A/N- WOW! Thank you all for the reviews! I truly didn't expect so much interest in this story still, I have it all planned out maybe five more chapters, give or take, bear with me =) Thank you all for the amazing reviews! And sticking with this story 😊 don't hate me too much with this chapter.

Gripping the edge of the sink tightly trying hard to breath, just breath, looking at myself in the mirror I looked like shit I had dark circles and bags under my eyes, Jesus I'm amazed they even allow me on tv looking like this, splashing water on my face I quickly dried it off blowing out a breath "just go back to your room." I whispered to myself trying to encourage myself before making my way now fully dressed seeing him sitting on the edge of the bed staring at the floor "you know."

Looking straight at me his stare causing my entire body to freeze "when you knocked on my door last night, I really thought." Rubbing his face, he let out a chuckle before getting up and walking over to me "I know you're gonna be with me, I get it, I broke your trust and I will have to work my ass off to get it back but give me that chance, please baby." Both of his hands on each side of my face gripping my hair his forehead placed on mine , closing my eyes oh I felt like putty right now, feeling my cheek becoming wet from tears falling, if Jon hadn't, I might've given in right now, but how could I break my best friend like that?

Opening my eyes to his brown eyes on mine "just let me get my head straight ok? If we do." Swallowing hard looking at him placing my hands on his wrists "if we do, do this, pull this together I just need my head right, ok?" blowing out a breath he nodded "Ok, let me walk you to the door." Taking my hand in his he led me to the door "thank you." I barely whispered sighing when he opened the door he pulled me closely into him holding me to him hugging me "I'm here ok, I'm in this all of me, one hundred percent" bending down cupping my face again he lightly pecked my lips "mmm salty." Making me laugh shaking my head "Bye." Slowly releasing his hand as I stepped out of the room.

"Really!?" making me jump holding my hand to my heart, shit! "Jon." I whispered softly, shaking his head scrunching it in disgust before walking past me "JON!" I called out my eyes burning watching my best friends back retreat from me, great just great what I did not need. Holding my hair up with my hand I sighed as Jon disappeared from my sight, biting my lip a sudden wave of home sickness over coming me, I just wanted to go home, I wanted to curl up in my bed, I wanted my dad, I didn't want this, any of it! How the hell did I get myself back in this mess?

Making my way back to my room I groaned flopping down in the unslept in bed, how was I going to fix any of this? "SHIT." Sitting straight up I was supposed to ride with the shield today, well that wasn't going to happen! Grabbing my phone, I quickly texted Nikki for a ride almost instantly getting a reply "Sure! We're riding with Rene but I'm sure she wouldn't mind." Biting my lip, oh goody I have some words for Miss. Young "when are you guys leaving?" I needed a shower "one-hour missy." Laughing well at least that gave me enough time to shower, I'd just get ready at the arena.

Letting the hot water work its magic on my body I closed my eyes for a moment and just for a moment I let myself open up to the idea of Jon, when we lived together he was always so considerate, his been so loyal to me and god did the man know how to kiss and I didn't even want to remember the other amazing things he could do with various body parts "Come on sunshine, you know you want this, just let go, give in to me." His voice taunting my thoughts, shaking my head "no no, if I lost him." Nope I couldn't even let myself fall into that fantasy.

Turning the water off I sighed again staring at myself in the mirror, I needed to get my shit together, that's for sure! Quickly putting on a white crop top and black track pants, I slipped my ADIDAS slid on's on, my hair down and wet but that would just have to make do, ugh! It was going to be a rough day!

Quickly gathering my stuff for the day and the long trip to the next town that I still needed to figure out as I was supposed to be riding with the shield boys but again I think its best I just keep my distance from two of the three shield members, at least on a personal level, unfortunately on a professional level that wasn't going to be as easy as we were slowly transitioning into our line together, stopping dead in my track hitting my forehead, oh my god! How was I supposed to go on screen and be a couple with Jon knowing all of this now! What if he had the whole thing scraped? I'm truly excited to work with the shield! Fuck! Damn you Rene for putting this in his head!

