn the ticket. "Beautiful gardens, gigantic forests, lovely mountains."

"Yeah. Yeah. Just get me off this rock," Finn said. He turned around and looked me straight in the eyes. I saw shame and shock come over him as he saw he was caught.

"Finn, why?"

"Why?! Why?! Because I worked for the First Order, Rey."

"What?" But he was a Resistance Fighter. He told me.

"Rey, I have seen what Kylo Ren can do. First hand. We don't have a snowflake's chance in hell. Seriously, we don't have a prayer."

"So your abandoning me?" I whispered. It was like a knife twisted in my chest. He was leaving me like my parents left me with Plutt. He did not think I was worth sticking around. I was not worth the risk of dying. I was unworthy.

"I am not abandoning you. Come with me, Rey," he said, his eyes bright. "We can be together."

"What?" I said. I don't want him. Do I? Do I want Toby? I don't know what I want.

"I'll protect you. Come with me," he said, and held out his hand.

Go with him, and leave Toby, leave BB-8, leave Han. Abandon my new family, like my parents did me. I swatted his hand away. "Go to hell," I spat, and turned on my heels and ran.