Author: Idk this chapter is really weird and TMI but my brain said I should do it It's really about crossing some weird boundaries between Remi and Hawks to show how close they've actually gotten and how comfortable they are around each other now. I've also cross posted to FanFiction. Lemons in this one! I appreciate the reads so far but if y'all could give me feedback I would love it so I can see if people like it. I'm mostly writing for myself but comments would be cool. This chapter is the longest one I've done over 5000 words!
"Each time a man looks into your eyes, he is only searching to find himself; for he knows already, that he is part of you"
— Jeremy Aldana —
After going to her place and packing, Remi and Hawks were at his place in 10 minutes. She unpacked all her stuff Hawks was going to use in a spare room where he would be sleeping.
"Wow! It pays to be the number 2" she speculated while looking around his fancy and very modern penthouse.
"Yeah, it's alright." Throwing himself on the sofa turning on the TV.
Remi shocked at his casualness "How are you so calm about this?"
"I don't get much time off, I'm gonna enjoy it whether I'm in your body or not." He shrugged.
Remi huffed while also throwing herself on the sofa.
"Well let's make some rules then." After going over their routines, eating etc. "No body modifications of any sort and I think it goes without saying, no "relations" with other people."
"What? Aww I was looking forward to go and get railed by a bunch of men." He laughed sarcastically.
"Haha your hilarious!"
Nearly accepting her fate, Remi was trying to make the best out of a bad situation. "I just realised something."
"What?"
"Today's Friday"
"And?"
"Like the movie, freaky Friday where the mother and daughter switch bodies." Remi laughed unstable at the irony. If she didn't laugh she'd cry.
Hawks noticing her pre breakdown. "It's not so bad, take it like an experience."
Shocked again at how nonchalantness "I'm quarantined like a leper! I'm stuck with these wings I can't even use properly." She snapped while fluttering her useless wings. "Speaking of, if I can't use your quirk you can't use mine, both of them." She warned.
"My power one isn't to be messed with, it has limits." She warned with a glare.
Hawks intrigued and also now worried from the revelations from today took her word for it.
"I'm having a shower." Remi said while getting up. "Get my suit off, the coffee will stain it."
"Make sure you wash everywhere." he said while getting up to do the same. She rolled her eyes at him.
Getting ready for a shower Remi looked at her new body in the full length mirror. In shock. "Oh wow!" she squeaked with a whisper. He was toned as she guessed. Not too big, just right. Addressing the elephant between her legs. Wincing, she poked it and examined it. Its an ok size i guess? This is sooo weird. Feeling all over and forgetting herself her thoughts went from what happened today, thinking what would of happened if the bank robbery didn't happen.
"NO NO NO" she shrieked as she raised. Fully erect and shocked by the actual size. She panicked trying to get it down. Slapping it "oww" rubbing it "No no opposite of what I want!" Failing to go down, maybe having a shower will sort it and it did, Deciding on a shirt and shorts. She went back out but Hawks was still in the shower.
Having his own shower, Hawks too examined his new body when he was done. Examining the scars scattered all over. So savage, like a badass Xena. He thought of today, was it a mistake? I couldn't help it. It felt right. Thinking if he had of taken her then and with this body on her, a dull ache pulsated between his legs.
Ignoring it because it's not his body, concentrating even though she said not to he tried to use her quirk. Tensing up and grunting like he was constipated. It wouldn't work, must be a knack to it. Giving up he got dressed in the leisure wear she provided and went back out. Remi was sitting watching TV. Getting out her phone, she decided to order food.
"What do you want to eat?" She asked while gesturing to her phone.
Hawks returning to the sofa "I'm not hungry."
"I'm not falling for that, you always eat my food when you don't get any!"
"I do not!"
"I'll get you something with chicken so, cannibal."
"You know me so well! And I've only heard that only a hundred times before."
"Of course I do, I've been with you everyday for the last 3 months nearly. I'm getting ramen."
"Ooh that sounds good and I want some dango too."
