The Little Things.
Olivia and the babies returned home two days later and she was extremely excited to get started on their life with the little ones. Both babies already had so much personality, both of them spending tons of time awake and just making soft cooing noises as they stared at their parents. Olivia laid down with both little ones beside her and chuckled as they looked around the room with wide eyes.
Trevor moved to his side of the bed and smirked down at his son "hey there kiddos"
Both sets of eyes snapped up to him and little smiles covered their faces. Noah looked up at his father and cooed softly before yawning, Madison followed suit and moved her little hand onto her brothers chest. Noah did a massive stretch before pouting and letting out a soft whimper, his little eyes searching for his mother.
Olivia reached over and took hold of her little boy, gently running her hand through his brunette hair "you just had a feed little man, it's nap time isn't it."
He whimpered, his little hand gripping onto her sweater as he cried. She sighed softly "oh sweet boy, calm down, mommy's here." she whispered, rocking gently.
Trevor laid beside his wife, running his fingers over Madison's little cheek "she's so calm..."
Her little eyes drooped closed, her hand enclosed around her fathers finger "she's knocked out" he gently rubbed her little back and pressed a kiss to her forehead.
Olivia gently rocked Noah to sleep and pressed a kiss to his forehead before laying him down beside his sister "they are so tiny..."
"that they are... I'm going to fix us something to eat while you keep an eye on these two" he said before leaning down and pressing a kiss to her lips.
She smirked against his lips, deepening the kiss for a minute or two. She pulled away and smiled up at him "mmm I missed kissing you like that"
"I miss doing more than just kissing you like that... I can't wait for you to heal so that I can make love you again and show you just how much this all means to me." he pressed a kiss to her lips again.
...
Three months later:
Olivia carried her little ones downstairs and smirked when she saw Thomas and Trevor's business partner walk in. She placed both little ones down in their baby swings and pressed a kiss to each of their heads "Tommy it's good to see you again."
He walked over to her and kissed both of her cheeks "Hey Liv, I missed you... How are you doing?"
"I can't complain, these two and your brother keep me on my feet all the time." she chuckled.
Henshall did a once over of his partners wife and smirked, she was nothing short of gorgeous and it was no surprise to him that his blue-eyed partner could land someone as beautiful as the woman who stood infront of him "you must be Olivia... Trevor forgot to mention how beautiful you are."
She blushed ever so slightly and shook his hand "thank you so much, and you must be James Henshal. I've heard a lot about you."
"Those words have a tendency to worry me" he joked.
She let out a soft laugh "there's no need to worry, it was mostly good things."
"That's good to know" he smiled before following her into the living room.
Thomas gasped as he looked at his nephew and niece who laid peacefully in their little baby swings, both of their blue eyes wide open as they laid silently. Noah had a pacifier in his mouth, a little rattle hung at the top of his swing and his eyes were wide as he looked up at it. Madison on the other hand did not like her pacifier and often spat it out, she was peaceful as can be and laid silently as she looked at the rattle on the her swing as well.
Olivia chuckled as she watched Thomas take in the little ones infront of him "uncle Tommy say hi to your nephew Noah and your niece Madison."
He cooed at the little babies before scooping both of them out of their swings, he held them close and smiled brightly "okay I will be coming over a lot more often now."
Trevor walked into the livingroom and smirked at his brother "Tommy don't hog the babies."
"It's too late, they are mine now" he teased before sitting down with both kids.
Olivia shook her head at her husband and Thomas "would you like anything to drink?"
Henshall smirked and took a seat "I would not say no to a beer."
"okay, Thomas you want anything?"
He shrugged "no thanks Liv, I'm good for now."
Trevor looked up at his wife and smirked "I'll have a beer too."
She nodded and went into the kitchen to get the necessities leaving both babies in the living room. She let out a sigh as she prepared what was asked, she dialed Alex' number as she fixed a sandwich for herself "hey Al, are you busy?"
"No, I just finished unpacking. What's up?"
"I just need to get out of the house for a bit, I have a bit of Cabin fever and need an escape before I go insane."
She chuckled "we can go for a walk... You can bring Noah and Madi along."
She let out a heavy breath "sure... I was hoping it could be just us, but you're probably right."
"Liv they need you, they are only three months old... Are you feeling okay?"
