Chapter 35: Give him an extra cuddle when he wakes up
3 Weeks later and 2 days before Kelsey leaves for her deployment
"Hey.." Clay smiles, placing his bag on the floor, he stands in the bedroom doorway just watching her stood there wearing her full uniform
"Oh hi, you're back. You okay?"
"Yeah... yeah I'm good" he frowns "So, what're you doin'?"
"Oh... just checking, to see if this still fits okay"
"Looks pretty good from where I'm standing" his face breaks into a large beaming grin.
Smoothing his hands over her waist and down the sides of her thighs he then brushes her long dark hair to one side and kisses her neck. Mmmm! she groans enjoying the soft touch of his lips on her skin.
"Oh, yeah..." He continues to smile, his hands, trying to slide her skirt up her legs, the semi hard bulge in his pants pressing against her butt ".. it definitely looks good to me"
"Clay... stop! You're messing my uniform up!"
His smile gets wider "Well, maybe you should just take it off then" he pulls at the zipper on her skirt and lets it drop, down her legs, to the floor.
Turning around to face him, she clasps her arms around his neck "That wasn't helpful " she smiles, pressing her lips against his mouth.
Mmmm! "Well, it's been helpful to me" his smooths his hands over the curve of her butt. His groin straining as he continues rubbing himself against her.
"So..." she smiles, taking a quick glance to check on Casey as he plays, in his crib with a toy "..I figured as we have two more days before I leave, we could, bath him and put him to bed and then ...well you know?! Maybe get some wine, have a bath and ..." she kisses him again "have the evening to ourselves"
Mmmm! "Does sounds great I suppose" he sits on the edge of the bed with her standing between his legs.
She smiles as he continues to stroke his hand up and down her, now, bare thighs. Then she takes her jacket off, laying it down on the bed aan Clay starts unbuttoning her shirt. She then straddles her legs, sitting across his lap as they start to kiss, him fisting his hands in her hair.
"So..." she breaks the embrace, frowning while stroking her hand on his face " how was training?"
Mmmm! "Yeah fine. Run of the mill you know"
"I know" she smiles "And the guys, they're all good?"
Mmmm hmmm! "Oh um... by the way, there's something I need to talk to you about"
"Okay. Sounds kinda serious. What's going on?" she leans back, his hands stopping from falling off his legs
"I errm...I spoke with Ash." he smiles "and ... well, he actually came up with a good idea. So, I said I'd sound you out, see how you feel about it, before I said anymore"
"Really? Wow! Okay, so it must be serious if you're listening to Ash's ideas" she frowns, looking him deep in the eyes "So, what is it?"
"Well, we were talking, about the family care plan, for when you're not here. And he wanted to know if we'd considered an Au pair"
"An Au pair?"
"Yeah it's like a nanny, someone who stays at the house... apartment, takes care of the children."
"Yeah I know what an au pair is and yeah I did consider it at one point, but ... well it was having the room and ..." she sighs "I don't know, there something about a stranger, taking care of Casey. Don't you think that's a bit odd?"
"Well, we're getting a bigger place next week and Ash said quite a few families he knows do it. Plus would help if I get called away in the night, wouldn't have to unsettle him. I mean Ash said he was still happy to have him, if we wanted to stick with the plan, just it was a thought. I guess it would ease the pressure on him, and Naima, if we did consider it."
"Yeah. Look, I know what you're saying, and yes in principle it's a good idea but... we'll it's short notice to think about it now. I mean, we only have two days before I go, so I can't see we'd find someone we'd have to get them checked out and that all takes time. But he's right , maybe when I go to Odessa, we should think about it. I mean it would make sense and we could have someone in place by then." She sighs staring at him, watching the expression on his face.
"But you feel okay about it, the idea. Truthfully?"
"Yeah I mean it might be a bit odd, at first I guess, but for Casey it would be a good idea, less upheaval he can stay in his routine more, I suppose"
"But ...what's wrong? I'm getting the feelin' you're not keen"
"No, it's not that, it's just... " she sighs loudly getting off his lap, moving around the end of the bed to check on Casey.
He's lying in his crib and she takes his small foot in her hand, stroking it gently " It's just what are they gonna think, the au pair I mean, me leaving my baby and bringing them in to look after him." She looks over at Clay "What're they gonna think of me as a mother?"
