Authors note: I'm so sorry it has taken me so long to update, I've just been having a lot of trouble with my computer, and then when I finally got to finish a chapter, the website wouldn't let me post (it was so annoying), but everything should be fine now (hopefully). Hope you enjoy!:)

Disclaimer: I do not own anything even remotely related to Supernatural, sadly;)


Chapter 15- Red meat

Valerie woke up to her phone ringing, it was Dean. Looking at the time, her clock read 4:13am, 'what the hell?', she thought

"Dean?", she answered the phone

"Valerie! Oh thank God", Dean sounded very distraught

"Dean, is everything okay? It's the middle of the night", Valerie sat up straight in her bed, now concerned

"Its Sam, he-"

"Is he okay?!"

"Hes- He was shot, he- Im not with him"

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?!", Valerie asked, now she was the one sounding distraught

"I will explain everything to you later, just sit tight"

"Dean!"

"I'll call you later"

"Dea-", before she could say anything, Dean had hung up, "damn it!", she threw her phone on her bed in frustration and worry.

As the hours went by, Valerie only got more worried. After about 4 hours of her waiting, she decided to try to call Dean for the millionth time, and finally, he answered

"Hey", Dean said

"Hey? That's all you have to say? Hey?", Valerie was now more angry than worried

"Sorry", Dean said, sounding very tired

"Oh, you're gonna have to do a lot better than just 'sorry' young man", she said, now very angry

"Young man?", Dean said with a smile in his voice

"Im 164 years older than you. And don't change the subject!"

"You really did the math, huh?"

"Dean Winchester, you are really testing me"

"Right, sorry", he said, now with respect

"Where are you? How is Sam? And are you okay?"

"Whoa, one question at a time"

"You can't see it, but i'm giving you the death stare right now", she said

"Okay, um Sam is fine, he was dead for awhile, but he's fine now", Dean said

"What?!"

"He's fine now, dont worry"

"Don't worry? How can I not worry? Also, the fact that you said that so chill, is really making me concerned for your wellbeing", she said

"I will explain everything when we get home, okay?"

"Hrmph", she scoffed

"Look, I'm really sorry I made you worry", Dean said in an apologetic voice

"Its okay, when will you be home?", she asked, softening her tone

"By dinner time at the latest"

"Okay, drive safe"

"We will, see you later"

"Yeah", they hung up the phone, and Valerie put her phone on her desk and took a deep breath.

It was 5:21 pm, and Dean had just texted Valerie that he and Sam were on their way home. As soon as she heard the boys enter the bunker, she wheeled herself into the map room.

As she approached the two brothers with a slightly angry look on her face, but mostly she just looked worried

"Val, I-", before Sam could finish his sentence, Valerie pulled him into a hug

"I'm so happy you're okay", she muttered against his shoulder

"Look, Valerie I'm sorry I made you so worried, you have every right to be angry at me", Dean said, letting go of Sam, Valerie turned to Dean

"I'm not mad, not anymore at least, I was just worried", she said smiling at Dean, who smiled cautiously back at her, "Sam, if you don't mind, I'd like to check out your wound?", she asked

"Okay", Sam said, before the two left the room, Dean said that he would order some pizza.

Sam and Valerie entered the kitchen so she could check out his wound, "so, how many times have you gotten yourself killed?", she asked in a light tone, "I mean, it seems to be sort of a habit between you and Dean", as she said that, Sam chuckled

"Val, can I ask you a question?", Sam asked

"Sure"

"What's it like? Being immortal, I mean", he asked and Valerie went still

"Well, I had a pretty rough start to it, and I can't exactly say I enjoy everything about it, heh", she said

"What sort of a rough start?"

"You really wanna know?"

"Yes, if you don't mind, I dont wanna push you"

"Well, it happened on May 18th, 1831…

May 18th, 1831

Valerie, then known as Katrina, was laying on a grassy field, soaking up the sunlight, when she heard footsteps approaching her. Holding up her hand to shield her eyes from the sunlight, she saw that it was Sophia, a girl from her town. Sophia was more than just a girl from town, she was Katrina's true love, they had been secretly seeing each other for 1 year and a half, and although they didn't have problem with it, it was still hard knowing that they would never be able to get married or even hold hands.