She shrugged "I'm fine, just a bit overwhelmed I guess."
"okay meet me in the park in five minutes" she said before greeting and hanging up.
Olivia made her way into the living room and gave her husband a weak smile "can I speak to you for a minute?"
He nodded, holding Noah in his arms while Thomas blew raspberries at a smiling Madison. He followed his wife into the kitchen and furrowed his brow when he saw the exhausted look on her face "Liv, baby are you okay?"
"I just..." she stopped letting out a breath "I don't know if I can do this Trev. This whole precinct and working mom thing just seems too much, I don't know if I can make it."
He reached up and cupped her cheek "hey calm down, there's no need to worry. We will figure this out, if you feel you won't be able to handle it, you do not have to do it. If you want to stay home with these two angels, you can do it. It's completely up to you darling."
She gave him a tight lipped smile "thank you, for everything. I love you"
He leaned down and pressed a loving kiss to her lips "I love you too"
She pulled him down again when he tried to pull away and allowed herself to get lost in his kiss for a moment. She pulled away when air was necessary and bit her lip "I know you're trying to make a living for us and build up our life here, but I need you to focus on us too..." she took hold of Noah and pressed a kiss to his cheek "and these little ones."
He stood confused as she walked out of the kitchen, wondering what she was on about he soon returned to the livingroom to find Olivia and both babies gone. He turned to Thomas "Where did Liv go?"
He shrugged before getting up "she said something about meeting Alex at a park. I'm heading over to Eva's place, you two can discuss the boring business stuff and let me know when you're ready to buy a building."
...
Alex smirked when she caught sight of Olivia pushing a double stroller with two bubbling babies in it. She walked up to her friend and pulled her in for a hug.
"Alex you are crushing me" she chuckled.
She let go and let out a breath "I just miss you, you have been very busy lately momma bear."
She shrugged "comes with the territory. I have a husband who is so busy getting the firm sorted that I have to deal with these two busy bodies 24/7. I mean I love them with my whole heart but it does get quite tiring sometimes."
Alex looked at little ones who laid peacefully in their sides of the stroller, both of their cheeks rosy and two tiny pacifiers stuck in their mouths. She leaned down a pressed a kiss to both of their foreheads "but they are so cute and tiny"
"Don't let that fool you, they make tons of demands" she chuckled.
"but how are you? You sounded down on the phone" she prompted.
Olivia let out a sigh before sitting down on one of the benches "I have been feeling a little depressed lately. Trevor has been so busy with getting the firm up and running and getting my papers sorted so that I can open up a precinct here. I appreciate everything he is doing, I love that he is taking this so seriously, but I miss him. I miss waking up next to my husband and just having a conversation with him that lasts longer than five minutes. I miss our little morning kisses or joining him in the shower and just being in his arms, I want my husband who was always there." she sniffled softly "I kinda feel alone..."
"Oh Liv" she pulled her friend in for a comforting hug "I know this is difficult for you, but we will figure this out okay... Listen I have to go meet up with Cas, but I'm going to pop in tonight, with the girls. You and Trevor are going out, and I don't want to hear any crap because these two angels will be perfectly fine with Eva, Cas, Tommy and I. You just need to pump enough for them and give us a run down of their schedule so that we can have them snuggled up on time and fed and all of that."
She pursed her lips "that sounds wonderful but we may not be able to make it, Henshall just flew in today and they are really busy. We can do it when he leaves and all of this crap is sorted."
Alex huffed "but..."
"Al please... I know you're trying to help but it won't work. I know how Trevor is, his business comes first, and I just have to adapt to that. I used to be that way too, but I guess being away from work so long changed my views. Now these two little ones come first as well as Trevor, my family is everything and this is just one of the little sacrifices that I have to make. I'll get over it soon."
"fine" she huffed "if you are sure that you are okay then I won't push any further. I just, I care about you, and I hate seeing you like this."
"I'll be okay, I'm a big girl, I can handle myself." she chuckled.
"you are the toughest person I know. I am well aware that you can handle your own, but I hate seeing you like this. I can see that you are hurting and I hate it because I can't fix it..."
Olivia let out a sigh before taking Madison out of the stroller as she began crying, she gently patted her back and pressed a kiss to the side of her head "I will be okay. Trevor is a good man and he will realise what is happening and I have kind of spoken to him before I came here."
