MIDORIYA
"Hey," Kirishima says jogging over. "Getting some one on one with Todoroki." I cover my face immediately remembering what just happened. "I'm just kidding. What are you up to?"
"I'm about to go over the materials for this upcoming year," I explain. "I didn't read it beforehand. I was too busy shopping for our dorm."
"Right!" exclaims Kirishima. I look at him and that sadness is still there. I can hear he is trying to hide how sad he really feels. We begin to walk towards the elevator.
"Um, how was your summer?" I ask carefully. "I didn't hear from you much." Kirishima appears hurt, I know that face because I wore it many times myself.
"It was good," he replies. "It was more than I thought it was going to be." Despite him saying it was fine he looks terrible. I begin to smile feeling there is some truth to what he just said.
"I'm glad to hear that," I reply. "We had a rough 1st year then the stuff after summer training camp…..ugh." We step on the elevator heading down to my floor."
"Right," agrees Kirishima. "I hope this year goes much better."
"Agreed," I reply. "So….uh…what happened with the whole Kacchan thing." Kirishima actually looks away from me sighing.
"Can I explain that to you in private?" he asks.
"Of course," I reply as the elevator stops on my floor. I head to my room unlocking the door letting him inside. Kirishima is always smiling, looking carefree so I know he is really bothered. He runs his hands through his hair messing it up a little and he seems to not even care.
"I hate the fact that I love him," he says with a shaky voice.
"Why?" I ask trying to hide how I really feel. Kirishima loves the hell out of Bakugou. I mean maybe Bakugou prefers not to date guys. I think Kirishima would have flat out told me if that was the case. "I mean love can be a beautiful thing. Did you tell him how you felt?"
"Yes and no," he replies making me nervous because he is fidgeting. "Didn't you see Kacchan at all this summer?"
"Not really," I reply. "I saw him in passing but we didn't hang out or anything." Bakugou has been off since being kidnapped. I don't blame him. I decided to give him some space. Kirishima looks at me with his cheeks turning pink.
"We had sex," he blurts out. My face drops in shock. That is not anything Kirishima mentioned wanting to do before but I know all about when that desire hits you. I can't help but become a little jealous because I want that connection with Todoroki more than anything. Especially after today.
"H-how did that even happen?" I ask quickly. I can't keep the look of surprise off my face.
"You have to keep this between us," says Kirishima.
"You know I will," I reply softly.
"Fuck," cries Kirishima hitting his fists against his thighs. "I was so scared…..I was scared to move forward as you said. I was hanging out with Bakugou I mean its what people do during the summer. He had this idea to go camping which I hate by the way, but I mean it was with his family. I actually like his mom." Of course, he does. Bakugou is just like his mom in a lot of ways although he would never admit it. "His parents actually gave us space. Bakugou wanted to set up camp close to the water under a tree. His mom disagreed but his father thought it was cool. They set up their tent further back from the water." I nod to let him know I am still listening.
"Bakugou…." he sighs. "He has night terrors from the kidnapping." I would have never guessed but he is so good at hiding how he feels.
"I know he was having a hard time dealing with…" I reply. "I feel bad for not trying harder to make him more comfortable."
"He wouldn't have told you he is having a hard time dealing with everything that happened," says Kirishima. "He wouldn't even tell me. I had to find out during our camping trip. It was just so…bad. He was sweating, almost blew us up literally."
"Jesus," I say sitting in my chair at my desk. Kirishima nods.
"I have never seen him so emotional," he explains. "At first he didn't want me comforting him at all. By the 3rd night, I guess he got tired of not being able to sleep. He actually cuddled up to me…then he was kissing me and you know…" I blush nodding my mind letting the information sink in.
"You could have told him how you felt then," I suggest. Kirishima shakes his head no.
"That wasn't the time or the place," he replies. "The next day he acted as if nothing happened but the remaining nights we did a lot of sexual stuff." He covers his face for a moment. "When we came back from the trip our intense interactions continued. I finally told him how I felt and he actually got mad."
"Mad for what?" I question in confusion. I will never understand Kacchan. He obviously cares for Kirishima. He doesn't let anyone get close to him and well Kirishima got not only close but intimate. According to Kirishima Bakugou made the first move.
"I don't fucking know," hisses Kirishima. "We haven't spoken since then. I don't have shit to say to him." He folds his arms looking more pissed off. I have so many questions but it feels rude to ask. Kirishima stares at me. "So you and Todoroki do it yet?"
"No!" I exclaim. "He is wanting to take things slow." Kirishima drops his arms.
"I know you guys did something," he replies with a slight chuckle. "You're blushing way too hard." I chuckle before covering my face.
"We have done other things…" I admit knowing he won't tell anyone. Kirishima chuckles walking over sitting on the bed.
"I will tell you what I know," he replies. "If you share with me. Plus it's a lot to know. I mean stuff I don't think they will ever talk about in school. I mean we are into guys after all." I nod understanding.
"Well, we do a lot of kissing or whatever," I reply. "We have touched each other of course and we experimented going down on each other." I cover my face in embarrassment.
"Got it," says Kirishima. "Do you know who is going top or bottom?" I know what he means right away.
"God no!" I exclaim. "I mean we only talked about it really the one time." I am probably going to have Todoroki top. It felt good having him on top of me. The way his fingers made me feel. I decide to keep those thoughts to myself.
"Hmmm….." hums Kirishima staring at me. I begin to blush.
"W-which one did you do?" I ask nervously.
"I topped," he replied. "Since it was unplanned it was not the greatest experience. I mean it was great but could have been better."
"Really?" I question. "How so? I want to be prepared when the time comes with Todoroki." Todoroki is researching sex on his own but I haven't even begun to look into it. I didn't want to freak myself out with too much information. Kirishima smiles.
"Well cleaning the area is important," he replies. "I mean we all know what comes out the back door." Oh god…..I wonder if that is why Todoroki used the condom. "Not only that I didn't know you were suppose to stretch the area. I didn't know that was even a thing. Bakugou refused to back down though." I can see him being stubborn about it. He has balls for that because Todoroki fingers felt big to me….I mean his dick is much bigger than one or two fingers. "Once I learned all of that the next time was better. I actually helped Bakugou clean the area much to his displeasure."
"Well, at least he let you do it," I reply.
"So true," says Kirishima with a wide grin. "You also want to have lube. Guys don't have nature on their side with self lubrication." I nod taking in everything that he is telling me.
"Um, thanks for telling me all of this," I reply.
"No problem," he replies looking at me. "I'm sure you and Todoroki will get around to doing it."
"I hope so….." I mutter.
"What do you mean?" he asks. I glance down not sure if I should say anything. No point in not saying the truth at this point.
"Well, I think he is holding back," I explain. "I really want to go all the way with him. He likes doing everything but you know….the actual sex…."
"Wow…" says Kirishima. "I shouldn't be surprised. He has serious trust issues."
"We have a good relationship!" I exclaim. "Does that mean he doesn't trust me!"
"Relax man," says Kirishima putting an arm on my shoulder before I go on a ramble. "I think he does trust you. I mean he speaks to you more than any of us. He also kissed you out in the open so don't doubt how he feels about you so much. I'm sure he is just very nervous and scared. I mean having sex is a big deal. I mean, after all, I did with Bakugou…..it hurts like hell that he pushed me away." I gaze at Kirishima knowing it would destroy me if Todoroki did that to me after we did something so intimate. "Enjoy the little things…..being that intimate can change things." I nod completely understanding what he is saying. Somehow a small part of me is worried that Todoroki doubts my love for him.
