DEER

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Disclaimer: Boku no Hero Academia belongs to Horikoshi Kohei

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Genre(s): Adventure/Hurt/Comfort

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Warning(s): Typo is my most loyal fan, spelling mistakes because English is not my mother language, Possibly OOC. NO BETA, so beware of grammar mistakes

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Summary: Shota thought discovering their 'Nightwalker' to be a kid was bad enough. Not to mention how the said kid is literally Quirkless, meaning the law cannot touch him.

"I don't wanna be a Hero. It's too troublesome"

And then this?

Maybe it's not too late to ask Nezu for a raise this year…

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Or, being a good citizen and stopping an illegal back-alley transaction resulted in him getting some High-Ranking Villain's attention. He didn't even raise a hand at those A-holes. Just glaring at them hard enough, they turned tail.

This second-chance of life is so not worth it. What a drag…

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Jin was a sad person. Depressed. Miserable. Sorrowful. He also felt like he was uttering the word 'why' a bit too much for the past few days.

No. That wasn't true.

Maybe he was already uttering that word since the beginning of life. For the majority of his existence.

The first 'why' he remembered so vividly was why did that villain kill his parents? For the sake of fame? Bloodlust? Or just collateral damage? Why, did the nice boss who allowed him to stay within the establishment and work legally as a functioning member of the society thrown him overboard? Because of the motorcycle accident? But he was already clear of any charges. He wasn't in the wrong here. It was that guy. Your long-standing customer, who jumped in front of his path like a buffon on a rollerskater. Why, could he never convince himself that he is a real person? After that tragedy? Where his clones started killing each other for supremacy, trying to maim anyone and came out on top? Then poor Jin—poor, cowardice Jin—who hid within the safety of a worn-out couch, managed to survive. Leaving him with baggage and PTSD, questioning the reality of himself, whether he was the true holder of 'Double' Quirk or a mere clone.

Then another batch of 'whys' accumulated again as he became a member of the League of Villain.

Why, did he join in the first place? Maybe because these people didn't turn their nose in disgust? Regarding his quirk or his double personality? Welcoming him in a figurative warm hug that reminded him of his deceased parents? Why, did the boss of this group want to kill the Symbol of Peace? Jin wasn't a complete lunatic, even if his behavior begs to differ. Just because that hulking blonde man was the pillar of the Hero society, doesn't mean he was responsible for all the bad thing happening to the downtrodden folks such as them (if he had to choose, he wanted to destroy the villain who turned him into a homeless orphan that particular day). Why, for a bunch of villains with questioning morality, was everyone being so nice to him? Especially Toga Himiko. A highschool girl who loved blood and merciless killing, yet still view the world with a pure and positive outlook. His savior, his speck of life in a narrow tunnel. Wrapping him up in her hankie, all gentle like. So, why—

did you have to die?

Why did everything turn for the worse when he finally find a place he could call home?

Why did Dabi leave the League and become a Vigilante? An illegal job that was equivalent to a hero? When he himself said that he hated those said heroes?

Why—

Jin hiccuped while he stared at Hawk, who blankly pinned him to the ground, sharp feather slash dagger steadily pointed right at his temple.

Why did you betray me too?!

"Hawk—" his voice stuttered, tears sprung from beneath the eyelids. He felt his scleras reddened. Courtesy of nonstop crying for the last hours of this one-sided fight. Head spun as the blood within the vessels couldn't carry the oxygen to the brain any faster, stress was hindering his inner organ to function normally. He was having a panic attack. When he thought he became whole again, able to gather his scattered, missing pride (ironically, it was after the death of his angel. The death of a nice kid who only wanted someone to talk to, someone who understand her—), it failed him spectacularly when he needed it the most. Amidst his ragged breathing, Jin asked the red bird once more. The word that haunted half of his life spilled from between his cracked lips, "why are you doing this?"

When I sympathized with you? When I promise to build an empire of freedom, where you could spread your wings without those Heroes Association chaining you down?

When you were the one who encouraged me to keep on going? To respect the death of my teammate by living in the present? And make sure to stay alive so I can see the new era being born with my own eyes?

Hawk tilted his head almost contemplatively. The light that was peeking from the fissure on the wall caused his glasses to glinted, obscuring his real emotion from the world to see, "wasn't it obvious?" the man answered. Voice even and uncaring. Like the days they spent together—playing games and laughing over bad jokes—all the camaraderie were gone. Not real. An illusion only Jin appreciated, "I'm doing this—"

"Because I'm a hero"

Jin Bubaigawara—known as Twice—was a sad person. Depressed. Miserable. Sorrowful. He also felt like he was uttering the word 'why' a bit too much for the majority of his life. Even until the end of the day, as his frightened orbs stared at the tip of the knife descending fast into the center of his brain, another question came to the forefront of his mind. And Jin knew, this one sentence will follow him till the deepest dark of the abyss. Never to leave him alone.

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(Why did I never realized he was never my friend in the first place?)


(A/N): Cuz Dabi is not a villain anymore, he wasn't there to stop Hawk from killing Twice.

…uuh, maybe? Idk. The trajectory of his feather/knife made Hawk look like he really tried to kill Twice there.

So, did Twice just die in this story? Again, idk. We have to wait for the future update. I still…cannot grasp what kind of person Hawk is. What his moral actually is. If Twice turned out to be dead at the end of their fight, well. That's what you get for being friends with 'assassin' ShikaZuku and not 'nerd' ShikaZuku `3`

(By the way, Dabi's word before the end of the chapter? "Looks like sentiment tripped you up after all, Hero!"? How...did he hears that? Didn't Hawk said that word 5 pages before Dabi appear? Before Hawk pinned Twice to the ground? Was Dabi like...standing behind the wall, waiting for the right moment so he could do that cool entrance? I'm asking this because Train Heartnet from Black Cat manga did this exact thing :'D)