A/N: THE LAST CHAPTER OF PART 1.
Emma felt so many emotions at once and she tried to calm before returning to Regina. She was a mess inside and needed to clean that dirt fast. She wasn't quite present when returning and Regina took her completely by surprise when she was pulled into a deep kiss without a warning.
"I am sorry," Regina said in a broken voice. "I am sorry for being so angry and ruining things but I don't know how to deal with it in any other way. You know what I wanted before even twenty-four hours passed? Sex. Because this is how I protect myself and escape from my feelings. But I can't do that to you. I won't do that to you. Because- because you matter. Because you are my everything." Regina closed her eyes and kissed her forehead. "I am sorry for yelling and being angry. I am just sensitive with photography..." she gave the girl a weak smile. "I was talking about it- I am scared to be the one to break you again. Because I am not normal, I ruin things and find trouble no matter what. I am no good for you and somehow you love me. It must be a some sick joke!" Regina laughed hysterically. "If I can't protect you from myself, promise me to go and never come back..." tears threatened to slide on her cheeks.
It all made made Emma's heart pound. It seemed like… Regina was openly telling her about her feelings at the moment. All of it. Emma, knowing how much it meant, was touched so deeply. Her eyes got glassy and she didn't dare to say a word, just let Regina keep going. But deep frown followed and Emma shook her head, cupping Regina's cheek.
"Regina, no… You are wonderful. You are stronger than anyone else I know.," Emma told her, looking so deeply into those chocolate eyes. Her own tears rolled down her cheeks. "Maybe we aren't exactly a perfect product, but who is? We are both broken by past but- but every second I am with you I feel like I've been getting whole again. If I even remember that feeling... Regina..." Emma pursed lips and pressed their foreheads together. "I love you so much… So so much… And I want to help you, however you need me to. I could go through hell with you, I would. Please, know this. I will stand by you no matter what. 'Cause you are my everything and I wouldn't give up on you. There are things we must still learn, but we can do this together. I know we can."
"Promise me, if I ever hurt you you are going to tell me. No, Emma, look at me and promise me that," Regina said firmly, holding now on Emma's chin not to let her look away. "I need you to promise me that. I can't stand it if I hurt you and you hide it from me," Regina sniffed as tears ran down o her cheekbones.
Emma didn't want to promise that because she knew that if ever that would happen, Regina wouldn't mean it. And she was too scared of what might happen if Regina realises that...
"You may not be perfect but you are perfect for me," Regina added in a whisper.
More tears fell from Emma's eyes. Her heart was just so deeply touched by every little thing Regina told her…
"I promise…" Emma barely whispered holding those wet cheeks.
Emma gently wiped those tears away and wanted to say Regina is her everything, her previous fallen star and whole world but didn't get to do that. She gasped gently as Regina's trembling lips pressed against hers.
The older woman didn't know anymore what she felt. It was not sadness, nor anger. It wasn't even happiness so she couldn't just name it and identify it as anything. Her kiss got firmer in a moment and the next she had pinned the young woman to the car her back was facing. Emma's fingers moved into the dark hair and her lips and tongue moved until there was no oxygen left in her lips. She panted as it was so intense…
"Please, tell me what you need… always," Emma whispered against those lips; their breaths melting together.
"I need you," Regina panted, holding Emma's hips tightly. She bit her lip so hard not to attack the girl's neck. It was so intense, all her emotions rushed to the surface and she hated it. She hated being this transparent even if it was just Emma. The woman of her dreams. "Now. I need you now." Her fingers dug into the jeans.
God, Emma should get used to this... That with Regina everything seemed to be so intense. Emma had to learn how to live in a little chaos. She knew one thing - she could only do that by trying on her own skin. Emma took a deep breath and nodded. No walk then…
"Do you still wanna try car?" Regina smirked seductively, her eyes never leaving Emma's lips waiting impatiently for the words of acceptance.
Emma didn't reply, just took keys and opened the car again. She moved away the front seat so they could get on the back. She wasn't sure, though, if it was wise to do this right in front of the house.
Or at all…
But Emma just locked them from the inside and hovered over Regina, moving hands over her thighs, sliding under her dress. Regina immediately grabbed on Emma's cheeks and pulled her in a kiss. She wasn't even sure if Emma was doing this just to make her happy or she also wanted it. For a while the thought didn't bother her but soon after she pulled back.
"Do you really want this?" the hold on Emma's cheeks softened as she stared in her green eyes in the dark of the car.
Emma found herself licking lips and breath in deeply. She really had so many thoughts and so many feelings. It was hard to make anything out of it.
"I want to touch you," Emma answered simply at last.
The blonde had wanted to touch her all along and she also wanted to help Regina in a way she dealt with things. Still hoping that if only she did it right, that would be enough…
Regina stared at her for a moment longer before pulling her down in a lustful kiss. This was not right and they were still in front of parents' garage but she needed this. They both knew how much she needed to feel Emma like this because her insecurities were driving her so crazy.