NO ONES POV-

Jon fought hard to not glare at his team mate, what the hell did this man have that he didn't? His never cheated on her! His never left her! His never put his hands on her, yet he has some magical fucked up hold on her "I guess Sam isn't riding with us." Colby looked up from his phone confused.

Jon scuffed "chicken." He muttered crossing his arms over his chest, Colby and Joe looking at him with matching confused looks "what?" they both asked at the same time, shaking his head "nothing, just be nice if she told us a head of time so we're not just sitting around waiting for her, the world doesn't revolve around Samantha fucking Calaway." Quickly grabbing his bags before huffing out of the hotel to the parking lot.

He never put himself out there like that, he swore he wouldn't with her, but suddenly it had to be said and it ruined everything just like he fucking knew it would, and to top it off he just pushed her more into his arms and that just felt great seeing this morning, her coming out of his room the morning after he tells her he loves her and wants to be with her, leaning against the SUV pulling the cigarettes out of his pocket, he felt angry, he felt embarrassed, but mostly he felt hurt at her rejection, here she was trying to pick between two douche bags that didn't deserve her at all and he was offering her him, all of him, all in and she just didn't seem to care.

Almost like a sixth sense he could feel her, glancing up there she was frozen as she stared at him, her face white, dark circles under her eyes to be honest she looked like hell, but damn if he didn't think she looked like a goddess even in her mess , looking her up and down, fuck the things he wanted to do to that body, how much he missed the things she could do for him, no women compared to her, she fucking ruined him for most women to be honest, he tried but he'd have to imagine it was her, he knew that was sick, but it was the only thing that worked.

Tossing his cigarette on the ground before turning around to see Joe standing next to him "you eye ball fuck her anymore you might in pregnant her." Frowning tossing his luggage in the back "dude shut the fuck up, seriously." He snapped leaving his friend shocked at his outburst before putting his own stuff in the back of the SUV, what the hell happened between those two?

Jon sat in the driver seat frowning seeing Colby make his way to Sam, rolling his eyes watching the two of course Colby would just go over to her, of course he would think he just had the right, putting his sunglasses on he didn't feel like watching his team mate pee all over her, honking the horn "let's go or I'm leaving your ass!" he yelled out the driver's window, Joe in the passenger seat looking over at Jon "dude spill now, what the fuck happened between you two?" Joe would be more ok with his team mate taking his head off if he knew the reason why, he was pretty sure he knew what was going on, hell everyone knew what was going on between those two, the only ones who didn't see.

Jon sighed rubbing his face "I might've told her I have feelings for her." Looking over at his team mate who honestly didn't look surprised "I take it she didn't respond the way you wanted." Jon laughed shaking his head visions of her walking out of his room this morning "Hell that would've been nicer then the way she responded." Sighing thumping the steering wheel.

"Is this just a little crush for you? Something your friendship could get over if you told her that?" Jon shrugged he didn't know all he knew was he felt like an idiot "that won't work." Blowing out a breath Roman frowned remembering the last time these two had a falling out, Jon was a miserable son of a bitch without her to keep him grounded "and why not?" he didn't want a repeat of that again, and from what he observed of her she doesn't fair well without him either this could be one hell of a fucked-up storm brewing in everyone's world "If I even tried to tell her how I really felt, she'd think I want a relationship and that would just scare her off more." Roman bit back his grin "and whys that?" Jon sighed throwing his head back against the head rest.

Shaking his head back and forth before landing his eyes on the person was wrecking his entire world "because that's what I want, and I get it, I know I told her however many years ago I wasn't the relationship type, and I wasn't then but fuck even then I loved and respected her enough to not even put her through that hell, I would've wrecked her how I was back then, but now." Looking over at roman "man she's all I want, she fucking ruined me for any other women, I crave her." Rubbing his face just as the back door opened before Roman could answer his friend.

