Forgive me, before you begin reading this chapter, I just want to share a short message with you about the coronavirus situation. I said before that I've been living in China since September. I was living in Wuhan city, although my company was moving me to Shenzhen for the spring term.

I was lucky enough that I had left Wuhan already when the quarantine was put in place. It was around the New Year so I had traveled to Europe to visit my family for a few weeks. But many of my friends, especially my Chinese friends, are still in Wuhan. My heart goes to them.

What they are living is a real tragedy, a tragedy made worse by the rise of chinesephobia in many countries. There has been so many assaults to Chinese people in Europe in the last few weeks, that my heart breaks for them. Especially the children. Sadly, the media is not making it easier for them. It seemed that they are using this tragedy to increase their viewership and care very little about spreading panic and hate with their careless words.

So please, if you are reading this, I only ask that show a bit of empathy before passing judgment. Make an effort and inform yourself. Don't blame de innocent. Situations like this show the world who we truly are as a person.

Thank you.


Now, to a lighter subject. Here is the next chapter! Like I promised, I didn't make you wait a year this time. I want to give credit to the wonderful people who helped me with this chapter. It would not be same without them. Ashe Dragon, you were so incredible quick with your edits. I can't believe how quickly you read. You pointed out my most frequent mistakes and I feel I know where to look for next time. Thank you! And my friend Shir Song, who is the awesomest person ever. The changes you suggested really improved the flow and the quality of this chapter. Thank you so much! It would have been lost without you.


Chapter 26

The first time they had dinner after Sasuke and he had gotten together, Naruto decided it was better to make an official announcement. Most of his friends already knew, of course, still he did not want to keep this new development from any of them. He had been ready to beg Sasuke for permission to do so, but to his surprise, Sasuke gave in almost immediately.

"You should tell them," Sasuke easily agreed as they walked side by side to join everyone in the dining room. "Konan knows, anyway. Gaara and Nagato also know. Can't believe we forgot to close the fucking window!" he groaned, but his words lacked real bite. "It's probably Tsunade the only one who doesn't."

Naruto kissed him in the lips then, quickly and heatedly, pushing his body against the wall in the corridor. Sasuke indulged for several seconds, before breaking apart and insisting that they would be late for dinner. There would be time for that later, he reminded Naruto.

Life was just perfect.

It turned out that Tsunade already knew as well. Itachi had shared the good news with her in the hospital during lunchtime. Naruto, who was still feeling a little betrayed by the older Uchiha –what if things had gone completely wrong? Technicalities aside, Itachi had fucking promised to not say anything!– didn't have it in himself to be angry.

This had to be what a real family was like: personal news moving faster than light, people gossiping behind each other's backs, lack of boundaries, full acceptance, and everyone bathing in each other's happiness. Naruto was experiencing it for the first time in his life and he didn't know how he'd go on living if this was taken away.

"We should go out for a dinner this weekend," Konan proposed some time later, just before dessert was served. Her gaze moved from Sasuke to Naruto. "To celebrate." She gestured towards them.

Naruto felt his cheeks growing slightly warm — he hadn't even known that Konan liked him. He didn't think she disliked him, but they didn't interact that much.

Everyone in the group chorused in immediate agreement. Even Tsunade, who usually had to be blackmailed into join the group outings, declared that it was a splendid idea. They spent the rest of the meal arguing which place they should go for dinner. Naruto was all for ramen, of course, but no one supported him. These people might have become his family, but their taste in food still left a lot to be desired.

Later that evening, Sasuke and Naruto made the way towards the blonde's bedroom. Naruto was jumping with excitement as they climbed the stairs.

"I can't believe Itachi told Tsunade."

"You told me that Nagato told Gaara, as well," Sasuke pointed out, always loyal to Itachi.

Naruto shrugged, "I guess people just can't keep secrets in this house."

"It's better that they know, anyway."

"And they are all happy for us!"

Unlike Naruto, who was flabbergasted by the group show of acceptance, Sasuke didn't seem to be surprised. "Of course they are. Why wouldn't they be? They are our friends."

Naruto's heart swelled at hearing that.