Sophia went to lay down next to Katrina, and looked over at her, "so, they are setting me up with Alexei", Sophia said. By they, she meant her parents, who were trying to set her up to get married as soon as possible

"Alexei is an idiot", Katrina responded, which earned a laugh from Sophia
"That, you are right about", after a few seconds of silence, Sophia sighed, "I wish I could marry you", she stated. Katrina sat up, "I know", she said, looking around to see if they were alone, they were, then she took Sophia's hand

"Hopefully there will someday be a world where people like us can get married", Sophia said

"I wish I could be there to see it", Katrina said with a sigh, "instead, we have to marry men with two brain cells to share", she said, and Sophia threw her head back and laughed, "what? They do", Sophia stopped laughing and looked up at Katrina

"See this is why I love you, you don't seem to care that the world doesn't accept us", she said

"I don't need anyone's approval but yours", Katrina said before pulling Sophia into a kiss. Pulling back, Katrina looked into Sophia's chestnut-brown eyes, "I love you too, you know", she tucked a stray raven-colored lock of hair behind Sophia's ear, and let her hand rest on Sophia's cheek. After about an hour of just sitting on the grass, Sophia stood up and extended her hand to help Katrina up, "we should get back, the sun's going down", standing up, Katrina looked down at Sophia, "I wish we didn't have to say goodbye", she said

"Me too", they started to walk towards the town, and when they got there, the two quickly parted so that no one would get suspicious, Katrina watched Sophia's 5'7 frame disappear into the sunset.

Later, in the middle of the night

Katrina woke to the feeling of burning pain all over her back. She opened her eyes, and that's when she noticed the heat. She shot up in her bed and looked over at her sisters bed only to find that everything in the room was completely covered in flames, she cried out in horror and tried to get out of the bed. But before she could do anything, time seemed to stop completely, the flames stopped moving, and everything went silent. A man with a cane stepped out of the flames and approached Katrina who had tears streaming down her cheeks, "dont cry", he said

"Who are you?", Katrina asked in a shaking voice

"You wished live long enough to see the world become a place for people like you", the man said, ignoring her question

"I didn't-"

"Yes, you did. You might not have said it out loud, but I heard you"

"I am going to ask you this one more time; Who are you? And what is going on?", she said, still hyperventilating slightly

"Well, your house is burning down, and you and your entire family are dead", the man said in a calm tone

"What?!"

"Yes, and that leads me to your other question; I am Death"

"Pardon me?"

"I am Death"

"How is that possible?", Katrina asked, now beginning to think this was all a dream

"Oh come on now, you of all people should believe me, I mean with your abilities and all"

"Very well. Why are you here then?", she said, slowly beginning to accept what was happening

"I'm here to offer you a deal; I will grant you immortality"

"And what do you gain from this deal?"

"I am not quite sure yet, I guess I will come collect my part of deal the day you do die", as he said that, Katrina was considering her options, "so what do you say?", the man asked

"Yes, I accept, you have a deal", she said.

Present day

Sam was looking at Valerie

"What happened to you after that?", he asked

"Well, everyone thought I was dead, so i left"

"And what about Sophia, what happened to her?", he asked

"She married that guy, Alexei and lived as a house wife until the day she died, I presume. I went back to russia one year and watched her for a few days, she seemed content", Valerie said with regret, "she was my one true love", she muttered

"And what about your family?", Sam asked

"That is the one thing i've never been able to forgive myself for. They all died that night", she looked down

"What were they like? Your family, I mean"

"I didn't exactly have the best parents ever, but my siblings and I were very close. I had three brothers and one sister, my sisters name was Alyona, she was seven years younger than me. My brothers were all older than me, their names were Anatoly, Boris and Viktor, they were triplets, if you can believe it, heh", she said, and Sam chuckled, but stopped quickly when he saw the tears in Valerie's eyes, "what's wrong, Val?"

"She was 9", Valerie whispered

"Who?"

"My sister, Alyona", she sniffed, "she was 9, and I let her burn", Valerie almost couldn't get those last words out, it was as if she was out of breath. Sam put his hand on her shoulder, "Val, it's not your fault", he said, trying to comfort her

"How is it not my fault, Sam?", she was now crying, "I was selfish, I just wanted to live forever, and so I let my family die", she sobbed

"Look, Val, I know nothing I say can make you see that this is not your fault, but I'm gonna try anyways. You were a teenager, an teenager who had no one to give her a hug and tell her that she was fine just the way she was. Now, I don't know what it was like, but I do know that it couldn't have been easy, both with your sexuality, and with your powers. So, what I'm trying to say is that I don't blame you, and I don't anyone else would blame you either for wanting to be accepted", Sam wiped the tears from Valerie's face and pulled her into a hug.


Authors note: This is a long one, think of it as an apology for the fact that I went completely MIA for so long;) Until next time:)