Chapter: Squiggles
It was the next day and Kim finally woke up,to a splitting headache she took an asprin in the hope that the headache would subside,she lay in the pitch black darkness,she knew that opening the curtains would be a lay their in thoughts,she knew that she had probably said some awful things the previous night to Erin and she didn't know how to make things better.
Her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door and a little head popped round the door frame.
"Momma said I wasn't allowed to wake you up but you're awake so that means I didn't wake you up,plus i just had my lunch so it's not even morning anymore!" the three year old rationalised.
Ellie skipped into the room with a piece of paper in her hand.
"I wanted to draw you a picture because momma said you were feeling sick." smilied Ellie handing Kim the piece of paper.
Kim looked at the paper and saw a bunch of squiggles which she was sure were more than randomly placed squiggles.
"What is the picture of?" asked Kim
Ellie climbed onto the bed.
"It's a picture of all my favourite things like the swings at the park, Mrs Anderson's puppy, the ice cream shop that sells bubble gum ice cream and of course my flat,see i drawed an arrow so you know which one i live in." explained Ellie
Kim looked at the had indeed drawn a line pointing to a big blob shaped square which she guessed to be the apartment block.
At that moment Erin walked into the room.
"Ellie what did I say about not going into Kim's room and waking her up."
"I didn't wake her up and I knocked." wined Ellie
"It's true,I was awake."replied Kim
"See I told you." Ellie said in a whiny tone placing her hand on her hips scrunching her face up angrily
"None of that attitude please ,say goodbye to kim and get your shoes and coat, Ian is coming round to pick you up to take you all to the park." said Erin
"Bye Kim." Said Ellie as she jumped off the bed as she ran to go and get her things so she could be ready to go on time.
Ten minutes later there was a knock on the door and Ellie went with her friends and their dad to the park.
Kim got out of bed and got dressed,she walked into the kitchen where Kim was washing and drying up the dirty plates and bowles in the sink.
Erin looked up and smiled.
"How do you feel?" asked Erin.
"Rough but it's getting better,Erin I wanted to…" said Kim
"Look Kim it's fine,"
"But its not Erin I was so awful to you,I didn't mean any of it,it was like someone else was speaking and once the words started coming out I couldn't stop them,like someone else was talking over my body and controlling my thoughts and actions.I didn't mean to question your ability to be a good mom or bring up your past."
"It's alright Kim." replied Erin
"But it's not going to be alright because...I'm not alright." Said Kim
Erin put down the plates and walked over to Kim.
"But you will be alright even if you have to take it one day at a time, If I made it to where I am today its obvious that you'll be able to do it as well." said Erin.
"But Erin it was my fault,I shouldn't have gone on that case and Adam wasn't angry with me,why wasn't he as angry as me as I was with myself?" cried Kim
"How were you supposed to know it would end up how it did,it wasn't your fault, you can run different scenarios over in your head like I did wondering how you could have done things differently,you could have stopped work you need to know that it wasn't your fault." said Erin as she clasped Kim's hand.
Erin sat down on the sofa next to Kim.
Ellie skipped into the room holding her toy bunny.
"Kim are you feeling better ,momma said you were feeling sick."
"Yes, I feel better."
"Here is Mr Bunny,Ian got him for me when I had to get shots at the doctors and he always makes me feel better when my stomach hurts or I feel sick." smiled Ellie handing the toy over to Kim.