"Hey, they're not gonna think anything, it's what they do. Look, if you're not okay with this, then we won't do it"
"No, I am, like you say it could be better for him" she sighs "You know what... it is a good idea, it's just me, being stupid about it. So, tell you what, I'll um.. check out some agencies, and we could look to get someone in place when I get back"
"Yeah, well that's the other thing that Ash had an idea about"
Huh! She smiles "Really, you're listening to ideas Ash has. a lot. You sure you're feeling alright?" she smiles, touching his forehead jokingly "Sorry...carry on. What did Ash say?"
"Well, he knows someone they might be able to start pretty soon. A, um... a commander he knows, is going overseas with his family but the au pair he had for the past year, she doesn't want to go with them. Ash told him we might be interested in taking her on"
"Really?" she frowns "She could start sooner?"
"Yeah next couple weeks, probably just as you get back. He said she's a Spanish student, but she's been with the commander for a year so means she's vetted and has her paperwork. They didn't want her to leave but she wants to stay in the States and not go overseas"
"Okay, and you're happy to do this?"
"I mean yeah... if you are. Hey look, if it's going to make you uncomfortable we won't but I figured it might be worth a try. I'm thinking of Casey, not having to get him up in the night if I get spun up"
"Yeah" she sighs, she has some doubts, but she knows the positives would be for Casey. She smiles at him watching him kicking his legs as he smiles at her "You're cheeky" she laughs softly stroking his head. She then takes a deep breath, realizing just how much she's going to miss him.
Shaking the thoughts of not seeing him from her mind "Yeah, well...lets go for it. Anything that doesn't disrupt his life is good, right. He comes first and well...this would be a good thing"
"Right!" Clay frowns "Look, if it doesn't work out then we won't continue"
"No. No it does make sense. Guess, it's just me feeling guilty" she sighs "Another woman being here for my baby, while I go away, just feels odd. I'm sure I'll get used to it and we'd be stupid to miss the opportunity, especially if like you say, she's all checked out"
"Hey ..." he gets up pulling her into his arms "You don't need to feel guilty, about any of this, and from what Ash said, she's used to being around military personnel, she knows how it works. Don't be hard on yourself, we made this decision for you to go back, together, remember"
"Okay .." her lip quivers with emotion, her eyes welling with hot with tears "Sorry, I just.." Pheww! She sighs " ..this is hard. Leaving you. Now reality bites" she swallows anxiously, and he can see the sad pain in her face "Clay, I'm gonna miss you so much"
"Hey c'mon, it's gonna be alright. You'll be so busy when you get there you won't have time to feel like this" he pulls her closer, holding her tight to his chest "So you want me to speak to Ash, get the details?"
"Yeah. Yeah do it Like you say it's best for him. I'll be fine" she sighs "You gonna be okay with all this? I mean I feel like I'm abandoning you to sort everything out. The move next week and now this"
"Look, I've got the guys to help me, it's gonna be a cinch. I've got it all in hand. I'll call Ash, we don't wanna miss out"
She sighs again, swallowing her apprehension, dismissing the feeling of envy. The envy that to do what she wants; she has to hand her baby to another woman.
"Clay .. "she grabs him, pulling him back and smiles teasingly "So...you wanna get some wine and... " she strokes her hands over his chest, kissing him. "..we could just enjoy our last full night together."
Mmmm! He smiles "That does sound good but..." they both look around as they hear the knock at the door. "I better get that .. "
"Hey!" She kisses him "Whoever it is get rid of them" she smiles, kissing him again as she strokes her hand firmly over his groin. "I told you, we can have an early night "
Mmmm! "Yeah um... I kinda need to talk about that?"
"What?" she frowns looking up as the door knocks again "Don't tell me you're knocking me back here Clay Spenser or are you just playing hard to get?" she smiles stroking his face "because I know I can find ways to make you change your mind"
"No, no it's not that, it's just ..." He leaves her grasp to head to the door "it's just, I kinda said the guys could come over tonight, have some beers, watch the football" he shrugs "Sonny's TV bust and Jason doesn't have one, so I said they could come here"
He abandons her touch with her standing in the bedroom doorway, as he answers the door.
