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Chapter 48
Can we talk?
Lincoln opens the door and lets Lucy in. But inside was already someone waiting for them.
"Where had you two literally been?" Lori asks angrily.
Her posture also shows that she is angry. Arms crossed in front of her chest, a tapping foot, and a stern look.
Besides her was Luna. Also not very amused about the younger ones disappearing.
"Girls, plea—" Lincoln begins to say, but then Lucy puts herself in front of him.
"Please, dear sisters. We are sorry but can we talk about it in the morning? We do not want to wake mom and dad."
"You two just go out, literally in the middle of the night, while you know that there might be literally someone who wants to hurt Lincoln, without telling anyone of us. And now you want us to literally let it go?"
"No. We will tell you. But not now. It is not the right time for it. Please."
Luna places a hand on Lori's shoulder. "Let them be. It is ways too late to talk about this." Then she looks to her younger siblings. "But Lori is right. Next time, tell us when you go outside. We get that you were with Isaac. And we don't have a problem with that. Just let us know, all right?"
"We're sorry. I haven't thought about it. It was a bit too much for me and I just forgot that I can talk to you about this. I really, really promise to talk with all of you after breakfast," Lincoln says to them.
He was truly sorry, but right now he was too tired and there was also too much on his mind right now to deal with his sisters at the moment.
"All right. After breakfast we'll have a meeting in my room," Lori says after a while.
"Thanks. Oh, and it might be better to not invite the younger ones."
Lori and Luna looking confused at him. "Why?" Lori asks carefully. She wasn't sure if she wants to know.
"You will understand why. If it is okay, I would go to bed now."
She nods, still not sure why to let the younger sisters out of it.
Lincoln was, once again, surrounded by nothing than pure darkness. And he was floating around like he was in space.
He sighs, "Here we go again. D? D, where are you?" he calls into the endless void. But no answer. "D. Is it because of my nightmare? Come on. I'm not mad at you. D."
Then he feels gravitation pulling him down and he falls. He screams and closes his eyes.
But to his luck is his fall stopped by something soft and comfortable.
As he opens his eyes, he finds himself in the living-room and right on the couch.
"Phew. That was scary." Lincoln looks around and finally finds D standing in one of the corners. "D? Is... is everything all right?"
He stands up and walks to her. Slowly he stretches a hand out to her. "Hey, D. Are you still sorry for what had happened? I said I'm not mad—"
"We... We can't bear it any longer," she quietly says.
"Wha-what did you mean? Come on, D. Please look at me."
She turns around. There is sadness in her eyes. "We can't bear it to see how much you have to suffer. You have tried to take your own life. Two times. And then had Damien attacked you, also two times by now. And all those bad thoughts and nightmares you're going through. And we can nothing do for you."
"Hey, hey. That isn't true. You have done for me so much since you have become a part of me. I bet I would have way more nightmares without you. And you also have helped me to be more confident in myself and who I really am. Come. Let me show you how much I still appreciate you."
The Darkness leans down, so Lincoln can give her a kiss full of love for her.
After their lips separate again, she looks into his eyes and gives a slight chuckle. "You know, our dear. You could have instead made yourself taller so we don't have to go on our knees."
"Wait, I can? Oh, of course, I can. It's still my dream world," Lincoln slaps his palm to his forehead. "Okay, let me try it."
He takes a step back and closes his eyes. Slowly he draws an image of himself, as he thinks he would look like when he is seventeen, in front of his inner eye and then focuses on it.
His body begins to grow and he is as tall as Leni, his hair has become a little bit longer and he also has some facial hairs at his chin.
"Well, what do you think?" Lincoln asks her.
"We think that you should have made your clothes growing too," she giggles and points at his belly.
As he looks down he sees what she means. His shirt was now too short for him and his belly was exposed.
"Oh, eh. Ups," he chuckles slightly embarrassed while scratching the back of his head. "I'll fix that."
He claps his hands and his attire changes. His jeans are now fitting again and his shoes are now simple black and white chucks. His orange shirt is replaced by a long sleeve double layer polo shirt. The sleeves in white and the polo shirt in red with Ace Savvy's logo on it.
"That looks better. But we have enjoyed the view of your bared body."