"Is it okay?" Emma asked, caressing smooth skin up and down.
The dress already rolled up around her hips. Emma just waited for a a nod or a single word to touch her more. How will it go, she didn't know. But she was willing to take the risk.
Regina hooked her leg on Emma's hip before it slid down from the seat. Her back arched slightly as she tilted her head back to give Emma more exposed skin to kiss and abuse in a way.
"Dont.. don't take anything off. Just grind on me."
Grind… That she could do… She gently nibbled on Regina's neck and softly sucked not to leave fresh marks. Just yet...
"Help me up?" Emma asked trying to get rid of her pants.
Regina moved Emma's jeans from her ass the her knees then pulled Emma on top of her. Emma reached to pull Regina's panties down to soon move thigh between her legs; she wasn't going to keep those on. When brunette's coat was unzipped, she shivered a bit but Emma just cupped her breasts making everything burning again.
"Stay quiet, baby..." Emma whispered and kissed Regina deeply when pushing exposed thigh against her core.
Regina nodded fast even, though a bit late but if Emma didn't kiss her deeply she would moan so loud. She never knew how to be quite at all.
"Mmm..." Regina hummed against the pink lips, moving her hips as she was pressed down.
It was when Emma felt detached from her body again. She wanted to do this... she really did. But she could not get into this right now. And last thing she wanted was to fake anything. Regina was so honest with her and it was beautiful. She didn't lie when she said she wanted to touch Regina, thought. She wanted to make her feel so good… Her hips moved to give Regina right friction but then it didn't feel like enough. Although breathless, she kept kissing Regina so deeply. Her hand moved between them and cupped Regina's sex, pressing finger against her clit.
Regina was moving her hips but something was not right.
"Emma..." she bit her lip. "Stop... please, stop." Regina closed her eyes.
Emma's stomach got tight and after a second she listened and moved up from top of Regina.
Regina didn't want it like that. It didn't feel like the way she wanted it and she wasn't getting any pleasure out of it at all. She slid from under Emma and pulled her panties back on herself. She didn't know what to say and she couldn't even look her in the eye, not sure why.
"'Gina..." Emma whispered, feeling so bad. She wanted this evening to be wonderful for her... "I'm sorry… I–" the girl didn't know what to say.
God, she was so close to tears of panic. She didn't want to disappoint her beloved. What a loser she was… Trying to hold on she moved panties and jeans back on.
"No no no, don't do that..." Regina moved close to her and pulled her into a kiss. She didn't want Emma to feel awful about this. "It's okay... It happens all the time to people." She leant her forehead to Emma's. "Shhh, my babygirl. You are my everything..." Regina kissed her again. "It's okay..." her thumbs caressed Emma's cheekbones slowly. "It is so okay…"
Emma found herself easily falling in Regina's arms. She felt the guilt either way…
"Is it..?" Emma whispered and just kept their foreheads pressed together. "I… I will relax and it will be okay when we return to your place," Emma muttered the promise and moved arms around Regina's neck.
"It really doesn't matter."
Regina pecked Emma's lips. She loved her so much, and yes, sex was a big part of her life but she wouldn't miss anything even if they never had it again. Regina loved her too much.
"How I react it extract opposite," Emma explained quietly then. "I cannot feel anything… No pain, no pleasure. Not physically at least..." It was hard to explain because it hurt and could hurt again like that night. But it was so much different kind of pain.. "I'll just… push all those memories away again and it will be alright," she promised again with a single tear.
Regina kept quite as Emma talked. She listened very very carefully.
"I understand, my love. I am sorry for not being a help. I will help you from now on. I promise you that…"
"We will help each other..." Emma tried to smile. "I may not feel like being touched, but if you want it, I am always there to do that, 'Gina. You have no idea how much I desire you," Emma said to assure her beloved about it.
"There is nothing in the world that would make me desire you less, Emma Swan. You are everything I had been looking for since I was able to want something." Regina bit her own lip. She slowly shifted pulling her dress down.
Emma smiled softly having so many emotions in her eyes.
"We should get going, love. I want to buy some snacks and soda."
"I love you so much, 'Gina… Thank you for everything," Emma whispered and touched her cheekbone sweetly before letting her get on the front seat.
Emma moved there herself and took a deep breath before starting the car. She knew that if she will enjoy the time she got to spend with her beloved, those fears will go away again. Time was healing wounds and so she hoped soon it will pass and they will come back to point they were at at the beginning of their relationship. Emma turned on the radio and began to hum softly.
Regina smiled at that and placed her hand on Emma's on the gear. Soon she joined. Emma smiled back when she heard Regina humming as well. Emma was scared things might get tense because of her but she didn't feel that coming from Regina at all. And that made her visibly relax. Her fingers began to tap steering wheel to the beat.
They were such a cute couple, everybody said, and now Regina could see what they all meant. They were so lost in eachother so they were just acting like one.