"Clay! Are you serious?" she frowns, unable to hide her annoyed disappointment "But it's my last night here, for three weeks! I thought you know that you'd want some alone time. Seriously, you'd rather have beers with the guys?"
"I know I just...look I'm sorry, I didn't think. They asked and I just said yeah. I don't wanna say they can't now. Sonny's looking forward to it. Look, we can make up for it in the morning, right?"
"In the morning?" she sighs loudly her annoyance on display "Clay! Oh my god, I don't believe you!" the look on her face is one of anger "Jesus Christ!"
"Hey... hey calm down. It's not that bigga deal, is it?"
"What the .. oh my god! " she sighs, seriously angry now "No! No, it's not that big of a deal, is it!"
Taking a deep breath, she watches as Clay opens the door to Sonny, he's followed into the apartment by Trent, Jason and then full Metal. Sonny's carrying cases of beer which is dumps on the breakfast bar.
"Hey Kelsey!" he smiles, kissing her cheek.
She barely responds just glaring at them all, watching as they crash down in various positions on the couch and floor, spreading themselves out untidily. Oh my god! I seriously don't believe this! She closes her eyes, trying to stay calm. Shaking her head in sheer disappointment.
"Hey..." Clay looks at her, his hands on her arms "just relax. They wanted to see you before you leave anyway, so it'll be fine, we'll have a fun evening" he smiles kissing her
"Fun!" she sighs "Fine! You know what..." she pulls herself from his grip, walking away making it clear she's not happy with this " I'm gonna get dressed"
She stands in the bedroom doorway watching them as they all ignore her and make themselves comfortable sharing the beers around, she really doesn't want to feel this anger with Clay, not tonight of all nights but his lack of thought touches a raw nerve. Her eyes fill with tears and she heads into the bedroom.
Throwing the last of the clothes she was packing into her case she dumps it on the floor and then she sits down, rubbing her head in frustration. Shit!
She wants to cry. All she wanted was a nice quiet evening, just her and Clay having some time alone. She had it all planned and now ...now she's stuck with his team, watching football in the other room.
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"Hey!" Clay smiles at her as they all look up, from their slumped positions on the furniture. She's been gone nearly an hour and now she brings Casey through with her.
"Oh...hey there buddy!" Sonny smiles. He gets up and takes him from her arms "Look, come watch the footy with your uncle Sonny" he gives her a wink and a smile.
The crass wink makes her angry again and she glares at Clay " He um.. he needs his bottle"
Clay looks at her, he feels a little guilty that she's so upset, the look on her face. He doesn't say anything to answer her.
"Hey ... you get it ready, I'll feed him" Sonny smiles. He just loves holding the baby.
"Sure... why not. I mean you're here now and doesn't look like you're going anywhere does it!" she sighs sarcastically, putting the bottle in the warmer. She leans herself back against the cabinet while she waits for it to be ready.
"Oh, hey Kelsey, would you grab us a beer while you there" Metal smiles pointing to the empty one in his hand, she turns around and glares at him "You want one too Clay?" he smiles "How about you Jace?"
"Yeah .. yeah why don't you bring some more over , we'll all have one"
"Yeah um.. Kels, can you bring them all a beer" Clay smiles, he swallows nervously he can see the ways she's biting her lip, the look she gives is one of angry daggers and he can tell she's really annoyed.
Angry, her temper bubbles under the surface Do they think I am some sort of fuckin slave! she sighs under her breath as she takes the bottle from the warmer testing it on her arm. She puts it back to warm a little more. There's a lump she can feel in the back of her throat, a tension and she wants to cry.
Clay enters the kitchen where she is. He has a smile on his face as he looks at her "Did you hear? The guys wanted another beer"
"You know what ... get your own damn beers! If you think that I'm gonna be here all night to wait on you, you can think again!"
She shoves him away from her body as he tries to stroke her arms "Hey...hey what's wrong ? Why you being like this?"
"Why am I being like this ? Oh my god!" she laughs with disbelief "Well if you have to ask that, then you don't get it, do you!" she sighs furiously, as she stares at him.
"Kelsey, c'mon you didn't' really wanna it to be just us, did you? Come and have some fun with the guys"
She shakes her head trying to keep calm "Yes... yes, I actually did want us to be alone. Oh, was that stupid of me on my last night? We're not going to see each other for three weeks but ... but this...this is fine?" she grinds her teeth even angrier now the expression on his face he looks like he's smirking.
