This chapter was an absolute beast. The next one is going to be hella fun though cause I'm bringing Joke back and the girls are going to have nothing but fun and pleasant bonding. ESPECIALLY after this hell I drug Gini through here. There will be quite a few sections marked with warnings.
TL;DR: Please skip this chapter if you're not ready for angst. Baby Todoroki is okay. Dabi and Gini are not okay cause she did something spicy with Aizawa. The next chapter is a 1 month time skip.
Thanks again for taking time to read this fic!
Her Peace
Now did you think it all through?
All these things will catch up to you
And time can heal but this won't
So if you're coming my way, just don't
~Bad Blood: Taylor Swift~
"Endeavor, what the hell are you doing?!" Kamui scolded the #2 Hero as he watched Enji drop the trembling woman for the third time.
"It's my quirk...my control is slipping. You need to stay back," Gini moaned as she clutched her head.
With each pinch of abdominal pain, Gini released a pulse of anxiety. She had experienced a taste of emotional freedom long enough that the retrieval of her quirk was damaging. The two Pros clutched their stomachs as they felt the light-haired woman's soreness spill into their own senses.
"I have an idea. Knock me out," she begged, "if I'm unconscious, then my quirk won't get in the way. Please, I really need to get to the hospital about my...stomach...pain," she trailed.
Kamui nodded reluctantly before obeying her plea. Three hours later, Gini woke up alone with the doctor she had spoken with during her last checkup.
"So your real name is Ms. Fukukado, huh?"
"Yes, ma'am."
"I'll get the big scare over with first. You are still a little over two months pregnant. I see that you experienced some cramping and bleeding but all of that is completely normal and unrelated to your battle with that terrible person. You and the little one are both in pretty good condition considering what you pulled off out there."
Ginsui sighed in relief. It was one less worry to deal with.
"Also, your ankle has been healed without any issue. You'll be able to walk by tomorrow. We've given you a type of sedative that focuses on suppressing your quirk. The effects will wear off within a few hours. Because of how your mind works, we're going to have to isolate you in your own psyche ward until you regain control."
"...I understand," Gini mumbled.
A psyche ward? They think I'm fucking crazy. I guess I would too if I saw myself kicking an enemy's head in like the way I was.
She recalled what Stain had told her months ago. The thing about losing her humanity if she stuck around that League for too long. He had been right.
-1 WEEK LATER-
"How are you feeling, GiGi?" Aizawa asked as he erased her quirk.
"I could be better," the irritable woman tartly replied.
"Can we...talk?" He asked in exasperation as he tossed another blanket over her.
It was at least 72 degrees F (22 C) in the room. Why was the woman so damn cold?
"What do you have on your mind?" She asked in between her chattering teeth.
"Us?"
"Again with this?"
"We never really...tried..."
"Look, the baby isn't yours. I'm a little on the crazy side right now and you have an Emi who will love you till you die, so you can stop fretting over me," she spat.
She couldn't believe how easy it was to push him away. She didn't want him staying with her for the wrong reasons. She needed to deal with her pregnancy her way and on her terms. The only way she could do that, would be to get rid of the men controlling her.
Aizawa's left eye twitched. She was the absolute worst at communication when she didn't have her quirk to manipulate the listener. To think he had loved this woman. This mean, dismissive, cold-hearted woman.
"Your pregnancy had little to do with me wanting to help you. You're making it impossible to reason with you," he sighed.
"That's what I've been saying, so bye," she sighed back as she waved her hand in dismissal.
His eye twitched again. She had just gone through something traumatic and he would have acted just as cold. She could still be the tinder-souled person she had been before. He needed to be more patient.
"You've changed," he frowned.
Ginsui looked away.
"I know. The old me is gone and I'm sorry about that ZaZa."
"Why do you apologize like that? Like my love is fragile? I accept that we'll never be at that romantic headspace like we were in the past. I will take all the blame for taking so long to tell you my true feelings which led to you moving on. I will always care for you. Please know that, GiGi."
He inhaled her citrus aroma one last time as he pulled her into a hug and released his quirk.
Ginsui felt a pang of regret for the lost love she shared with the man. Had she let him go too soon? He was her first love. He taught her how to love. He taught her patience. He brought awareness to her self-worth and he brought her peace.