Remi confused by his request because he didn't care for dango as much as she did. She loved it. "You must be getting my cravings for some reason."
A realisation dawned on Hawks. She doesn't get sweets unless... "What date is it?" He asked shakily.
"The 19th, why?"
"Nooooo!" His voice shrieked through the penthouse. "You're due 'these'!" Pointing down towards his new woman's parts.
"Oh Shit I am. Wait! How the hell do you know?!"
"Come on, this time each month you get more angry and you eat more sweets. It doesn't take a genius to figure it out."
"You've been tracking my cycle!? THAT'S WHY YOU ALWAYS GOT SWEETS AND SAID IT WAS ON OFFER!"
"Guilty as charged, but I can't do this!" He whined.
"You can and you will, it's not like your giving birth. Take your own advice Red" 'It's not so bad, take it like an experience.' Manically laughing, the irony wasn't lost in him at all.
Seeing him looking deflated, she started to feel sorry for him. "It will be fine, I'll take care of you ok? I have Xanax with me, it helps."
"Thanks"
As she finished the order for the food, Hawks' mind went to the upcoming recruits coming over. He knew he had to tell her but with the situation they were in now, it would be enough to send her over the edge deciding to play it cool and forget about it for now.
"How was your shower?" He asked not looking from the TV.
Remi instantly blushed. "It was fine, how was yours?"
"Interesting to say the least, see anything you liked?" Winking at her.
"No, I just had a shower." She snapped.
"Liar, I don't mind, I'm not ashamed of my body."
"Yeah it sure has no shame."
"Aha! I knew it!"
"I hope you didn't do anything!" She blushed knowing he saw her naked body.
"Of course not, but I can't help be curious to be honest, see if the female orgasm is what it's made out to be. Maybe we should... you know?"
"I'm gonna pretend I didn't hear that and why the hell would you even bring that up?"
"What? Come on! You have to be at least a bit curious!"
"Yeah, I get it! I am curious obviously, who wouldn't be? But I don't want my first time to-" stopping because she said too much putting her hands to her mouth. Hawks' eyes widened with shock.
"I'm gonna go jump off a bridge, bye." While walking toward the door face as red as her vermillion wings.
"Noo wait!" Grabbing her by the arm turning her around to him.
"It's not a big deal." He reassured.
"I had too much shit going on, I never got around to it, it wasn't a priority, not because I'm weird or whatever." She shrugged looking to the ground.
Hawks was completely ok with it "It's fine."
Their situation was a complex one but honestly if she was to be going through it, she'd rather it be Hawks than anyone else. Deciding to bring today up, it can't get any weirder so why not.
Remi preparing herself to ask, slightly embarrassed but wanting to know "What would of happened if the bank robbery didn't happen?"
"I think you know what would of happened."
"No, I mean after, us. We aren't allowed."
"You think I care what they say? Look Remi" He pushes over on the sofa and was facing her now. "I wanna take the risk, I really like you and now I want to be your first, it might be a mistake given our circumstances, but I don't care."
Blushing at such a confession "I don't care what they say either, it's just I'm not experienced, I have a lot of 'baggage'".
"Look at us! Three months ago you tried to kill me and here we are, now we work together, we're basically a couple, we've gotten so close these past months. Don't tell me you don't feel it too because I know you do! All cards on the table before we go any further. We'll take it slow, whatever you want and obviously won't tell anyone. Honestly, it will be kind of exciting keeping it a secret. Just us, no one else."
Thinking about it, she did want this, it was going to happen sooner or later. But crossing such a line would mean they could never go back and if she refused, it wouldn't be the same again. But that meant he would have to know everything and not sure how she felt about that she hesitated.
As always, like he read her mind, Hawks spoke up, "If we are to cross this line, you need to tell me, but before you do, I have to tell you something first." He wasn't going to go in with no secrets, he had to tell her now.
Sitting her down, he told her everything Dabi told him.
"Dabi? Is he the patchy guy?" She asked.
"Yeah why?" Shocked at how she would know him.