Jason calls through "Don't suppose you doin any food in there?"
She stares glaring at Jason and then back to Clay "Is he fucking serious? They think I'm gonna cook for them. My last night with you here and you want me to cook and serve beer. You know what Clay .." She pushes him away from her "I'm going to have a bath. Do not come anywhere near me tonight!" She takes the bottle and tries to take Casey from Sonny's arms " I'll take him!"
"Hey! No...no he's okay, I'll do it"
"No! No, you won't!" She forcefully takes him now and Sonny relents
"What no pizza?" Jason smiles wryly, while Clay goes towards her, taking hold of her around the waist.
"You know what Clay you can all go to hell!" she unravels herself from his grasp, staring him in the eyes "You can get your own fucking pizza and your own damn beer. And don't make a mess or you can clear it up yourselves" she's furious now and she turns to leave
"Kelsey wait" Clay grabs at her, taking a breath, he puts his hand across holding her and stopping her from leaving "Kelsey stop, alright I'm sorry.. I ... "
"Get your hands off me Clay!" The guys all sit up and stare at each other, she's still not having any of his apology "I said get your hands off!"
"Kelsey please.. you don't understand.. I ...this ..." he stutters looking awkward, turning around he frowns at the guys wondering what to do.
They're all sniggering and chuckling with laughter but as Kelsey pulls herself from his grip, Clay's no longer finding the situation funny. He can tell how upset she is, and he tries to fix it. "Please...just listen " he sighs.
Now Sonny stands up, grabs hold of her wrist "Hey there lil lady, just wait! Calm yourself down. Alright it was a joke, funny .. ha ha yeah?!"
"Well I'm sorry Sonny, but I don't find it funny. Now get your hand off me!"
"NO! No, you just wait up!" He smiles, the red of anger in her face is making him smirk and the rest of the guys all start to laugh out loud.
"What?" she frowns, confused by them laughing at her "Oh, you think this is funny. Well I don't" she sighs frustrated, her emotional worries of leaving tomorrow are now building this into something it probably shouldn't and she can feel herself starting to get upset .
She tries to calm herself, but them laughing, is not helping with that . "We only have two days left together and you all think it's funny that he would rather spend it with you, drinking!"
Clay smiles he can't help it; he strokes her hair trying to calm her but still she pushes him away "Oh ... if you can't see why I might be upset about that then... then don't bother"
"Kelsey, look I'm sorry alright .. please just let me ..."
"Woah there! Now just hold up." Jason stands up and intervenes between them. "Clay, I think you need to tell her now. This has gone far enough."
"What?" she frowns "What's gone far enough?"
"It was a joke" Clay smiles "This. .. we thought you'd find it funny, I'm sorry"
"What?! Clay I don't understand, what would I find funny about this? What you wanted to upset me?"
"No... of course not. I .. . look, just wait there." He sighs "Please"
She sighs watching as he gets an envelope from his jacket and hands it to her "They are staying. To watch the football, it wasn't a lie about Sonny's TV " he smiles
"Oh well that's fine then, right. I'm so happy for them" she grinds her teeth, confused and fed up now.
"NO! No, you don't understand, come here" he smiles holding her arm as he takes Casey handing him to Sonny "Just open it! They're staying, but we're not. I um... I booked us dinner, and a hotel suite for the night. The guys are gonna babysit Casey for us, so we can have some time alone before you go. We just thought that this... sorry I should have just told you. It really... it was just a joke, we thought you'd think it was funny"
She frowns, hesitantly opening the envelope. Inside she can see a booking form for the hotel suite at the Capes hotel. Her frown turns slowly into a smile as she looks up at him
"You.. you booked this?" she sighs loudly, still confused "for us, tonight. Really?" her smile broadens as she's taken aback. Now regretful for her over reaction to the guys being here
" I.. I don't know what to say now.. " she nervously bites her lip
"Say you'll pack a bag for the night, and then we can go"
She nods, leaning forward, now smiling and kisses him passionately, her hands grabbing at his hair "I can't believe you did this for me?"