She clung to him before he could let her go.
***NSFW LIME***
She dug her fingers into his hair, pulling out his hair tie as her lips fiercely ate his neck up. A soft gasp escaped the surprised man. He was wide awake now and fully aroused. Gods, he missed her.
He had missed the way her voice mewed with each of his well-placed kisses. He had missed the way her eyes would roll in ecstasy with each of his careful thrusts into her wet warmth.
It was all coming back to him now though.
He took her forwardness as approval to continue his next action. He readily gave into her demands as he effortlessly removed her loose clothing. He paused as his eyes consumed the bare body he hadn't been able to touch in months.
He hated seeing the lingering bruising her random fling had left on her; however, he refused to let it stop him now. If he said anything about it, it would push her emotionally away again. He had to keep her here beneath his fingertips a little longer. Even if he knew it would be for the last time.
Aizawa quickly pushed her onto the bed and spread her legs. He moaned as she pulled him down to bite and claw at his shoulders with each of his deep plunges into her. The minutes ticked by and the two made up for the lost time they were separated.
***SAFE***
Soon, the two had reconciled their relationship. They both agreed that it would be better to only stay as friends considering that the two had made decisions that interfered with ever being romantically involved again. She would never be able to get over him sleeping with her cousin and he would never get over her lapse in judgement with sleeping around with a villain.
He hoped she would eventually talk to him about her pregnancy though. She would still need help and maybe him stating that they would remain platonic would help take away the pressure of her not wanting to ask for his help.
"I was supposed to tell you before that whole thing, that today was your last day of therapy with me. You get to move into a hall with other residents now. Please try not to be too controlling of their feelings," Aizawa spoke up as he brushed his fingers through her tangled hair.
"I'm not going to make any promises," she smiled as she snuggled underneath the arm he had draped over her.
Another hour passed before he worked up the courage to say his final goodbye.
"Seriously though, take care. I'll see you around," he shared a faint smile with her and headed out.
-The Next Day-
It was weird being around other people again. Fortunately, the residents kept their distance out of fear of her. That is, all except one.
Rei Todoroki examined the obviously tired woman sitting on the other side of the room. She liked the beauty from the moment she walked in. This had to be her! The one Touya mentioned all the time! Although, she looked awfully young to be in her thirties.
Rei dismissed her rambling thoughts as she approached the woman. Ginsui observed the white-haired beauty getting closer to her. Her face was so much like Fuyumi and Touya's that it was unnerving.
"Mrs. Todoroki?" Gini accidentally blurted as the woman took a seat beside her.
The older woman smiled, "That's me. You must be the Ginsui Fukukado my Touya talks about whenever he visits."
Ginsui frowned at the present tense wording. Maybe she was a little on the crazy side...
"He was always so sweet to me..." Gini trailed as she thought about the fifteen-year-old version of him.
"Yes, he used to be so empathetic. He's quite the opposite now, isn't he? Not a shred of emotion unless he's pushed into acting out. It seemed that you were helping with that for a while...but he's relapsing into numbness. His health has deteriorated this past week."
Gini squinted at the woman. Maybe she wasn't crazy. Maybe her son had been talking to her since he'd re-labeled himself.
"I'm not sure...what you mean..." Gini decided to backtrack.
If the woman was just saying things in random, it would be a bad idea to even hint that her "dead" son was very much alive. Conversation like that was always a no-no with mental patients.
"Gini, may I call you that?"
"Yes ma'am."
"You don't have to be so afraid of me. I know everything, dear. So please, tell me. How is the baby? I think that's why he isn't doing so good."
Ginsui waited before replying.
"Are...you...has Dabi been here?" She whispered as she looked around to make sure no prying ears were near.
"Touya has, yes. That's what I've been trying to tell you."
"H...How?"
"He sneaks in from the window, silly," Rei answered as she tilted her head in concern.
Touya never mentioned Gini being slow. Maybe she wasn't dumb as much as she was worried.
"I'm sorry to leave in the middle of this...talk...but I'm not feeling very well."
"It's okay, I understand. I had the worst morning sickness when I was pregnant with him. I was always so cold too. Which was weird since I don't actually tolerate heat very well and always loved the cold. I bet your little one has a fire quirk then," Rei sighed in disapproval as she pointed to Gini's goosebumps.