"I saw him hanging not far from my place, I couldn't place him then one of your memories came into my head. That means they're on to me!" Remi panicked realising, getting her phone and screen mirroring it with the TV, a news channel popped up. Both watched the news.
"Welcome to RTÉ News, breaking news as a riot broke out in Dundalk villain prison. Gardaí and heroes are urging the public to call them if you see this man who has escaped" All the colour from Remi's face drained as she watched. The same stoic blue eyes store back at Hawks' ones as a mans mugshot blew up the TV. Without a doubt, this was her father. This was the loose end they had to tie up.
"Ronan Slater is considered very dangerous and not to be approached,
If sighted please call the authorities his quirk is Nightmare, he can alter a persons reality to make their worst fears come alive."
Remis sight started to go blurry as she started hyperventilating, Hawks grabbed her and wrapped his smaller body around her as much as he could. "He's coming for me! He's gonna kill me!" She choked.
"He wont if you tell me, you need to tell me now Remi, I swear I will protect you and we'll face this together but I need to know. I'll use your quirk on you so you don't even have to speak!"
That's it, game over. She had no choice, it's now or never, even if she didn't want to tell, Hawks knew too much anyway and time was of the essence. Even if she didn't know it, she needed support and who better than the only person she's actually close with.
"Right, but just know. A lot of shit I done I had no choice, you'll see a side that might make you rethink everything you said." Grabbing her own hand and putting it to her face. Hawks gently caressing it. "Concentrate, feel as if you want to pull them out of me" Hawks took a deep breath and concentrated. Going temporarily blind, The unanswered questions filled his mind.
Angela Ward, Remi's mother, a woman who wasn't well mentally, as far as Remi could remember, she was always crying, shouting, smashing things in the house, Remi was a demon child as far as her mother was concerned. Her father, Ronan Slater, a man not to be messed with. Ran the biggest cartel in the country, drugs, weapons, anything he could do. With his empire, he was unstoppable. Would kill someone without second thought, he bought everyone, people lived in fear, not bothering to get involved in fear of being killed. Tables turning on heroes as they ambushed. You would think this man had everything, but he didn't, an accidental crossing with a mysterious man would determine the families fate in stone. To Ronan, Angela was nothing more than an incubator for his weapon. A quirkless woman with no self esteem. Perfect. Seducing her and promising her the world, he impregnated her. A routine pre-natal check up one day organised by Ronan was the day any last bit of sanity left Angela's mind.
(Author: so above was just a little back story, now I'm going to tell it in a sequence of memories from Hawks' POV * means a new memory.)
In a park with her mother, she's around 4. Playing in the sandbox a little boy came and kicked over her sand castle. She got angry. That demonic shrill filled his mind. The boy ran away scared along with other kids, the parents screamed at Angela. Angela not caring went to Remi. "I knew it, I was right. Your father said I was crazy. I don't know how he did it, but he made me give birth to a demon." She whispered with dead eyes.
In an office. "It has finally activated, your training starts now. Her father said with no emotion in his voice.
Remi is crying, she still sounds so young. A man is doing a capoeira stance in front of her. "You keep going until you get this right!" He boomed. Must be the man that thought her. Getting up and charging for him, she was kicked knocking her down.
Training with another man, he has her in a hold. It must be the aikido. He isn't nice either.
Her mother is screaming again, crying. "I HAVE TO KILL YOU!" She screamed running toward her with a knife. Remi ran but it was too late. The knife was jabbed in her back and was pulled down as she ran away. The screams from young Remi deafened Hawks. She hasn't seen her mother since.
More training, her father hitting her. "You will be my ultimate creation. Nobody will stand before me when you are completed! NOW TRANSFORM AND LET GO! LET THE DARKNESS CONSUME YOU!"
"NO I WON'T!" She sounds scared, and was hit again.
Blood, lifeless bodies, Remi is fighting men and women twice her size with no problem.
More training, more abuse, more fighting, more blood.