"Yeah well, you deserve it and..." he wraps his arms around her waist his hand stroking her butt "I figured a night of uninterrupted ...you know"
"Okay, okay!" watching them kissing Jason puts his hand up for them to stop "Too much information right there. Just get the damn bag packed and go. Leave us to watch the football in peace"
Kelsey's cheeks flush, she feels embarrassed. She feels uncomfortable for swearing at them and getting so upset. "I um... I don't know what to say guys, but I'm sorry for flying off the handle. I just thought..." She sighs again " ...seriously, thank you for this, all of you, it means a lot . Getting him to myself for the night"
"Yeah well don't forget, I need him back in the team tomorrow, fit and well so ... just go easy on him, right. Don't want no injuries" Jason winks
She nods "Um... and you're all gonna be okay, with Casey, for the night? I'll leave my number you can .."
She doesn't finish her sentence before Sonny turns her around, pointing her towards the bedroom "Just go get a bag and leave now. We got this." He sighs, looking at the concern on her face "Look, we got Naima on speed dial if anything goes wrong, but it won't. We got this in hand. I'm on feedin' duty, Jace is on discipline, Full metal's on safety and Trent... he's doin diapers and puke"
"I am?" Trent frowns "Why's that? You know, I know nothin' about diapers"
"Hey, you're medic right? So, you can handle that stuff"
"Yeah but Sonny, this is a baby. I know nothing about changing diapers, I really don't"
"I'll do it. The diapers, I'll do it " Metal looks up from where he's laid on the floor "I can change a diaper real quick" as everyone looks at him frowning, wondering how he could have acquired that skill "What? I can! Oh, my um... my sisters got three kids; I used to help her out when I stayed with her. Got real expert with it, even she said so"
"Okay .." Sonny smiles hesitantly " so we have diapers covered too. Now will you just go, enjoy. Do whatever you wanna do!"
She nods looking at Clay "Thanks guys. This is lovely, it really is. I know you're all gonna take care of him, both of them, while I'm gone" she can feel her voice crack as her emotions start to bubble to the surface. The realities that she's going to miss them all. The guys can hear it and it has the same effects on them.
"Arlight just damn well get out of here before you have us all blubbin'! Clay just take her away... get gone will ya!"
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"Oh wow!" Kelsey gasps as they open the door to the suite "This is amazing!" she smiles " I can't believe you did this for me" She turns around and kisses him, wrapping her arms around his neck.
He places their small bag onto the floor beside the bed while she checks the rest of the suite. Opening the bathroom door, she gasps as she sees the large, whirlpool, bath "This is great!"
"Yeah, it was kinda on my bucket list...you know to um..." Clay coughs. Smiling he wraps himself around her "I love you Kelsey, and you don't know how much I'm gonna miss you"
"Clay...don't!" she puts her finger to his lips "Not tonight. Let's make this about me and you, forget that I'm going away. Let's just make most of being alone and... that bath" she smiles wickedly
"Yeah, you're right. Let's enjoy it." He leans in and kisses her "Oh... I got something else for you!"
"Really, what?" Curiously she watches as he goes to the bag and takes out a pink gift bag "What's this?" she frowns.
Clay leans over her from behind her, sliding his hands over her stomach, he kisses her neck "Open it"
"Clay Spenser, what's this?" She smiles cautiously. Opening the bag she peers inside and pulls out a small pair of black satin panties leaving a matching bra inside the bag. She bites her lip teasingly, turning around to face him "Is this gift for me or .. for you?"
"Well you know um..." he coughs nervously, he can feel a wave of excited anticipation fill his body, watching as she handles the underwear, "Figured it was for you but um... I could maybe get the benefit of it" he leans in and kisses her, now making it obvious what he wants
She coughs as he she breaks from the embrace "You know we could ... skip dinner and get room service instead. If you want to?"
"See now that sounds like a great command decision. I'll go with that Lieutenant" he kisses her again
"You order something, and I'll go and fill that bathtub"
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Clay puts the phone down as he hears the bathroom door click open and he looks up.
"Oh wow!" he smiles watching as Kelsey stands in the doorway wearing only the new black underwear that he bought her. His eyes work their way over her body, looking at the way the bra fits tightly against her skin. How extremely fit she looks, leaning sexily against the wall opposite the bathroom.