Sasuke claimed it like it was a matter of fact. Naruto supposed that, in a way, it was. However, he couldn't help but think of his other friends, the ones he left in the past. He couldn't help but think that in the same circumstances they would not have been happy for him. They certainly had valid reasons: unlike the people here, they had seen Sasuke at his worst and he had done very little afterwards to redeem himself in their eyes. Regardless, they would not have been happy for him. They would have questioned his judgment, would have been wary of Sasuke's intentions and would have made a big deal out of it.

They would have said Naruto had given up far too much to be with Sasuke, for there was no way he would have been chosen Hokage while he was in an open, romantic relationship with a man. Least of all an Uchiha. They would have said it wasn't worth it. Only Iruka and Tsunade would have understood.

Naruto didn't want to have those thoughts on his mind. He was too happy to contemplate what could have been. "Kiss me," he asked Sasuke instead, almost shyly, when they arrived at his bedroom.

Sasuke complied. Cupping Naruto's face between his hands he kissed him softly; his breath warm and his lips soft and wet. Naruto closed his eyes and enjoyed the moment, marveling at the feelings rising wildly in his chest. Breaking apart they smiled at each other.

Sasuke's eyes were glowing playfully. Naruto reached for Sasuke's lips again, kissing him furiously this time. Sasuke responded with a growing passion. They kissed for what seemed like forever; kissing, licking, biting each other lips until they were red and swollen. Until kissing wasn't enough anymore. Until touching his face, his hair, his neck wasn't enough anymore. Naruto wanted to feel the coolness of Sasuke's skin on his hands. He wanted to feel his heart beating and to suck his nipples once again.

His hands had just begun to make their way under Sasuke's sweater, when Sasuke stepped back. Naruto searched his gaze, questioning, suddenly afraid that he crossed a line.

"The windows," Sasuke reminded him, breath ragged. "Got to make sure we close the damned fucking windows this time."

Their eyes met and they laughed.


The weeks that followed were the happiest in Naruto twenty three years of life: up there with the day he met his mom, the day Iruka tied his head protector around Naruto's forehead – effectively graduating him from the Academy –, and the day Sasuke agreed to stay in Konoha with him after the war, not because Sasuke had great plans or because he suddenly rekindled his love for Konoha, but simply because Naruto asked him to.

Exploring all the new angles of his relationship with Sasuke made Naruto unbelievably happy, and this happiness increased even further by the fact that his friends shared it fully. There were no judgments, no broken expectations, no expression of mistrust or recriminations. They were honestly very happy for him.

Every day with Sasuke brought a discovery.

The first one came about the fifth morning they trained together. Up until that moment their few sexual encounters had been somehow slow and sweet, for Sasuke didn't have any previous experience and Naruto did not want to overstep his boundaries. They could kiss for hours, but once the clothes came off and they jerked each other off… Sasuke would get overwhelmed. He would overthink it, trying to rationalize what he was feeling instead of letting himself be overcome with his impulses. As a consequence, every time they had sex they took it slower than Naruto liked it to be.

Even so. It was Sasuke . It was his best friend touching him, his best friend who chose to try and build a relationship with him when, unlike Naruto, he didn't feel the urge to do so. That meant the world to Naruto. So even if the sex was slow and a bit mechanical — when Naruto liked it rough and playful — that was a small price to pay.

This all changed the fifth morning they were training together after they had became a couple.

The morning was beautiful; the cloudless sky a peculiar mix of blue, purple, orange and pink. Naruto thought the sky reflected his own mood quite well. The night before they had gone out to celebrate, having dinner in the best restaurant of the city, and had enjoyed a wonderful time. They all had gotten a little bit tipsy — admittedly, Naruto more than just a little —, and then he and Sasuke had kissed and Naruto had passed out in his bed after they gotten each other off.

He and Sasuke were training in a deserted field a few miles away from the city. Since it was relatively close to the capital, they were only using taijutsu and minor ninjutsu. There was something off about Sasuke's movements, however. Naruto had noticed his lack of finesse in the previous days' training as well, but today it was particularly evident. When Sasuke delivered an enhanced kick with enough power to break his body in a half after punching him on the jaw, Naruto had enough.

"What the fuck is your problem?" he asked angrily, wiping off the blood dripping from his mouth after using Kurama's chakra to heal the wound.

They both came to a stop, facing each other.

