Chapter 7: Chains in my heart

"Erza! You're okay!" Approaching Natsu and Erza is the blonde hair girl. She looks worried and terrified.

"Everyone was so worried for you." The girl next to her cries.

They all gather around the two, cheer up, cry and give each other tight hugs. Because Natsu and Erza are safe and reunite with their comrades, I return to my job to collect the Core of Tower of Heaven and erase its leftovers on the sea. By that no one from The Magic Council can find. As I'm nearly finish, a voice rings from behind.

"Hey." I turn back and here comes the scarlet hair girl.

"Hi." I say.

"Well I..we want to thank you for saving us." She says as Natsu comes along. With his suspicious face, of course.

"It's nothing. Things happened and I had to do what is right." I smile.

"Don't say that. At first I doubted, but….well, Natsu told me what you did when I fainted. I really appreciate your help. I think we can be friends."

Friends? It's been a long time since I heard that word. 3 years ago? I wonder why there's a little bit of creepiness crawling under my skin when hearing that. Don't even know if I'm worth to befriend with anyone anymore, after I deceived my only one.

"Yeah, I don't know if we can. " I keep rambling myself when the last piece of The Tower is collected and forms a ball of crumbs and ready to be sent to Hell through a hole opening in the ocean below.

"What are you doing?" The voice of the boy.

"Cleaning the mess." I say. And when they give each other unknowing looks and then turn to me, I can't hold my giggle. "It's a long story of mine. But you don't want to know, I assume. And for now you guys are no acquaintance to me as I am to you, our destiny is nothing outside this Tower. We helped each other to get out and it stops at that. Then we part ways. Just know that I'm no harm to you and we're done." I turn around and give them my goodbye, ready to leave.

"Wait, please." Erza says. "At least let us treat you, you saved us and I won't just walk away from anyone who did me a favor. In fact, I really appreciate what you did even though you said our destiny is nothing outside the Tower and I will regret a lot if you don't let me return the favor, Lucerna. Destiny or not, our meeting means something and I know you're a good person so let's have some times to know each other."

I sigh. If I let her, I will lose track of Jellal anytime, but even now looking for him when just getting out after years of capturing is a total challenge. They've fled and my power is still as crumble and uncontrolled as the fallen Tower. I need time to recollect myself anyways. Spending time with them seems not a bad idea after all, I need to regain my power and prepare for the mission. So I just nod and smile. But maybe to Erza and her comrades, that's all they need to brighten up and come at me.

"Great! Now let's get back to our place. I'm Lucy, Lucy Heartfilia. And you're Lucerna right? Nice to meet you." The blond hair girl pops out from nowhere and smiles friendly and gives out her hand. I shake it and smile back.

"Nice to meet you too, Lucy. I'm Lucerna. Lucerna Vandil."

But to everyone's dismay, they're too tired to have a group chat after the fight so most of them sleep immediately after having a short meal. Especially Natsu, the blue cat and the dark hair boy Gray who I just get to know soon after. Despite the organized beds, they finish the meal and roll on the floor and then all I can hear is their snoring. And the girl names Juvia, she says something to Lucy and Erza and then disappears before I even have a glimpse of her. Only Lucy, Erza and I are still up. I ask.

"You two aren't tired?"

"Yes, but not as these boys, we're not as badly beaten up as them. Besides, I was in deep unconscious when Natsu got me out so I guess I rested enough. Just go sleep first. I'll watch out for everyone." Erza gives a nervous laugh. Lucy pats her shoulder and smiles.

"Don't be like that. Everyone was so worried for you but we aren't mad. You just keep on apologizing like that all the time?"

"No, but I'm… It's my fault drowning myself in the Tower after all." Erza says.

"Erza, I'm telling you again. This whole thing is no one's fault. If there is, that's because of those we faced in the Tower. They hurt you and we cannot let them do anything to you again. We're friends remember?". Lucy says while giving Erza her beautiful smile and what aches me more is that it reminds me about none other than the untold reminisce I failed to protect, which led me to the Tower.

Friends?

Is that what they usually have after getting through hard times together?