Both men turning to see Colby sitting in the back "Oh are you ready now? Can we go?" Jon snapped turning the SUV on and pulling away without an answer from a confused Colby Lopez. Roman sat back this was going to be very very interesting how all of this worked out between his two team mates and their common love interest.

SAM'S POV-

I frowned seeing Jon immediately against the shields SUV, smoking, I couldn't help but check him out, honestly I felt myself wanting to just run to him, kiss him, hug him, give in to him but in all the years I've known Jon his never been one to settle down, to stay in a committed relationship, and if we did this and he cheated on me, or left me I could never go back to just friends with him and that thought broke my heart more than anything else I've been through

"Hey." Sighing and then there's that, turning to see Colby making his way to me, offering him a smile putting a piece of lose hair behind my ear "Hey."

"What's up? Why the sudden ride changes?" sighing one thing about Colby his a human lie detector, which is funny considering I couldn't even tell when he was cheating on me.

"I just uh-." Struggling with exactly what to say to him, hmm I changed my ride plans because my best friend, one of your good friends and team mate declared his love for me and gave me honestly they world's best kiss and I ran out of the room after words and oh went and slept with- "let's go or I'm leaving your ass!" Jon yelled out the driver's window.

Colby sighed "Did something happen between you two?" looking back at the SUV waving Jon off, he seemed pretty confident Jon wouldn't leave him, I was pretty sure Jon would have no problem with leaving him.

Biting my lip shrugging my shoulders, I didn't know how to answer that right now "we'll be fine, just a tense moment." Clearing my throat seeing the girls "look I gotta go, I'll uh see you." Grabbing my luggage I just needed space, lots and lots of space from all these boys.

"Hey." Colby quickly grabbed my hand stopping me "did I do something?" pointing to himself, I sighed shaking my head "No Colb you didn't, I just, I'm too much in my head and I just need to get it clear." At least I could give an honest answer to that question sucking in my bottom lip I shrugged "I do need to go, I'll see ya." Pulling my hand from his grip I quickly made my way to where nikki, Brie and oh Miss. Rene Young where all standing waiting for me.

"Hey." Tossing my luggage in the back of the rental next to Nikki's overly prices Loui vouton luggage "hey girl, so good to have you." The twins both hugged me, stepping away from the comfort of the twins embrace, I held my index finger pointing to Rene "you and me shot gun, we need to talk." Rene pointed to herself raising her eye brow obviously confused "we need to talk?" nodding sitting in the passenger seat, Nikki and brie looking at each other confused as they climbed in the back seat "everything ok?" brie leaned forward nodding staying quiet as Rene got in the driver seat starting the rental.

"Ok girl, what is up?" I couldn't help but smile at her non chalont way, she was truly like the male version of Jon, it was kinda odd that they didn't click more romantically "Did you tell Jon to tell me his in love with me?" Rene coughing on her coffee she just took a sip of, I wasn't going to beat around the bush.

"Jon said what?" Nikki and Brie both gasped from the back seat, Rene shrugged recovering from her choked on coffee.

"We talked and he told me how he felt, I told him to go for it." Her eyes on the road frowning at her, why was she just so oh well about ruining my friendship!

"To go for it? Do you know our history Rene?" turning in the seat to face her "I do, he told me, he told me how you two used to hook up, how you wanted more at the time he wasn't ready to be that guy, but look Sam he really is with you he is, his that guy." Sighing I felt a head ache coming on.

Rubbing the side of my head I didn't want to sound like I was bashing Jon at all because he is an AMAZING guy but it's Jon! With a different girl every night, doesn't want a relationship and he swore after AJ he wasn't doing that shit again, his words not mine.

"You don't get it Jon just I don't know his going through something and I'm the one constant in his life, so it's easy for him to feel that way but it will wear off because Jon doesn't do committed relationships." Rene laughed "Maybe with anyone else, but girl the man is in love with you we all can see it." Looking back to Nikki and Brie both nodding their heads in agerence making me frown, they weren't supposed to agree with Rene! They were supposed to tell Rene she was crazy and to butt out!

