A/N - Thank you to all my readers. I write for you guys...

Mac's Hospital Room

Harm just continued to hold his wife. He needed her as much as she needed him. It seemed like they had been sitting like this for hours. Time seemed to just stand still. Finally Mac pulled away. Harm looked at her tear stained cheeks and puffy eyes. He brushed her hair back creasing her bruised cheek.

"Baby I'm so sorry he did this too you. I should have been there to protect you and our babies. Our sweet little ones.." Harm could stop the tears.

Mac wrapped her arms tighter around him. "Please don't blame yourself. None of this is in anyway your fault, you had no way of knowing what was going to happen." They both looked over at the door when it opened up. A nurse walked in pushing a small portable crib. "Someone here wants to see his mommy."

Mac broke out in tears at seeing her baby son for the first time. She reached for him as the nurse handed him over. Mac looked him over taking in all his features. From his blue eyes to his rose colored lips. She ran her hand gently down his little chubby cheek. Than the little one poked his little hand out of his blanket. Mac let him wrap his little hand around her finger. (Sobbing) "Oh my god Harm...he's perfect. He looks just like you..."

The nurse just stood back. "Mrs Rabb, will you need help in feeding him?" Mac looked over at the nurse. "I...don't think so.. but.."

"Sweetheart I can..."

"No Harm... please don't leave us.."

"Do you want to breast feed? If not I can get him a bottle?"

"No... I want to feed him. I'm just not really sure."

"I understand, you sittuion is different from most new mothers. I understand that. Let me help you. We will start by lowering your gown."

The nurse lowered Mac's gown just low enough to free her breast. She helped her get the baby latched on. Once he was, he started sucking away. Both Mac and Harm just watched him. Mac felt herself instantly bonding with him. She watched as he sucked away. The nurse stepped back. "If you need anything else just buzz the station."

Mac looked over at the nurse and nodded her head, the lady walked out leaving them alone. Mac shifted on the bed to make room for Harm. He looked at her. She nodded yes. He took off shoes and uniform shirt gently sitting down next to his wife. Now he could really see the damage Brumby had inflicted on her. He stroked her battered and bruised face. It pained him to see the shape she was in. He didn't want to ask but knew he needed to know. Mac picked up on his thoughts as she looked into his eyes.

"No he didn't... I...I fought him...he... only wanted to kill the babies...I knew I had to save them... even if I had to die, they had to live...Thats why I told Chloe to run.."

Harm held on both of them tighter now. He placed his lips next to her ear. "Baby I'm so proud of you. I love you so much. I never should have had too leave you alone."

"Harm none of what has happened is in anyway your fault. Bobbie came by house. She's the reason you had to leave. It's cause of the fling you had with her."

Harm pulled away and looked at Mac. "I knew it, I am my father. I am my father. I can't let my past hurt you or the kids." Harm stood up grabbed his shoes and headed towards the door.

"Harm please...please don't leave us..."

Harm hung his head. "I'm sorry.. you all deserve better than me..." He walked out of the room. Mac pulled little Harm as close to her as she could. Sobbing into him. "What are we going to do without your daddy...Please please come back Harm..."