Sasuke's gaze lowered to the ground – at least he was feeling some guilt. Naruto noticed that every muscle in Sasuke's body was tense, his hands clenched into fists. He resembled a cobra getting ready to attack. What could be the reason behind this attitude? Naruto was pissed off, but also intrigued. It was very rarely that Sasuke got carried away by his emotions. And he hadn't explained himself yet. "Fucking look at me, bastard!"

Astonishingly – since he had never been one to follow orders– Sasuke obeyed. He raised his gaze to meet Naruto's eyes filled to the brim with swimming emotions. Naruto recognized guilt, confusion and anger… but those emotions were simply scratching the surface. There was something else, something deeper and darker, the cause for Sasuke's erratic behavior… which only manifested during training.

Naruto's eyes widened in recognition. It couldn't be, could it? It was just too much unlike Sasuke. The look on his eyes, however… Naruto lowered his gaze, taking in every detail of his boyfriend's body. His breath hitched. It was difficult to discern with certainty, since Sasuke was wearing a long, loose t-shirt, but Naruto would bet a week of orgasms that his boyfriend was sporting an erection right now.

Realization hitting him with the strength of a chidori, Naruto suddenly understood what was going on with his boyfriend. That was the secret, the reason behind Sasuke's lack of focus and finesse. Training turned him on. Well, no the training, exactly. Most like the beating the shit out of each other.

This revelation took the breath away of Naruto and he felt his cock harden beneath his trousers, mind running away with him, full of new, foul, dirty ideas. But Naruto stopped his fantasies right there, forcing himself to analyse the situation objectively. It wasn't even that surprising, really; fucking could be a lot like fighting, and Sasuke was a competitive bastard. Naruto himself had learned to hide more than a few, inconvenient erections since they began training together after the war, before he trained his dick out of that habit.

Still, the knowledge was exhilarating. Knowing that Sasuke was hard, right now - his cock erect and dripping because of him - it caused his chest to expand with pride and happiness as his whole body came alive with arousal. One look at his best friend, however, reminded him that Sasuke was new to this; there was desire in his gaze, lust as dark as the black orbs were, but he could also see confusion, fear and even embarrassment.

Representing his own feelings, Naruto decided to tread carefully. In the last five days, he had noticed that Sasuke didn't get turn on easily. He rarely got more than half-hard from kissing, when Naruto's cock was already dripping precum. Usually, Sasuke's dick became hard as a response to Naruto's own reactions. It must be confusing the hell out of him that his dick suddenly wanted to fuck when they were beating the shit out of each other.

Naruto couldn't screw this up.

"Sasuke," Naruto addressed him again, taking a couple of steps in his direction; all previous anger absent from his voice. "I'm going to try something, okay? And if you don't like it, feel free to push me away."

Sasuke's eyes were still glowing with swirling emotions, but he nodded. Naruto breathed deeply, just once, and closed the space that separated them. He shot his fist towards Sasuke's jaw with force, and when Sasuke raised his own fist to block it, muttering, "what the…?" Naruto caught Sasuke's lower lip between his teeth and bit him, hard. He bit him until he could taste the flavor of blood in his mouth, when he finally let him go.

Then Naruto took a step back and bravely met Sasuke's gaze. Sasuke's eyes were wide open; shock clear on them; they were also darker than usual, glowing with powerful, warring emotions. A drop of blood rolled across his bottom lip and Sasuke licked it with his tongue. Naruto swallowed, heavily. Sasuke stepped forward, and for a moment there Naruto was convinced he was going to hit him. Instead, Sasuke jerked him by the front of his t-shirt and pressed their mouths together.

The kiss was savage. It was kissing as much as it was fighting, they both fought to keep control of the other. They tore the clothes off each other. They scratched, they bit and they fought, rutting against each other. Neither of them paid any mind to their surroundings, uncaring that any onlooker passing by could spot them.

It was one of the most animalistic experiences in Naruto's life. Their bodies rolled on the dirt of the ground, blocking and kicking, fighting for the other's surrender; their mouths glued together, kissing and biting and tasting each other's blood. Their hands didn't go to their dicks; they scratched and pinched and held the other down. Instead, they rubbed their cocks against each other's body, wildly and viciously, until they both were cuming at the same time.