"I already have enough on my plate with the Colby and Phil drama and all I want to do is focus on this match next week, making it epic, which is really hard doing it with a women who is the entire reason I spent eight months out of action, broke Jon's heart and hates me for no reason other than she's psycho!." Rene sighed

"Listen, AJ disliked you because again we can all see it, everyone can see it but you, hell even Jon's starting to see it." Shaking my head watching the twins nodding "Don't defend her! She broke my knee!" pointing to my brace knee, holding up their hands all three ladies laughed "she could've handled it better, but it's tough when you can see you other half looking at someone else, wanting someone else." frowning see what? What is this seeing everyone but apparently me can see!

I know Jon better than anyone in the wwe ! "See what?" sighing heavily I didn't want some beat around the bush nonsense! I really didn't need all of this extra non sense.

Rene laughed "GIRL! You and Jon are meant to be, you two are soul mates, the way you two look at each other, and it's so raw and real, like you two know a fairy tale isn't on the horizon but just true love and loyalty you both deserve." Rene glanced over at me sighing I bit my lip I didn't have an argument covering my eyes before my eyes burning and my throating tightening, before I could stop it a sob escaped my mouth.

"Oh hon." Nikki leaned forward rubbing my arm "I just, I thought." Clearing my throat "I thought losing Colby was the most difficult thing I went through, the pain I felt during that time was un real, it broke my heart but I got up from it, I built off of it, but Jon, if I lost him." Taking a deep breath I used my pinky to wipe away tears

"I don't think I'm strong enough to survive that loss, like oh my god when he kissed me last night-" Hearing all three girls gasp inwardly causing me to wince closing my eyes shut tightly, I forgot I left out that little detail "Oh my god he kissed you? Did he use tongue?" before I could go on Nikki jumped in with a million questions making me laugh shaking my head, covering my face.

"Nicole! You can't just ask people if they got tongue!" Brie scolded slapping her twin sisters before offering me an apologetic look "sorry, she seems to forget her manners." laughing ignoring the twins.

"Anyways, I wanted to get lost in it, and I wanted to say yes to him, I want to so badly say yes to him, but the thought of losing him makes me freeze and I just can't do it, I will not get back up from that lost." Blowing out a breath finally admitting it out loud, I want to be with Jon, I see myself marrying him, having babies with him, having a great life with him.

"Just be honest." Kofi's words rang through my head again, ugh! "Seriously! that is no way to live your life." Rene glanced at me, I frowned it's not how I normally am "I know I risked it all when I branched out on my own, way from my dad, but when it comes to anything that can cost me Jon, I just can't do it." waving my hands shaking my head "he means way too much to me.'' swallowing the lump in my throat.

"Ok I see that, maybe it won't work." Rene shrugged making me frown at her apparent not caring, holding her hand up "but maybe seeing if it does or where it could go is worth way more then what if it doesn't, because girl the bell's been rung, you two can't go back from this." rubbing my hand over my face frowning at her words, she was right the bell was rung, what happens from here?

This dance of ignoring each other won't last long, hell am supposed to start a romantic line with him soon, ugh! Great! How does that work now?

"Well now what?" Rene glanced at me smirking "balls in your court babe." Ugh! I did not need another man to this mix, and what about Colby? Their friends, and team mates! How did I handle that? I do care deeply for Colby, we began to build a life together and there's something very strongly still there, and then there's Phil, Jesus Christ! It's like what high school should've been but at twenty eight!

"RENE!" covering my face with my arms as a car side swiped us merging into our lane.

NO-ONES POV-

Jon frowned they had backstage stuff to do with Sam to start building her into the shield, into his on screen love interest, how was he supposed to go out there and kiss her and flirt with her with them like this? It was going to be fucking torture not that it mattered because she wasn't here yet.

Colby sighed looking at his cell phone "she's not answering her phone." Rubbing his face obvious worry on his face, Jon felt his anger at her rejection fading and worry setting in, she may avoid him personally but she was always a professional, something happened, where was she?