Fire everywhere, Ronan is on the ground screaming. "YOU DO THIS AND I WILL KILL YOU. I WILL START ALL OVER AGAIN UNTIL I HAVE MY WEAPON."
End
Hawks let Remi go and pulled her in close. Like a crack in a dam that just exploded, Remi's tears flowed out of her, not caring she clung on to her own body. In this moment, switched bodies didn't matter.
Tears welling up in his eyes with a cracked voice "It wasn't your fault, I now understand and I still want to go further with you." Still holding her tight. The two stayed like that for what seemed like hours, when the tears finally dried. Remi spoke up.
"He was in prison because of me, I sold him out. I set one of his warehouses on fire and tried to kill everyone in there. I snapped, he used his quirk on me so many times to the point I had nothing to fear anymore."
Hawks listened intently and let her talk.
"I did kill one person, his right hand man, I was exonerated in exchange for handing my father over and testifying and then I was told to leave the country, so that's why I came here, I literally didn't know anything else so that's why I started vigilante work."
With a sigh all her dark past had finally come out. Hawks didn't care, he didn't think it would of been anything like this but it all made sense, he still had questions.
"One question."
"What is it?"
"What did he mean when he said let the darkness consume you?"
Remi expecting this, not holding back and leaving anything out anymore, he could know everything now, lines have been crossed and if she was to do it with anyone, it would be him.
"The longer I use it, I get too aggressive and I feel..." She trailed off trying to find the right words to say. "Like as if I'm getting pulled into a darkness, like my body is telling me to let go and let the darkness take over but I never let it, I'm too afraid of what will happen. This isn't a normal quirk, he gave it to me somehow, I don't know how, some AFO bullshit maybe, but I think he done something to my mother while she was pregnant on me and that's how I got it."
"I'm sorry about your mother and while you mentioned him, why didn't you go after AFO?."
"I don't blame her to be honest, my father took advantage of her. I hope she's doing better now, and if she is because I'm not in her life, then so be it and I didn't go after him because even I know I couldn't take him down. Fuck that, the LOV aren't as bad with the people we take down now but they're to be reckoned with."
Remi continued on "I'm gonna have to face him soon, he'll bring an army, he literally doesn't care who he has to kill in the process to get what he wants, I wouldn't be surprised if he tried to take over the LOV." Preparing herself for what she was about to say next, she thought she would never have to do this, but Hawks was the only person who could do what she was about to ask.
"One more thing, one day the darkness will take over and if It does and I lose my humanity, I need you to stop me. Whatever it takes."
Hawks shocked by her request, but knew it could happen not wanting to think about that he might have to kill her someday, reassured her as he always does "Don't worry, I'm sure it will be fine but I will, if you lose your humanity but I'm sure there's another way."
Satisfied with his answer but also feeling guilty having put this responsibility on him "Thanks Red, and if were really doing this, us, I'll have to call you something else."
"We're really doing it." He smiled. "Call me Keigo, but red or Hawks around everyone else, my name isn't public for obvious reasons."
Looking at his now new girlfriend in adoration, he was soon weirded out by looking at himself. "Man, I really want to kiss you now, but it would be too weird, forget what I said, it is too weird, seeing yourself from different eyes."
Remi agreeing because it is really weird but had a suggestion. "You know-" Remi was cut off by a knock on the door. Answering it then sitting down with their food.
"What were you gonna say before the food came?"
"I don't know, we've crossed a lot of lines today so why not one more. "She shrugged while slurping up noodles. "I was going to say I'm not opposed to you exploring, if you want. I mean it's great. I feel you should at least get the experience since tomorrow you'll be, you know." Pointing toward her crotch.
"Really, well I'm not gonna miss an opportunity like this, what do you do to blow off steam and how are you so open minded now?"
"I don't know, I think because you know me now like how I know you now. I feel as if our relationship has ascended and I use whatever really, I'm sure you'll figure it out."
"I have something, wait here." Hawks said while going to get something and coming back with a wand.
"This is a Hitachi one! These are like the best on the market! Why do you have one?"
"It said massager on the box I use it for my neck and stuff."
