"What?" the blue eyes were wide in complete shock. "What do you mean?"

"I'm sorry, it's just… you seem in so much pain, Eiji-san. It seems it's much more than someone who's going to leave a job."

"No, it's not it!" he felt his face burning in embarrassment.

"It's okay if you are." She said, kindly. "You two went through a lot of things in this short time you lived together, right? It wouldn't be strange having such feelings."

"You're wrong! The feelings I have for Oishi-san…." The memories the night they shared a bed, Eiji's fingers almost touching him and the moment he was hugging his shirt, wanting to engrave his scent, returned to his mind uninvited and he felt extremely ashamed. Eiji lowered his face and felt his chest hurt again. "It's only admiration and gratitude."

"I see." Mika took another sip of her hot chocolate.

"Mika-san, do you mind if I go to bed? I'm very tired."

"Don't worry about it. You need to rest. The futon is inside the wardrobe, there's a pillow there as well. "There's also a spare new toothbrush, you can use it."

"Thank you so much for everything today." He made a reverence. "Good night."

"Good night, Eiji-san, sleep well." She said, kindly, before he left.

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Tezuka had just come out of the shower when his cell phone rang. It was already late at night. He was surprised to see who was calling and answered it quickly.

"Syuusuke?"

"Are you home, Kunimitsu?" his voice was a little slow.

"Yes. Did something happen?"

"I'm in the neighborhood. Can I stop by?"

"Are you drunk?"

"Yep." He chuckled. "There was a small party at the office."

He signed deeply and massaged his forehead with his fingers.

"I don't want to bother you, I will find somewhere else and…

"Don't." he worried he would probably find some stranger to have sex with. "Come. It's okay."

It took a little more than half an hour for Fuji to finally arrive. There was a loose smile on his face when Kunimitsu opened the door. They didn't see each other for a long time now, since his office was still under renovations.

"Good evening."

"Come in." he said, seriously, before helping him remove his jacket and putting it on the back of a chair on the living room.

"Why such sour face, Kunimitsu?" he smiled while taking off his shoes. "Aren't you happy to see me?"

"Do you have any idea of what time is it? And you smell. Go take a shower."

"Yes, yes." Before he could say anything, Syuusuke started to undress in front of him.

"Hey."

"What?" he was already naked on his bedroom's door, leaving a trace of clothes on the floor. "I'm just obeying you."

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Tezuka was on his bed, waiting for Fuji to return. He was not used to have visitors, so he didn't have a futon to spare, they would have to share the bed. There was only one small white lamp lit, on the bed side table.

When Syuusuke finally returned, he was still naked, with a towel around his neck. He threw himself on the mattress and closed his eyes, with a smile.

"I've always loved your bed." The light blue eyes were heavy. "So comfortable."

"Sit down, your hair is dripping"

"You're so kind." He said, before Tezuka sat on his back and started to gently dry his light hair.

"You should not drink so much. Your liver's going to fail on you."

He smiled, his head down.

"Are you worried about me? Or just complaining because you're the one who is dealing with me now?"

He didn't respond and the silence bothered Fuji.

"Drinking and sex are the joy of my life. I work very hard, so I think I'm entitled to do it."

"Is that so?" he asked, before finishing. His hair continued to be extremely soft. Kunimitsu had forgotten how much he liked to touch it.

"Don't worry." Turning around, he smiled. "I won't die on you."

Even though he was completely naked, Fuji didn't feel an inch of embarrassment, but it bothered Kunimitsu. He stood up and went to his wardrobe, bringing back a white shirt for him to wear.

"Put this one. Otherwise you will get a cold."

"It makes me happy you still care about me, even after dumping my ass." Fuji said, still naked, the shirt on his hand.

"Go to sleep, it's late." He laid on the bed and turned to his side, turning his back on him.

Tezuka had already closed his eyes and was about to fall asleep deeply when he felt Fuji's forehead on his broad back. The dark eyes opened suddenly and he was surprised.

"I miss you." His voice was serious and almost a whisper.

"You're drunk. Go to sleep, Syuusuke."

"You never rejected me before." One of his fingers traced Kunimitsu's back bone slowly. "Are you really that devoted to your new guy? Was him the reason you ended things?"

"No." Tezuka turned around and the dark eyes were hard over the blue ones. "I told you my reasons, but you probably didn't even listen."

"I did listen." He was sincere. "I just didn't understand. Why did you pile up so much before talking to me?"

"And what would you do? Would you stop treating me like your last choice? Like someone you would only remember when having no other options."

Kunimitsu was surprised when Fuji touched his face. The blue eyes looked extremely sad.

"I never thought of you like that."

Tezuka scoffed and averted his eyes.

"This conversation will take us nowhere. Please, go to sleep."

Before he could turn around again, Syuusuke was on top of him, his hands on his abdomen, the damp light bangs in front of one of his eyes.

"You're the one I always returned to! How was that the behavior of someone that forgets about you?!"

"Syuusuke…" Kunimitsu had no words.

"You never asked for anything! I thought you were fine, I thought we were fine! How could I know?! And you didn't even give me the chance to make things right! You just left!"

There was a heavy silence for a moment, except for Fuji's deep breathing. It was the first time he had raised his voice in all those years of knowing each other.

"You just left." he repeated, his voice heavy with sorrow.

Syuusuke's fingers cupped his face, caressing it in the softest move. He lowered his head and was about to kiss him when Kunimitsu moved his face, avoiding it.

"Don't. Please."

He was surprised and hurt for a moment, before whispering in his ear.

"You really care about that person, right? But, if it's something else, it's not cheating." he started to kiss his neck and Tezuka didn't have any strength when his hands and tongue swept over his chest. His lean body against his was so distracting.

The blue eyes looked at him, placing a small kiss under his belly button, before one of his hands pulled away Tezuka's pants without any resistance. There was a small smile on Syuusuke's face when Kunimitsu closed his eyes and took a deep breath while getting hard inside of his fingers that knew him so well.

His hand gently touched the light hair when Fuji took him inside his mouth. He kissed him, licked him, sucked him. Why the hell it felt so terribly good?! Why was it so different from Oishi?! Tezuka had no answers. There was no room for anything else on his mind besides Fuji's hot mouth swallowing him completely and the painful pleasure he felt on every cell of his body.