"So..." she smiles as she can see the look on his face. Now only wearing his boxer shorts she can also see the large straining bulge of his appreciation " you joining me in this bath or not?" she twirls her hair as she teases him.
"Oh yeah" he smiles getting up.
"Clay wait! Don't forget we need um... some you know...protection, if we're gonna .."
"Sorted!" he smiles then he reaches into the side pocket of the bag bringing with him the packet of condoms.
She giggles loudly as his hands grab at her ass cheeks. Groping against the firm flesh he turns her around in his arms his fingers trailing over her skin making her tingle.
Mmmm! she groans at the warm feel of his touch. Brushing her lips against his, pressing herself up to him. Rubbing her hips against his groin, she's turning him on even more "So, who was on the phone?"
"Oh um... just checking in with Sonny. Make sure everything's okay"
"Is it, okay I mean? Casey he's alright"
"Yeah he's fine. I could hear him giggling in the background they're all having a great time by the sounds of it."
"So, you really think Metal can change his nappy?"
"He's full of surprises" he smiles, stroking her cheek "Talking of surprises, I have one for you" he press the hard in his shorts against her thigh.
"Really .. well...I'm not sure if I'd say that's a surprise!" she places her hand gently against the hardness inside his shorts. Stroking gently, she turns him from semi to fully hard.
Mmmm! he groans while he unclips the back of her bra, sliding it down her arms and off
"What you don't like it?" she smiles
"Oh yeah ...I loved it!" he kisses her neck "I just like you out of it, better"
She smiles, stroking the back of his head as he works his lips over her neck, kissing down her chest, onto her breast. His mouth sucking, gently kissing and making small bites over her firm flesh. She groans softly, the touch as his hands making her skin bristle as he works them gently over her waist. Then he slides her panties down and steps out of them while he removes his shorts.
She can feel the hard of him pressing against her stomach and she can't get enough of his smell, his kisses, his strong muscles caressing her. She closes her eyes enjoying every touch, sighing in anticipation. "C'mon" she grins wickedly.
She's amazingly turned on already and they step into the warm water of the bath. The bubbles gently fizzing around their naked bodies. The massaging sensation of bubbling under them is so nice.
Kelsey at last relaxes forgetting all about leaving tomorrow, just enjoying the last hours with Clay to herself. She leans her head back against the side of the tub, enjoying the water's soothing effect. Clay smiles, he can see the toned flesh of her breasts bobbing just above the surface, his hand finding them and caressing gently, the sensation of his touch turning her on.
She sits up, pushing her hips forward, offering herself to him. They don't speak, just exchange sexual glances and delicate touches of each other's body. And despite the warm water she shivers with pleasure as her fingers draw circles around over his chest muscles and along the firm power of his arms.
He leans against her, his hand under the water finding her soft folds Mmmm ...Oh! She pants in hushed tones. Closing her eyes as his fingers work the magic he knows she likes, making her grin widen. Sighing and groaning as he presses himself more firmly against her.
Pulling her up to seated position, he takes a moment, standing up, turning his back on her while he organizes protection. She smiles, looking at his firm peach like butt there on display, teasing him by stroking the back of his thigh with her foot, wriggling it between his legs.
He smiles as he seats himself back in the warm bubbling water "Come here!"
She smiles, leaning forward towards him, doing as he says, sitting herself astride his lap. His fingers still rubbing against her small firm bud. She leans back, enjoying the excitement he's causing inside her body. His mouth once again biting very gently on her nipple. Then pulling her forward, he thrusts his body into hers
Oh! He makes her gasp loudly as his hardness fills all of her insides and she relaxes, smiling again.
Then pressing one of the buttons on the side panel of the tub, it turns the bubbles up more, filling the room with steam while the water jumps around beside them.
Clay uses his strength to force her up and down in a rocking motion against him, her grinding her hips on him. The feeling is so intense as her tongue, pokes and prods, playing with his.
Their lips are locked, they're both totally lost enjoying the moment and the only noises in the room are their gasps and groans, and the bubbling splashes of the water. It's warm, and exciting, and its not long before Kelsey is at a point of no return
"Clay!" she calls his name loudly and he can see in her face how close she is. He kisses her neck, feeling the tension as her nipples peak and then a few moments longer and she cries out with loud moans as her orgasm takes over her body.