"I bet. I hope I'll look kinda like this when I'm older. I think I look cool."
"You do, our love. But don't you think you would be a bit taller?"
"Maybe. But Leni is already pretty tall so I guess I may not be taller than her. Well as long as I finally get taller than Lynn, I'm happy."
"You know she will be mad at you when this happens."
They both laugh about that. "Yeah. She probably will. But maybe I'm stronger than too, so she can't hurt me."
"So, what do you want to do now, handsome?" she asks slightly seductive.
"I'll make sure that you're okay." He holds her hands and looks into her eyes. "D. I am sorry that I was angry at you because of my last nightmare. It wasn't your fault. I know that. And I understand that you're afraid that all this bad stuff would become too much for me. But never forget. I am Lincoln Loud. And we Louds live loud till the end. Also, I have a lot of people who are looking for me. Can't disappoint them."
"How do you do that?"
"What do you mean?"
"To always find the right words to make all of us feel better."
She softly kisses him and he returns her kiss willingly.
"It always pays off to live with a bunch of girls. Come, my love. Let us have some nice time together."
Both go to the couch and snuggles into each other.
The morning was as usual. Fighting about space in the bathroom, loud chit chat at the table, some furtive looks between Lincoln and his secret girlfriends.
After all that, the meeting in Lori and Leni's room begins.
As discussed were only Lori, Leni, Luna, Luan, Lynn, Lincoln, and Lucy there.
"All right, everyone. This meeting now is because our two young siblings here were literally out last night. Without saying a word about it. And now we hope we get a literally good explanation," Lori opens the meeting.
"Waite a minute, they what?" Lynn says slightly shocked. "You know that there is still some crazy psycho out there, right?"
"That is what we had said to them last night," tells Luna.
"Girls, please. If you want an explanation then let me explain first before you start to come with the stuff I already know," Lincoln says a bit annoyed.
"Whoa, bro. No need to become all douchey, all right?"
"Sorry. As I said last night. It's all a bit much for me."
"What do you mean? What is too much for you, Linky?" asks Leni worriedly.
He sighs, "My thoughts are still not the best. The nightmares make it also hard to get a good rest. And then there is last night."
"What was last night? I thought you were with Isaac?" Luna asks confused.
"We were. Before I tell the whole thing. Promise me that you will not freak out. Well, at least not too much."
"Lincoln. Why do you think we would freak out? What exactly had happened last night?" asks Lori very concerned.
Lucy lays her hand on his shoulder to show him her support. He nods to her and then explains everything to them. The trap, that Damien had made for him. The fight between Damien and Isaac. And also everything about Ellie's brother Benny.
You can imagine the reaction everyone gives. They were shocked and scared.
Lynn was furious about Damien attacking Lincoln again and also about Isaac bringing him in danger. But she was a bit thankful that Isaac had protected Lincoln. But she wouldn't say that out loud, of course.
Leni, again, showed a big sadness. She wants to be there for her brother, to take him into a hug and say to him how happy she is that he isn't hurt. But she has a boyfriend now and she couldn't trust herself that she would hold herself back.
Luan tried to come up with a joke to lift the mood a bit but was too shocked to come up with a good one.
Lori and Luna are completely speechless.
Lucy steps in front of everyone again. "I know what is going through your minds right now. I was shocked too. But please don't let us overreact again." She looks to Lynn. "I can understand that you want to strangle Isaac for that. But no one could have seen that coming. We were not even sure if Damien was still in Royal Woods or not. And we cannot hold Lincoln captured in our own four walls."
Lynn was ready to burst out into a rant about this. But Lori stepped in and stopped it before there was no holding back anymore.
"We understand that we can't hold Lincoln in here, for no one knows how long, until this Damien is finally in jail. But going out in the night doesn't sound like a good idea at all."
"Lori, you have to understand. I needed that. Isaac's group helps me to loosen up some tensions. When I'm with them I forget about my thoughts. I know you all are doing what you can to help me too. And I'm thankful for that. But sometimes I need something else. Without him, I may have shouted at you all way more as I already had. And I don't want that this ever happens again."
Now it was Luna who was standing up. "I understand that this is a rough time for you, bro. But maybe tell me next time about it. Then I can come with you too."