"...I'm not...I'm not pregnant," Gini squealed before sprinting to her new room, slamming the door.
She examined the windows and used her extra bed sheets to seal off any possible way of entry. She had NO doubt that if Rei knew this much about her, that Dabi would know where to find her now. She was NOT ready to deal with him—NOT after she had literally just done what she did with Aizawa 24 hours ago.
Gini tossed and turned in intense discomfort that night. She shivered uncontrollably despite the three blankets she had buried herself in. The cold wasn't the only thing keeping her awake though. Much to her dismay, her paranoia wasn't for nothing.
The smell of melting metal alerted her of his presence.
"Oh shit," Dabi coughed as his flames began to burn the sheets Gini had used to seal off the windows.
Ginsui ducked under her bed as he distracted himself with putting out the small fire. Fifteen minutes later, he walked around the room, his feet pausing at the edge of her bed.
She held her breath, but her godforsaken trembling from being too cold gave her away.
"You're acting like a child, you know that?" Dabi stated as he drug her out from underneath her hiding place.
She unintentionally relaxed at his warmth. He smirked as he tucked her back in.
"You know why I'm here," he spoke again as he returned to the edge of her bed so that he could stand menacingly over her.
He was always so blunt, always so to-the-point and had absolutely none of that candy-coating nonsense. Ginsui swallowed as his turquoise eyes glared down at her.
He didn't feel like the same man from their first date. He didn't feel like the same man as the one she spent every night (for three consecutive months!) being intimate with. He didn't even feel like the same man from that night at the forest.
No, this person in front of her felt demented. He felt like Enji Todoroki and her heart sank. She was no longer safe with him.
"Well?" He asked, his eyes lowering towards her stomach.
There was no way that she could ever go back with him. If she told him that the baby was okay, he would take her back then and there. She could NOT do that when his temperament was so vastly different and utterly endangering. For Baby Todoroki's best interests, she told the cruelest lie she could.
"I miscarried," she whispered, refusing to make eye contact.
She had received a shot to suppress her quirk a few hours ago and the effects were starting to kick in. Now, she could no longer read the broken Todoroki's intentions.
She was terrified.
Rei had warned her that Dabi was crumbling during his girlfriend's stay at the hospital. Gini should have taken it more seriously. She shivered as his normally lazy gaze widened before the mental breakdown overcame him.
He climbed onto her bed and pinned her down before she could make a run for it.
"How could you do this? You knew you were pregnant and you still went after Shigaraki's boss. What the hell were you thinking?" His voice was cold and steady despite the furry he held in his eyes.
The staples on his wrists cut into her own skin as he continued to pin her down.
"What was I thinking? You do understand that literally NONE of this would be happening if you hadn't woken me up that night months ago. I wouldn't have lost my fiancé. I wouldn't have missed school that day Shigaraki attacked the USJ. I wouldn't have gone after that psychotic man-child because of that incident and then I wouldn't have ran into you again. Then we wouldn't have made such a reckless mistake!" Gini vented.
Dabi's mouth twitched into a snarl.
"You came to me first. Sorry for caring enough about you that I didn't want to see you get duped by that Pro."
"That's not even...ugh that's not even what I'm trying to get at," Gini sighed.
Dabi pulled himself away from her and chose to sit in the floor beside her instead, taking her right hand with him so that he could fidget with her fingers.
"You just called the precious life I gave you that you lost a mistake, so please tell me what the hell you are trying to get at, Ginsui," Dabi replied.
"The baby wasn't a mistake. I was referring to our rushed relationship. I would have never let us be a thing if I had known that you were going to attack a bunch of kids. They're fifteen- sixteen year olds! They were your age when THAT happened to you. What we made wasn't a mistake but all the events leading up to it were," she whispered as he continued to play with her fingers.
"I can fix this," he blinked as his mind succumbed to a crazed state again.
***WARNING***
He hastily pulled her shorts off before should could react.
"Wait! Wait!" She pleaded with him before he stuffed her shorts into her mouth to shut her up.
He quickly restrained her arms by tying them up above her head so that she couldn't push him away. He wasted little time with removing his own pants before climbing back onto the bed with her. Gini attempted to kick him away so that she could knock some type of sense into him, but he was too steadfast for her sluggish movements. Her quirk was too dull to use, so she was trapped.
