One for Sorrow

Pairing: McRoll

Spoilers for season 10 - Episode 7

Chapter - 39

A short time later Steve was pulling up his truck in it's space at the front of his home.. He sighed softly, turning the engine off and taking the keys out. "We can sit here for a moment if you want Sailor, there is no rush". Catherine could sense the sadness in Steve.. Whilst she had never had to personally experience losing both of her parents or either of her parents for that matter, she could empathise with him and that made her want to protect him even more. He was a strong man, everything he had been through in his life had helped him become the man he was today.

"I'm okay Cath, I've got you, you are my anchor.. I know the team is hurting too, even the ones that didn't know Mom.. They are hurting for me.. and the ones that did meet Mom, they know though we had a complicated history, we were mother and son at the end of the day and whatever she did, she did to protect her family". It was time to go inside and be embraced by his five-o Ohana, and let them support him..

In the past he had been distant in these kinds of situations.. When his father and Freddie died, he didn't know anyone well, even Danny, Chin and Kono, they were only new friendships, Catherine was the only one he confided in those early days.. No matter what she was doing or where she was, she always picked up the phone for him, and when they were together, she let him cry, let him vent, and helped him to grieve and now she was here to do it all over again for him.

Leaning over her seat, she pressed her lips to his and kissed him softly, "Let me know if it's getting too much and I'll deal with everyone". She was planning on that same speech with Mary and Joanie as well.. She was the rock, she needed to be his rock today, and despite how sad she was feeling herself, it was her job today to keep him together and let him lose control of his emotions, no matter what he needed.

Getting out of the car, Danny had driven Mary and Joan back in the camaro and was right behind them.. He had given Mary and Joan a similar speech about letting them know if they needed to head upstairs and away from everyone.. Lou and his wife Renee were right behind them as well. "You wanna change pumpkin or stay in this for a while?", Mary asked her daughter as Danny lifted her out of the car and placed her on his hip. "Change Momma". Nodding her head, she leaned in and kissed her daughters cheek, "I'll take her upstairs and get her changed if you want Mare?" Danny asked her in a soft voice.

"Thanks Danny, I'd appreciate that a lot". Mary trusted Danny as much as she trusted Steve and seeing as her daughter was just as content to be in Danny's arms, she no sooner wanted to remove her from him when she was comfortable. "Come on sweetie, we'll go upstairs and find something a bit more comfortable to put on". Catherine turned to look at Steve, he was so incredible handsome in his dress blues, it always managed to take her breath away when he wore them.. "How bout you Sailor… Want to change into something a little more comfortable as well?", she asked him in a soft voice, tugging at his tie.

His dress blues were quite hot, and the formal part of the day was over so he figured it was not a bad idea since he was home to just duck upstairs and get changed into something a little more casual. "I'll be back in a few", he leaned in, kissed her cheek and headed inside and slipped up the stairs before anyone could really notice he was there… "You wanna change at all Mare?", the single mother looked exhausted and emotional but she shook her head, "I'm fine.. I'll change later on.. Kind of just want to get this whole day over with if you know what I mean".

Nodding her head, Catherine nodded, "I know what you mean.. Come on, let's go in". Taking Mary's hand in hers, she guided her inside and into the living room where Tani, Koa, Junior and Adam were standing. Tani walked over and wrapped her arms around Steve's sister and hugged her tight, "I'm so sorry about your Mom Mary.. I'm here if you ever need anything at all, even just to talk". Once they had pulled away, she nodded her thanks and smiled sadly, "Thanks Tani, I appreciate that".

Both Adam and Junior came over, leaving Koa standing on his own, he hadn't met Mary yet so he didn't want to intrude, "Where's Steve and Joanie?", Adam looked around the room to see if he could spot them.. "Ahh Danny took Joan upstairs to get changed and Steve decided to change out of his dress blues as well", Catherine explained to the three of them, just then Danny came down with Joan in a flowery sundress still in his arms.

Everyone was spread around the house, some of them in the living room, others were in the kitchen, some were outside on the lanai.. It was mostly five-o, any partners they had, some members of HPD and neighbours and friends that Steve and Mary had associated with.. Even Chin and Kono's families were there, and as Steve walked down the stairs in his jeans, and a white t-shirt, four people stood at the doorway waiting…

"Kono, Chin.. I.. I can't believe you came", he walked over to them, hand stretched out to shake Chin's hand who pulled him into a hug, then using his other arm to bring Kono in on the hug as well. "We wouldn't miss this Steve.. I'm so sorry about Doris", Chin spoke up first as they pulled away from the hug, "Danny called us and told us what happened". Kono added softly, noticing that Adam was over talking to Catherine, Mary, Danny and Joan. "Thanks for coming guys, it means a lot to me, and to Mary, and Joan as well".

Noticing Abby Dunn and little Sara Waincroft, he smiled softly as he opened his arms to hug Abby and then knelt down to hug Sara.. "Joanie is over there, and Charlie is here as well…Why don't you guys go out side and play with Eddie". Sara kissed his cheek and then nodded heading over to where Joan was, and tugged on Danny's shirt.. "Hi Uncle Danno", she was a little shy and said it in a low voice but Danny still heard..