"Thank you, Luna. But I can't bring my whole family with me there."
"Why not?" asks Leni.
"Isaac's car isn't big enough." he jokingly tells them.
"You literally know we have Vanzilla, right?"
"There. That's one of the reasons I haven't told you. You may not make me a prisoner of this house. But you make yourself my guards. I understand that you want to protect me. I would too if it is about one of you guys. But I'm twelve. How can I become an adult when I'm watched and protected all the time?"
"Eh, well, um." His sisters don't know what to say. He was still a kid but he wasn't also that wrong.
"Look. I have no problem if you want to come with me to Isaac's group. But not to just watch over me. It isn't that I'm completely defenseless. Issac is there. I trust him with all I have. So, there is no need for you to protect me there too. Okay?"
"Isaac has, by now, two times proven that he will and can protect our dearest brother," Lucy says to her sisters. She remembers back to the moment in the woods and blushes slightly. "I have started to trust him too. Not as much as Lincoln does, so far. But still. I am willing to trust him that he keep Lincoln—no—all of us safe."
"Wow. I didn't know. He'll love to hear that," Lincoln says to annoy her a little bit.
"Everything that is said in this meeting stays in this meeting," she answers him without a single sign of emotion.
Yikes, did I catch her on the wrong foot?
Lori takes a very deep breath. "All right. Lucy is right. Isaac had literally protected you more than just once. But again, tell at least one of us when you go out. Okay?"
"Okay. I promise to tell you. I start right now. Because I go this night with him again to the woods."
"And I come with him," says Lucy.
"Can I come too?" asks Luna. "Of course not to watch you. Maybe I can get to know him better. You have said that we would get along well, after all."
"I don't think that he would have a problem with that. But I'll ask him, just to be sure."
"Good. Then I declare this meeting literally as over. But could you still stay here, Linky? There is literally another thing I want to talk with you. Alone." Lori gave a big emphasis on the last word so that all understand to leave the room now.
Luna nods to her and drags Leni out with her too since she hasn't got the hint.
"All right, Lori. What do you want to talk about?"
Lori was checking that her sisters really had gone away and weren't eavesdropping.
"Good. Well, Linky. I, eh. It's that... Okay, there is literally no way to not make you embarrassed, so I say it pretty straight forward. I had heard you in the bathroom."
"Wha-what do you mean?"
"I have heard that you were... ma-mastur..." Lori blushes and takes a deep breath. "I have heard you masturbating in the bathroom."
Lincoln becomes red as a tomato. Oh my god. Oh shit. Oh please no. She has heard it? Is she angry? Disgusted? Will she jell at me for using her to let off some steam?
"There... there is no need to be embarrassed about it. E-everyone is doing it. And your just in that age where it begins. It is com-completely normal. I hope you have locked the door."
"H-how m-many have you heard?" he asks her hesitantly.
She blushes a bit more now. "Just one or two moans. I'm literally old enough to know what that means. So I went away from the door to let you your privacy."
So she hasn't heard that... Oh good Lord, I'm safe. It's quite strange to thank god for not being caught when thinking about my own sister while masturbating. "Eh, thank you for giving me privacy. I think next time I should be more quiet," he laughs sheepishly.
"Yeah. Believe me, you literally don't want Lola, Lana, or Lily asking you what that strange noises were."
"Eh, you, you said ev-everyone is doing it. So are, are you guys d-doing it too?"
Lori is visibly surprised by that question. "W-well. I, I know that some of us do it from time to time."
"Even you? I mean, you have Bobby."
"Eh, yeah, I have my Boo Boo Bear. But you know how far away he is. So when I feel the urge, I have literally to do it myself."
"So, does this also mean you and Bobby had, well you know. Done it?"
"This is literally a very private question. But yes. We had taken that step in our relationship. So, when you have someone special and think you two are ready for that too, you can come to me when you need some advice."
"Th-thank you, Lori. But I think that will still take its time. Is there another thing you want to talk with me?"
"No that's literally all. I just wanted to let you know that you should be quieter and never forget to lock the door."
"All right. Will remember that."
They gave each other a hug and then he goes back into his room.
But the next surprise was already waiting there.
"Luna? Have you been waiting for me in my room all the time?" Lincoln asks.