Weak and panting she leans her head on his chest Oh! She smiles, a wicked tease in her eyes, her chest heaving as she continues to pant his name into his neck, while he pushes himself deeper inside her body "Oh yes! Clay!" She cries out, forcing her hips against him, she can feel just how close he is.
Grabbing his arms around her back, holding her tight, virtually lifting her out of the water then forcing himself against as he lowers her down while she continues panting his name, kissing his chest, her hands grabbing at his hair. Then kissing him hard, on the lips, biting it gently before pushing her tongue into his mouth.
The next thrust is going to be his last and as she makes those gentle bites of his neck it tips him over the edge and he can feel himself cum insider her."Oh, fuck Kelsey!" he smiles, groaning her name in satisfaction. He slows his breathing, panting against her neck. "Oh god!" he smiles, resting his head back against the side of the tub.
She falls forward, her hair covering his chest taking a moment. Then she looks up, gently stroking his cheek. The calm pleasure in his expression. Mmmm! "I love you Clay!" placing a hand on either cheek she holds his head and kisses him fully on the lips.
"I love you too!" He smiles but there's a reticence tone to the way he says it "I'm gonna miss you so much, just know that"
Shh! she leans in, her breasts tingle as they stroke against the bare firmness of his naked chest while they continue to kiss. She wants to forget any reminders that she's leaving tomorrow.
Clay cleans himself up and then gets back into the tub beside her. She sits, between his legs, her head leaned back against his chest while she gently strokes his thigh. The gurgling swirling bubbles lapping around them. It's so warm now and the heat makes her flush with color.
Mmmm! "This is so nice. I can't believe you did this for me. Thank you, it's just what I needed."
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"Hey" Clay sighs as he checks the time on his watch. It's still dark and its 03:00 "you okay?" he was awoken by what sounds like sniffing and he wonders if she's been crying.
"Yeah ... " she nods in the darkness snuggling herself against his side, he wraps an arm around her back, stroking his fingers down her spine while she drapes an arm across his chest. "Yeah I'm just thinking that's all. Nothing to worry about. Go back to sleep"
Clay sighs loudly "You having doubts about tomorrow"
"No, no not really. Just .. just nerves I guess. Thinking about how hard it will be, how much I'll miss this. Us!"
"Hey.. it's only three weeks, we can do that right?"
"Yeah " she sniffs as his voice sets off a stream of tears down her face "Yeah I know but... oh god I'm gonna miss you. I think I made a mistake, wanting to go back"
"Hey... " Clay softly whispers in her ear pulling her tighter against him" You didn't make a mistake, we talked this over. This is what you want, what you need. It'll be fine Kelsey I promise. It's just nerves You've been a way a long time. I promise its going to be alright. Look, I'll message you every day and you can face-time Casey when ever you want"
She sniffs back her tears "I know I... Oh, it's going to break my heart tomorrow, leaving him."
"I know... I know it will hurt, so much, but it 'll be fine and we will be waiting right here, when you get back" he kisses her head trying to hold back his own tears, wrapping her naked body tight up against his own. He closes his eyes, the knot in the back of his throat leaves him hardly able to speak. Gulping furiously so he doesn't cry, being strong for her.
"Don't come to the airport tomorrow, let me say my goodbyes at the flat. I don't wanna upset Casey ... just leave him where he's happy"
Clay nods every tear from her cuts at his heart like it's being prodded with a stick "Tell you..." he coughs choking on his emotions "tell you what. I'll um.. I'll ask Sonny to stay with him and then I can still take you. We can have a last hour together before you have to board"
She hesitates nodding furiously "Okay... yeah. Yeah that would be great" She sigh burying her head against his chest, him stroking her hair, eventually both of them closing their eyes they go to sleep
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Back at the apartment the next day.
She comes from the bedroom, carrying her case, wheeling it through to the lounge
"He's um..." she bites her lip containing her emotions "he's asleep .. now.. I gave him his bottle, I errm.. I'll leave him sleeping" she nods her lip quivering. She shudders, not with cold but with nerves. Taking deep breaths trying to stop herself crying but every few minutes one large tear rolls down her cheek. She's quick to brush each one away.