Even after they cummed, it took them a while to come back to themselves.

Slowly, their frenzy seemed to pass. Naruto became aware that they were both naked in the middle of a field; his body sticky with grass and dirt. Still, it was hard to care. Judging by his expression Sasuke didn't seem to care either, and he was the biggest neat freak ever.

Sasuke was lying on his back on the ground, his chest moving up and down with rapid breaths and his arms open to both sides. Naruto dragged his body towards him until he was able to rest his head on top of Sasuke's left arm; his skin hot. Sasuke turned his head towards Naruto. Their eyes met. They simply stared at each other, peacefully.


"I didn't know it could be like that," Sasuke admitted later that day, after they returned to the manor and scrubbed the dirt and cum from their bodies.

"Sex can be however people want it," Naruto stated, sitting next to Sasuke on his bed. He crossed his legs. "Did you like it?" He was pretty sure that they both enjoyed it, but it was always good to ask.

Sasuke flushed a light shade of auburn, but didn't break away his gaze. "It was good. Different… But really good."

'Good' and 'different' weren't the most descriptive adjectives to define any , Naruto understood the meaning behind them. "I liked it too," he admitted easily. "We should do it again."

Sasuke quickly nodded in agreement. "That'd be good."

Naruto couldn't help but smile. Considering how flustered he had been the night Sasuke addressed Naruto's feelings and decided to give them both a chance as a couple, it was a bit like poetic justice to see their roles turned now. Still, it was important to talk about these things. Otherwise limits could be crossed unknowingly and they would end up hurt.

"What did you like best?" he asked him.

"What did you like best?" Sasuke fired back immediately, narrowing his eyes.

It was a bit childish, but Naruto adquised. He thought about it for a few moments. "I suppose… the fighting? The way you could match me. I've had this type of sex before, but I always had to be careful not to hurt the other person. With you, I knew I didn't have to hold back. I could let go. It was… freeing," he answered honestly.

Sasuke nodded. "I liked the pain," he admitted after few moments of silence. "When it hurt, it just made everything feel more… more." Naruto considered this. He recalled Sasuke reactions when he'd bit him or scratched him, making him bleed, and he wasn't very surprised. "It's not that weird, is it?" Sasuke sounded almost timid.

"I met a lot of people who like to feel some pain when they are fucking. Some people who like to inflict pain. People who like submission, people who like to dominate, people who like it soft and slow, quick and fast, people who like to pretend…"

"What do you like?" Sasuke interrupted him, having regained his confidence.

That was an easy question. Naruto had enjoyed a lot of sex before coming to this universe, and he had a clear list of his preferences. "I'm not much for slow sex. I like some pain. Fighting for dominance can be good, especially with a guy. I like games; no role-playing, more like challenges; that can be a lot of fun. I like making my partner feel good the most, I think. It just–" That was a bit hard to explain. Perhaps it had something to do with growing up hated by everyone, but Naruto had loved it when he made his partners feel so good that they would automatically arch for his touch. When they would call his name and beg for him to touch them, to make them feel good. It made him feel needed and valued, even if it wasn't very healthy.

It was different with Sasuke, of course. When Sasuke cried his name and held him closer to his body, Naruto felt like he was the luckiest person on Earth. He was in love. He felt so happy he could burst. He felt complete. However, Naruto didn't feel quite ready to say this yet, and he didn't think Sasuke was ready to hear it. "It makes me feel good about myself, I guess," he concluded instead.

"I see."

In the next few days they experimented a little. It turned out that Sasuke liked rough sex; he also enjoyed quick and fast sex in the mornings, especially in the shower, and every time Naruto bit him and carved a mark on his skin with his teeth, he went mad with desire. Naruto, who had always been a tips guy as oppose to a butt guy, developed an obsession with Sasuke's nipples, which were pink and tiny and surrounded by the milky, hairless skin of his pectoral muscles. He loved to play with them, be it with his teeth or fingers, and did so mercilessly – provoking the most sexual and guttural moans to come out of Sasuke.

A couple of weeks after Sasuke's declaration, they were both kissing furiously on top of each other when Naruto dared to speak something that had been in his mind for a while now. "I want to suck you off."

Sasuke froze. Rolling over to lay on his side, he stared at Naruto incredulously. "Really?"

