Hi,
Types here :)
I want to apologise for pretty much abandoning this, but I want you all to know that I am trying to keep writing.
Over the past couple of years, I've been through what will forever remain to be the worst breakup I've ever had, my grandmother is facing terminal illness, I've started struggling with addiction again, I've been mistreated by a doctor when I had to be treated for meningitis which has lead to PTSD and physical issues, and I'm signed off sick from work because I'm basically incapable of being a human being... I'm going through therapy, and through therapy I found I'm autistic - which I've known deep down since I was a teen - and now I'm facing the 2-5 year wait for the diagnosis, before which, I can't actually get the help I need to thrive and... you know... not... be... depressed? Lol.
I'm really trying, and I have a few supportive friends and family, but just bear with me. I promise I'll publish something eventually, just give me time :)
Thank you so much for staying with me. I value each and every one of you.
And I also want to say, to anyone who suffers from mental illness or disability, things get better. I know they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and that's kinda bullshit because... well yeah. There's shit out there that certainly doesn't make you stronger. However, there are things you go through that do make you a better person. Things happen for a reason! Be confident in the fact that you can do this, that you will come out the other side alive, and I promise, you'll open the door one day and you won't feel that emptiness you feel now. The hole fills over time, but it's not about how much love and affection you get from others, it's about how much love and affection you give yourself.
So be kind, especially to you.
Love,
type-writes x