"You look so adorable when you are focused on something," Regina licked her lips. "Like a cute teddy bear.. I just wanna cuddle you tightly and never let go." She leant and kissed her cheek.
"I hope people in the theatre would mind me holding you close, " Emma smiled softly and hold Regina's hand. She felt like it as well.
"Who taught you to drive?" Regina leant her head back to window, watching Emma drive.
"David. Although, I knew the basics. Let's just say that being old enough, at times I had to try out everything. David kinda saw I preferred independence so he gave me that and I could get my license at sixteen."
"My father taught me too. He would love you so very much if he was alive. He adored strong and independent woman," Regina smiled, deeply her eyes carrying all the longing for her father's embrace. "He was what made this town, home and now you make this city home for me," she purred slowly, taking a deep breathe.
Emma looked at Regina again with a soft smile, but so compassionate. She could see Regina missed him so so much… He had to be a wonderful man from everything Regina told her so far...
"I'm sure he's still watching over you," Emma whispered and gently squeezed Regina's hand.
"Is my lipstick still on my lips?"
"Quite…"
If Regina didn't have a very good lipstick, it would most likely be all over her face, Emma was sure. Said woman took her purse and took out a little mirror with her lipstick.
"Not as bad as I thought." Regina took her red lipstick to spread it on her lips, then pressed her lips. "Better."
"Do I have any on my own lips? I always forget to check after we kiss," Emma smirked softly.
"Nah, but on your cheek? Yes." Regina rubbed the lipstick off Emma's cheek right away. "Now you look a little blushed," she chucked.
Turning back to mirror Regina checked the rest of her makeup and smiled satisfied by her look. She fixed her hair with her hands. It was such a good night, it would be. And it was their second date or so..? It was coming natural to her more than she thought.
"We will fix that when we are there then," Emma giggled as well softly. "People may be surprised with an ability to blush just over one cheek," she joked softly and glanced at Regina fixing her makeup.
They were already entering the city so hopefully they would be in the centre in five to eight minutes. Emma checked other stations and finding some song she liked she began to softly sing again. She usually didn't do that, but with Regina she just felt like being fully herself. Regina listened to it as she hummed along with Emma. She didn't want to intervene, because God, Emma sang so beautifully. The dark eyes never left the blonde's figure and soon after the song ended they were in the road leading them to the theater.
It was really working. Like nothing but this date night mattered. Seeing Regina's smile, joy in her eyes was everything Emma needed to rise in spirit and all worries could go away. Emma turned down the car and hummed.
"Emma..." Regina whispered as Emma stopped the car. "Turn to me, I'll check if you have lipstick on the other side."
"Hm?" she muttered, turning to Regina.
When Emma did, Regina pressed her lips on Emma's deeply. The blonde gasped softly in a surprise. Her then hand moved to Regina's cheek and she could help but to smile kissing her back. The tickles in her stomach were wonderful feeling…
Regina pulled back after a while with a sheepish smile, staring at Emma's lips. A thumb moved along them, rubbing slowly.
"Just a little. You should stop kissing me..." Regina blushed, still cleaning the lipstick with Emma grinning at her.
"Or I should steal you lipstick and paint my own lips. No-one will end up messy then."
Emma leaned to peck those full lips so softly. She rubbed their noses together with a loving smile before they would pull away to get out of the car and head into the large building. Regina rolled her eyes but the peck was sweet on her lips like a candy bar. She then reached back to take her fallen coat and put it on before stepping outside.
Regina instantly grabbed Emma's hand when she came by her side. She started looking for their tickets in her purse then took them out.
"Here, love," she handed Emma hers.
"Thank you, sweetie."
Emma took the ticket, with other hand still holding Regina close. They found the entrance on the audience. The young man at the entrance smiled at them politely.
"Good evening, ladies."
"Good evening," Emma smiled to the man, giving him the ticked to check.
He threw apart the edge of their tickets and nodded, "Enjoy the play."
Emma thanked him before they entered the large room.
Regina smiled, following Emma closely. When they reached for their seats.
"Emma... snacks."
"Oh right!" The girl completely forgot, thinking just to wrap arms around Regina.
Regina pouted leaning against her. She moved her head closer before she captured her lips.
"Mm, what do u want?"
"A chocolate bar, of course," the brunette grinned a bit. She tangled her fingers with Emma's for a second. "Mm and come back soon. I want you close."
"Chocolate girl... Alright, the bar and soda to drink. I had no idea you drank soda." Regina kept surprising her. "I'll be back before you know it."
Emma pecked her lips again before going back to the exit. There was store down the hall. Luckily the were early and there was no big lines. She grabbed some chocolate bars, some candies to suck and drinks.
Regina smiled as she girl left. God, she loved this girl and she didn't even know how she fell this head over hills for her. She closed her eyes for a second thinking all of it. How it started to feel Emma was some inseparable place in her life. But in no time Emma was back.