Naruto reached for his mouth, kissing him and biting his bottom lip softly. "Please?"

Sasuke swallowed visibly. "Okay," he answered after a moment of hesitation, his voice barely a whisper.

The request itself was a bit shocking. Naruto had never been a fan of blojows. Oh, he loved getting them, but he mostly returned them for the sake of decency. Unlike some other men he had met who seemed to worship cocks in general, he never saw the appeal of sucking dick. He prefered eating pussy a lot more. And yet, he had been fantasizing about sucking Sasuke's cock for days. He had even dreamed about it.

Here was his chance. Since Sasuke agreed, Naruto didn't waste time. He propped a pillow behind Sasuke's hips, bringing his pelvis forward. Naruto wetted his lips and started running his tongue up and down Sasuke's cock before putting it into his mouth. Sasuke's dick was long, if not extremely thick, so Naruto used his hand to jerk off the part he couldn't fit in his mouth, while playing with his balls from time to time.

Sasuke cummed in less than two minutes. The look on his gaze afterwards, the way Sasuke looked at Naruto – and if he were the Sun, or an-all-powerful God to be revered, made the slight aching of his jaw and the not very appealing taste a thousand times more worthy.


Sasuke was feeling conflicted. On the one hand, he loved it when Naruto sucked off his dick. He was now able to last at least five minute before cumming, a considerable improvement. Of course, bets were off if Naruto used his teeth, lightly dragging them up the shaft – which had happened by accident the first time, Naruto's hysterical apologies were lost to Sasuke as he cummed. On the other hand, however, he felt selfish since he had yet to return the favor.

The problem was that up to a week ago, when Naruto had blown him off for the first time, the idea of sucking someone's dick hadn't even crossed his mind. It was just gross. Of course, now he knew that it could feel really good, and he wanted Naruto to feel like that, but every time he thought about it or tried to gather the courage to do it, he faltered.

So Sasuke decided to wait for the perfect opportunity, which presented itself a few days later.

That day the weather had been particularly hot, so after dinner, instead of jumping in bed together, Naruto suggested to shower together first. They had grown used to each other's naked bodies by that point, although Naruto still insisted in assuming their older appearances before engaging in anything remotely sexual.

They washed and rinsed themselves thoughtfully, playing around with the foam and teasing each other in a playful manner. Laughing softly, they stepped out of the shower.

Sasuke's mood was high as he began drying himself with a towel. He had also developed a new appreciation for Naruto's body and was staring at him openly. Naruto's skin was tan; broad shoulders, strong legs and well defined muscles. His whole body was wet and shiny from the shower, his blonde hair curled messily around his head. It occurred to Sasuke that they just had a shower, which mean they were clean .

No time like the present to repay the favour.

Sasuke walked up to Naruto, who was drying his hair with a towel. Taking the towel from his hands he threw it over the sink. While he ignored Naruto's offended, "hey!", Sasuke grabbed him by the hands and pushed his body against the crystal door of the shower. He pushed Naruto's arms until they were resting on top of his head and instructed, "don't move."

Naruto's frown of confusion morphed into an expression of awe when Sasuke got down on his knees in front of him. Eyes wide open, he seemed unable to believe what was going to happen. Sasuke briefly felt delight with his boyfriend's bewilderment before focusing on the matter at hand.

Naruto's cock was only half hard from the shower. Sasuke stared at it for few moments, deciding what the first step should be. Tentatively, he licked it from the glands to the root. There was no flavour whatsoever, if one excluded the remote taste of soap. Truly, it was not that different to licking Naruto's neck and torso. This gave Sasuke enough confident to introduce the dick into his mouth.

Naruto moaned loudly. It was the first sound he made since Sasuke had revealed his intention. Sasuke's shoulders relaxed. Naruto's dick was too big to fit it all inside his mouth; even if it was a bit shorter than Sasuke, it was also considerably thicker. Instead, he followed Naruto's previous example and used his hands to touch and caress the parts he couldn't reach.

Naruto's cock became fully hard in few seconds. Sasuke felt it harden around his mouth as he suck it off. It was a strange feeling. He pushed himself to swallow a bit more of it, recalling how good it had felt when Naruto did this to him. Feeling like he was going to gag, the cock slipped out of his mouth. He licked Naruto's balls instead, giving himself a moment to breath properly.