Pulling his phone out trying her number going to voicemail , "where are you?" he growled out worry evident in his voice before hanging up fighting the urge to go looking for her, something had to be wrong for her not to be here yet, did she eat? What if she was at the hospital? Would Rene and the twins know what happens if her blood sugar spikes or drops? It's a dangerous thing to not know with her.

Raking his fingers through his messy hair what if something happened, they got into an accident? Again would they know to tell the paramedics all her medical shit? The women needs to just carry around a note, in case of emergency call Jon, rubbing his face he didn't like this feeling at all.

"She hasn't talked to you at all?" Colby voice interrupted his racing thoughts of the millions of reasons why she wasn't here yet, shaking his head no scratching the back of his head.

"No I haven't talked to her since last night." looking at his team mate, who rubbed his face "well maybe we should go talk to hunter? Maybe his heard from her?" Colby suggested just as Jon seen John Cena and Dania Bryan.

Daniel on his phone, she rode with Rene and the twins, he had to know something "hold that thought." patting Colby's arm before making his way towards the men.

"YO CENA." calling out to John Cena, Sam rode in with both of their ladies, they had to know something! One of the two men should know where the hell she was, seeing Brian rub his face on the phone.

John holding his finger up to the younger man causing him to frown becoming even more worried, what the fuck is going on? He felt his blood starting to boil, someone needs to talk to him and do it quickly.

"Ok but you're ok? Ok, I don't care about a rental, ok, everyone else is ok? Ouch, ok see you soon sweet face, I love you." sighing Bryan hanging up looking at John "everyone's ok, they're on their way here now."

"what the hell happened?" his patience running short just as Roman and Colby made their way over to them "Apparently some idiot didn't see them and side swiped the car, Rene spun out into the median, Brie said everyone is ok, they're all shaken up, Sam has a bump on her head from hitting the dash board, but all in all ok." Jon covered his face, fuck! Feeling his stomach drop, he knew something wasn't right and he'd bet she didn't charge her phone, women never charges her dammed phone!

"Jesus." Colby's voice again breaking his inner rant looking over at his team mate as agitated as he was at the idea of Sam even entertaining the idea of giving him a second chance he looked how he felt right now "their ok though?" looking back at Brian who was trying not to smirk "yea man, she's ok, They're being brought back here in the ambulance only because the car's totaled. She's got a bump and is a little shaken up, they all are."

the group of men quietly made their way to the garage, Jon's mind was racing a mile minute at every way this could've turned out, he felt like a dumb ass if something happened to her and they weren't speaking, he'd never forgive himself, his never not been there for her and he wasn't going to start now, no matter what.

Colby stood next to Jon crossing his arms over his chest before clearing his throat "you know she'll never risk your friendship for a relationship right?" looking over Jon who raised his eye brow "I been trying my best to ignore it, but it has to be said man, you know you don't stand a chance with her right?" before Jon could respond the beeping of the ambulance backing into the garage indicating the women where there.

Colby quickly made his way over to the ambulance seeing the women helped out, Jon's breath caught in his throat as she stepping out, her eyes scanning the garage as Colby hugged her tightly to him, finally stopping when they landed on him, frowning she was looking for him?

"Don't let him get in your head man, as much as I don't want to be in the middle of this, you stand a better chance with her then he does, she just hasn't realized it yet, girl loves you man, she's in love with you, my mom always says someone's eyes will tell you everything and the way she looks at you, the way she just looked for you, man hang in there, give her time." looking over at his one of his best friends he sighed "she made it clear last night, I probably pushed her further in his arms-" snorting "or Phil's, I just need to accept she friend zoned me." before looking back at the ambulance.