"Told ya!" Emma said with a giggle.
"Oh, you flash girl," Regina grabbed the chocolate to open it. "Oh, you know my favorite bar too?" she bit it, smiling deeply at Emma.
"You ate it a few times around me so I figured." Emma smiled, sitting down. She placed the paper mugs down and then leaned to kiss Regina's cheek. "I'd yet again risk asking you for a bite but have my own."
Emma took off the jacket and then opened her own bar. She didn't eat much chocolate and it was so good to taste it.
"You know I'll probably steal it's half while I distract you with kisses."
Regina, giggled eating her bar as slow as possible but she was such a sucker for chocolate and her period was closing up. She craved chocolate and sex, and yes, this night might still turn out very well.
"You can try," Emma snorted and moved arm around her to pull her beloved close. This is how it was - being so carefree she longer for all the connection she could have with Regina as long as it was loving. Emma kissed her beautiful cheekbone and then reached to take a sip of her drink. "We should do it more often. I love spending time with you like this so much…"
Regina blushed a little chewing on her chocolate. Emma was always able to make her blush whatever the circumstances were.
"I agree, it's such fun." The older woman rested her head on Emma's shoulder, sighing deeply. "It's starting…"
The room started to get dark and spotlights directing to the stage started to shine bright.
Emma rested head against Regina's and hold her close while her eyes focused on the stage. The play began and Emma focused on what was happening out there. Regina hummed happily and sipped her soda as they cuddled up and watched the play. She could feel some strange looks towards them, they were both woman after all and the age difference added to it.. She took one hand of her girlfriend's and tangled their fingers. She offered her soda by pressing the straw to her lips with a sheepish smile.
Emma glanced at Regina and smiled at the offer. She had to notice Emma was too lazy to unwrap her arms from around her. The blonde happily took a few sips and then kissed Regina's cheek as a thank you. She wasn't paying any attention to the people. As long as they didn't do anything, she didn't care. In the past Emma had to deal with many who liked to bully gay people. She just focused on the stage and stroked Regina's knuckled with a thumb. She would now rest head over her shoulder. Although switching positions they always kept being close.
After one and half an hour of watching it was time to leave the theater.
"Want me to drive back, love? You seem tired."
Regina kissed her cheek as they walked out of the building hand in hand. Some girl pointed them out with their fingers and they giggled, looking at their way. Regina rolled her eyes, smiling a bit. She just wanted to go back to her place and cuddle with Emma on bed.
Emma noticed those and also rolled eyes with a sigh. She tended to do the extract opposite to what people expected her to do. And so now she leaned to peck Regina's lips, making her blush deeply.
"That would be good, thank you," she said last two words in such a sweet way.
Yeah, they play kinda made her so peaceful she could drift off. But she denied to do so as the night was still young and she wouldn't miss a second with Regina.
"Gi-gimme the keys?"
Regina's fingers were trembling a little by the surprise of the kiss. Yes, they shared kisses all around people in their small town but in the city she was a little sheepish about being affectionate.
Emma smiled at Regina and squeezed her hand gently sensing Regina's surprise. Emma was just like that. At times it wasn't ending well as others read it as a provocation but now it was simple 'you can kiss me in the ass. I'm happy with my girlfriend and no-one can ruin that.'
Emma gave Regina the keys. They got in the car moments later, Regina turned on the engine and stepped on the gas.
"Do you want me to stop by at gas station to have little snakes or something, love? I don't think I have anything edible in fridge or cupboards."
"Hm, we could. Although, I have like two fists of candies here and two more bars of chocolate," Emma said looking into the bag. "But we can buy something for breakfast. There's no supermarket open at this hour here? It'd be better, I guess."
"Mm, we can have breakfast at cafe too. You know I have work tomorrow." Regina smiled staring at the road. She took a glance besides her and smiled turning back to road.
"That sounds perfect too. More time to cuddle in the morning," Emma giggled and rested head on a hand. "But we still need to get your fridge full. I'd eat some fruit truth be told." She turned on the radio again as she just loved something playing even if quietly.
"Okay, I'll stop and you get what we need," Regina smiled staring at the road. "So you don't at all have problem with publicity," Regina smiled again, blushing a bit.
"Nope." Emma blushed gently as well. "Why should I? Others get to do so much whenever they go. Why shouldn't we?" Emma shrugged softly. "It pisses me off seeing people behave like that. I'm not gonna give them the satisfaction as well."
Regina wanted to say so many things because she felt so much but she just couldn't say anything. Words were not enough to voice her deep emotions.
Regina soon stopped when she saw an open market. Were they lucky or what?
"Chop chop, love… I wanna cuddle you with hot cup of tea warming my hands," the brunette snorted before pecking Emma's lips.
"I'm a flash woman, as you said," Emma said after that peck. "I'll be back in a second."
Emma carefully jogged to the entrance. So energetic once more. She really didn't wish to wear plaster for any longer. She still had to be careful with that arm, though.