Until now seeing the friendship before me that I realize how badly and deeply The Power of Tower of Heaven have demolished my feeling for 3 years of being captured. Now I no longer feel like wanting to get to know anyone as letting them to get close to me. Close enough to know the real me that I've lost. Now I don't know anymore. The only thing I need to do as soon as I get away from these people is finding Jellal and finish my mission and then return to the King. I should have-

"Lucerna!" A sudden voice wakes me from rolling in my own thoughts. It's Lucy's.

"Eh?"

"You were zoning out." She laughs.

"My apologize. What did you ask me about?"

"I'm saying that since we don't have more time until sunrise so why don't we all rest for now? And then let's have some time tomorrow? When will you have to go?" She yawn.

"When the first light of the day comes out."

"That rush? Sorry that we took your time. I didn't think we would be this worn out. I really want to spend more time with you and I even think about taking you for a walk to our place. It would be wonderful, if you don't mind."

I look at the clock. It's already midnight. And both of the girls seem too exhausted to talk anymore.

"I'm sorry but I really have to go. Please rest, you two. Or you won't be able to get yourselves up tomorrow. We're already exhausted."

"Yeah you're right."

Erza turns off the lights. Then she comes lie next to me and before I close my eyes, she says.

"Hey. I know that we just met and you seem like don't wanna share anything to us despite the fact that we talked the most all the time but,...well it's okay, too. You can keep your secret. We don't want to intrude your private memories. But please know that around us you don't need to withdraw yourself. Just be yourself. We trust you because you helped us. We're no enemies. So there's nothing to worry about okay?"

She reaches out to me under the blanket and hold my hand.

"It's terrible to know that you were captured in the Tower for like, 3 years? Those must be unforgettable memories. I understand because I was at that Tower too, when I was a child, until we broke free. And as you said Destiny led us back to The Tower for a mission and we met. But I'm glad you're free now. I guess if you will leave soon at dawn, this is our goodbye."

No, Erza. I'm not free. The chains in the Tower are broken, but the chains in my heart are not. Not now. Not ever when all my soul will soon belong to the demons. I'm a criminal and I don't deserve all the love in this world.

"It happened in year X781."

"What?"

I lower my voice only for her to hear.

"I did things I should not. I got many unrelated people involved in my wrong doings. And I betrayed a friend. All of that led to the reason why I was imprisoned and forced to work under their watch in order to create the Tower. Erza, you're such a good person. But please don't try to befriend me. You don't know me. And I don't know you. There's something I really have to do after this. If not, I can never payback the sins in my past."

"If you insist. But I still don't see anything wrong to get close to you. I feel it. You saved us, Lucerna. And I'm definitely sure that's deserve a life lasting friendship for us. I know that Natsu, Lucy, Happy and Gray would feel that too. So, if nothing bad happens and when you're done, can we meet again? We're mages of Fairy Tail in Magnolia. You know where to find us."

"If we meet again. I'll spend time with you guys." I tighten our hands. "I'm glad we get to know each other."

That's true. If there's another chance, I guess.

As expected, Jellal has fled. There's only little of his scent left which is at 30 km from the previous placement of Tower of Heaven. In two days I follow his scent and when the city I stayed the night before is nowhere behind that I recognize I was led to the mountains in the northwest of Ishgar.

In those mountains, the weather is cold and air is so thin I can barely breath. I spend 2 hours searching for him around the place where his scent is the strongest but to my discomfort the scent is also as thin as the air and it keeps floating around instead of leading me to Jellal. Why is that?

There's only a few hours left until all the air in my lungs disappear. Nightfall makes things harder. Geez. I breath slower and lighter while touching the earth below and speak.

Se kaló. Chaménes psychés

Here come the crumbling earth, shaking trees and flying souls of the death in the mountain. The souls, they know everything, but unknown to the world. I might ask them about Jellal.

When I was young and still living with my brother and the Dragons, I was scared and screamed my lungs out the first time my mother dragon showed me what people would be when they died. They become souls. Or people normally call "Ghost", and my brother would always told me ghost stories just to scare the crap out of me. Mother Dragon said some souls find the right way and were taken to another life. But to some, they cannot let go of their past and become the white souls who still exist around us. The ghost in my brother's stories are dark souls who sold themselves to the demons, they made contract to one or many of the demons so that they can have what they desire. But once they do, their soul cannot be free after death and they belong to the demons. Most people of the dark souls are mages because only the mages have power to summon demons. Those kind of souls exist for the only reason: scare the shit out of people and drain their lives to get stronger and become devils of Hell. Because of that the magic from dark souls are the most powerful.