Remi giving a are-you-serious eyebrow. "Well not anymore, you'll enjoy this. Because I know I would."
"Wait and see what I'm gonna do to you when we switch back! " He purred to her.
Remi instantly flushed, she's looking at her own face saying those words but it's all Hawks. Unaware of the tent in her shorts, Hawks let out a roaring laugh.
Still laughing "It seems you can't wait either!"
Remi now flushed and embarrassed trying to hide it "Shut up! It has a mind of its own! How do men walk around with these!"
"We manage, now if you don't mind I'm going to bed." Hawks said while walking to the room holding the wand that now has a new purpose.
Hawks had quickly figured out how to use it and what he liked. Trying to stifle his scream as he reached climax. Woooooowwwww holy fucking shit. Breathless and sweating. It really was a big deal.
Remi on the other hand was hesitant but decided maybe she should for practice, also coming to a climax, a messy one, her mind was also blown to see how different it was. Both fell into a deep sleep soon after.
Remi had woke the next morning to something tickling her skin, waking up, her and the whole room had red feathers scattered all over it. How did I? How do I get them back? Trying to call them back with her mind. Her concentration was interrupted by Hawks' screaming.
"REMIIII! HELP IM DYING!"
Remi shot up leaving the feathers as they were and ran to Hawks in the en-suite. She was met with a mini bloodbath. "Ohhhhh no, it's begun."
"My stomach is killing me!" He shrieked.
"It's not that bad." She lied. The first day was always the worst and she had a heavier flow than normal. She just happened to get used to it.
Hawks was crouched over on the floor in pain.
"Is this what it feels like?!"
"Only for the first 2 or 3 days then its ok then. My uterus really goes on a rampage when I don't give it a baby." She chuckled.
Hawks didn't find it at all funny "Help me please!"
Feeling sorry for her now new boyfriend. Lifting him up and putting him in the shower. Taking off his clothes and putting the water on hot.
"A hot shower will help, I'll be back in a minute."
Comfy pyjamas and pain killers now helping Hawks out of the shower. Helping him get dressed and carrying him to the couch giving him the Xanax. Hawks lay down with a blanket and proceeded to watch TV.
"You'll want junk food, I usually don't eat loads but I'll make an exception for you."
He winced in pain "I want to die! How do you cope?"
"We get used to it." She replied.
"Wait where the hell are my wings?" He now only noticed.
"I woke up and they were all over the room I must of done it in my sleep, I can't get them back on, it's easier to move around now, you mind if I leave them off?"
"Yeah sure, I don't care."
"Cool."
Taking care of Hawks for the day, cleaning and ordering food for them both. A phone call from Rin to say they still haven't tracked down the villain, just general talking and bonding. That's how the next 3 days went. Hawks barely moved in those 3 days. This wasn't what he signed up for and was ecstatic for it to finally end and thankful Remi only had a 3-4 day cycle.
They had both stayed in the same bed since the second night. It's was nearing the 5th day since they've been living together and according to them, the next day was just going to be the same as the others.
Hawks woke on the 5th morning feeling better, much better. Looking beside him Remi had her head buried into his into chest and her legs intertwined with his.
Wait, if I'm seeing her? That means...
"Remi! Wake up! Wake up!"
Remi lifted her head and with a half asleep face and messy hair looking and grunting like a cave woman "What the hell? Why are you shouting?"
"Look!" He gestured to himself.
Remi looked and Hawks was sitting in front of her, actual Hawks.
"OH MY GOD WE'RE BACK!" She screamed. Grabbing his hands and both jumping on the bed in celebration. "Come on" Hawks said as he picked her up and put her in the shower just as she did with him yesterday. Stripping her off and stripping off himself he got in the shower with her. Remi admiring his god like physique "Looks better on you than it did on me." She joked. No shame between them now. No need to take anything slow. Both being in each others body was an experience that strengthened their bond even more.
"You don't have to do this." She laughed as he massaged shampoo in her hair.