Emma picked some fruits and vegetables. Also bread and some juices and water. That should be enough for basis shopping. Around ten minutes it took before she put the bags on the floor of the car. She leaned to kiss Regina's cheek and smiled wide, putting the seatbelt on. Regina turned on the engine and pulled the gear to drive.
"Okay, let's go home..."
"Can't wait…"
To crush on the bed with blankets around them. How this night will go?Neither of them could know. However it will be, it will be perfect for sure. Emma still wanted to look at those photos with Regina. She only looked at them in the dark room. In the natural light it will be universe for sure.
Before they knew it there was there and heading up the stairs to get to Regina's apartment. Regina led the way, even though now Emma had a copy of her keys. She unlocked the door and herself in.
"Your parents will hate to for stealing you this much," Regina sighed, before taking bags to the kitchen.
"Nah they won't."
Emma placed her bag and folder on the couch after taking off shoes and then followed Regina to the kitchen.
"I'll make myself tea. Do you want anything, love?" Regina started the kettle, drumming her fingers on marble counter.
"Um, yeah, tea is fine. Would you like a fruit salad? I'd chop fruits," Emma proposed as she really felt like eating some.
"Mm, okay, love," Regina smiled taking out two mugs and two tea bags. Her hands were cold but with the boiling water nearby she was getting warm. She slowly nodded. "I can use some fruit and you..." She pulled Emma's chin with her forefinger and pecked her lips tenderly. "Mmm, mind if I change? Or you rather me in this dress..." she smirked a little.
Emma smiled and kissed her gently before Regina would pull away. She smirked softly then. Truth be told… she didn't pack any pyjamas. Either way… Naked snuggles were perfect.
"For me you can be in nothing but a robe." Emma giggled and touched her cheek fondly.
"So let me rephrase myself. You want me to take it off or you are all fine doing it yourself?"
Regina's hands moved to Emma's waist moving a step closer to her so they were just inches apart. She wetted her lips with tip of her tongue her eyes moving between her green eyes and her full lips. She gulped seemingly.
Emma licked her lips as well. She leaned closer and their noses brushed.
"What about the tea?" the girl teased softly and brushed their lips together. She hated herself but she whispered, "can we take it slow tonight? We still have lots of time."
Her thumb gently caressed soft cheek. She really needed to take steps towards it.. Regina moved a bit forward but she felt Emma's lips brushing off.
"Yes. I was just asking to be in something more comfy you see. Nothing sexual at all." Regina's hands moved up and down on her back slowly, still not moving a muscle to take her cup. The tea cups were slowly getting cold. "I'll just take my boots off then." she whispered right on Emma's lips then she stepped back. "Bring the cups, love?" She raised a brow with the question walking to her bedroom swaying her hips slowly.
"Sure. I'll just cut those fruits." Emma smiled as her eyes followed the woman.
The blonde shook her head as Regina was a walking seduction. Emma was going to really go for it. Just she needed less chaos. And by chaos she meant any surprises that may happen. And this seduction in the middle of preparations was enough. Emma thought of that quickly cutting the fruits. She added some cream to it on put everything on the tray.
"Here you go," Emma said when entering the bedroom.
"They look delicious," Regina whispered pulling cream to her forefinger then she sucked on her finger.
"I'll bring the folder," Emma said, having placed the tray on the bed.
The girl went to the couch to grab it and then she returned, just to catch Regina do…that. Lick off the cream from her finger slowly. Emma swallowed and felt the heat hit her cheeks. She put the folder on the bed and smiled at Regina, suddenly so sheepishly.
"Sorry, I reacted like that. We can change. I'd get out of those jeans as well." Emma said and already began to take them off. "Unzip you?"
"Mhmm."
Regina hummed, cream still filling her taste buds. She turned her back to Emma for her to unzip the dress. She just had lacy black underwears apart from the dress. She stood up holding on the shoulders so dress wouldn't pool on her feet she walked to her wardrobe to take a silk nightgown. Only then did she let the dress fall. She smiled sheepishly at Emma before pulling nightgown on.
Emma watched Regina and sheepishly smiled back. She folded the jeans and put them away. Then she also took off the bra and decided to stay in panties and she button up shirt she was wearing. She got on the bed then and then took the mug to take a sip.
"You look so breathtaking on those photos," Emma said softly and put the folder into Regina's hands.
Of course, she was curious what Regina will think of her work. Emma couldn't help but to now wonder if Regina saw herself like that before - all in pleasure.
Regina blushed a little sliding into bed. She was golding the folder on her lap. She slowly took the pictures out of folder.
"How many are there?"
"Um..if I remember well.. Two clothed on bed, five or six while dancing and same number on bed when you.. ya know."
"While I was masturbating." Regina whispered.
Emma nodded and blushed hard. How she survived staying away she now didn't know...