In Ishgar there are dragons born within the magic of the souls and can control the power of them. But those dragons are very rare and choosing the humans who will inherit their power and become Dragon Slayer is even harder. I don't know why and when did my dragons find my brother and me. I just know that they raised us, Hibernis and Lucerna Vandil, the twin orphans, since we were born. And then one day when I tried the final level of Soul Magic I lost control and let the dark souls took over. I didn't know what happened next. When I woke up they're all gone. My parents and my big brother. It was when I was still 7 years old and never had been outside the forest we were living. Everything happened in year X777. I went everywhere to find him and our parents. I lost, I had no evidence of them. Finally I ran out of energy and food and ended up outside Redwoods Guild. One of the reason I chose to stay and work for the former Master is that he had the Power of Vision and can help me find my parents and brother, under one condition that I must work for him with all my loyalty. It's stupid, I was stupid but at that time there's nothing I wanted other than finding my family so I agreed with him. Then he showed me what inside the Eye. But there was darkness and blood smell. He told me that they died. I didn't believe him and told him he was lying. But he showed me the day that I lost control and destroyed everything along with my family. I had to believe that because only I knew what happened that day. I had to believe him that I killed them. And for 6 years I was living in hell with guilt. And I-

"You're drowning, Miss. Please wake up."

I gasp and realize I was rambling to myself. Someone pats my shoulder and when I turn around I recognize a white soul is trying to give me some air because my lungs are dried. It says.

"Summoning the souls while you can't control your breath is very risky, Miss Lucerna."

"Thank you. And I'm sorry. I'm looking for a man names Jellal. His soul is tainted and he's very powerful. He a mage using magic of the stars. " I say.

"If you look for him here, then you're lost. He's left for a day."

"What? But this place is reeked of him."

"He was here. But he used magic so his scent remains as long as possible. He knows you're tracking him. I'm sorry miss Lucerna. But the man you are looking for has returned to the magic Council. And his magic has disappeared ever since, he must have closed himself and been in deep slumber to maintain power. It's impossible to track down Jellal right now, you shall wait until his magic awake again." Another soul speak.

"GOD DAMN IT." I groan. Great. Now that man is where I hate most. No one can enter The council and get out in one piece. Not when there are traps and guards every corner and even the members are ten times powerful than Jellal. I can't risk myself.

"I understand. Thanks a lot. Apolýo."

The light of the souls glow and then all disappears into dust.

I did not try to go to the Council. Not until my strength is still weak and can easily go berserk as that day. Instead I successfully found a big cave under the mountains where there's a waterfall which flows from the outside. The fantastic thing is that this waterfall contains a large amount of energy which is surprisingly compatible with me. It must be from the souls of the mountains. I need to stay here and regain my magic. I have the Aspro Stone inside my body and for now it seems the stone's power is yet to awake. I haven't learned to adjust with it yet. I don't know how. I don't know what would I do if the Stone went exploded as before. Thinking about the incident 3 years ago, I still hate myself. It was terrible. Seriously terrible. Our plans got out of control, my power got out of control and everything led to devastation. If I let that happen again, I wonder what would I become.

I wonder where is Sting now. How has he been doing? How is he? He must be joining a guild. Or is he still traveling alone? Is there anyone beside him?

I miss him.

I miss my family. And Sting.

"If you let your emotion take over. You'll lose control of yourself, Miss."

"It's you. I…I didn't call you." I open my eyes and see that they are slowly watering. I blink to get them away. The beautiful white soul that helped me lately is standing before me..

"I'm the oldest in these mountains and I speak for other souls. I died a long time ago, myself has become one with everything here. I can see things, hear things that happens here. I can appear whenever I want because I'm here to protect the mountains, Miss Lucerna. I know who you are and what you're doing here."

"I apologize for my rudeness. Please let me stay here for a while, I just got out after 3 years of captivating and this waterfall has the strongest healing power I've ever seen. It can heal me."