"I actually really want to though." He replied, feeling sad that no one had ever taken care of her so he would be the one to do it now.
Turning to him now facing him. "Thanks for staying, after you know everything now. This was really hard for me to open up like this. I don't know what it is about you that makes me like this, my father would say it's weakness but I don't think it is, I've never had these feelings before so it's all new to me."
"The day we met, I knew you weren't all hard, I was gonna crack you, and I'm glad I did." He replied.
Finally alone and won't be interrupted, Hawks leaned in for the second time, Remi following suit. Electricity shot through both their bodies as their lips made contact. Tender at first until Remi gave him access, he slid his tongue in and glided it with hers ever so softly, Hawks not able to hold back, got hungrier and Remi followed suit and both were in a battle for domination. Feeling the tingle in between down below get more intense, she took Hawks' now raging hard on that used to be hers and started stroking it slow. A low groan escaped his throat making Remi more wet at such a sexual noise to come out of him as she pumped away. "I wanna do it now." She broke the kiss breathless.
"You sure?" He replied while placing little bites on her neck down to her collar bone making her moan.
"Yes, I've waited long enough!"
Hawks laughed at her brazenness, but obliged.
"Ok, I'm gonna break you in here just so the blood will be gone and we'll move to the bed ok?"
"Yeah cool and I'm not a shoe." She laughed as she climbed on him. He was surprised at her eagerness but let her lead nonetheless. She didn't know what came over her for someone with no experience she sure felt confident and didn't feel at all embarrassed at the fact she never done this. She always liked to do things herself so even her first time wasn't an exception.
"Just ease into it." He coaxed as he held onto her behind she began to push down. Gritting his teeth at how tight the sensation was as he filled her. Remi winced at the slight pain but carefully moved up and down to get things going. As expected, the remnants of her virginity left her and went down the drain. Getting into a slow rhythm, the sensation of him stretching her made her moan in such a way Hawks had to restrain himself from pumping into her, had to pull her off him and drag her out of the shower. Still wet he threw her on the bed. "You ready?" He rasped as he steadied himself on top of her.
"Please" she whimpered wanting him back inside her.
"Say red if I'm too rough ok? Then I'll stop." She shot him a look as if to say get that back inside me or else.
Slowly entering her, this time with a little more ease, he thrusted slowly. Kissing her and every scar he had access to, picking up speed. He watched as her face contorted with sweet agony as she dug her nails in his back. Knowing now exactly what's she's feeling was getting him more excited.
The feeling of him ramming it into her made her moan in pleasure, building up faster and faster, she wasn't able to hold out anymore she finally burst, losing all her inhibitions screaming out as she just had the best orgasm she ever had in her life. Hawks was struggling to hold back from watching the most beautiful facial expression as she reached climax, She grabbed him by the neck and crashed her lips on to his. "My turn" she growled in his ear as she pushed him off her and pinned him down on bed. Straddling him to feel whole again as he entered her. Arching her back to fit him all in. She picked up a rhythm and started riding him hard. Digging his nails into her ass made her cry out. "I think I created a monster." he panted with a smile that said show me what you got. Leaning in to kiss him with a smirk, she changed to bouncing on him. Meeting her rhythm, he dug his nails deeper, biting her lip as a primal growl escaped his throat. Getting closer, he thrusts harder and harder with her making her cry out once again with that beautiful face. Grunting as he came inside her. She collapsed on him. Both struggling to breathe as a he pulled out causing a pool of wetness around them.
"What was that?" He asked finally back to normal lung function.
"I dunno, I just wanted to be in control for a bit."
"I'll have to tie you up the next time."
"Oh yeah? I'll hold you too that." She replied thinking how much she would actually really like that. A whole new world had been opened for her and she wanted to explore it all.
Getting off him and going back into the shower to clean up with him behind her. They both decided they wouldn't tell the commission they switched back yet. Having the day to themselves alone and back in each other's bodies was exactly what they needed. Tomorrow they would be back to normal, keeping their new relationship a secret while working together. It might be easier said than done.