Regina smiled and looked at the pictures. God... Emma really did a great job. Emma looked at the picture but then at Regina, looking at her reaction. Nervously her lip was trapped between teeth. It looked like Regina liked first so far and a wide grin appeared on her face.
"I… I look so.." she licked her lips slowly. She was still clothed at the pictures.
"You are so beautiful Gina…" Her nose brushed against Regina's cheek and temple.
"You did an excellent job, baby." Her feet moved on her calf slowly. She never saw herself this seductive and she was sure that she looked so pleasured in next pictures.
Emma smiled the the feeling. She loved it, any contact she had with Regina. Licking her lips she looked away from the next picture. Yes, it looked so much better in a full light.
Regina moved to the next picture then. She was lying on her front on the bed. Yes, she really looked sexy. It was a miracle for Emma not to touch her at that very moment. She slowly moved her feet on Emma's bare calves, shifting to her side.
"Would you give me the tea, love?" she purred to her ear, smiling seductively.
Emma nodded and reached for the trey. She placed it on the knees and handed Regina the mug. Herself took a bowl to start the fruit salad. In a way it was just to keep hands for herself.
Regina had no idea how Emma made that night out without touching her but she was sure she wouldn't be that lucky tonight.
"I'm no professional in the slightest, but how do you see them with this other session in your mind?"
"You are good. I mean not… good. You are good. I know the pose and the light and you did excellent job taking this shot out of it. The perspective is very nice and lighting is just right. Just a little reflection back there but it's because of the mirror." Regina sipped from her mug. "You are really talented at this."
The blonde thanked with a blush. Emma listened carefully, taking in the mistakes she made. She will know what to look at next times. Was it just Regina or perhaps her amazing teacher approach that made her want to improve anything Regina could name. Then Regina moved to the next pictures, dancing ones.
"You could have let the motion seen too, you know. It gives little life to the pictures." She pointed the hands. "But it's really good."
"Key, I'll keep that in mind," Emma nodded.
The blonde took a bite of an orange and watched Regina look at the next on which she was having the shirt halfway up. The tanned stomach to be seen. Emma's lips watered as she remembered so vividly that dance… Regina had just amazing moves. Even a movement of nothing more but hand was an art.
"You can move the lighting towards the subject." Regina pointed at the picture showing few dark spots. "Not in this situation maybe but still."
Then she moved her hand to Emma's hand taking her finger to move along the paper. Emma ended up looking at Regina then as she guided her finger.
"Good photography feels smoother than this, it's about the quality of the paper, yes, but it also gives away much of tour errors." Her fingers slid on Emma's hand then she stole cream from her bowl.
"You were into photography?" Emma had to ask.
All the details Regina paid attention to… She had a very good eye for it. Yet if so then Regina has never mentioned anything to her. Emma licked dry lips then, stopping herself from stealing a soft kiss as Regina licked off the cream.
"Well, I had few classes in university. I had music classes too. It's what art schools are for, you know?" Regina teased and sipped her tea, gulping soundly.
"You encourage me more and more to go on that University."
Emma smirked gently. Perhaps it was the right choice. Doing something with passion. Although, she really wanted to help as well. Perhaps later…
Regina's toes were closed as it was pressed on Emma's calves. She moved to next pictures giving little comments but when they were on the naked ones her mouth went dry. And Emma bit her lip hard.
"Well…" she bit her lip turning to Emma. "You captured this nice."
The olive cheeks were burning and tea was not helping. She leant on Emma and put the mug to nightstand. Her front was pressed close to her chest. Slowly, as Regina moved so close, Emma looked into her eyes. Their hot breaths melted. Not she couldn't stop herself from closing little distance and capture those so soft lips…
Regina groaned as their lips met because it was clearly one lustful kiss. Her fingers got lost in her blonde locks. Slow, they were moving slow she tried to remind herself with the aching in her system. She was almost lying on Emma but she pulled back panting. "Slow, we are going slow."
Emma licked her lips, trying to catch a deep breath. Her lungs were burning. All that lust they were feeling– it was almost unbearable. They weren't neither able to go for it nor do nothing about it… The blonde swallowed hard and reached to gently move fingers to Regina's cheek. Their eyes met and Emma wetted her lips for one more time.
"Let's go slow then…" the girl tried her best to smile softly.
She wasn't sure, though, if Regina knew exactly what she meant. Perhaps Emma didn't know it either, but all she knew was that she wanted to keep kissing the other woman.
"I… I want to feel you. Your touch. But I'm so scared," Emma whispered, remembering just too well how she panicked two weeks ago when Regina started to touch her.
Regina's heart squeezed tightly at the last words. So scared…
Emma had no idea how to feel safe, how to make her mind understand it was Regina. How to make it understand that her skin wasn't dirty and Regina had the right to desire it. She wasn't a leper.
"I will never hurt you, babygirl." Her right hand moved down to Emma's neck brushing their noses.
"I know," Emma whispered.