"Of course. The waterfall of us contains a rich source of magic that flows through the mountains. Take a bath in the waterfall 3 times a week, your magic will return and much more powerful than before. That is when you keep practicing and making yourself stronger everyday, of course."

I step into the pool under the waterfall. It is so warm and comfortable. I breath in and relax. After 3 years, this is the first time I feel safe and sound, every aching muscle is slowly coming to life. My back was really tense because of having hung in the wall for a long time, now I'm gradually relaxing.

"Thank you. You're so kind to me. But why don't you see me as a threat to your mountain?"

"Every soul can identify who the summoner is through their magic. Most of us used to serve your ancestors since the beginning of milleniums and we vowed to always keep taking care of their children until the world turns to dust. So any children of House Vandil and apprentices of Dornion and Senali The Twins Dragons of Heaven and Hell are welcomed here. Please make yourself at home. "

It's been forever since anyone talked about House Vandil, or mentioned the name of dragons that trained my brother and I. So hearing those names strikes me hard like thunder. I sit straight up, freezing despite the hot water and suddenly feel hard to breath.

"You know the Vandils and…and my-"

"I was a historian of your family. They'd ruled their lands spreading wide at the northeast of Ishgar since the dragons were still flying in the sky until hundred years after the Dragon Civil War first broke. Although I'm not expecting another Vandil still lasts these days, I'm surprised you have zero knowledge of your existence."

This is criticism, isn't it?

"My parents died when my brother and I were born. The Twin Dragons adopted us. But they never told me or my brother anything about our family. I don't know we are relating to…some rulers of a country?" I admit.

"Well, dragons can live for centuries. Dornion and Senali had been adopted The Vandil kids and protected as part of the contract between them and the royal family. When War of Dragons began, they continued raising the soon to be rulers until one day the tables turned and your homelands became battle fields. The castle exploded when a dragon blew a huge fireball, no one did survive."

"But my parents… they lived."

"And that's what surprised me. The war happened 400 years ago. Maybe the Twin successfully saved some kids and took care of them in private so the bloodline of House Vandil could be descended. They could've protected the later generations until you. They surely loved humans more than any dragons ever did."

Overwhelmed by the story the soul just shared, I stay in deep silence. I wonder why Dornion and Senali never mentioned this before. Does Hibernis know about this?

"Your story…it's…"

"Unbelievable?"

"No, of course not. Souls talk from their hearts. I believe you. Actually, I've never ever imagined what my family in blood would be like. The dragons told me my parents passed away because of illness and they found us in a dying village. And that's all. I never…wondered where did my last name come from. I never wondered who they were and now you saying makes me confused, or kinda feeling bad about it. Perhaps because I was happy I've already had the dragons and my brother as my family so I never questioned them about House Vandil. But still, I should have, right?"

"You weren't even born when everything happened so do not feel bad when no one told you, I think they might have reasons. I died a historian and I'll forever be a historian so, being a spirit or not, my job is telling the truth of history. When House Vandil officially vanished out of the monarch list, I was also dead. So everything I told you about the dragons raising the surviving kids is just me hypothesizing the events by connecting everything I know about The Twin Dragons and House Vandil. They could be wrong, anything can happens, there's still mysteries to reveal, you know. However, I'm glad a young blood of Vandil still survives today."

"Thanks. I appreciate what you've decided to tell me. What should I address you, Sir…?"

"The dead have no name. But in my whole life I was known as Adorellan Miadithas, I served King Aithlin Vandil, our last and mightiest king of the centuries. We vowed to fight for Atheton, for Kathania Dryas. We vowed to protect our country as long as we can, whether we live or die. We promised to speak the truth and tell our stories to the later generation. We promised to forever be protective to our people, be faithful in love and be loyal in friendship. Today we found a descendant, and we shall transfer promises with our latest king to the one. Lucerna Vandil, apprentice of Dornion and Senali the Twin Dragons of Heaven and Hell. Our homeland was gone, but our people fought till the end. No matter where you are, what you do, do not forget who we are, what we believe and our identity. Please pass this message to the next generation."

And then, the mountain spirit disappears. And until 3 days later when I regained my magic and ready to leave, he's not available anymore.