Naruto moans were coming more consistently now. He uttered Sasuke's name a couple of times, although mostly it came out as a broken, breathless whisper, "Sasuke… Sasuke".

Sasuke found out that he liked the sound of it. He liked the way it made him feel. So he swallowed Naruto's cock again, this time aware of his own limits and continued sucking him off with quirurgical precision. After a minute or so, he noticed with pride that Naruto's breathing became extremely laboured and that his dick was dripping preccum.

Sasuke risked a look to his lover's face. Naruto's eyes were close, his lips slightly parted in an expression of utter bliss and rapure. Sasuke had never seen him look this way. He looked like… like he was completely owned by Sasuke. Like nothing else in the world could ever matter, just as long as he could have this, could have Sasuke like this.

Looking at Naruto with a flash of sudden clarity, on his knees in the bathroom floor, Sasuke realised that there wasn't anything Naruto wouldn't do to preserve this. Naruto was his . Sasuke had stolen him, had showed him how wonderfully sweet it could be, just the two of them, and Naruto had allowed it. He would always, always choose Sasuke over anyone and anything else.

A powerful rush of triumph, of rightness, awoke with this knowledge. Sasuke's cock, which had mostly remained soft until this revelation, harden up considerably - raw possessiveness feeding a new, foreign hunger inside of him. Sasuke tightened the grip of his fingers on Naruto's hips, not caring if he left bruises, and sped up his movements. Naruto's moans become wild.

Moments later, his lover came in his mouth.


Sasuke brain must have been overflow with sensory feedback, because he required few seconds to understand what the warm, slightly bitter substance in his mouth was, and to process what had just happened. He let the cock slipped out of his mouth by instinct. Naruto breathing was still fast and greatly uneven. His lips parted as if to speak, but not words came out. He was still out of it.

This pleased Sasuke, bringing on another, smaller rush of arousal straight to his dick. But Naruto still continued looking at him apologetically.

"It's not so bad," Sasuke assured him, licking his lower lip with his tongue to get his point across as he stood up. "I've had food that tasted worse."

This caused Naruto a burst of laughter, which ended up in a broken cough. "Come here," he asked Sasuke, wrapping his arms around his shoulders and bringing him close. Sasuke complied, wondering what Naruto had in his blonde simply lay his forehead against Sasuke's left shoulder and remained there, arms wrapped around him.

Their bodies were close enough that Sasuke could hear every beat of Naruto's heart and every draw of his breath. This was... different. It was a simple gesture, so insignificant compared to the intimacy they had just shared - Sasuke had just had Naruto's fucking cock in his throat, he had swallowed most of his cum -, and yet, some deep, dark corner of Sasuke's mind began twisting and kicking rabidly, shouting: 'danger' and 'get away'.

Sasuke shut down these voices with all his might, repressing the instinct to run away. He refused to push his friend away when all Naruto required of him is a comforting hug. He refused. Naruto deserved better than that.

Slowly, very slowly, the screams in his head faded into nothingness and Sasuke was able to relax in Naruto's arms. Nevertheless, the fear he that had assaulted his senses never abated completely.


Some days later they found themselves in bed again, enjoying a pleasant afterglow after two particularly mind-blowing orgasms - they had been sucking each other off at the same time, which somehow had turned out into a competition, a battle of wits and endurance, and neither of them liked to lose - when Naruto brought up a subject that had been in his mind for a few days already.

"I'd like you to fuck me," he confessed, eyes still closed. Only when Sasuke failed to respond did he open his eyes. The expression of distaste in his best friend's face wasn't the reaction he was hoping for.

"Isn't that gross?"

"We don't have to," Naruto responded very quickly, forgoing the question altogether, cheeks flush with embarrassment.

They had been having sex for a bit less than three weeks - seventeen days and counting - and Sasuke no longer felt overwhelmed by what they did; in fact, since that day in the training grounds, he had grown very comfortable with the physical aspects of their loved pushing each other's limits and experimenting. Which had led to Naruto's increasingly recurrent fantasies of being fucked by his best friend. He hadn't meant to bring it up however, at least, not so soon. It was a slip of tongue - he blamed the afterglow.