The girl's heart knew it all too well. It knew Regina's so well. Some things, though, were buried too deep in one's mind. That was what made it all so terribly difficult. They were so alike yet so different…
"We'll go as slow as it takes." Regina's thumb moved against her sharp jawline.
She could do it, do this for the love of her life. Yes, Emma was love of her life. She moved back a little but smiled to just let her girlfriend know she didn't want to make her feel trapped with being so so close to her… Pressing on her.
"We could as well keep clothes on… I'm a bit cold anyway." Her smile turned slightly cheeky as she tapped Emma's nose. "Would you keep me close to warm up?"
"That's not a problem. None of it," Emma assured before leaning to pull Regina closer again.
Within seconds their lips were locked again, softer and much more tender. Emma's lips trapped the full bottom lip and sucked on it gently. Her hands hold onto Regina lightly by the waist.
"I want to do better," Emma whispered when a breath became an issue. "Can I learn your touch again?"
It was almost a plea. Her heart wanted it so much. Wanted to have something this very touch used to give her. But she knew… It was not going to be anything like their first time, no matter how gentle Regina had been with her. It wasn't going to be like that because she was like a hurt animal who needed to learn how to trust a human once more. How to stop crawling in the corner when they reach out. Would Regina do that? Gentle her?
"We can do that," Regina whispered a small grin forming on her lips.
The older woman was careful, saying all those things as well since it was their problem, not only Emma's or hers. They were a couple, a very close one in every meaning of the word. They are one, one soul and one heart.
"We'll learn." Her fingers kept moving on Emma's neck, her palm resting against her pulse. "Come on me?" she whispered with a raised, suggestive eyebrow before biting her lower lip as their state grew intenser within seconds.
There was this lust hanging in the air which they couldn't deny even though if they tried. And this was not the easiest job out there to go with the flow when there was nothing they were used to to follow. Her left hand moved over Emma's hip hesitatingly.
Emma bit onto her lower lip before slowly moving one leg over Regina's and slipping over her lap.
"Is it okay?" she breathe out softly, needing to make sure, knowing all too well how triggering it was; knees at the sides of the hips, chests moving close together.
Did she even need to say it was okay? As far as she was concerned it was all about Emma and how she felt about this because in her case… Nothing changed. Not like the way things changed for the blonde.
Regina's right hand moved on Emma's collar bone gently, brushing her fingertips along the sensitive skin as if she was trailing a like or a tattoo.
A shiver ran down the girl's body. Why did it have to be like that? Why did it how to bother her so much in the sexual context? Emma blinked a few times before moving palms over Regina's neck slowly, then cheeks. Their eyes met and Emma took it all in. She was with a woman she loved. She was safe. It was what Emma kept telling herself.
The blonde then swallowed and removed the shirt, staying just in panties. She needed Regina to try to knock the bricks of that wall down. Her fingers then slipped underneath Regina's nightdress, they were so warm moving over the toned stomach so softly.
The brunette let a low sigh leave her lips when Emma touched her skin. She lifted her arms up to let her lover get rid of the nightgown. They were almost naked, this beauty sat on her lap and she was scared to touch her, trigger something which would be disastrous.
Emma's breath quickened, but looking into those deep chocolate eyes helped. She could see everything Regina was, everything Emma knew, everything Regina was struggling with… Emma didn't want it to be all about her. She wanted to give Regina something in return. Perhaps… Something Regina did not yet get to experience. As far as Emma knew… Intimacy that would consume their minds. That would seem to be everything. That would be beyond physicality. Was it even possible? Emma wished to know, but she wanted to try.
Regina's hand moved right back on the places she knew it was safe, aging down the valley between her lover's breasts.
"Fuck…" She bit her lower lip not able to stop the darkening of her eyes.
Emma's hands moved over Regina's arms like velvet, caressing that skin so softly. They moved to the next again, for a second tangled in thick hair as she leaned to kiss her just as softly. Her heart almost jumped out as those lips met because it was unlike any other they shared in the past. Emma could feel it… Could Regina?
Regina gently moved her tongue along Emma's lower lip her eyes falling close, her hand stayed on Emma's heart. Her nails moved on her skin lightly. This was different but she was not sure to say how or even understand it. There was this feeling, this instinct in her to roll Emma over and pin back to bed, move her hands all along her soft skin. But instead she kept herself as calm as she could. Only tongue and lips mattered. Her other hand moved on her neck to keep Emma close.
"Te amo…"
"Te amo…" Emma repeated like a mantra, letting her feelings pour into those two words.
The girl's fingers so gently brushed off Regina's hair from her temples and cupped her face in both palm, sharing more of soft yet breathtaking kisses. So softly Emma's teeth grazed against that bottom lip. She then reached for Regina's right hand and, breathing heavily, she put it on her milky thigh, guiding her beloved.
Regina's breathe hitched when Emma guided her hand along her thigh. God she missed touching her, holding her as they reached their climaxes.
