Log 708. December 7th.
Things went by so fast. After waiting so long and going through so much, it was resolved within a couple of hours. Some are taking it better than others. Zen has been milling about like a ghost. It's all over for him. Me and Zarya are going to tell the UN what had happened with One, and he will be questioned.
I suppose Evelyn was right. Unlike Lena, I have to be strong enough to do the things that I hate. Lena told me she could never do it.
Angela sighed as she finished the sentence, she knew she was avoiding something, something that she needed to confront.
Lena has been… off. It really hit her hard. She doesn't take failure well now that I think about it. Not enough experience perhaps? She went to bed about twelve hours ago. She told me she would prefer to be alone.
No point dancing around it. Time to play at being a doctor of Psychiatry. Psychology? Whatever.
Einar... I don't know if I really tried to process the pain as much as I tried to deny it. 2 years have passed, and I think I get it. The loss never stops, but it does become manageable. Getting over something does not mean forgetting them, and just because you forget doesn't mean you're over it. Not just Einar. Lots of things.
One must have wanted me to be unbalanced, wanted me unstable and angry so I will be easier to manipulate. He latched onto some repressed guilt I had over Einar and tried to push me with that. Only it backfired, and allowed me to face it. Literally. I may have tried to move on too quickly. Lena mentioned that she has been feeling guilt too, but he had such a hold on her. How much is she holding back?
Lena has been pretty stoic looking back, supportive. And since she's come here we've all gone through hell but she's had it pretty bad.
I've been too cold, too distant. If I don't reach out, I might lose her. God, I've been so unsupportive. I am bad at this.
Angela considered the truth of what she had written. She looked out the window and saw the Borealis dancing in the sky, and was struck with inspiration.
Time to do better.