"That was a real question," Sasuke clarified. "Isn't it gross? Like I've never had anything going in my ass, but I know what comes out. It's got to be messy."

Naruto wasn't puzzled by Sasuke's train of thought. The guy still couldn't enjoy the afterglow properly until he cleaned up even the tiniest drop of semen from his body. He showered twice, before and after having sex, and he insisted Naruto did the same. He had made it very clear that Naruto's dick wasn't going anywhere near his mouth before it had been properly scrub with water and soap. So no, this train of thought wasn't surprising at all.

Naruto took the question seriously and answered it honestly. "I guess it can be, if you are not careful," he conceded. "But it can feel really nice too."

Sasuke looked at him from his side of the bed, not trying to conceal the curiosity from his gaze. "So you've done it often?"

"A few times."

"With whom?"

The question shocked him; they always discussed his sexual experiences openly, but Sasuke had never inquired about past lovers. It made Naruto feel uncomfortable, the memory of a redhead man flashing through his mind, of feelings which were spoken and which could never be returned.

He broke Sasuke's gaze and stared at the ceiling instead. "Just a few guys I met," he was purposefully vague; then, he felt guilty. Sasuke was just trying to understand. "I didn't do it very often. In Konoha, it was bad enough that I refused to settle down and that I was living wi-" Naruto stopped himself before saying 'with you', but he knew Sasuke had heard it all the same.

"Anyway," he continued after a few seconds of awkward silence, "it was bad enough that they knew I was having casual sex with women, adding guys to the mix would've been…" He shook his head, not finishing that thought. "So it didn't happen very often. Mostly when I was sent away on missions by myself. And most of the time it was me doing the fucking, because it can be very intimate, and some guys - not all, but many - think you are delicate or weak just because you let them fuck you and I hated it when someone tried to make me feel like that. So yeah, just a few times."

Sasuke didn't speak, but Naruto could see the wheels turning behind his eyes processing everything Naruto had told him - and probably, some things he left unsaid too. He was taking too long, however, and Naruto felt his anxiety raising as he waited for his best friend's reaction. Unfortunately for him, patience had never been his greatest strength and his tongue has the habit to run away with him when he was nervous. "I've done it to myself too," he confessed in a rush, even though he hadn't meant to bring that up. "I mean, obviously, not like- With toys and stuff, I mean. But yeah. It feels really nice, especially if you jerk off at the same time. Then it is even better than a blowjow."

Sasuke raised his eyebrows at this, clearly impressed by that statement, and Naruto let out whatever breath he was holding. He felt ridiculously relieved, though it might have been too soon to feel that way.

After a moment, Sasuke smiled at him wickedly. "So that is what you use those books for," he said, shifting his body on the mattress so that he was laying on his left side instead of his back. The bed creaked as his moved. Naruto stared at him in confusion. "You know… the 'Wonders of Ginger' and all that shit." Naruto felt his face turning aflame. "I know you used to keep the whole collection under your bed, but I couldn't figure it out why you liked the damned books so much."

"How do you know that book?" Naruto demanded to know, voice rough.

If anything, Sasuke's smile became sharper around the edges. "You mean the book you left on the floor of the bathroom the night Gaara appeared? I never knew the things that one could do with a simple vegetable." Sasuke's voice was dripping amusement, but Naruto wanted to die of embarrassment. He grabbed the bed covers and pulled them over his head, only for Sasuke to pull them down again a moment later, silencing his protest with a deep, dirty kiss.

"So, you would like me to fuck you?" he asked as they broke the kiss, both breathing hard. His gaze serious again.

"If you like," Naruto admitted tentatively. "I would like it, yes."

Sasuke hesitated. "It's just-." He shook his head, ending that thought. "Does it really feel better than a blowjob?"

"Not always. But often, yes. When I do it to myself. Or when the other guy knows what he is doing."

Naruto's words didn't seem to reassure him. If anything, he looked more uncertain that before. "I just can't imagine what it feels like."

"Well," it was Naruto's turn to feel hesitant. He did not want to make the wrong move, but perhaps... "I could show you." Sasuke narrowed his eyes, black orbs full of mistrust. "Not like that," he hurried to clarify. "Just a finger."