When the heavy feeling appeared in her chest, Emma opened her eyes again and took in Regina's sight; the smooth olive skin, strong yet gentle looking abs- so feminine…
Emma felt like losing her breath again but being carried away by the beauty in front of her. Heaviness was gone and her hand, that still was on top of Regina's, squeezed it lightly. Emma's other hand moved to the heaving chest, her fingertips brushed against the ribs… One by one.
Her eyes rolled back when Emma touched her. Was it her or all the touches they made picked the intensity.
"Te extrañé." (I missed you)
Regina didn't dare to move more than Emma let her, Emma led her. But her lips never stopped closing along her lover's, gridding them on each other, moving her tongue softly, teeth clenching gently over each other. She sighed over those moist lips her chest threatening to heavy. She wanted to get lost in the sensation and forget about her needs, at least for the night. Her thumb started caressing the cheek gently.
Emma could sense Regina's hesitation… She couldn't blame her. They were too scared to push too much, break something inside. Emma's fingers moved against Regina's wrist, as if trying to assure her that it was okay. Her caresses as if said 'Let it go', both to Regina and to herself. She wanted to drown in the wonderful sensation she was feeling right now.
Like nothing else mattered.
Her mind wasn't anywhere near the passed day. Emma pulled her lips from Regina's and softly brushed them against that sweet nose.
Regina's other hand also moved on Emma's other thigh having some kind of encouragement through Emma's movements. Fingertips caressed the skin kindly until reaching her hips and blonde chose just that right time to roll down and pull the brunette over. Emma lying against the pillow, Regina above… just to feel her a bit more, let their bodies melt together, into one.
Gods… She was between Emma's legs holding her hips a bit tighter when pink lips started moving on her most sensitive parts. They pressed gainst the space of the crook of Regina's neck, slowly moving her hands up and down her back, her spine. Tracing over all the bones she felt, she moving muscles, taking it all in. Getting lost in every cell of the woman she loved.
Regina pressed herself down on the girl closing her eyes. Their naked breasts gridded against each other softly growing a groan on Regina's throat.
By now Emma didn't know what they were doing. But honestly? She didn't care at all. All mattered that it felt good. Really good… The touch made her heart race but at the same time calmed it down. She just longed for Regina so much. For being close to her. And what was wonderful…
Regina was trying her hardest… Not to pin Emma, not to weight on her too much or be harsh with her in any way. But the hardest was trying not to roll her hips to Emma's when the blonde was wrapped around her like this.
Emma didn't feel trapped underneath the other woman. On the contrary. Two female bodies that matched like a puzzle… It stole her breath away, made Emma want to drift off. But her lips softly kissed along Regina's neck, legs wrapped around those round hips.
"I love you…" Emma whispered when her lips were close to Regina's ear, even though she wasn't fully aware of it. It was the only thing she could think of though.
Regina's hands didn't stop moving over long pale thighs and strong hips though, no force in the world could stop her hands from wandering anyway. Her eyes rolled back when that hot breathe hot her ear with the words melting her heart. She tilted her head down and her lips found the junction of her shoulder and neck to press against, sucking lightly.
Emma's lips parted softly, sound dying out in her throat. Her hands slipped around the thin waist and hooked to hold onto the other woman as if her life depended on it. Nails against the skin but barely brushing, never digging in. She was so gone in this moment by now. Her head tilting back, giving Regina permission to place more kisses.
A single tear rolled down her temple without realization. It wasn't sad, though. It didn't come out of hurt either. But perhaps out of inner joy at where they were. At what step they had made.
Regina moved her lips with kisses turning into nips along Emma's neck until under her earlobe.
"God, forbid, I want you so bad." Regina bit her ear lobe then.
She was having a dilemma. No, there was no dilemma... She would never ever do anything which had the possibility of hurting Emma, even with her libido at the ceiling or her desire burning between her legs like a bonfire.
She moved her lips back down to find her lover's racing pulse and pressed few wet kisses there before leaning her forehead on her neck with closed eyes.
"Would you hold me to sleep? Like this?"
"Always," Emma responded in a whisper without a second thought.
The hold got softer and fingers tangled in the dark mane. The other hand went to Regina's chin to tilt the brunette's head back to glance into her eyes. The vision was so hazy…
"Thank you," the girl muttered so vulnerably and leaned to place one last kiss on Regina's lips. Gentle but so incredibly deep, filled with all the girl was feeling; emotions and feelings, love for this miracle of a human being…
They slept in peace for all the night and the next morning they had breakfast in cafe.
It was weird for them to learn how to be a couple when they had pretty many other things to deal with and somehow after almost a year Regina was in her new cafe all alone aside for a certain blonde woman, taller and older.
Melanie.
It had been almost a year now they had broken up.
God, she missed Emma with every single cell in her body. But there was no turning back. She didn't even know where Emma had gone for collage either. She needed to forget the young blonde and it was what she tried, with some other naked blonde in her bed. It was how Regina moved on.