She was sitting on the edge legs dangling off, he couldn't help but chuckle at how adorable she looked, she was only five foot tall which always made him chuckle because of her dad being as tall as he is, rolling his eyes watching Colby hover over her "hey you guys ok?" he heard roman ask seeing the group of ladies she was traveling with now in front of them, looking over at Rene he frowned "what happened?"

shaking her head looking at the twins, none of them had a good poker face, Sam told them, of course she would "we were just driving, and talking….I don't even know exactly, I glanced over at Sam and back to the road literally Jon I swear my eyes didn't leave the road longer then a second, next thing I know Sam's screaming my name and we're getting slammed into, I tried my best to stop the car but it just kept spinning before slamming on Sam's side into that concreate wall thingy." Jon frowned Rene really seemed shaken up.

Pulling her into him "its ok you did the best you could, that guy is lucky none of us was there, what a bum." making everyone laugh "You should go check on her." Rene peeked up at him, biting his lip taking a deep breath shaking his head "She's got Colby.''

"I'm sure she'd prefer you." Nikki's voice spoke up, Brie nodding "go check on her Jon, just uh, be patient ok, she's not where you at-" Brie smirked at the younger man "yet." before laying her head against Bryans chest.

Roman nudging him "don't throw the towel in yet man." sighing looking over seeing the paramedic handing her some paper work, biting his lip regardless he was still her best friend and he'd be dammed if Colby took that from him.

SAMS POV-

I couldn't help but want to push Colby off of me, we weren't together! My eyes finding Jon, who was holding Rene, swallowing the lump in my throat "it's not my first concussion, I got it." it felt like the world stopped yet everything was spinning all around me all at the same time.

"Sam." Colby frowned "Sorry, she'll follow all of these orders and we'll follow up with the Doc here." frowning as he spoke for me, I hated that! I always hated that when we were together, snatching the paper work from the paramedic before he could give it to Colby "I will follow up, thank you." as they unloaded our luggage from the ambulance, clearing my throat "uh thank you for bringing us here." the young paramedic looked down his face turning red "It's really not a problem, I'm a huge fan of wwe but of you alone as well, butterfly." biting my lip at the nick name he was a fan, clearing my throat "well thank you.'' nodding "not a problem, kick ass, after the concussion is cleared of course.''

"You ok?" making my head snap in the direction his voice was coming, the only person I've wanted since the wreck, before I could think before I could stop myself I felt my feet quickly moving towards Jon's direction wrapping my arms around his neck, feeling his arms around my waist and just like that suddenly the world could spin again, I was ok letting out a sob "shh you're ok." feeling his hand on the back of my head as I sniffled against his shirt.

"ok boyfriend, here is the concussion directions, no physical activity at least tonight need to follow up with a dr in seventy two hours, I'd suggest getting a scan but she refused it, uh are you going to stay with her?" oop this felt awkward as Colby stood watching this as I unwrapped myself from Jon as he took the paper keeping his arm around my waist "yea she won't be alone tonight." he nodded thanking them.

JONS POV-

I did not expect that reaction from her, honestly I didn't want to let her go and it was music to my ears the paramedic thought I was her boyfriend, fuck I wish! Watching them drive away, ignoring Colby, she looked ghostly white, I could tell she was shook up, placing both my hands on the side of her head examine the purple and blue goose egg on her forehead "see sunshine, that's why we were our seat belts." opening her mouth to argue she quickly closed it "you're ok though?" I needed to hear her say she was ok.

Nodding "yea, I mean the cars fucked but it could've been worse, Rene did her best at stopping it." nodding I was sure Rene did, before I could stop myself I kissed the top of her head "OK.'' smirking hearing Colby yell Sam looking at him confused, rubbing the back of his neck I raised my eye brow, yea dick head should I tell her or you?

"Let's get you inside, talk with hunter and Stephanie." he covered good, better then I noticed before but that was when I trusted him with her, feeling Sam lay her head back on my chest I couldn't hide my surprise "actually I spoke with Hunter and Steph already, they were supposed to catch you guys up." keeping her head on my chest she glanced at me, I felt amazing in those moment as she looked back at Colby who was frowning "they didn't."