"A finger?" Mistrust gone from his gaze, replaced once again with a mix of curiosity and confusion.

"Yeah," Naruto nodded, feeling a bit more confident. "It's not like fucking-fucking, but it would show you why I like it."

Sasuke didn't say no.


Hey guys! I have so much to say about this chapter. I am really anxious to see your response, you know? It was such a crucial moment for Sasuke and Naruto, because they have taken a step further in their relationship. And I don't mean the sex, exactly, but the extra trust they are giving each other. At the same time, it was so hard to keep them IC. I didn't want Sasuke to become a sex god, or even overly interested in sex. I still think he is a demi bordering in aro... most of the satisfaction he gets out of it has to do with Naruto. Holding Naruto's attention, being the one Naruto thinks about... And of course, a blowjob still feels good. I mean, I am a bit aro myself and I still can feel the physical pleasure. But he'd be disgusted by it if it weren't Naruto.

And then, Naruto. He has a lot of sexual experience... and sex with Sasuke has got to be mild, especially at the beginning. So it's not exactly what he likes the most... but he loves it anyway because it is Sasuke, and because he understand how much it took Sasuke to open up to him in such a vulnerable way. That's priceless.

I love the way they talk about it. They experiment, they compromise, they are open with each other. I think this has a very healthy effect in their relationship. Like, those two don't like talking about their feelings. But here, in a situation that it's new for both of them, a situation they are deadly scared of screwing up, they've got not other choice but talk about it and be open with each other. This, more than the sex itself, it's what is taking their relationship to the next level. Sex is the trigger. That's why I needed to show it.

I have conflicted feelings about smut. Sometimes, I am in the mood to read a short smutty one-shot. But when I am reading a long story, I usually skip over it, unless it plays a part on the characters' development. I really hope I managed that here. I did my best for it to be so. Now it's your turn to judge.

Sex aside, I love the bits at the beginning. Naruto was so excited to tell everyone he and Sasuke were together, but the whole house knew it already. That's based on my experiences with my own family. We are five, mom and dad and three sisters. And we like to gossip (just about ourselves, though). Like, I have news I wanna share, so I will tell the first person I can get hold of. Later, when I call someone else to tell them, be it my sister or my dad... they already know about it! More often that not is my mom spreading the news, but the rest of us also do it. I think it's sweet and it means we are very close to each other, so I wanted Naruto to experience that.

Now I am curious. Do you have a similar experience with your family, guys?

Now, to other things.

Why did I make it so Sasuke like it rough? Two reasons. First, he is a competitive bastard. He loves fighting with Naruto and getting the upper hand; he also loves it when Naruto beats the shit out of him, because it just motivates him to get better. So. He kind of likes how sex feels and he loves fighting. Put it together and he's got to love the results. Second, I said before that I take a lot of inspiration for Sasuke from myself.

I've talk to people with similar background to mine - people who are demi and that had issues in their childhood (not to say that everyone demi has a troubled childhood, but sometimes it is the case) -. Like me, they like it rough. I think it helps us to switch off our brain and stop overthinking it. Because usually we overthink everything. Our subconscious is always looking for danger and creating distance between anything/anyone who could take away our control/power again. It is automatic. We dont think about it. For what I've seen in the anime, I think Sasuke's brain works a little bit like that. So yeah.

Why neither of the boys particularly likes giving a blowjob? Because it's uncomfortable as hell. Now, again, I am talking about my own experience and my friends'. This time, my "normal" friends... not demisexual or anything. Most of the girl-friends I have, say the same thing. We do it because it's fair. We do it because we like our partner to feel good. Sometimes, we do it because it's expected. But we don't exactly like for its sake. Do boys feel the same about girls? I know some of my gay friends loves giving blowjobs, though.

Is Naruto a bottom, since he asked Sasuke to fuck him? No. I don't like the "seme" and "uke" tropes. I understand that in real life everyone has sexual preferences, but too often fan fiction feminizes the uke, making him submissive, weak minded and sensitive, while the "seme" is written to be manly, strong willed, emotionally detached. I find it insulting. And maybe it's a personal thing. But I believe that gender and sexual preferences do not define a person.

Do you agree with me? Do you disagree? I can't wait to hear your thoughts on the matter! :D