31. He will ever be with us
Jay's P.O.V.
It really felt like I had lost everything. Carlos had really been a part of the family. And now he was gone. Forever. The anger in me mingled with grief and pain and that was unbearable. Why couldn't I save him? My little brother. After Mal ended, I got up and went forward. I wasn't good at giving speeches, but I would do it for Carlos. Speak to him one last time.
"I can't do that very well, but that's the least I can do for him. I used to tease and annoy him before, but he was so incredibly brave and strong. I don't know if I could have done it like him to deal with a deadly illness and all the blows. He never had an easy life, but he still managed it incredibly well. Over time, I wanted to protect him more and more, but I failed of his illness. I know Carlos wouldn't blame me for something like that, but I always will. He was my little brother, my best friend. And I really don't think it's fair that he's gone now. But if I did thinking of him, I always see this friendly, nice boy in front of me, who could always build me up and made me laugh. Thank you, little brother. For everything."
I wanted to get rid of my anger and pain somewhere, but I knew it would never happen. Because Carlos would never come back. And I didn't know if I could and wanted to live with it.
Evie's P.O.V.
I sat there and everything ran past me in a trance. I just couldn't understand it. I did not want that. Because that meant I had to accept that Carlos had gone forever. And I didn't want to accept that. My heart was broken and I didn't know if I could make this speech. My hands trembled and tears burned my eyes as I went forward. I didn't even know if I could say anything.
"Hey. I don't know if I can keep this up to the end, but I want to remind you again of this great boy who was too good for this cruel world where there are too much betrayal and hatred. He was the first person I met who quickly became my friend. I knew he was nice, but only later realized what a great person he really was. When we got here in Auradon, I met the right Carlos. The boy with the big heart and the generous smile you could only love. He wasn't home on the island. And then this illness came. I was completely done, we were all, but Carlos was great and strong with it. He didn't let it get him down and got up again after every case. He was strong until the end. And I fell in love with this boy. It breaks my heart that he is no longer here. And he has gone fight for us and Auradon. He could have lived longer but he didn't want to leave us alone in this fight. And that is what Carlos has distinguished. This love for all of us. He was an extremely kind person with a big heart. And I am infinitely grateful to have known him and to have been loved by him. It is the most beautiful gift that he could have given me. And the only reason I'm still here is that I'm holding on to what he said to us. He will always be with us. And we should all believe that."
The tears poured down my cheeks and I just let it happen. I was so broken but believed that we would see him again sometime. Because without this knowledge I would not be able to continue. Mal and Jay hugged me and we all started crying together. I would never forget him. This brave, loving, kind person with the most beautiful smile that existed in the world. The pain would never stop, yes, but I hoped I would learn to live with it. Maybe one day I would see Carlos again. All of us. I hoped. 'Take care of us up there. I love you. And we will never forget you.'
Dedicated to Cameron Boyce, who left us too early and too young forever. He leaves incredibly beautiful memories. His death leaves deep wounds and it will probably never stop hurting completely. Cameron, we will never forget you and always carry you in our hearts. Take care of us from up there. We miss you so much. Rest in peace, angel 💔