"Yeah. I also wanted to talk with you alone," Luna answers him.
Lincoln can already tell that there is something off.
"All right. What is it?" He closes the door so no one would hear there conversation.
"I... I had lied to you."
"Lied to me? When? And about what?"
"Two days ago, as I was in your room. Where I told you I wanted to know you better through looking at your room. That wasn't the reason I was in here."
"Okay. Then, what was the reason?"
"I..." Luna was shaking and Lincoln sees that.
He goes to her and holds her hands. "Luna. You know you can talk with me about anything. I will always love you and be there for you whenever I can."
That helped her to calm down a bit. "You know that you're one of the most awesome guys I have ever met, right?"
"I think you have mentioned something like that before. But it is nice to hear it more often," he snickers.
"I'm scared, Lincoln. I'm absolutely scared to tell you the truth because it may change how you would see or even feel about me. I'm scared of the consequences of this. But I'm way more scared to lose you forever because of some psycho and without ever telling you how I feel."
Lincoln looks puzzled at her. He can see that there is something that troubles her. And he knows this feeling too well.
"Luna. I don't know what makes you so scared. What you mean, you want to tell me. But let me say something to you that may help you to ease your nerves. I would never see you in a different light as I do right now. No matter what you will tell me, I promise you that I'll be at your side."
"Well, that is something you may not expect to hear, so make no promises you can't keep."
Lincoln looks Luna right in the Eyes. She stares right into his clear blue eyes. And he into her green-hazel eyes.
"I repeat myself. I 'promise' you to not look at you differently than before. No matter what you are telling me now."
Luna nearly lost herself in his eyes. But also his words made a good job.
She smiled at him, "All right, bro. But don't say I didn't warn ya. But first, I think you should take a seat because this might blow you out of your shoes and socks."
Lincoln sets himself down on his bed and was curious about what she will reveal to him.
Luna takes a deep breath. All right, Lunes. That is your great moment. Tell him straight forward what you feel for him. It is now or never. "All right, here goes nothing."
She looks at her little brother. The little boy, she had seen growing up from the beginning. The boy, she is thankful to have in her life.
"Lincoln. I... I... God, this is really hard, you know?"
"Take your time, Luna. I'll go nowhere until you have said what you want to say."
Another deep breath to steel her nerves. "Good. I may or may not have somehow, in a pretty funny way, developed feelings for you that could, under some circumstances, a bit problematic because it goes beyond sisterly feelings."
Lincoln blinks several times. His little smile still on his face. "Excuse me? You, eh, what?"
"I have fallen in love with you, okay? Here, I have said it. Are you happy now?" she huffs and turns her back to him.
"Well. I truly haven't expected that. But I have hoped for it."
"What?" Luna says as she turns back to him. Her face just baffled about that response.
"You know, Luna. I also have feelings that go beyond the simple feelings of a brother. But... that applies to each of my sisters."
Luna didn't know what to say. On the one hand, she was happy that Lincoln has also feelings for her. But on the other hand, it was a big bombshell to hear that he have feelings for the rest too.
"You?" Luna says while pointing at her brother. He nods. "All of us?" She now pointing at herself and waving her hand quickly. He nods again. "H-how long?"
"Probably since the beginning. But I've only been really certain since, I think, after the first quarter of summer vacation. Isaac had helped me to figure it out."
"Wait, wait, wait. So he knows that you?"
"Oh no. I don't think that he knows. At least he hadn't said anything about it. And I believe he would have joked about it if he knew."
"So, how had he helped you figuring that out?"
"Well. I had a dream about this girl. And that more than once. And he had given me the final clue why she was looked so familiar even I never had seen her before. She is a combination of you guys. He assumed it is so because I feel so safe with all of you. But soon after that, I understood that there was another reason."
"Wow, that's... Wow." Luna let this sink in but then a thought crosses her mind. "Luan had told me you had said to her that you think we all are beautiful and all that. Had you tried to flirt with her?"
"Eh, maybe a little bit. I mean, how would I find out if you have feelings for me too? It isn't always that easy like with the others."
"OTHERS?"
Lincoln laughs nervously. "Eh, yeah. Well, you see. Lola, Lana, and Lucy had already made their move."
"WHAT? Does that mean you're?"