"He loves you"
"I know that. I don't doubt it, I just miss him and all our little moments, I miss the things he did just to see me smile. I miss the little things, the random kisses, corny jokes and the constant teasing, but I will figure it all out."
She placed Madison back into the stroller once she calmed down and gently ran her finger over Noah's rosy cheeks "I have to get these buggers home for a feed and lay them down for a nap. Thank you for coming out and letting me blow off steam, I needed it."
"There is no need to thank me, this is what I'm here for. I will still be popping in to check in on you later though, just to check if you are doing a bit better. Also I want some cuddles from your love bugs." she reached down and ran her fingers over Madison's black curly hair.
Olivia let out a soft laugh "you can definitely come by and get some time with them, that way I'll have a little break to take a long bath and just let off some steam."
...
Later that night, Alex, Casey and Eva had already left and Thomas took Trevor's business partner back to the hotel he was staying at. Trevor had been downstairs cleaning up the mess that was made during dinner while Olivia went upstairs with both babies and got them ready for bed.
She had just finished feeding both little one's and smiled softly when Trevor came up and took hold of Noah, he gently burped the baby boy, while she burped Madison before both of them went to lay the little one's down in their side-by-side cots which stood on her side of the room.
Olivia leaned down and pressed soft kisses to both babies foreheads, covering them up as best as she could "sleep well lovebugs, mommy loves you."
Trevor mirrored his wife's actions before smiling down at both sleeping babies "they've grown so much over these last few months, I love them."
"Then why won't you spend time with them? Or me?" she spat, turning to face him.
He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion "what are you talking about? Liv I've been trying to get everything up and running so that we can survive out here."
She pursed her lips "That does not mean you have to forget that you have a family. You hardly ever hold them."
"So because you can't handle both babies, that makes me a bad parent?" he spat back, a frown covering his face.
She scoffed before shaking her head "Atleast I spend time with them, I don't only come around for the putting them to bed. Atleast one of their parents is there to change their diapers, feed them, bath them and just nurture and love them. Get your head out of your ass and start acting like a father to your babies!"
"That's low... Even for you, you know full well I've been working my ass off to get the business sorted so that I can support you and both of our babies!" he defended.
She pursed her lips "I didn't know that going to clubs with your business partner was a part of supporting your family."
He shook his head "so because we had kids I'm not allowed to have fun?!"
"No you asshole, that's not what it's about!" she yelled, her eyes filling with tears "it's about fucking priorities! You have a wife and two babies, I cannot do all of this on my own Trevor, I need your help. I miss my husband who loved spending time with me and used to speak to my bump, promising them the world but now you are hardly ever here. If your fun is so much more important than your family then you are in the wrong place right now."
He looked at the tears that rolled down her cheeks and sighed "Olivia..."
"No. Don't try to soft soap me through this, it is not going to work... I want my husband back, but I am not going to subject myself and these babies to being the second best in your life. I've been there before and you were the one who showed me that I deserve to be loved endlessly, so I'll be damned if you think I'm going to allow you to keep doing this."
She turned away from him, her tears still falling from her eyes and she bit her lip to keep her from letting out the sob that threatened to leave her throat. She could hardly believe how much he felt like a stranger to her now, her once loving husband was now a man who went out six nights in a week and hardly ever saw his growing little ones. She was starting to wonder if he even still loved them, or her.
Trevor stood silently, looking at his crying wife and let out a breath, he had not even realised how bad things had gotten until now.
He pursed his lips "I know you are angry... But I really am sorry Olivia, I love you, I really do and I love both of our babies. I had no idea how this was affecting you or even the little one's, I will change. I know you don't believe me right now, but I will prove it to you, because it is what you deserve. You deserve to be loved and I am going to show you just how much I love you."
He walked up to her and gently reached for her, letting out a sigh when she pulled away "let me make it up to you babe. Please"
She shook her head "sex is not going to fix this Trevor."
"I know that, I just... I want to hold you, and just lay with you for a bit. I haven't done it in ages and I want to fix this, I know I hurt you but please just give me another chance to fix things." he pleaded.
A/N
Hey readers, I hope you all enjoyed this. I know it was a little angsty and I promise things will pick up soon.
Le me know what you all thought about this chapter and I will try my best to get the next update out as soon as possible.
-Karrrm.
