Here you go! so sorry for the delay. There may very well be mistakes in this and i do apologise but I am currently so unwell and Just wanted to update! Please review
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Chapter Thirty - One
aperi oculos rursus horas post vos - 'Hours later you open your eyes again'
March 11th 1989
02.04am
During a storm it can be tough to recall light, hard to see the beauty nature once held during this time of what feels like a never-ending beast. Elizabeth led on her back in bed staring up at the ceiling. Her entire body numb and cold, despite the fact the duvet was wrapped around her. She was experiencing the type of coldness which comes with hurt, that feeling of emptiness inside. She had been led in this position since Henry left hours ago, and she had watched every single minute slowly churn by.
When Elizabeth heard the front door close her heart shattered even more, she couldn't believe he had lied to her like that. She felt sick to her stomach with betrayal, everything she had come to know as her life was now in turmoil, everything thrown into question. She let out a shaky breath as she felt the tears threatening to fall once more. She rolled onto her side and glanced at her clock; she knew she was going to welcome each hour of the night in as she couldn't sleep, after all sleep requires peace.
She squeezed her eyes shut as the salty tears slipped from her eyes and down her face. She pulled her duvet up to her mouth and sobbed into her bedding. Her tears spilled onto the material leaving water stain splash marks all over it, evidence of heartbreak imprinted. She couldn't believe that all this time she thought he was helping her heal but he ended up breaking her even more; he tore her down to nothing.
Her cries spilled into the night, three o'clock, four o'clock, five 'o'clock all rolled by before she finally admitted defeat and climbed out of bed. She wiped her face harshly with her hands, wiping away all the tears as she walked into the living room. Her chair was still pushed back, the dishes still half done, all a symbols of the evening that had happened, she walked through into the living area and glanced at her front door, her heart sank even further as her emotion rose in her stomach once more.
She looked over to the worktop by the front door as something caught her eye, she run her hands over the wooden material as her eyes fell upon the key Henry had left behind; she cupped her mouth as she began to cry once more. He really had gone. Elizabeth couldn't believe he wasn't going to fight for their relationship, he'd returned his key signalling he won't be returning again. Her knees buckled below her and she sunk down to the floor; she was distraught, it was killing her to think about him, all the lies, the dishonestly, the love, the laughter, the sadness, the hurt all swirling around in her head.
Her heart lay heavy in her chest as her began to cry hysterically for her parents; she needed her mother. Her body shook as her emotions rattled through her, she tried to push all thoughts of Henry away as she craved a mothers hug, someone to hold her so tight it felt like all the broken pieces were mended, even if it only lasted a few seconds. 'Mom' she whimpered as her breathing became more labile and her heart raced against her chest. She balled her hand into a fist and pressed it into her chest as she tried to take deep breaths; she couldn't let this situation take control of her.
She stood up unsteadily and inhaled slowly, exhaling slowly minutes later. She took a few moments to breath deeply and gain her control back. She wiped her tears away and adjusted her top, brushing it down. She looked at the clock in the living room and sighed as six o'clock was vastly approaching, meaning her alarm would be going off anytime soon. She had three classes today to get through. How she was going to do it she had no idea; but she would.
She walked back to her bedroom to sit down at her dressing table and get ready for the day ahead. She looked at herself in the mirror; her nose was red raw and her eyes were swollen from the tears. She placed her head in her hands and sighed heavily. She had never had her heart broken like this before; she knew she loved him because all she wanted to do was run to him, but Henry obviously didn't want that otherwise he wouldn't have left his key, so with that in her mind she reached for her phone to make a call. She took deep steady breaths as the phone rang, she panicked slightly when it was answered
'Hi, urm, Hi yes, I am calling about the email that was sent yesterday?' She bit her fingers nervously as the person on the end of the phone spoke
'Elizabeth Adams' she gave her name
'I am calling to let you know that I've thought about it and made my decision…' she kept glancing at herself in the mirror as she shared a conversation with the woman on the phone, she tilted her head slightly as she looked at her reflection, she had changed so much since Henry entered her life, how did she go on without him?
'Ok Thanks very much for your time, no I appreciate the offer of the opportunity, thank you' she ended the call and placed her phone on her dressing table. She sighed heavily her mind in torment over the decision she just made and more importantly Henry. How could he betray her like that? She looked up to the ceiling and blinked rapidly as more tears threaten to fall
'Surely I don't have any tears left' she whispered to herself as she tried to push them away. She looked out of her window in an attempt to distract herself; she hadn't noticed that through the night the storm had stopped, how all that was left were the ruins of what once was; everything outside looked broken, damaged and messy but in time mother nature would run its course and clear herself up, allowing spring to grace her with its presence and new beginnings will blossom.