Dabi looked down at her smugly as he rested on his knees. He carefully brought her legs up so that her heels rested on his shoulders. His fingers delicately rubbed her shins as his cobalt eyes consumed her.
"You will always be the most beautiful woman I've shared this part of me with. There's no way I could ever settle after you. Ginsui Fukukado, I need you," he spoke in easy seduction.
His voice was of velvet and she hated him for it. She hated how her body longed for him even when her mind begged her to not give in.
"Nod yes so that I can have you, Babygirl, and I promise to be gentle this time," he commanded.
Gini didn't know if it was survival or her deep, unnatural feelings she had for the man but either way, she nodded.
He slowly inserted his throbbing shaft into her all too welcoming slit. Something didn't feel right. She should have been tighter since he hadn't been inside her in over a week.
He froze as he remembered his mother mentioning how Gini's ex had been in charge of his girlfriend's rehabilitation.
Gini's knees began to tremble as she watched the realization dawn on his face. He knew. He fucking knew someone else had invaded his space.
"Doll face, you didn't..." he frowned in disgust before pulling out, putting his pants back on, and stomping around the room. His hands pulled at his black hair as he paced around and around.
His mannerisms reminded her of his teenaged self. She should have warned him. Oh wait, she tried and he shoved her goddamned clothes in her mouth.
"Touya, maybe it's time for you to go," she whispered after she managed to tongue the clothing free from her mouth.
***ADDITIONAL WARNING: BRANDING ***
She instantly regretted speaking. The man was back on top of her and the gag was reinstated. He ripped her top off and violently held her legs down with his knees.
"I told you, Ginsui. My. Name. Is. Dabi," he sneered.
He lit his left index finger and held it over the center of her chest and began to burn the kanji form of his name into her flesh.
She screamed in agony, but her cries were hushed by the gag. Tears fell freely as the damage of her stupidity became permanently sketched over her heart.
***SAFE***
"I bet he won't fuck with you now," Dabi snickered.
He undid her binding and rubbed his thumb across her face to wipe away the tears. Suddenly, he became aware of his crazed behavior and jerked away from the woman he so passionately cared for.
"Oh my God, Ginsui. I don't...I don't fucking know...what I did," panic finding a place in his voice.
Reality set in for him. He had messed up plenty of times before, but nothing compared to this. What the actual fuck was wrong with him? He wasn't Toga or Jin or anywhere close to the deranged state of mind Tomura was in, so what happened?
Ginsui shook like a leaf in the wind. She wanted to hate him. She wanted to scream at him. She wanted to punch, kick, and hurt him as badly as he had hurt her; yet, that hate couldn't compete with her empathy.
The young man had suffered so much. It was only a matter of time before he slipped. She needed to hold herself accountable for what happened tonight. She willingly allowed him to be a part of her even knowing how unwell the man was. She was reaping what she had sown and she needed to help him.
"It's okay, Dabi," she cooed as she searched for a balm to soothe their physical wounds.
She stopped thinking about her own discomfort as she assessed her intruder while his head was buried in his arms. His scarring appeared to have been neglected from his usual self-care routine. The flesh around the staples looked inflamed and the man looked as if he had lost another five pounds.
She gently catered to him until her quirk kicked back in. She was able to bring him back to a solid state mentally and he appeared to be his old, apathetic and sarcastic self before she moved on to his next issue: food. She snuck them down to the cafeteria area and fed the ridiculously starving man.
Once she felt that he was stable, she coaxed him into leaving her.
"I don't have complete control of my quirk yet, so I can't heal you as much as you need. You'll have to leave me alone for a while. I'll come to you when I'm ready, okay?"
"You promise, Ginibaby?"
"Of course," she lied as she hugged the man goodnight and goodbye.
"I'm sorry about the baby. I should have protected you," Dabi replied as he climbed out of the window.
"Everything's going to be fine. And please start tending to your wounds again," she replied.
He gave her a half smirk and with that, Dabi was gone and none the wiser that his little love was still growing in her womb and that she was a terrible liar.
A/N: Please Review if you get the chance! I have 2 endings in mind and it depends on if the readers are here for Aizawa or if they're here for Dabi. (Kai plays a huge part later on too btw)