Clay can barely look at her. He's locked his emotions down tight but every time he hears that crack in her voice he finds it harder. He looks at Sonny and they exchange silent glances.
"Um.. I think I just need the bathroom one more time. I .. I .." Ohh! " ..I won't be a minute" she gasps through her tears.
What she really means is, that she has to go cry by herself again. Hide away, hoping that if she cries enough, then she'll exhaust the emotions.
Catching a glimpse of the sleeping Casey, in his crib, she takes a deep breath Oh! Oh god! she runs her hands through her hair "I'm so sorry." Her lip shudders and she bites at it hard to stop it. The tears flow freely and the continual stabbing pain in her chest hurts. "Oh god! I can't do this" she wipes her nose on her hand, she's now a snotty blubbering mess and she heads into the bathroom for tissue.
Looking at herself in the mirror Why? Why are you doing this? She questions herself over and over, as to why she's causing herself, and Clay, this heartache
Oh God! She sits down on the side of the bath, clutching her head in her hands while she sobs uncontrollably.
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"I'll um... I'll take her case downstairs. Tell her I'll wait there for her" Clay's lip trembles and his eyes well with hot tears as he looks at her suitcases.
"You okay?" Sonny frowns, chewing his gum
"Yeah. Um... thanks for doing this. She, she didn't wanna upset Casey again at the airport"
"It's fine. You know it's cool brother, anytime. I love lookin after him anyways. Look, just hold in there Clay, alright? You need to be strong now"
Sonny's words are too much for Clay to bear and the odd tear rolls down his cheek "I can't do this, man. I mean, I can, this time, but...what about next time. She's gonna be gone for months, then I'm on deployment. How the hell can we go through this, each time?" He rubs his head in his hands Oh god! "Why Sonny, why did she wanna go back so much?" he sighs again "You know I ... I kept hoping, that she'd change her mind"
"Clay, c'mon man, you know why she's gotta do this. Same reason we do, what we do, right? You just gotta be strong now brother. Don't let her see you like this. You need to be there for her, she needs ya right now. Look, I promise... when you come back from the airport, we'll sink some beers..." he smiles ".. and you can cry all ya want"
"Okay! Okay, yeah you're right" Clay takes a deep breath, pulling himself together as he sees her standing in the doorway "You okay?" he smiles
Mmmm hmm! she nods, unable to speak. She knows if she does, she'll probably only cry again.
"Well, I'll um.. I'll take this down to the truck. Give you a minute to make sure you have everything"
Mmmm hmm! "Sure" she bites her lip, her hands trembling as she takes a long last look around the apartment, remembering all their time together there. She smiles, thinking of that first night she came back with Clay from the bar and everything that's happened since. She looks up and her eyes meet with Sonny and she smiles "We'll I guess this is goodbye for a while"
"Nah it's just c'ya right? You'll be back before I even have time ta think about ya!" he laughs, swallowing his emotions back, he can start to feel his tears welling, a huge lump in the back of his throat as he grabs hold of her and pulls her close against him. "Just enjoy it okay. We got this"
Mmmm! She nods now she can't stop her tears and Sonny looks at her
"Hey .. stop that okay... You'll damn well set me off" he smiles
"Take care of them for me, please?" she snivels through her tears "Help him with Casey right. He needs someone Sonny. Promise me you'll be there"
"Hey, he's my brother, my family. I'm always there for him. You don't need to worry about that. I always got his six"
"Yeah... yeah I know" She holds him tight kissing his cheek "Right .. well I .. I guess I um... I better go then." She sniffs, wiping her nose "Um... Casey... he's asleep, he'll probably need changing when he wakes up"
"Hey, don't worry 'bout a thing. I got this." He smiles "Metal he um...he gave me a tutorial last night"
She nods trying to smile through her pain, her chest is tight and it's difficult to breath as she desperately tries to hold her tears back "Oh Sonny..." she gasps "I.." she takes another breath unable to speak properly "Just... just give him an extra cuddle for me, when he wakes up"
"Hey, you know I will" Sonny pulls her close holding her tight, he's struggling with his emotions "I um... I need the bathroom. I'll check on my lil champ while I'm there" he smiles as she lets go and heads to the door.
Looking around one more time she takes a deep breath, tears streaming down her face "Bye Sonny!"