"Oh I'm sorry, yea because of the concussion I can't do the ring work, like we had planned with me and Stephanie, but I'll still do a backstage segment with Jon, um but can Jon and I just have a moment please?" her voice was soft and quite now, Colby stood looking between the two of us before nodding "uh err yea, I mean sure." though I could tell in my team mates eyes he wasn't too happy about this.

Waiting until he was inside I felt Sam take my hand "let's sit." frowning as she led the way, I didn't know what to say, it was obvious between myself and her what she wanted to talk about, I just needed to brace for the letdown.

Sam's pov-

his hand felt so warm in mine, clearing my throat forcing myself to keep space between us, the accident it put everything in perspective, one of those tv moments, I kept his hand in mine though, I needed to feel him in some way "you are the very best thing to happen to me." clearing my throat "you are the best person I have in my life." hearing him scoff I frowned "I'm serious Jon, you just make everything better in my life, when I was staying in the coliseum I was scared, honestly I had decided the next morning I would call my dad give up and do things his way, it was scary and then somehow fate intervened and made you notice me-'' putting my hair behind my ear I chuckled "though I don't know how.'' Jon rolled his eyes nudging me, leaning in he placed a piece of lose hair behind my ear "how could I not?"

biting my lip casting my eyes downward feeling my cheeks heat "anyways, and somehow I just felt ok, like I don't know everything with Colby and I, when he-" turning my head blowing out a breath " I had never feared a man until that night, but then part of me didn't because I knew you were coming for me, and I was safe, you'd make sure of it, you have always been my rock, my safe place, you have always been my go to person, and the thought of losing that, of losing you." shaking my head "I freeze." Jon frowned looking down pulling his hand from mine.

"I'm glad you turned me down all those years ago for me." Jon frowned shaking his head "what the fuck? Is this you way of letting me down?" laughing I shook my head making him stand up "Jesus what is your deal Samantha Calaway?! I offered you my fucking heart last night and you ripped it out enough this morning! You didn't need to add salt to the wound." making me laugh more standing up grabbing his hand.

"Jon! Stop it! Listen to me!' I'm not letting you down! I'm trying to tell you I-' frowning when the doors opened reviling Colby what was his issue with leaving me with Jon? sighing great this is just what I needed "Stephanie and hunter want you two." frowning I dropped Jon's hand who's eyes stayed focused on me, eye brow squinted together tilting his head "we'll talk later ok?" I tried assuring him.

Frowning when he silently turned around walking in front of me, fuck! This was not how this conversation was supposed to go! "Everything ok?" Colby asked now walking beside me sighing "yea." Colby looking to Jon and back to me "is there uh something I should know?" seeing Jon pause for a moment I shook my head "no." was all I could say, Jon shook his head.

"Hey kiddo!" thank god for good ol Hunter "you ok?" checking over my bump my eyes landing on Jon before clearing my throat "uh yea, I'm fine, just a concussion I'll be good to go by Sunday." nodding

I sat awkwardly between Colby And Jon, I could feel Jon didn't want to be here, I didn't know how this happened how the hell did I go from Phil and Colby, to Jon and Colby?

"Ok so I think with tonight's excitement-"Stephanie smiled at me "we're just going to do a couple of backstage shoots with Sam and Jon, or Lilith and Dean." Winking, biting my inner lip this was going to be awkward as hell.

Both Jon and Colby groaned crossing their arms over their chests causing Stephanie and Paul to look between the three of us "is everything ok here?" nope not at all, I completely made a mess of shit in pretty quick fashion "totally cool, I'm totally into watching my team mate make out with the girl I'm in love with." Sighing that just made all of this even more difficult.

Rubbing my face as Colby quickly stood up storming out of the room, Jon shrugged sitting back hands in his pocket, I knew Jon wouldn't bring our personal stuff into this, but I knew he'd struggle with it, shrugging "I'm good with it all, we'll all be good." I assured a worried Stephanie and Paul who just nodded although there face showed they didn't quite believe me.

