If you forgive me all this...

Draco's POV

Okay, so I had been trying to think of some way to contact Granger without anyone noticing. But after the encounter we had in the bathroom the other day, she seems to be avoiding me. Or spending more time with the rest of her friends, knowing that I won't try anything with them around.

Bloody hell! For the entire first part of the school year I couldn't get her to look away from me and now she won't even give me a glance. Dumbledore was right. The kiss had spooked her. She knows I remember something and she is trying to make me forget again. What is she so afraid off? At least together we stand strong to fight. How could she give up on us so easily? I remember damn it! And I want to share those memories with her. I want to share everything with her again! Why won't she let me? She must realize already that her plan backfired if I remember, so why still avoid the inevitable?

After a few days of watching her, waiting for an opportunity to talk to her, I had almost given up, until I saw her sitting on a bench in the courtyard, alone… I knew the rest of them were still around somewhere and Pansy was around somewhere as well, so I couldn't risk sitting next to her and actually talk to her out here in the open, but I could give her a note.

I walked behind the bench and threw a note into her lap and walked away. Now I could only hope that she would meet me…

Hermione's POV

I could sense him looking at me without seeing it, ever since that day in the bathroom. I never looked back at him. Afraid he would read my eyes like a book. I knew he felt frustrated with my lack of attention, but I couldn't risk it. I couldn't risk him remembering. I don't even know how it would be possible. The spell I created was supposed to prevent anyone but myself remembering anything. And yet I could see it in his eyes that night, memories, feelings, fighting their way to the surface somehow. So I had to stop it before it went too far. All the planning, all the pain will have been for nothing if he remembers and history repeats itself.

So far I had been doing a good job at avoiding him and his knowing looks. I had also been surrounding myself with Harry, Ron and Ginny all the time, knowing he wouldn't approach me in any way if I wasn't alone. At least the avoiding had distracted me from the pain I still felt. Ginny being the only one knowing what was really going on.

One day I found myself sitting alone a bench in the courtyard. I hadn't planned on sitting alone, Ginny had class and I had come there with Harry and Ron. But Neville interrupted us saying he needed to talk to them about something. I could sense that I wasn't welcome for this particular talk, so I just stayed there. I hadn't seen Draco around for a while so he couldn't possible know I was here alone. I had also seen some Slytherins, including Pansy, walking past earlier, so I knew he wouldn't risk it.

I kept reading my book when suddenly a note fell on top of the page. I looked behind me just in time to see a head of white blond hair disappear behind the corner.

"Meet me in the Room of Requirement tonight at 9:00 o'clock. Please Hermione?", the note had said.

I thought about throwing it away first and not think about it, but I just couldn't. I wanted to hear what he had to say, I needed to hear…

After dinner, I hadn't decided yet if I would go or not. I still had doubts. I really wanted to know what he had to say, but at the same time I was scared of knowing.

At 8:45 I had made my decision that I would go and meet him, so I made my way the room of requirement.

Draco's POV

I had been waiting in the room of requirement for about 30 minutes. It was 9:20 and she still hadn't shown up. I gave up and decided to go back to my dorm when the door opened and she walked in. She looked at me with sadness in her eyes, like what I would have to say wouldn't change anything, and I just couldn't take it. I was angry with her for doing this to us, for making this decision without my consent!

But I didn't want to hurt her or yell at her, so I decided to pour all of my emotions into a kiss. I pushed her up against the wall and just started kissing her. To my surprise, she kissed me back.

It was like being able to breathe again. I didn't want to stop at just kissing, so I didn't. Clothes came of pretty fast after that and it seemed as though the room was remembering as well. It turned into the room I saw in my dreams, the room with red and green and a bed in the middle of it. I put my hands on her thighs and lifted her up. She didn't hesitate to put her legs around my waist while I carried her over to the bed. We made love to each other that night and I knew I couldn't let her go again. I couldn't walk away either. We had to find another solution, because neither of us was willing to give this up.

So it began again. We started our clandestine meetings again. Filling our evenings with talking, studying and of course making love.

I stayed behind during the holidays, knowing that I could avoid getting the mark a little longer. I also couldn't give any updates about the cabinet yet, because I hadn't been working on it. They would know something is wrong then.

I knew that I would have to go back to Dumbledore at some point, because I would need help and protection. The other Slytherins have noticed something is up as well. I have been avoiding them like the plague and kept sneaking out after hours. The ones who know about my assignment, just assume it's because of that, so they have kept the others away and they don't ask questions. But that is only going to help me so far. I need better help, help from the Order…

Hermione's POV

I had finally felt happy again. I never thought I would feel like that again. The way I had been feeling the past two months since Draco and I had been seeing each other again, it was perfect. I don't understand how I had been able to let this go before. But we have been given a second chance and I was not making the same mistakes twice. I wouldn't let him go home during the holidays, that gave us a little more time. This time we also haven't been working on the cabinet to fix it, because we aren't going to. Draco has already gone to Dumbledore before, so he knows about most of it and has already agreed to grant Draco protection from the Order if he seeks it. Things were finally getting better again.

The happiness was kind of put on hold again, after I noticed that I hadn't had my period for the past two months… I tried to think back to all the times we slept together and we had always been so careful, always using the spell, except for one time… That first time we agreed to meet in the Room of Requirement, after Draco remembered…

I went to Madam Pomfrey to confirm my suspicions that I was indeed pregnant. Draco and I had created a baby. This changed everything…