"Yes. We are in a relationship and they all know about each other," he explains to her. "But so far we have only had held hands and kissed. They are still too young to go any further. And I'm also still too young, I think."
Luna looks at Lincoln. "What kind of kisses you four had?"
"Just normal and simple kisses like mom and dad have."
"Okay. Just thought you may have made out with them."
"What? No. Of course not. I wouldn't even know how to make out."
It looks like the shock was going away. On Luna's face appears a wicked smile. "Should I show you how?"
Lincoln's face becomes red and he looks down to his feet. "W-would you do it?" he asks her shyly.
Luna's heart skips one or two beats. Damn, bro. How can you be so incredibly cute? "Do, do you really want me to show you?"
"I have told you, Luna. I love all of my sisters. And you're one of my sisters. Also, you love me too. I would be more than happy to return your feelings and make you so happy too. If you have no problem that I am in a relationship with the others."
"Sharing my boyfriend with my sisters. That is a bit strange." On the other hand, I have told Luan that I wouldn't have a problem with sharing Linky with her. "I wouldn't do it when it was some other guy. But with you. I know that you wouldn't prefer one of us, so I'm okay with it. But before we start our lesson in making out, I have to tell you something."
"Okay. I'm all ear."
"But this is just between the two of us, understood?" Lincoln nods. "Good. Do you remember that letter we had found? That was addressed to L.L.?"
"Oh, how could I ever forget that? Is it too much to just write 'to Lynn' on it? Jeez, thanks, mom."
Luna laughs about his mini-rant. "Well. As you probably also remember had we all sent a letter to our crushes. And, well, mine was—is—Sam."
"Yeah, I know you have said something about someone named Sam. How had he react to your letter?"
"That's the point. It's not he but she. It's my best friend Sam. You know her. Blond hair with a teal streak."
Lincoln's eyes become bigger and bigger. "Wait. You have a crush on your best female friend? Then you're—"
"Yeah. I'm bisexual. Do, do you have a problem with that?" she asks slightly worried.
"A pro—Luna. Why should I?"
"Well. There are people out there who think it is wrong to fall in love with someone of the same gender as you."
"Wro—" Lincoln couldn't believe what he is hearing. In his short life, he never had heard that people would think so. And why would they? Clyde has two dads and they are great parents and persons like Lincoln's own parents are.
"This world can sometimes be pretty fucked up, dude," Luna says sadly.
"Did, did someone offend you because of your sexuality?"
Luna shakes her head, "No. But it's just because I have kept it a secret so far. But thanks that you have no problem with it."
"I would never have any kind of problem with you and what you like or not. You're still my awesome rocker-queen sister Luna 'rock the house' Loud."
Luna takes Lincoln into a tight hug. "You're also awesome, dude."
"So does that mean I have to share you with Sam too?"
"Well," Luna scratches nervously the back of her head. "No. She doesn't know that the letter is from me. I couldn't bring up the courage to tell her how I feel."
"You totally should."
"But what if she is straight? Or just simply don't feel the same for me? What if she doesn't want to be my friend after I tell her? And what about you? Even when she returns my feelings. I can't tell her I'm also in love with my own brother."
"Hey, hey, hey. Calm down, Lunes. Look. I love you and what I want more than be in a relationship with you is that you're happy. And when that means that you're in a relationship with her instead of me, then I'm totally fine with that."
"You're way too good for this world. Thank you, man."
Luna sits beside Lincoln and both sit there for a while without saying anything.
After a while, Luna looks at Lincoln out of the corner of her eye. "Soooo. Do you still want to make out?"
Lincoln got red again but nods sheepishly.
Luna locks the door and then sits very close to Lincoln. She kisses him. First softly and then more and more intensely. She opens his and her mouth and her tongue make her way to his.
His first real-life french kiss. It felt so good, he couldn't describe it with words.
Boy, this chapter was going on forever. But I didn't want it to split, so I'm glad I made it in time.
So, Luna is now also officially part of Lincoln's harem. Good for him. It was about time. But I couldn't help it to make her confess to him, in this chapter, long and a bit complicated.
And yeah, Lori had heard him in the bath. But to his luck, it was not much. Or was it?
Stay tuned and have a great day.