"Ok tonight you're just going to play with those lines, come close but no actual action." Nodding peeking at Jon who just shrugged before standing up "story of my life." He muttered before walking out.

Frowning I rubbed my face "Ok what in the hell is going on?" Stephanie demanded, frowning "would you believe me if I told you I beat them at monopoly?" Crossing her arms sitting back in her chair I sighed "well I started um sleeping with Colby." Paul stood up "this is uh, I need to uh, and I'm out." Laughing as Paul rushed out of the make shift office.

Stephanie sighing looking at me "I just, I don't know I needed it ok, like a very bad itch that needed to be itched." Frowning "but then Jon goes and tells me he loves me and he wants to be with me, that his in love with me and now it's all fucked up again, I asked him, I wanted him to be with him all those years ago, he told me he wasn't ready, he encouraged me to be with Colby and I did, and I built a life with Colby, and Colby cheated and I miscarried, and went through hell with Phil and now I'm here and I wanted to give into him and be with him, but I don't want to lose him, and he had to see me walking out of-"

"YO STPEHANIE." None other than Chris Jericho popping his head in interrupted me, sighing standing up, Stephanie's eyes symtphitacly on me, I didn't like that , I didn't like that look she was giving me "I'll see you later Steph." Nodding to Chris before making my way out.

My eyes where blurred and my head was spinning, I felt sick and I didn't know if it was the concussion or all of these emotions "Humph." I groaned before crashing on my ass looking up to see who I crashed into, I couldn't help but start laughing.

"Are you ok?" Phil asked holding out his hand to help me up asked, nodding my head laughing "just makes sense for this perfect dammed day." Leaning against the wall "I uh heard about the accident, are you ok?" he seemed generally concerned, Phil truly wasn't a bad person.

Honestly I think it was here, this environment, I even felt it, and it changes people nodding "I'm good, bumped head, possible concussion, no action in the ring tonight." Phil nodded his eyes staying on me "Sam." Groaning I shook my head "Phil, I don't think I can handle any more emotion today." Looking down as the tears fell down my nose "I just want to go home, I want my dad." Feeling him wrap his arms around me pulling me into his chest.

"Ok, ok, what's wrong?" shaking my head "My entire fucking world is wrong phil." Pulling away from his embrace "I just want to go home." I felt exhausted glancing at Phil "Ok, go home then." Clearing my throat if only it was that easy.

"Yea." We stood there in silence for a moment "Look I know you're going through it right now, hell I can see it, and not just the bump." He gently ran his fingers over the sore bump on my forehead "but I'd kinda like to talk to you." His voice soft along with his eyes, nodding "you seem serious, you ok?" Blowing out a breath nodding "yea yea, I just uh it's about-."

"YO SAM THEY"RE READY FOR US." Jon's voice yelled from down the hall, ugh! I looked like hell! I hadn't even had time to get ready "I gotta go, we'll talk later?" half a question half a promise.

Phil nodded squeezing my hand "yea for sure, get em killer." Laughing before making my way toward Jon, using my pinky to wipe my eyes "you ok? He fucking with you?" looking at Jon, I couldn't help but grin as we stopped walking even in this awkward moment between us he still cared "what?" biting the inside of my lip shaking my head "Nothing Jon, I just-"peeking up at him "Jon, look, can you listen to me?' blowing out a breath bringing his hands to the back of his head lacing his fingers "sure." I placed my hand on his stomach, the feel of his abs underneath my fingertips biting my lip "Me to." Jon frowned his eyes squinted together before tilting his head biting my lip "are you saying?" Our eyes locked on each other's "Sam, Jon." Groaning hearing Colby's voice "I never noticed how horrible timing he has." Jon laughing "we'll talk after the show ok." I felt a little calmer making my way towards Colby, Jon's arm around my shoulder but this time, it just felt different.

A/N Well I was going to try to space this out but I figured hell with the way the world is going why not just put it out there, trust me there is plenty of drama coming, it's not happily ever after just yet.