"Ohh my goodness, and who have we here.. it can't be Sara Waincroft because she is not that old is she", he joked softly and Joan perked up and smiled, waving at her.. "It's me Uncle Danno", Sara smiled, giggling softly as Joan indicated she wanted to get down, and Danny gently put her down on the ground.. "Wanna go play?", Sara asked Joan, whom nodded, Sara taking her hand and they ran off to find Charlie..

"If Sara is here, that must mean", Catherine responded as she turned around, and smiled softly, "Kono, Chin and Abby are here". Kono rushed over to Catherine and Mary, pulling Mary into her arms and holding onto her tight. "I'm so sorry Hun".. Mary was surprised to see Kono, she knew that her and Adam had moved to the mainland and then they split and only Adam came home, but this was a surprise.. "Thank you, It's good to see you". Kono smiled softly, "It's good to see you too, I'm always here if you need me, I'll give you my number before I leave".

She pulled away, and then hugged Catherine, "and omg Sista, it's good to see you too.. I can't believe you are back on the island girl", Catherine and Kono had kept in touch over the years and whilst Kono had Abby to talk to about any issues she had with Adam, and feelings surrounding their separation, she always confided in her girl best friend Catherine as well. "It's soo good to see you too, missed you Sista". She smiled softly, pulling away a little, "II had a few months left of my 12 month contract with the CIA, but when Doris was killed, I decided now was the time to come home for good and settle down".

In the meantime, Adam had managed to slip outside and go talk to Duke, and a few of the others that were outside, It wasn't that he was happy to see Kono, he really was.. He just didn't know what to say right now to her.. He would speak to her before she left, if he could muster up the courage, but he didn't want their first face to face conversation since he left Nevada to be in front of other people. Danny had gone over to say hello to Chin and Abby, excited to see them.. He knew they were coming, but he hadn't wanted to spoil the surprise.. They had specifically asked him not to mention it and so he didn't.

Steve and Mary were slowly getting around to everyone, it was hard to deal with, both of them feeling burnt out and emotional, but everyone that came to the funeral came for them, so it was about showing their appreciation that they made the effort to come and be there to support them through today, both Catherine, Danny and also Tani and Quinn keeping an eye on the siblings to make sure they were okay and not needing any rescuing.

Author Notes:
This story is turning out better then I had expected and as I'm sitting down to write these chapters, it is all coming together really quickly. It's like the chapters are writing themselves.. I never have been big ideas going into these stories, I just write mainly chapter by chapter and see what comes out once I'm finished, here and there I might have little ideas and if anyone has ideas, I try my best to add them in but otherwise it's all free thrall and it's all turning out so amazing. I'm so proud of this story.. This just just gotten to chapter 39 and 40, and I don't feel it's slowing down anytime soon.. I'm trying to incorporate bits and pieces from other stories, or even if a future story has began, hint at it happening in pics that are before it in the time line.. Thank you for coming on this journey with me, I adore you all.

Guest:
Sorry, I'd write your name, but there was none left xx Thank you so much, I appreciate you reading.

jenmatl9 (wouldn't let me write it how it's written in your profile)
I adore the bond I have created between Joanie and Danny as well.. I feel she would be as comfortable with him as she is with Steve. That is interesting, Danny/Mary pairing is different but interesting.. I love Rachel/Danny but it does feel like in the show, it is over between them.. I always liked Gabby and was sad when she left the show, I thought she had a really good rapport with Grace as well, whereas that Melissa/Amber was a bit young for Danny and didn't gel well with Grace. I feel to be in Danny's world, the woman has to get on with his kids and respect they come first where Gabby certainly did that.

SteveMcGarrettLover:
Thank you, I am glad you loved it, and yeah I did miss some other friends that the had to kill or others that betrayed him, Nick Taylor in season one, Jenna Keye (that one really devastated me because I genuinely liked her). Catherine is just perfect for him and I love them together, either watching the show, reading other peoples works or writing my own. You are welcome for the Valentines Day story, I am so so happy you liked it. I'm glad the funeral scene was taken really well, I feel and not big noting myself but it is just getting better and better this story. That's an interesting idea as well, I'm still unsure what to do with Danny and his love life right now, but I'm gonna have a good thing and decide who he should be with but the love triangle would be a cool idea to do..

Sarah Y:
Thank you so much, I am glad you loved the funeral scene, I wasn't sure how people might take it, it's why I put the warning up, but it was given so much care and thought that I think it turned out really well. Awe, I'm sorry I made you cry but honestly, when my writing resonates with someone so much they feel that emotion to the point of crying or laughing out loud, then I know I have written a really good piece of work.. That's how I judge a good show/movie or piece of writing myself, that I can feel the emotions.

LuckyStarPham:
I can see you reviewed chapter 36 which was the sex scene, thank you so much.. If you want to read more, I do have a sex scene in my Right here waiting and my Thinking out loud stories as well if you want to read those. Awe, that makes me feel good knowing people love re-reading my stories.. I admit, I do the same with my favs as well, I go back and read them over and over.. I am glad I made your day.